About the fact that I unintentionally raised my sister to be a cripple - Chapter 237 Sakakihara Suzu’s troubles and the changes she wants to make

Study, review, study, review.

Suzu Sakakihara straightened her back and stared at the piles of homework and textbooks as thick as a dictionary that her brother and teacher had assigned her with a very reluctant expression. She was in a daze that was about to despair.

Why, why do you have to write so much!

And there is also yesterday’s homework in it.

The girl’s heart was roaring, but because she was in the classroom, she had to maintain the expression on her face.

Calm down, Aling, you need to calm down.

She kept repeating this hint to herself in her mind.

But in the end, she found that it was of no use.

Why write so much?

Isn’t it okay not to write?

Is it a failure if you don’t write about your life?

I really want to be lazy, I really want to go home and take a nap, I really want to eat beef curry rice.

Sakakihara Suzu fell into a state of extreme despair.

Otherwise, give up?

I don’t know how comfortable it would be to give up.

“Suzuki-chan, you worked really hard.”

Accompanied by the soft voice was his friend Sakai Chitenno who was sitting next to him and had just gone to the toilet.

She saw the homework spread out in front of Suzu Sakakibara and the gel pen in her hand, and sighed deeply for her good friend’s efforts.

“No, no.”

this.!

Well, in order to maintain my image, it seems I have no choice but to continue writing.

It’s obviously lunch break time, okay?

About ten minutes later, Sakakihara Suzu finished writing a paper and was going to rest for a while.

As soon as he turned his head, a piece of small sausage went directly into his mouth.

Sakakihara Suzu was stunned, and turned around to see that it was Sakai Chidano who was smiling and feeding herself the contents of her lunch box.

“How does it taste, Suzu-chan?”

“Very, very good.”

“Hehe, right? My mother’s craftsmanship has always been very good.” Chitiano Sakai moved the stool to Sakakihara Suzu’s table, and brought the lunch box and wrapping cloth together, “We will divide it next year. It’s time for class, Suzu-chan, are you going to choose science or liberal arts?”

“I’m not good at liberal arts and science.”

Sakakibara Suzu suddenly noticed that Sakai Chitenno was staring at her for several seconds. She felt strange and asked, “Why is Sweetano-chan looking at me like that?”

“Do you want to be assigned to class one, Suzu-chan?”

“That’s right.”

Sakai Chiteno continued: “But Suzu-chan has been very busy recently. She doesn’t even have time to study her homework, and her grades have dropped to around fifty.”

This is a fact. Sakakihara Suzu was almost at this level in the last monthly test.

This was the result of her brother helping her to make up classes urgently.

“With these grades, it would be difficult for Suzu-chan to be placed in the first class, right? It’s very likely that she would be assigned to an art class or something like that.”

This is also true.

But Sakakihara Suzhin was so tired that she no longer wanted to study.

Chitiano Sakai continued: “I have heard a lot about Sakakibara-kun at school recently.”

“What’s wrong with him?” Sakakihara Suzu asked with concern, she only heard a little bit.

“Everyone is speculating whether Sakakibara-kun is dating Amami-san, and whether he is also dating the new guy. The two of them can often be seen sitting together in the cafeteria eating together.”

Sakakihara Suzu knew that her elder brother had a good reputation in school.

He has a handsome face and a very good figure. Every time he plays sports, he can be seen beating the boys in other classes by himself. In basketball, volleyball, baseball, etc., he is also at the top level.

Many girls admire him.

It’s all external.

Tsk, a bunch of superficial women!

“Well, there’s no need to listen to their nonsense, Tiano. Yuki and my brother are just ordinary friends.” Suzu Sakakihara replied with a normal expression.

‘Suzuki-chan doesn’t seem to understand what I mean at all.’

Chitian Sakai was thinking in her heart.

As for Suzu-chan, her good friend, she hasn’t been very happy recently, and Sakai Chiteno can definitely see it.

[Why are you unhappy? ]

During this period, Sakai Chiteno asked insinuatingly several times, but to no avail.

But through Suzu-chan’s eyes at school, where she often saw her brother smiling and communicating with his classmate Amami Kuriuri from a distance, Sakai Chitianno understood.

Suzu-chan has been ignored recently.

Sakakibara-kun paid too much attention to his two Amami classmates.

He didn’t even notice that his sister was no longer as energetic as before.

Because he wasn’t paid attention to by his brother, he always had no energy.

As a good friend, I have to think of a way.

“So that’s how it is,” Chiteno Sakai smiled, holding her hands in front of her, “Suzuki-chan, how about… Anyway, our work has become less recently, how about we try to work hard together? Work hard towards the second place. In this school year, the class with the best grades will go forward?”

Sakakihara Suzu didn’t respond, “Why?”

“Because, Suzu-chan, you see, the two Tenkai classmates have always been first in the exam, and Sakakibara-kun has always been in third place. They are only a few points behind the two Tenkai classmates. They must be assigned I went to class one.”

“What are you going to do in class one?”

“Suzuki-chan must be going to class one, right?”

“I don’t want to go.”

Sakakihara Suzu muttered this, relaxed her shoulders, and sighed deeply: “If you go there, you can only be a light bulb.”

