About the fact that I unintentionally raised my sister to be a cripple - Chapter 251 The final diary of Tianhai Zhixue’s mother

The air was so quiet that Sakakihara Raku just wanted to slap himself in the face.

He immediately wanted to understand the meaning of Zhixue’s nod to him last night.

She didn’t understand her feelings at all, or the two of them were not on the same channel at that time. Sakakihara wanted her to understand her feelings clearly, but she thought her expression was not formal enough.

However, Sakakihara Raku will still stick to the principle he had last night. He can agree to what he can agree to, and decisively refuse what he can’t agree to.

So when he met Tenkai Yuki’s gaze that was motionless and as pure as snow, Sakakibara Raku looked like he was deep in thought, closed his eyes, crossed his chest and said:

“I reject.”

The girl holding the guitar was not sad because of the rejection. She just blinked, and her exquisite little face continued to look at Sakakihara Raku’s heartless state with her eyes closed and her chest folded. She leaned slightly forward towards him.

“But, I like music very much.”

“no.”

“Do you still need me to play a confession song?”

“No, that’s not the problem at all.”

“You can rub your breasts every day.”

“Don’t tempt me with this. If it doesn’t work, it won’t work.”

Sakakibara sighed helplessly in his heart. Whether it was in life or love, this child’s purpose was too simple and easy to guess. She may have a good impression of herself, and Sakakihara Raku also has a good impression of her as a friend, and he likes the experience of taking care of her, because Zhiyuki is very obedient and well-behaved, and she always trusts and obeys what he says.

But these feelings are not out of love, they are completely different feelings from Seven and Nine, so even if he has become a scumbag, he cannot play with other people’s feelings casually.

Of course, the above are just Sakakihara Raku’s own emotions. For Amami Kuruuri, this news is undoubtedly shocking.

“Le, date me.”

“Zhixue, when you talk about dating, you want to eat fried ice cream every day, right?”

“Wait a minute, wait a minute!”

Amami Kuruuri interrupted the conversation between the two, and took the initiative to look at Amami Nozuki under the sight of Sakakibara Raku and Amami Nanamigetsu.

“Xiao Jiu has something to say.”

“.” Tianhai Zhixue’s move turned the tables and stunned Tianhai Jiululiwen for half a second. She tried her best to smile and said to this girl of the same age who was her own aunt, “Aunt, Lejun is my boyfriend now. “

“I’m enjoying dating Xiaojiu.” Tianhai Zhixue seemed to be lost in thought and lowered her eyes.

“That’s right.” Tianhai Jiuliuli was instantly relieved when she saw Tianhai Zhixue’s eyes as if she understood.

“I know.”

But Tianhai Zhixue raised her head and answered, which directly caused her brain to fragment again.

Know? !

“Auntie, you know this and still do this?”

“I don’t mind.”

“.”

Is this a question you mind, aunt?

Well, Amami Kuruuri had long known that her aunt was somewhat lacking in common sense about life, so she tried her best to be patient and try to explain to her why it was impossible for her to confess successfully now and why Sakakibara refused so decisively.

Although Tianhai Jiuliuli has explained the matter quite clearly, Tianhai Zhixue has been in a state of incomprehensible confusion for some reason.

“Because Xiaojiu is dating Le, so I can’t confess my feelings,” she muttered, lowering her head.

“Yes.” Tianhai Jiuliuli nodded, patted his chest, and thought to himself that he finally made his little aunt understand.

“But Xiao Qi obviously also——”

“Yuki!” Raku Sakakihara instantly realized what Yuki wanted to say, and immediately opened his mouth to stop her.

“aunt.”

Tianhai Qimingyue, who had been watching, spoke up first to interrupt Tianhai Zhixue who had not yet spoken. Sakakibara Raku’s frightened heart at that moment also calmed down again.

Fortunately, Qi Mingyue also understands.

I almost fell into the cycle of death completely.

Obviously the relationship between the two sisters has only just been repaired.

“Xiaoqi.”

