About the fact that I unintentionally raised my sister to be a cripple - Chapter 158 Jiuliuli prays that one day she can officially reconcile with her brother

“Jiu Liuli?”

Tianhai Jiuliuli didn’t respond to him. She just hugged her legs and huddled sadly behind the flower bed.

Just looking at her like this, Sakakibara felt indescribable emotions well up in his heart.

This look is very familiar to Sakakihara Raku, and it can even be said that he has seen it many times.

In the past, A Ling, who ran away from home and hid under a bridge and got wet from the rain when she was a child, always looked like this, alone, with no one approaching and no one caring.

dislike? Hate? Bored?

These emotions may be present

But as a person, as someone who has been taken care of by Liuli, who has seen her smile at him, and then sees her now devastated look.

Still couldn’t help but come up and ask.

Sakakihara tried to get closer to her and squatted down next to her.

The two didn’t speak for a long time.

Sakakihara was so bored that he pulled a green leaf from the flower bed next to him, pinched the green leaf back and forth in his hands until it was completely shapeless, and then asked:

“Did you hear the entire conversation between my aunt and I just now?”

Tianhai Jiuliuli didn’t look at him, but nodded slightly, but after that, he buried his face deeper.

Compared with the intimacy in the past.

Now the two of them are more like strangers.

Sakakibara couldn’t help but look at Amami Kuruuri, who was holding her legs and squatting with her face buried in her arms. It was hard to imagine that Jiuliuli, who had always been tall, bright, gentle and elegant, would show such a fragile look now.

Sakakihara Raku couldn’t tell how he felt towards her now.

“Jiu Liuli, you don’t need to take what my aunt said just now to heart.”

“Brother, it goes without saying that I know everything. I’ve known it for a long time. Qi Mingyue also hinted to me many times a long time ago.” Tianhai Jiuliuli’s voice became softer and softer as he spoke, and the more he spoke, the more choked up he became.

Jiuliuli already knew?

Have you known for a long time how your mother views you?

But even if she knew it, it would still be hurt if her mother told her about it.

“Since you know all about Jiuliuli, why do you still do this?”

“Brother, I think it’s funny. You know clearly that your mother doesn’t treat you like a daughter, but you still are like this.” When Tianhai Jiuliuli said this, his eyes began to turn red, “I don’t know why. I. I I always go back and think about the way my mother took me out to play when I was little.”

Sakakihara looked at her sitting on the lawn like this, looking at her flaxen hair, and felt that she was a helpless little girl now.

Jiuliuli was patiently trying not to let her tears flow out of her eyes.

She collected her emotions and continued to bury her face and said:

“It makes no sense to do this, and I won’t get the care I really want. But I still want to do it and respond to my mother’s expectations, even though my mother doesn’t regard me as her daughter at all.

“Brother, am I stupid?”

“It’s silly”

“But, if I don’t do it, I really don’t know what I should do. It seems that no one needs me, except my mother. I always seem to be the redundant one.”

Bertha was right about one thing. Jiuliuli’s tenderness came from her need for a sense of security from others, so that she could feel that she was needed by everyone.

The lack of security is somewhat similar to the cause of A Ling.

Her father left, causing A Ling to feel insecure for a long time.

Her mother left, causing Jiuliuli to feel insecure for a long time.

The difference is that Ah Ling can still rely on herself.

Jiuliuli, as a sister, she must also show her identity as a sister.

Uncle Tianhai is not good at expressing love, nor is he good at guiding children to grow up, and he is busy with work.

Under the circumstances at that time, Jiu Liuli only had the piano practice left by her mother as her future goal.

There is only one goal.

While she has to take care of her sister, she has to be strong and continue practicing the piano.

But the fact is that my mother only cares about the piano.

It’s not her daughter.

“Brother, am I useless? I am hated by everyone, even my own mother.”

Sakakibara sat next to her and sighed: “No, Jiu Liuli is so gentle and treats everyone well.”

“But, everyone doesn’t like me.”

“You don’t need others to like you to be a good person. Just be yourself. As long as Jiuliuli is yourself, then others will definitely like you.”

