A Stuffed Cheonma in my Head - Chapter 132



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Episode 132. Tina

“Gasp… gasp… … .”

I ran down the dark night road.

Something was chasing me.

Woozikkun!

I heard something breaking behind me.

I ran without even a moment to catch my breath, and when I glanced back, I saw the trees had fallen like corpses.

Among those corpses.

I saw something huge and unidentifiable chasing me.

It was much taller than the trees, towering over them as it trampled them down.

In the midst of all the darkness, its faint shape was glimpsed.

It was a red giant that looked like it was covered in blood.

No, it was a monster that looked like a giant.

Maybe it was because it was dark. The shape wasn’t clear.

Everything was blurry.

The head was not clearly visible as it was sunk into the deep darkness of the high place.

Still, I could tell that his gaze was fixed on me.

Although I couldn’t see their eyes, I felt like our eyes had met.

It looked like the guy was laughing.

Creepy!

I got goosebumps.

“Ugh… gasp… … .”

I ran, looking at the road ahead.

Something hot flowed down from my forehead and obscured my eyes.

It was blood.

He quickly snatched it away with the back of his hand and ran down the night road.

Shh …

The forest swayed eerily like dark waves rolling in.

Where on earth am I? Where am I running to?

I don’t know when or where I got hurt, but I was covered in blood.

I guess I must have gotten hit a few times by that monster.

I don’t remember.

My head is blurry.

… … How did I end up being chased by such a monster?

————!

The red giant laughed with a strange sound.

It sounded like a wounded animal howling, or someone sobbing.

When I just heard the sound, it sounded like she was crying, but it actually felt like she was laughing, which was strange.

————!

The bastard chased after me, making indescribable, grotesque noises.

I wandered through the night shouting someone’s name.

I don’t know whose name it is. They just scream out loud. Like screaming.

“Huk… Ugh… … .”

There were no stars or moon in the sky. Nothing was floating.

Dark darkness.

It seemed as if a faint light was shining from somewhere, but I couldn’t tell where it was coming from.

Even that was so dim that it couldn’t illuminate the darkness.

I was just running, barely able to see what was in front of me with my eyes that had adapted to the darkness.

Of course, I couldn’t see very well, so I fell and rolled around often.

The bloody thing might be because he fell and rolled around.

This time I tripped on a tree root and fell over with a crash.

“Huh!”

My knees were abraded, my feet and forearms were abraded, but I didn’t have time to savor the pain.

I got up right away and ran.

Hmph!

A huge fist flew in and hit the spot where I had fallen.

bang!

If I hadn’t gotten up and run right away, I would have been crushed there.

The guy laughed as if he was happy.

It was a creepy, scraping laugh.

I continued to run through the night, avoiding the monsters that were chasing me.

A voice was heard from somewhere.

[Where are you running to? It’s not that way.]

The voice kept talking to me while I was being chased.

[Turn around and face him. That’s the only way.]

But I ignored the voice and ran because it was spouting nonsense telling me to fight the red giant.

Perhaps these wounds were inflicted after hearing that voice and confronting the guy.

The voice got angry at me.

[This pathetic guy. Are you going to run away in the end? Have you thrown away your determination to fight to the end? Are you saying that your determination back then was an illusion?]

“Gasp… gasp… … .”

[You idiot. Do you know where you are running to? You are running straight towards the demon you were so wary of. How can you run towards the demon like fire?]

“Ugh… gasp… … .”

[Wake up. The light is streaming from behind. It’s already so dim that you can barely see it. Stop now. I mean stop!]

“Huk… Ugh… … .”

[Wherever you run, there is only darkness. The more you run towards darkness, the farther away you are from light. Are you trying to get into a trance?]

“Gasp… gasp… … .”

[This is an area I cannot intervene in. You must do it. You must go to the light. So stop running and face me, you coward.]

“Huk… Ugh… … .”

[If I was going to get eaten by a demon like you, I wouldn’t have taught you martial arts. Is this all you were worth in the end?]

“Ugh… gasp… … .”

[… … The darkness is deepening. The line is not far away.]

“Gasp… gasp… … .”

[Once you cross the line, you’ll never come back. Are you listening?]

“Huk… Ugh… … .”

