About the fact that I unintentionally raised my sister to be a cripple - Chapter 170 Forgiving others is also forgiving yourself

Forget.

Sakakibara got up at six o’clock in the morning. After glancing at the clock on the desk beside his bed, he spread his hands and lay on his familiar big bed.

He stared at the ceiling, wondering what oblivion meant.

True forgetfulness means that you can’t remember anything at all, right?

It’s probably like being suddenly reminded of something you said three months ago, only to find that your mind goes blank.

After all, I can’t even remember what I was doing three months ago.

But why, obviously he has forgotten it, when Raku Sakakibara saw the scene of Nanami holding a shark in the sky last night, he still had a faint touch in his heart – a little worried, with a blank mind and a frown. They all huddled together.

“it’s wired.”

In this state, Sakakibara stood up with his head in his hands. He opened the window and looked at the area near the bay and took a breath of air.

“call–“

Then spit it out.

The Asakusa Line runs on the elevated train near Tokyo Bay. If you look closely, you can see a man in a suit holding a hanging ring on the train from here. He looked tired and looked like he hadn’t woken up.

Do you have to run to the company early in the morning to go to work?

Or is it that he spent the night at the company and is now going home?

He looked tired, as if he was very tired.

I don’t seem to have any motivation to go home.

Sakakibara put his hands on the edge of the bed, holding his face, and couldn’t help but think of the family situation of the uncle in the Asakusa Line.

Is anyone waiting for him to come home?

Is anyone expecting him to come home?

If there is no one at home waiting for them to return, can that place still be called home?

Or simply a place to sleep.

“Wait?”

The Asakusa Line tram was far away, and the uncle also disappeared. Sakakibara put a hand on his face and thought of himself and Suzu.

In the past, after he participated in club activities, he would go home on time, or wanted to go home.

I would also go out of my way to see if I had received any messages on my phone.

Classmates would often ask him why he had to go back so early, and he would always answer that he had a younger sister waiting for him at home.

The moment she came home from shopping in the supermarket, she ran out barefoot and asked herself if he had bought anything delicious for her today.

Answer “yes” or “no.”

She would express herself in front of her, whether she was happy or unhappy, sulking and saying things like “Brother, you forgot again!”

Just by looking at her in front of her, she reacts to her actions and words.

It felt like I had encountered the warmth of home.

“What a mouthy idiot.” Sakakihara thought of the scene he had often seen before and laughed inadvertently, and the sullen feeling in his heart that he couldn’t figure out also disappeared.

He crossed his fingers and gave an upward thrust.

“Well -” Raku Sakakihara shook his shoulders, looked up at the coast again and said, “Forget it, let’s talk about it later, go for a morning jog and relax.”

I don’t know if Jiuliuli is awake or not. Should I call her up?

Thinking about this, when he came to the living room, Sakakibara took a cup and went to the open kitchen counter to get a glass of water. When he turned his head, he saw Amami Kuriuri standing on the balcony, preparing to take back his white shirt.

“elder brother.”

Amami Kuruuri also noticed herself. She looked panicked, like a little girl whose secret had been discovered, and hid Sakakihara Raku’s white shirt behind her back.

Tianhai Jiuliuli was still wearing the lace girl’s pajama dress she wore when sleeping at night. Her white and petite shoulders were only tied with two white suspenders. Her flaxen hair was entangled, with a few clusters hanging in front of her.

On her delicate wrist, she was also tied with the bracelet he had given her as a birthday gift.

“Ku-Ku Liuli?” Sakakihara held the water glass and was stunned for a moment. He didn’t expect that Jiu Liuli would steal his clothes hanging on the balcony, “You——”

“No!” Amami Kuruuri realized that Sakakibara had misunderstood him, and quickly explained, “I just saw that my brother’s clothes have been dried, and I wanted to take them off and iron the wrinkles on his shirt.”

“I-that’s it,” Sakakibara responded and nodded, “It turns out to be ironing.”

“I feel that I have received a lot of care from my brother recently, but I don’t know how to repay it, so…”

“I see.”

A wave of silence ensued between the two.

How should I put it, this situation is still very embarrassing.

Although Tianhai Jiuliuli did have good intentions, he was also bumped into the scene of getting clothes.

“Actually, you don’t have to do these troublesome things at all. It doesn’t matter if you go and rest. I can just iron the clothes myself.”