It’s better to buy something to eat and sit together with Zhixue after school.

“Sakakihara-san, someone called you.” An unfamiliar classmate interrupted the conversation between the two.

Sakakihara Suzu looked towards the door and found Amami Yuki with long straight black hair standing at the door.

What is she here to do?

Are you asking me for food again?

Sakakihara Suzu still has a good relationship with Zhiyuki. As good friends, they often go out to buy food together.

After temporarily talking to Tiano, Sakakibara Suzu walked out of the classroom and saw the plain and delicate little face of Amami Nozuki.

“What’s wrong?”

“I have something to tell Ling.”

“Huh? What’s the matter?”

“Join the band.”

“.”

Sakakihara Suzu wasn’t sure if she heard correctly, “Join what? Join a band?”

“Um.”

“What band?”

“rock band.”

“.”

Amami no Yuki played rock and roll at home every day. During that time, she even made such a noise that the police came. Of course, Sakakihara Suzu knew that Amami no Yuki liked rock music.

“But why did you suddenly find me and ask me to join a rock band?”

“Because I can’t find anyone, Ling is easy to talk to.”

“.”

The reason is really simple and easy to understand.

“Join the band. Well, no problem, but I don’t have time recently. The finals are coming soon, so I have to study hard.”

“Le Shuo Ling can put her name on it first.”

“That’s no problem.” Suzu Sakakihara nodded. Of course it’s no problem to help a good friend. You know, Zhiyuki will give her her favorite things to eat!

“Wait!” Sakakihara Suzu suddenly realized something again, “Zhiyukizu is saying that my brother told you that you can put your name on it first?”

“Um.”

“He’s in the band too?”

“Happy.”

“Where are Jiuliuli and Qimingyue?”

“Xiao Qi and Xiao Jiu will also be here.”

“Then I won’t join.” Sakakihara Suzu suddenly became depressed, but recovered quickly.

“Why?”

“Zhixue, you don’t understand. Anyway, if the three of them are together, I won’t join them, because I have nothing to do with them.”

“knew.”

As soon as Tianhai Zhixue finished speaking, she turned around and left without emotion. The back is getting further and further away at the other end of the corridor.

This made Sakakihara Suzu, who didn’t react, quite confused.

“T-just leave like this?”

Sakakihara Suzu stood there for a minute without understanding.

She really didn’t want to understand and had to go back to the classroom. I explained the situation to Chitano Sakai and chatted about second grade topics for half an hour, and it was time for class.

On why he didn’t agree to Zhixue joining the band.

Sakakihara Suzu knew that she just didn’t want to see the intimacy that those few people might show in the band.

Don’t want to see it, not at all.

I won’t join in!

It was time for school to end in the afternoon. Because there were two more classes, the time was much later than before.

“Ling, join the band.”

After Sakakibara Suzu said hello to her classmates, she met Amami Yuki in the shoe changing room.

She didn’t want to target this good friend, but she felt she should refuse.

“no.”

“Well, I’ll ask you later,” Tianhai Zhixue, who was carrying a small schoolbag, nodded slightly, “Then let’s go to the convenience store to buy something to eat?”

“Why don’t you ask if you can eat something later? This is good.”

After walking out of school and going to a convenience store to buy sweet chicken steak and teriyaki skewers, Sakakihara Suzu thought that Amami Yuki would continue to ask whether she wanted to join the band, but she didn’t expect that she would just eat quietly at the bar table.

The side facing the street.

“My brother asked you to create this band?”

“I created it myself.”

“Why do you suddenly want to start a band?”

“Because I want more fans.”

“Oh Nazhiyuki, how’s your video going?”

“No fire.”

“It makes sense, how can I become popular as soon as I come out,” Suzu Sakakihara said with emotion, “I used to think that as long as I had the ability, I would become popular, and everyone should be able to hear my efforts, but in fact? No one cares. I spent the first year playing small roles, and I had to prepare and be nervous for several days just to audition.”

“But Le also wants to help me continue to make videos.” Tianhai Zhixue continued the previous topic, “Le wants to help me get more fans.”

“Why is he helping you so much?”

Tianhai Zhixue thought for a while: “I don’t know.”

“Forget it if I don’t know. Anyway, it’s a central air conditioner. That’s the kind of person he is.”

“Le also said that he wants to find his purpose through the band.”

“Humph, that’s really gratifying, but I won’t join in.” Suzu Sakakihara twisted both ends of the teriyaki chicken skewers with both hands and took small bites. Full of fragrant heat.

“Le also said that he likes Ling very much.”

Amami no Yuki’s light words almost made Suzu Sakakibara choke, and she hurriedly asked:

“Did he really say that?”

“The band, the bell is the most indispensable one.” Amami Yuki imitated Sakakihara Raku’s words at that time, her voice was as thin as an ice sculpture.

This sentence made Sakakihara Suzu feel strange and warm, and it also reminded her of many scenes.

The clearest thing is when he went to find him when he ran away from home. He smiled and cooked himself a king crab dinner to entertain himself.

Not only do you not have to wash the dishes, you can even fall asleep on his lap boldly when you are tired.