Sakakihara Raku also understood why he felt that Jiu Liuli was light and airy before.

In fact, what she has always been like is not her true self.

She, like myself, is a person who needs to be cared for.

Most of her gentleness and grandeur are to hide the weakness in her heart.

She actually longs to be loved and recognized.

There is nothing, even the identity of the remaining daughter has to be denied by the mother, she is just a little pitiful person.

Sakakihara sat next to her and couldn’t even bear to look at her beautiful face.

Jiuriuri probably knew that there was still a gap between him and Sakakibara Raku. She suppressed her emotions and did not burst out at him, but just endured it silently.

She felt uncomfortable, and Sakakihara Raku also felt uncomfortable.

Even though he has not completely reconciled with her, as her brother, Sakakihara Raku still can’t bear to see this scene. He gently stretched out his hand and gently held her delicate shoulders, letting her lean against him.

“elder brother.”

“Let’s talk about it first. I haven’t forgiven you yet. But as an elder brother, I really can’t bear to see you like this, so I will lend you a temporary support.”

Sakakibara didn’t know whether it was his words that had an effect, or his holding her shoulders. Jiu Liuli followed his actions and leaned on his shoulder, and Sakakihara Rakuya immediately heard a choking sound from his side.

Sakakihara didn’t look at her, just looked up at the blue sky.

But even though he didn’t look at her, he could still imagine how weak and helpless Jiu Liuli looked at this time.

Not required.

Even my mother, whom I had always liked, only used herself as a tool to be used.

Jiuliuli was in such a mood right now.

Gradually, Jiuliuli seemed to have thought of some sad things before, and the sobs in her ears became heavier. Her little hands began to pull on the clothes on her shoulders, pulling hard, as if she was looking for so-called support in the struggle. generally.

But even so, she was still patient, trying not to let her feelings explode.

The support that I have been unable to find for more than ten years, and the role of sister that I have been trying to play for more than ten years.

Sakakihara sighed, took the initiative to put his arms around her slender shoulders, and buried her face in his arms.

This was obviously very effective. The moment Tianhai Jiuliuli was held in his arms, she couldn’t help but cry against him, pulling on his clothes at the collar and sobbing softly.

“I’m really, really, really, really sorry.”

Listening to her choked sobs, Sakakibara now no longer meant to blame her, and gently patted her delicate back with his hand, so that she could relax more and express her suppressed emotions better.

Jiu Liuli kept saying that he was of no use. In fact, Sakakihara Raku also thought so.

Apart from being able to cook and run, there’s nothing that girls like about me, right?

From this point of view, he and Jiuliuli are in the same boat.

Thinking of this, Sakakihara Raku felt that Jiu Liuli’s body had become smaller and softer in his arms.

Smelling the fragrance on her body, hearing the sadness in her voice, and feeling the touch of her grabbing his collar, Sakakihara raised his arm to cover her face, trying to help her cover as much of her weak side as possible.

It’s really strange. He obviously hasn’t forgiven her yet.

But why. Sakakibara figured it out when his fingers touched Jiu Liuli’s hair that was spread behind her, and she stroked her back that was shaking from sobbing.

In A Ling’s words, she is a central air conditioner.

He is the most unpleasant kind of guy.

Jiuliuli’s choking sounds became smaller and smaller in her arms, and her strength to grab her clothes became much less strong.

“Do you feel better?”

Feeling that Jiuruli wanted to raise her head, Sakakibara let go of the arm around her back.

“sorry”

“.Okay, don’t say you’re sorry.”

Tianhai Jiuliuli lowered his head, the corners of his eyes were red, but his condition seemed to be much better, and he smiled bitterly: “Obviously I have done something sorry for my brother, but now I have to rely on him to vent my emotions. Isn’t it strange?”

Her voice was weak, with a bit of self-deprecation in it.

“People always want to grab something when they are mentally weak, I think.”

Sakakibara paused, “As a brother, it really doesn’t matter if I give you a hug. It’s just like A Suzu wants me to comfort her when she cries. This is consistent.”

“Um”

Tianhai Jiuliuli nodded slightly, wanting to say many things, but in the end he just said softly, “Thank you, brother.”