“Auntie, come out with me. I have something to tell you.”

In less than three minutes, Tianhai Qi Mingyue walked out of the bedroom with a very confused face and bare feet, and closed the door.

Only Sakakibara Raku and Amami Kuriuri were left in the messy bedroom.

“elder brother.”

Sakakibara noticed that Amami Kuruuri’s sky-blue eyes had been looking at him. He sighed and explained: “It seems that Zhiyuki watched some TV series with Suzu yesterday, which made her think that she can keep eating until she confesses to me. Delicious food. Don’t worry, Liuli, Zhixue is not a sincere confession.”

Tianhai Jiuliuli is not the kind of girl who gets anxious when things happen. On the contrary, she is very calm and can think.

If the person he likes is confessed and he can refuse decisively, Tianhai Jiuliuli is of course very happy as his girlfriend. But the identity of the person confessing was somewhat special, and he had a close relationship with her, so she had to consider more things.

For example, how did Zhixue feel after being rejected, and how to deal with her actions.

After all, like my brother, I had promised my grandfather to take good care of Zhixue in this family.

“Kuriuri?” Sakakihara Raku discovered that Tianhai Jiuriuri seemed to be in a state of thinking all the time.

“Ah? Hmm.” Tianhai Jiuruli faced Sakakihara Raku.

“Did you hear what I just said?”

“heard it.”

“what are you thinking?”

“On the contrary, I somewhat disagree with my brother’s point of view.”

“Why…?” Sakakihara Le was a little surprised that Jiu Liuli would say that.

“Auntie, she should know the concept of ‘confession’, right?”

“She knows, but she doesn’t understand. After all, she has never had such feelings.”

“Then what kind of emotion does brother think Auntie has toward you now?”

“What kind of emotion?” Raku Sakakihara thought carefully, “It should be the level of liking her. After all, I cook for her every day. Although she has no expression when eating, the seriousness with which she eats still shows that she likes to eat. .”

Amami Kuruuri stared at Sakakibara Raku: “So what is the next stage of the relationship that I like?”

“Want to get closer?”

“The next stage.”

“I started to like her after I got close to her, but she just likes the food I cook.”

“I also like my brother’s cooking. If you know Aiwujiwu. It’s absolutely possible for her to like you.” Tianhai Jiuliuli said in a very certain tone.

At this point, Sakakibara understood what Amami Kuriuri really wanted to say: “You mean, it’s possible that Zhiyuki really likes me?”

“Yes.” Tianhai Jiuliuli nodded seriously.

“What should we do?” Sakakihara Raku didn’t mean whether he should accept it, but how to deal with Zhiyuki’s action.

“I don’t know.” Tianhai Jiuliuli shook her head, with a bitter smile on her face, “I don’t know how to deal with Qi Mingyue’s feelings, and I don’t know much about my aunt’s.”

“Um”

If possible, Sakakihara Raku would also like to write a light novel, and he has already thought of the name.

It’s called “How to avoid playing with the feelings of three girls when they all like me and want to date me?” 》.

Once you write it down, there will definitely be readers who will ask. Isn’t it just a matter of ignoring it and cutting off all contact? Just pick the one you like the most.

Sakakihara Raku can only say that he is too naive!

You must know that these three girls are not ordinary girls. They all have certain connections with themselves in family.

After getting rid of one level, can’t we get rid of two levels?

Unless you abandon all your family members and fly away.

Sakakibara Raku couldn’t do it. And during this period, as the person being liked, he must have felt very comfortable and enjoyed it.

Nonsense, who wouldn’t be happy if three beautiful girls liked her at the same time?

Sakakihara Raku has completely realized himself, he just likes beautiful girls. In other words, who doesn’t?

Even now, he likes the feeling of holding Qijiu in his arms and kissing her.

It’s just that he will try to take care of their feelings and their experience.

After discussing with Tianhai Jiuliuli for a while, no useful results were obtained. Not long after, Qi Mingyue and Tianhai Zhixue entered the house again, and this time Tianhai Qi Mingyue motioned for him to talk to her alone.