[Don’t avoid it, face it. Every heart you summoned. You must tear it apart with your own hands.]

“Gasp… gasp… … .”

[Turn around. And fight back as you always have.]

The voice kept urging me to stop and fight that distant monster.

I wandered the streets at night, constantly shouting out someone’s name.

“Tina… … !”

scared.

Why are you doing this to me?

Have I done something so wrong that I deserve this punishment?

I just want to live.

I just don’t want to die.

I’m scared. I’m scared. It hurts. It’s hard. It’s cold. Stop bothering me.

[No time… … .]

Then, eventually, I couldn’t even hear the mysterious voice that had been angry at me.

[… … .]

The darkness deepened.

Now I really couldn’t see ahead.

A pitch-black darkness covered my eyes like a curtain.

I was scared.

————!

But I was even more scared of the monster chasing me from behind, making indescribable, grotesque noises, so I ran towards the darkness with my eyes tightly shut.

So I went deeper and deeper into the darkness.

The more I did that, the smaller I felt.

But… I couldn’t stop.

The moment I was running so frantically.

puck!

“ouch!”

I bumped into someone and rolled around.

“Ugh!”

I collapsed uncomfortably on the rough floor.

I had trouble breathing, probably because I hit my stomach when I fell.

As I was lying there groaning, I heard the sound of someone who had bumped into me getting up.

“Oh my… It hurts.”

Then he came to me.

“Hey, are you okay? Does it hurt a lot?”

I nodded while falling down.

“it hurts…….”

When I said I was sick, tears welled up in my eyes without me knowing.

Why is it so hard to be honest about what hurts?

As soon as I blurted out my true feelings, tears welled up in my eyes.

She said.

“Does it hurt a lot?”

“It hurts so much… … .”

“It’s okay. You can get up. Come on, take my hand.”

Only then did I open my eyes, which had been tightly shut.

A girl was bending over me and holding out her hand.

The darkness had already receded into the distance, and a warm light surrounded her.

“… … .”

I stared at her blankly.

Because it’s a familiar face somehow.

The girl said.

“Why are you looking at me like that? Am I that pretty?”

“… … ?”

“You have eyes to see? Come on, get up. What’s the big deal about falling down? Just get up again.”

I took her hand.

… … It was warm.

“Ugh… …! Get up!”

I got up from my seat, drawn by her strong pull on me.

She patted my clothes.

“Where have you been fighting? Why do you have so many wounds?”

“… … .”

I examined my arms and legs at her words.

Before I knew it, I had become a little kid with short arms and legs.

The bloody limbs were also slightly swollen and bleeding here and there, as if they had been hit by someone.

Oh my— I looked around as I watched her sighing and patting my clothes.

The place I was in looked like some back alley.

Where is this place? Just a moment ago, it was a deserted forest path.

Somehow, that scenery seemed familiar.

She finished brushing my hair, then looked at me blankly and suddenly held out her hand.

“I’m Tina. What about you?”

I hesitated for a moment and then took her hand.

“I am… Ashvan.”

She smiled brightly.

She was an impressive girl with pure white hair like snow and transparent sky blue eyes.

Could I become the princess of the snow country?

“Nice to meet you, Ashvan.”

“……huh.”

“What were you doing, running so absentmindedly without looking ahead?”

“Uh… I was being chased by a monster.”

“monster?”

She tilted her head.

“Where? I can’t see it.”

As he said, the red giant that had been chasing me so terribly disappeared without a trace.

“……I know.”

I stared blankly at the white girl wandering around.

An unknown emotion surged through my chest.

I miss you, I feel sad, I feel happy, I feel sad, I feel sorry, and it feels endlessly distant… … .

My heart was burning with mixed emotions.

“… … .”

A soft light was flowing from her.

It’s like warm moonlight.

Just looking at it makes me feel infinitely at ease.

The light calmed my troubled mind like a calm sea.

It was cozy. I wanted to fall asleep like this.

She stopped looking around and looked at me. Our eyes met.

“What are you looking at?”

“… … ?”

“Is this your first time seeing a pretty girl?”

“… … .”

Pick I burst out laughing.

“Oh, I laughed.”

I couldn’t help but smile when I saw her smiling.

What is this overwhelming feeling of longing?