“Don’t say thank you, I’m just lending you a shoulder.”

Sakakibara smiled, changed to a more comfortable sitting position, and sat on the grass next to the same flower bed with her, “Kuriuri, why do you think you practice piano?”

“Just…for mother’s request.”

“I don’t think it’s right. If you were just doing it for your mother’s request, then why did you still smile when you received flowers from everyone on the day of the concert?”

“this.”

“I think this is the recognition that Jiuliuli has earned through your own efforts. It is something that belongs to you. Don’t worry about what Auntie said about you having nothing.”

Sakakihara noticed that her little hand was shrinking inward intentionally or unintentionally, so he took the initiative to go up and squeeze half of her hand.

Tianhai Jiuliuli also raised his face and looked at him.

Sakakibara looked at her angelic face seriously and said:

“Actually, Jiuliuli should regard himself as more important. He can care about everyone and be gentle to everyone, but he should not regard this as the meaning of his existence. The meaning of his existence should be more self-centered and independent. Jiuliuli usually That’s it, I’m confident, majestic and gentle no matter where I am.”

“That… is just an appearance.”

“Don’t worry about whether it’s an appearance. Since you can do it, Jiuliuli, it means it’s not completely false. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with loving others because you want to be loved, and being gentle to others because you want to be gentle.

“The reason is because I am like this too and of course there are results. Isn’t it just A Ling? Now she has become a tsundere brother. Haha.”

Amid the relaxed laughter, the small hand of Jiuliuli held in his hand seemed to tighten a little under his words.

She listened to herself very carefully.

Sakakibara knew that she was being patient and listening attentively. He laughed at the girl in front of him who was crying uncontrollably: “I am also very childish. I just figured it out. I am obviously the most shameful person because I feel uncomfortable, but I still want to When I said those words to you and saw the text message you sent me, I acted like a child and pretended not to see it.”

“Brother, that’s my fault”

“I’m not talking about the right or wrong of the matter, but that I was too naive in the face of your apology. It doesn’t make much sense to say this. By the way, aren’t you and Qi Mingyue having birthdays in two days? Sixteen years old is considered half an adult. Although I am still angry with you, I am also preparing gifts for you.”

Tianhai Jiuliuli looked very embarrassed under his relaxed and gentle words.

On the one hand, it was because he still felt guilty about him, but he still said these comforting words to himself.

On the other hand, she didn’t know why, but when she heard him say this to her when the two of them were alone, she felt very shy. Maybe it was a little girl’s mentality?

She wanted to say something, but she hesitated, the words stuck in her throat, and she didn’t know what to say.

My head was spinning for a long time, but in the end I could only say another apology because he was good to me.

“I’ve already said it, there’s no need to talk about apologizing now.”

“Brother, you don’t think I’m stupid, do you?”

“You’re a bit silly,” Sakakibara said with a smile, “But you are definitely smart at ordinary times. Otherwise, why wouldn’t I have passed you in the two semesters? In addition, Kururi is very cute like this. At least, I like it very much.” “

Tianhai Jiuliuli, who was praised, was even more at a loss under his words. He wanted to shrink his hand, but found that his hand was half held by him, and he did not dare to shrink back. He could only sit there in a panic. land.

Sakakibara noticed something strange about her, and realized that his words of comfort actually went so far as to praise her for her cuteness.

Doesn’t this mean that he likes her?

You must know that the two of them have not completely reconciled yet, so it is more or less strange + embarrassing to say these words.

Sakakihara subconsciously glanced at the time and found that there were still ten minutes until get out of class ended.

“Why don’t we spend the rest of the time talking about Jiuliuli, what kind of gift do you like? Qi Mingyue, I’ve thought about it, but to be honest, I haven’t carefully understood what Jiuliuli likes.”

“.What do you like? I, I don’t know either.”

Amami Kuruuri’s simple “I don’t know” touched Sakakihara Raku’s heart for a while.

Because this proves that what Bertha said is generally correct.

Jiuliuli is a person who doesn’t even know his own needs.

No wonder you asked Qi Mingyue, Qi Mingyue never said anything.