Sakakibara turned back and glanced at Amami Kuruuri, and she agreed.

Sakakibara followed Nanami Nanami to the corridor.

Recently, July has not been so cold, and usually prefers the emotionless Sanwulian, which is similar to Zhixue.

However, she is much smarter than Zhixue, a natural idiot, and her dull eyes can see through a lot of things.

“What’s going on?” Tianhai Qimingyue asked first.

“Just take care of Zhixue, take care of her, and she will have a good impression of me.”

“Then do you know that you haven’t even taken care of your sister yet?”

“You mean I’ve got you in July?”

Amami Nanami half-closed her eyes and reached out to twist the flesh on his waist, but Sakakibara grabbed her wrist directly.

The girl was suddenly pressed against the wall by Sakakihara Raku, and under his close gaze, she raised her head.

“what you up to?”

“It’s nothing.” Sakakihara smiled, “I just suddenly felt that I really like you in Qiyue.”

“Don’t think that you can cover up your thoughts by saying nice things, and don’t think that I don’t know what you are thinking. You want to hug me on the left side and my sister on the right side, right?”

“Yes.”

“That’s very honest, but you are a scumbag like this.”

“Well, that’s right, I’m a scumbag.”

“Then you think I would like such a scumbag?”

“No, in July, you are definitely the kind of person who is dedicated to feelings and single-minded.”

Otherwise, in July, you wouldn’t have used the words of encouragement I said to you as a child to support you throughout your life.

Sakakibara sighed inwardly.

“Then why do you ask me to share with my sister?”

“I like you, July.”

Sakakibara is asking, he has no choice, Nanamigyue doesn’t owe him anything. All you can do is express your feelings to her as much as possible.

“Do you know how long I have been waiting for your words?”

“Know.”

“But that’s not why you can kidnap me.”

“This is my request, July.”

Although through the previous agreement, Qiyue can now take the initiative to make some intimate actions towards Sakakibara, because this is counted in the “pursuit”. It’s just that Sakakihara Raku himself still has to keep a distance, otherwise Jiureli will see some clues.

But at this stage, it is still impossible for Tianhai Qimingyue to accept sharing the same relationship with her sister.

“Kiss me.” She suddenly said this to him.

“Now? We are in the corridor now, and Jiu Liuli is separated from us by a wall. Maybe she will open the door and come out later.” Sakakihara reminded.

“Cut the nonsense.”

“.Oh well.”

Since it was Nanami Mingyue who asked for it, Sakakibara kissed her anyway.

The taste is like eating a green apple that is green, slightly sweet, and fragrant.

Sakakihara Raku probably understood what she was thinking about wanting to kiss her now, just because he couldn’t compare to Jiu Liuli on the surface and was very unconvinced.

Tianhai Qimingyue tucked her slightly messy flaxen hair behind her ears, revealing her fair and beautiful profile. She pursed her lips that had just been touched.

Sakakihara Raku felt that she probably felt a lot better after being kissed.

“By the way, are we not discussing Zhixue?”

“how?”

“I want to ask Qi Mingyue what you think.”

Tianhai Qimingyue leaned against the wall and said in a calm tone: “As far as I know, brother, there are many girls in school who have a crush on you, right? There are also people who took the initiative to ask you to confess.”

“There are some.”

“Then you have to agree?”

“That’s definitely not the case. That’s all sentimental. I’m not that kind of person.”

“So my point of view is very clear. Even if your aunt really likes you, wouldn’t it be fine if you don’t agree? Her situation is different from mine.”

July and I completely agree.

After talking about this, Sakakibara Raku probably understood the combat strategy of Qi and Ninth, which was to make sure that Sakakibara Raku would not agree to let the snow of the sky and sea be freed.

It was obviously a sincere confession, but Qi and Jiu were not regarded as opponents at all. Sakakihara Raku didn’t know why, but he actually felt a little pitiful for little Yuki.

It seems like no one cares about her.