“Brother, do you think it’s a bit redundant for me to do this?” Tianhai Jiuliuli put his hands behind his back and raised his face.

“No, no, I haven’t thought about it that way.” Sakakihara noticed that there was a gentle light in her eyes, and she was staring at him silently, “I just don’t think you need to bother to do such a thing, I can just do it myself.”

“But for me, I don’t seem to have anything that my brother needs. During this time, my brother has been taking care of me, and taking care of Qi Mingyue and Suzu-chan. My brother seems to be always giving, always like this.”

So that’s it.

Amami Kuruuri is actually very insecure. This was already understood the day Sakakibara held her and let her cry in his arms.

I gave her some affirmation, some care, and some places where she could relax and cry.

She began to want to get closer to herself.

Sakakibara understands that if there is a person in the world who can support and encourage him unconditionally, and can get warmth and comfort from him, he will want to be close to him no matter what.

The same was true for Sakakihara Raku at the beginning. His family situation suddenly improved and he lost the direction of his efforts.

When she felt that it might not make any difference whether or not she was in the family, Jiuliuli gave her the affirmation. She told herself that her brother was a very important person. He cooked for everyone every day and tidied the housework for everyone. He was also gentle. He works hard. No matter where you look, he is a very good brother.

Sakakihara Raku still remembers the beautiful appearance of Jiuri standing on the balcony, smiling at herself in the night wind.

——Thinking about this now, Sakakibara Raku will realize that he was too impulsive before and said cruelly to Kuruuri Ichitō.

You know, Jiuliuli’s strength itself is just a disguise.

She has been used by her mother since she was a child, and has never had a fulcrum. She has always been trying to be gentle by herself.

Those words “Don’t pester me anymore, it’s very annoying”, combined with Jiuliuli’s behavior of still making lunch for herself after hearing it.

Sakakibara felt guilty and also felt particularly distressed.

Because she has been in need of someone who can support her since she was a child.

“elder brother?”

“Ah, it’s nothing. I just thought of something. In addition, I don’t think you have any unnecessary performance in doing this. On the contrary, it is a very happy concern. It means that you care about me, doesn’t it? “

Tianhai Jiureli heard every word of Sakakibara Raku’s smiling words clearly.

The girl pursed her lips, lowered her eyes slightly, and placed the white shirt in her hands in front of her.

She felt herself becoming a little embarrassed for no reason. She wanted to look at his face, but for some reason, she was too embarrassed to look at him. His words seemed to give an indescribable power to the heart. This power was warm and comfortable, making people’s hearts throb.

“Then can I help my brother tidy up this dress a little bit?”

Sakakibara simply didn’t want to trouble her.

But ironing her clothes might make her feel better?

Thinking about it this way, it seems that I have no reason to refuse.

“Okay, I’ll leave it to you then. It’s just a trivial matter. Jiuliuli doesn’t need to worry about it so much.”

“Well, I understand, thank you brother.”

“I’m going to prepare breakfast first. I’m going to wear this dress to school today.”

“No problem.” Tianhai Jiuliuli picked up the clothes and nodded.

She watched Tianhai Jiuliuli take her white shirt and enter her bedroom.

Sakakibara looked back at the clock in the living room and realized that half an hour of running out at this time was not enough time.

“Forget it, let’s start making breakfast.”

Sakakibara waved his arm and went to the refrigerator to check the ingredients.

The bread is gone.

The eggs are gone.

The milk is gone too.

Just some lettuce and bacon.

“Forget it, let’s cook some noodles today.”

After collecting the water, Sakakihara placed the noodle pot on the gas stove and turned to medium heat to boil the water.

Then Raku Sakakihara came to his bedroom and started to change clothes.

His habit is to change his pants first and then his clothes.

While I was fastening my belt, there was a knock on the door.

“Brother, can I come in?” Tianhai Jiuliuli’s voice came from outside the door.

Sakakibara Raku was not wearing any clothes at this time. He suddenly thought that no matter whether it was Suzu, Kuruuri or Qi Mingyue, they were too embarrassed to see his upper body?

Luckily for Ah Ling, she has seen a lot and even asked me to touch it to see how it feels.

Jiuliuli and Qi Mingyue were different, they were both embarrassed.

Both sisters are surprisingly innocent.

“Well, come in.” Raku Sakakihara quickly put the T-shirt he had taken off back on before answering.

After receiving a yes, Tianhai Jiuliuli walked in carrying a shirt, “I helped my brother iron the clothes. Are you changing clothes now?”