The fundamental reason is that Jiuliuli himself doesn’t know.

“Well, how about I take you out on your birthday?”

“Want to go shopping?”

“Yeah, just think of it as a normal holiday to relax. It’s your birthday anyway. You have the final say on everything else. As an elder brother, I will still fulfill your little wish. Wait, why are you Are your eyes red again?”

“It’s nothing. I just feel that my brother is very good at carefully choosing gifts for his birthday.”

“If you think I’m good, then be happy and smile.”

Under his encouragement, Tianhai Jiuliuli’s eyes turned red and he showed a smile that didn’t quite look like a smile.

Sakakibara made fun of her expression at this time, and Jiu Liuli really put away that strange smile in her shallow smile.

Jiuliuli felt that what her brother said to her was very relaxed, with a happy mood. It was clear that she was still sorry for him, and it was clear that she had hurt his feelings. But he still smiled and talked to her about these things.

When Jiuliuli remembered the past, she became nervous again. She wanted to see her brother’s current expression, but found it difficult to raise her eyes.

Whenever she was about to lift up, she would quietly lower down again, always trying to dodge. Thinking that she was too embarrassed to look at him, she could only bury her gaze downwards and only stare at his hand on the grass beside her.

Sakakihara was happy to see that Jiu Liuli had not spoken. He thought she wanted to be quiet, so he stayed aside without saying a word, holding the grass with his hands and looking at the blue sky.

But he quickly looked away because he felt a small hand holding him.

Before he could ask, “Brother.” came to his ears.

Turning his head again, Tianhai Jiuliuli moved his position towards him and stared at him for a long time.

A novice in relationships would never understand the meaning of the girl’s gaze.

But Sakakihara has seen a lot, so he can understand.

She is looking for dependence.

——This is the look A Ling gives when she wants to act coquettishly but is embarrassed to say so.

Compared to A Ling, Jiu Liuli’s eyes were softer and more sincere.

Everyone has sad moments.

And Jiuliuli must not have completely gotten over those sad words just now.

Sakakihara felt that at least, today, she should let go of something and take the initiative to welcome her helplessness and weakness.

Sakakibara smiled and said, “Would you like to lean on me for a while or hold me for a while?”

If you ask this question to A Ling, she will definitely say when she is arrogant, “Who likes to hug you, but since it is your wish, then… just give it a hug.”

When it came to Jiuliuli, she just nodded in extreme shyness, indicating that it was the latter. After receiving permission, she took the initiative to move her legs and lean in.

Sakakibara watched her slowly move toward him, put her hands around his neck, and hugged him.

The skin on her hands was very delicate, and the scent of a girl filled the air the moment she came over.

I don’t know if it was because she cried just now, but Sakakibara felt that when she hugged him, she relaxed her body and even her breathing became smooth and comfortable.

She buried half of her face under her shoulders and closed her eyes heavily while breathing.

It seems that the whole person is relying on himself.

Her body was very warm, and Raku Sakakihara could feel the warmth from her body even through her school uniform.

Sakakibara didn’t want to ruin the relaxing snuggle she wanted to have on him at this time, but in terms of the result, it was completely different from when Suzu hugged him.

When hugging herself, Jiuliuli’s entire body was soft.

“elder brother.”

“Um?”

“I like my brother. I didn’t lie to you about this, because my brother really likes me. I am such a miserable person myself.”

“No way. So you said you would work hard to pursue me after that?”

“Um”

“But don’t talk about this kind of thing now. Besides, I also have something to say to you.”

“Brother said”

“Please don’t hate yourself. At least, I don’t think everything about you, Jiuliuli, is fake.”

“Hmm. Well. Thank you, thank you brother,” Tianhai Jiuliuli was quiet in his arms for a while, “I know that I have no qualifications to ask for anything from my brother, but I still have a request that I want to make to my brother. Please listen to me. Okay?”

Sakakihara listened to her voice, which was so small that it was almost inaudible, and immediately felt the girl in his arms getting closer. The fragrance of her body and the petiteness of her body seemed to hit his chest.

“Well, tell me what the request is.”

“As long as you hold me for a little longer, it’ll be fine.”