That was the happiest dinner Sakakihara Suzu had had in recent years.

But what about recently?

I have been paying less and less attention to myself recently.

He doesn’t pay attention to himself at all now, why would he want to get himself into some band?

“Exactly! Just, even if that’s the case, why doesn’t he come and invite me? I won’t go!”

“If you invite the bell, will the bell come?”

“No way! Sorry, this is not directed at you, Yuki-chan, but I won’t join.”

Sakakihara Suzu looked like she was getting up to leave. She packed the box of leftover food and picked up her schoolbag.

“Okay, okay, that’s the end of this topic. Anyway, I won’t join, that’s all.”

Suzu Sakakibara fled the convenience store.

Even she herself didn’t know why she ran away in panic.

Looking at the darkened sky above, the tram made the sound of running on the elevated track, and the glass curtain walls of the high-rise buildings were filled with bright lights like glass.

Suzu Sakakihara carried her small schoolbag in despair, pulling on the shoulder of the schoolbag as she walked through the large shopping street filled with cold air.

My mind is filled with memories of a certain stinky guy.

[A Ling, actually I like Jiuliuli]

[A Ling, Qi Mingyue seems to like me too]

[Aling, actually I don’t like Tokyo that much. If possible, I would go to Kyoto to study in college]

The words that sounded like memories made Sakakihara Suzu purse her lips.

She was so annoyed. It was obvious that he only cared about herself before.

But now

I wasn’t cared for at all.

Why, why do you have to be so nice to everyone?

Why, why did you still forgive Jiuliuli at that time?

Why, why have you never considered anything because of me? Thinking it’s because I stayed in Tokyo to study?

Am I that unimportant?

Why, why can’t you see through my mind?

All kinds of uncomfortable thoughts fermented in the cold wind.

Sakakihara Suzu walked into the residential area, entered a nearby children’s park, and sat down on the swing between the sand pit and slide covered with snowflakes. There was no point in sitting here like this, but only here, the cold corner without light, made her feel more comfortable.

Sakakihara Suzu remembered a certain guy’s reaction to her.

Maybe his thoughts have been seen through long ago.

He understands, and so does he.

But it was precisely because of his understanding and clarity that he did not express other thoughts to himself. He always took care of her, caring with a doting meaning.

He has been indulging his unreasonable behavior and his character.

“Pfft,” Suzu Sakakihara laughed humorously, “It’s better not to know.”

As soon as she finished reading this sentence, Sakakihara Suzu fell into a state of silence again. She began to swing the swing and let her body follow the swing.

Squeak, squeak, squeak

The cold friction sound of the chain was the only sound in the cold wind.

Should, what should I do?

Should, how?

Yes, how can I not feel uncomfortable?

Thoughts popped up in Sakakihara Suzu’s head, but the more she thought about it, the less she knew what to do.

How about disappearing suddenly?

If he disappears, it won’t have a big impact on him, right?

Is he coming back to find himself?

How long will it take?

He probably doesn’t care about his own existence at all.

The creaking stopped, the girl’s hand holding the chain disappeared, and the figure on the swing raised its head to the sky.

The girl’s purple eyes, which reflected thousands of neon lights, shone with crystal light.

After five minutes of silence.

Sakakihara Suzu sniffed, stretched out her hand to erase all the things that blurred her vision, and then smiled at the sky:

“Really, am I going to cry like this? I’m not crying, no!”

After shouting this, no one answered her.

No one responded to her.

“Stinky Lele”

The cold wind made people’s cheeks chill and their bodies tremble.

Sitting on the swing in the children’s park, she seemed to want someone to come out to find her, tell herself that I care about you, tell herself not to catch a cold, and tell herself to go home quickly.

Sakakihara Suzu was very sad, but she didn’t know why, but there was always a force in her heart that made her not want to be so sad.

I want to change, I want to change, at least, I don’t want to not be remembered.

“That guy Qi Mingyue said he liked that guy since he was a child. I’m afraid he would have had the same mentality as me, right? In front of Jiu Liuli?”

The more Sakakihara Suzu thought about it, the more she thought about it. How did Nanamigyue do it?

How did she treat Jiuliuli?

If she chooses to escape, there will be nothing left.

“bell.”

After ten minutes of silence, Suzu Sakakihara raised her head and found that it was Amami Nozuki who had found this place.

She was also carrying a small school bag, staring at herself like a blank piece of paper.

Sakakihara Suzu stood up when she saw her.

“Sorry for keeping you looking for me.”

“Why did Ling run away just now?”

“I’m angry. The guy called Jiuliuli and Qi Mingyue but didn’t come to call me. But thinking about it carefully, he probably didn’t think about it in this regard. I don’t want to be the kind of ghost who only complains. I can take whatever I want. .No matter what happens, you must keep your position!”

“What are you talking about?”

“What I mean is that I will change my policy in the future! If I am passive, I will only get beaten and won’t get anything good! The two of them keep bullying me, and I’ve had enough!”

In fact, I wrote it in the evening.

But, because I didn’t feel very good, I stayed up late and wrote 6,000 words.

Looking back, the results were not as good as before.

depressed