“right.”

“Do you want me to change it for you?”

?

Although Jiuliuli had taken care of her collar several times before, this was her first time changing clothes, which was somewhat strange in terms of the relationship between the two.

“is it not OK?”

Can’t?

It’s not that it’s impossible, but it’s just that Raku Sakakibara can’t take off his clothes on his own initiative in front of girls. It’s okay if the other party peeks at her, but taking off his clothes on his own initiative is completely different.

And Raku Sakakibara knew that he sounded a bit like an uncle when he said this.

But it shouldn’t be a big deal if JK comes to help you change your clothes, right?

Now, Tianhai Jiuliuli, who is wearing a nightgown and carrying a white shirt, is too cute. Her eyes, expression, and gaze directed at her are impossible to ignore.

promise?

Don’t agree?

Raku Sakakibara is torn between these two choices.

In the end, he followed his reason and agreed to her request.

“Can.”

“That’s great.”

Even though Tianhai Jiuliuli said that she wanted to help change clothes, this matter would be embarrassing for anyone.

There was no other way, so Sakakihara had no choice but to suggest that she turn around first and put on her white shirt before continuing.

“Are you ready?” she asked.

“alright.”

Amami Kuruuri turned around and saw Sakakibara Raku wearing only a white shirt, his eyes reflected his appearance, “Brother is very handsome.”

Being praised like this by a beautiful girl, even though Sakakihara Raku didn’t show anything on the surface, he was still happy in his heart.

Qia Qia Tianhai Jiuliuli’s voice was very pleasant, with a slight feeling of surprise.

“Jiu Liuli, don’t you want to help me get dressed?”

“Well, okay,” Tianhai Jiureli was reminded and quickly found a set of Sakakihara Raku school uniforms from the closet and came behind him, “brother, raise your hand.”

It was the first time in Sakakihara Raku’s life that someone took care of him and put on a piece of clothing.

Putting his hands through the cuffs, Sakakibara saw in the mirror Amami Kuruuri’s delicate white hands stretching out behind him, wrapping them around his neck, and helping to hold his collar.

Her movements are very careful and meticulous.

Will she clean up every fold of clothing?

It can be seen that Tianhai Jiuliuli is actually very willing to help her get dressed, even if it is just a small thing in life.

If you are cared for by such a girl, you will become more decent and cleaner outside, right?

I couldn’t help but feel happy.

Sakakihara suddenly wanted to hug Jiu Liuli, but he didn’t know if she would agree?

Straightforward?

It’s absolutely impossible not to say it directly. If you want to ask why, it’s because he, Sakakibara Raku, can’t say such a straight man’s words.

“I heard that the people who can help me get dressed are the most trusted people around me.” In order to cover up his embarrassment, Sakakihara even touched his face.

Amami Kuriuri clearly reacted and heard a voice behind him. She couldn’t understand what Sakakihara Raku meant by saying this for a while, “Is there such a thing?”

“Yes, yes, you see, aren’t the people who can help you get dressed like mothers or wives?”

What Sakakibara said while hesitating was a temporary answer that never crossed his mind.

After thinking about it for a moment, he felt like giving himself a slap in the face.

[Aren’t they all mothers and wives? ]

——Isn’t this a hint to Jiuliuli?

Obviously, this sentence was indeed misunderstood by Tianhai Jiuliuli.

She hesitated, her cheeks began to heat up involuntarily, and she even dropped her hand holding his collar.

Shyness of girls is one of the most embarrassing situations that Raku Sakakihara encounters. At this time, he will not know what to say to the other party. What he says will make the other party even more embarrassed and dare not respond to him?

However, it is obvious that Tianhai Jiuliuli is not the kind of girl who is always shy.

She asked proactively.

“Is my brother hinting at me?”

“No, that’s not what I meant. I originally wanted to say something, but some of these words just came out of my mouth.”

Tianhai Jiuliuli laughed unexpectedly, with a sweet and gentle smile.

?

Sakakibara felt strange, “Why did you laugh suddenly?”

“Because, I suddenly felt that my brother was cute too, so I hurriedly explained, not wanting me to misunderstand him.”

“I’m cute?”

“Yeah, very cute.”

Is there any connection between myself and cuteness? Although I seem to be a bit innocent, I am the kind of person who is embarrassed to take the initiative to hold hands with girls.

Ah, maybe it’s because of this that girls think you’re cute?