She asked me.

“Did you call me?”

“huh?”

“Who was calling my name so desperately?”

“ah.”

It was only then that I realized that the person whose name I had been desperately calling out was the white girl in front of me.

He nodded.

“That’s right. I called.”

Tina asked, rocking back and forth with her hands on her hips.

“Why did you call?”

“I think I called because I was scared.”

Tina tilted her head to one side and looked into my face.

“What were you scared of?”

“Monster… this.”

“okay?”

She smiled and held out her hand to me.

“Let’s go. It’s too dark here.”

I looked at Tina’s hand.

Her hands were as white as her hair.

“where?”

“To the bright place.”

I hesitated.

“But… there’s a monster.”

“It’s okay if you’re with me.”

“really?”

“Then. Do you trust me?”

Although he seemed reckless, his eyes were strangely mature.

Looking into her eyes, it was like looking up into a cloudless blue sky.

Those eyes were so deep and clear that I couldn’t help but nod.

I said, looking into her blue eyes that resembled the sky.

“… … Believe me.”

I took her hand.

Tina smiled once and led me to the place I had run from.

I was worried that a monster might appear, but fortunately, just as she said, no monster appeared.

We walked down the dark night road holding each other’s hands.

“Are you lost?”

“huh…….”

“It’s okay. I’ll take you there.”

I followed Tina down the dark night road.

It was a dark and eerie forest where I couldn’t see anything, but it felt cozy as I walked with her.

The soft chirping of insects could be heard from all directions, and occasionally an owl could be heard hooting.

Fireflies were also flying in swarms.

As I walked, the darkness gradually receded.

I looked up at the sky, which was full of stars and a crescent moon was quietly smiling.

I suddenly looked at the white girl walking next to me.

I felt like this moment could last forever.

How long did it take to walk like that?

Tina looked at me with her blue eyes filled with the sky.

“Ashvan.”

“huh?”

“You are a strong person.”

“suddenly?”

“Be quiet and listen.”

“Yeah.”

“No matter what happens in your life, you can overcome it.”

“… … .”

“Every adversity you experience is a test that helps you grow.”

“… … .”

“I always said, life is worth living.”

“… … .”

“Even though you always act rough and cold on the outside, I know better than anyone that you have a warm heart inside that cares for others.”

“… … .”

“So just like now. Just like now, just get through it. You’re doing well. You’re doing really well.”

“… … .”

“Why are you crying? Don’t cry.”

“Yeah.”

It was still night, but the surroundings had become much brighter than before.

It must be because of the light faintly shining behind that monster.

————!

The red giant stood blocking the path of light and howled.

The bastard’s screams were much more ferocious than before.

But I wasn’t as scared as before.

Tina smiled brightly.

“Okay, this is as far as I can take you. Can you go smoothly from here?”

“……huh.”

Tina looked at me crying with her characteristically foolish yet mature eyes and asked,

“Do you have anything to say?”

I managed to speak, swallowing my tears.

“……Sorry.”

She smiled sadly.

“Don’t be sorry. It wasn’t your fault.”

Tina let go of his hand.

“ah.”

I struggled to grab her hand again, but stopped when I saw her smile.

“Ashvan.”

“……huh.”

“I’m always here. Whenever you feel tired and worn out, come see me.”

Tina laughed playfully.

“Don’t come too often.”

“……okay.”

“Don’t cry. Be strong. You know?”

“I know. I’m not a kid anymore.”

Tina smiled and waved.

“hi.”

“……hi.”

She said goodbye like that and walked into the dark forest.

————!

Whether the monster howled or not, I continued to watch her until her back was out of sight.

I roughly wiped away the tears running down my cheeks and then took a deep breath.

“Phew… … .”

I came to my senses by slapping both cheeks.

I don’t cry anymore.

My tear ducts have been dry for a long time.

The back alley kid who used to squeal is no more.

————!

When I turned towards the red giant, I was an adult again.

An adult covered in wounds from countless scratches and breaks from the harsh world.

So, an adult who has become rough enough to not be defeated by that rough world.

Sarak-

I walked towards the red giant blocking my path, holding the blossoming moonlight sword in my hand.

With a ferocious smile.

“Come on, you little brat.”