“Brother must have something to ask of me, right?”

“How did you tell?”

“Because that sentence was so abrupt just now. He suddenly mentioned the most trusted person and the role of mother and wife.” Tianhai Jiuliuli hesitated, and his voice became smaller and smaller as he spoke.

The current posture and eyes of Jiu Liuli made Sakakibara begin to wonder whether she had misunderstood what she said.

Is she really expecting this?

Sakakihara Raku had a vague feeling, but he didn’t dare to ask.

When asked, she was too embarrassed to say anything, and she was extremely embarrassed.

“What did my brother want to say to me just now?”

Jiu Liuli asked about this, and Sakakihara Raku also felt that he should be more frank, and said in a slightly awkward tone:

“Yeah, it’s nothing. I just think you are cute, Jiuliuli, and I want to hug you.”

When Sakakibara said the words “I really want to hug him”, Tianhai Jiuri’s movements almost stopped, and the thoughts in his heart almost changed. Finally, he understood what he was talking about, and became so shy again. Blushing again.

“.Okay.” She whispered.

“.Is it that simple?” Sakakihara Raku was also a little hesitant.

“Well, a hug, that’s all. Besides, I really want to.”

“think?”

“.It’s just what you think.” Tianhai Jiuliuli couldn’t finish his words in the end.

“You really want to be hugged by me?”

“Um”

Sakakihara Raku could understand Jiuruli’s desire to get closer to him, but it was precisely because of his understanding that Sakakihara Raku felt that she was particularly cute at this time.

Then, try to hug me?

As a man, Sakakihara Raku still thought that he should take the initiative. When Amami Kuriuri looked a little embarrassed and shy, he reached out and hugged her.

Very soft and comfortable.

His hands went around the shallow pajamas around her slender waist. The sweet fragrance poured into her nose, and her heartbeat couldn’t help but speed up.

Sakakihara didn’t dare to get too close at all, as he was afraid that touching any special place would cause discomfort to the other person.

But even so, holding him gently is quite pleasant.

During this period, many emotions came up.

Jiuliuli has always been a person who lacked support since she was a child. In the eyes of her mother, her efforts for more than ten years have not been able to gain any recognition of her daughter’s identity.

She looked like this, reminding Sakakibara of the day when she cried in his arms.

She tightly pulled the clothes on her chest, feeling weak and helpless. She was abandoned by her mother and had lost the meaning of her existence, and was bullied by her own childish words and actions.

Thinking of all these things, Sakakibara couldn’t help but feel how pitiful and weak the real Kuruuri in his arms was.

Facing herself who has hurt her like this, can Jiuliuli really feel at ease here?

However, when Jiuliuli pressed against her chest, this doubt seemed to be dispelled by her.

“elder brother.”

“Um?”

“Thanks.”

“Why do you suddenly say thank you?”

“When you took the initiative and said you wanted to hug me, I felt like I was forgiven.”

This sentence made Sakakibara’s heart stop, and then he opened his eyes.

He looked at Jiuliuli hugging him in the mirror and understood everything.

Yes, for Jiuliuli, she is actually the one who feels guilty.

It was me who took the initiative to let her cry in my arms when I was still angry.

It was me who took the initiative to stand up and speak for her in front of my aunt when she was still angry. It was also me who stopped crying for her and said a series of words to comfort and encourage her.

After thinking about this, Sakakihara couldn’t help but hold the girl in his arms for a while.

In fact, I was also at fault in this matter.

Rather than forgiving her, it might be better to say that he faced his childish side.

From now on, I will never do such an extremely childish thing again.

When he came to his senses, Sakakihara Raku realized that the water in his kitchen was still boiling, and he hurriedly ran over.

After Tianhai Jiuliu opened it, she was still reminiscing about the reassuring feeling of him hugging her. When she thought about it, her face couldn’t help but be stained with a blush of shame.

She walked out of the bedroom and came to Sakakibara Raku.

At this time, he had already added cold water to the pot and was preparing to cook the noodles again.

“correct.”

“What’s the problem, brother?”

“Didn’t I give Qi Mingyue a shark doll before?”

“right.”

“I’ve been thinking about it all night, why do I always feel like I’ve seen it before? I seem to have seen similar scenes somewhere, a girl holding a shark doll or something like that.”

Sakakibara raised his head and looked at Amami Kuruuri, who was obviously stunned, “Kuriuri, do you know?”