“By the way, what did you say just now when you pulled Zhixue out?”

“Just tell her not to talk about the relationship between you and me. But in fact, she didn’t mean to say it. She just wanted to say that if Qi Mingyue likes you, then she can also like you. How did she know? About the relationship between us?” Tianhai Qimingyue raised her eyes again.

“.She saw it.”

Sakakibara remembered that after he told Zhixue about their relationship, he specifically told her not to tell them.

The original snow has always been remembered.

“Okay, that’s it for today. As long as you tell your aunt more about what you can’t accept, she will understand.”

Tianhai Qimingyue was about to go back to the room.

“Wait a minute, July.”

“Anything else?”

“What does snow mean to you and Liuli? In other words, what is the relationship between you two?”

This question made Tianhai Qi Mingyue think about it for a long time, “My sister and I haven’t met our aunt too many times. She calls us Xiaoqi and Xiaojiu just because we are the same age, because of seniority. , there is a certain gap between us. To be honest, I usually feel a little weird when I call her aunt, but I have been calling her aunt for many years, so I just call her sister and I have the same idea.”

Sakakihara Raku patiently listened to what Amami Nanami said, and he extracted one key point from it, that is, Nanami and Jiu did not seriously treat Zhiyuki as their peers.

No wonder. No wonder A Ling, whom she met later, had a better relationship with Xue.

No wonder Zhixue comes to find herself most of the time instead of looking for Qi and Jiu.

Probably Zhixue was vaguely aware of the subtle state between herself and Qijiu, so she seldom bothered them both.

[happy. ]

For some reason, Sakakibara’s mind suddenly flashed back to Amami Noyuki’s bare feet, hands on the wall, quietly watching him go home to change shoes in the corridor.

*

After Sakakihara rejected Yuki, he planned to let her calm down alone for a while.

This also means that the fried ice cream that I usually make for her is gone.

Sakakihara planned to talk to her about this matter, so he took the initiative to knock on the door of her room at night.

Tuk Tuk.

The door opened after knocking twice.

In the crack of the door is Tianhai Zhixue’s little face.

She also saw people outside the crack of the door.

“happy.”

The door is open a little wider.

“Good evening.”

Sakakibara thought that his ruthless rejection today would make the relationship between him and Yuki particularly awkward, but Amami Yuki didn’t seem to care at all. After knowing that he wanted to enter his room, he let him go. Go in.

He didn’t want to waste too much words and planned to make his purpose clear to her directly.

“Zhixue, the main reason I’m here this time is to explain a few things to you, which is about your recent video clips and the recent help you make fried ice cream. I may need to put it down for a while – wait, you What are you doing? Why is the ground so messy?”

Only then did Raku Sakakihara see a lot of messy colored cardboard stacked on the floor in Amami Yuki’s room. These scattered colored cardboards combined with the already messy bedroom made her look like a child when she was sitting on her knees in it.

“Make something for Le.”

“What is it?” Sakakihara couldn’t tell what the messy things in her hands were.

“have no idea.”

Sakakihara approached curiously, sat down beside her, picked up the cardboard that she seemed to have folded, looked at it, and finally understood what she was folding.

“What are you doing folding paper cranes?”

“.Thousand Paper Cranes?”

She looked confused as if she heard an unfamiliar word.

“You know Thousand Paper Cranes, right?”

“I don’t know.” The girl didn’t pay attention and continued to fold the things in her hands. Her legs in a duck-sitting posture were folded inward and became slender. Her feet were white and shiny, soft and delicate.

“Have you heard the name at least?”

“oh.”

“Oh what do you mean?”

“I haven’t eaten it.”

“. Paper cranes are not meant for eating.”

“That’s it, I’ve made another one.”

Tianhai Zhixue said this without emotion, raised her hand, and reflected in the warm-colored light of the bedroom, she was holding a paper crane that looked nothing like a paper crane.

“It doesn’t look very tasty.”

“.”

Sakakibara Raku has already lost to her and doesn’t want to complain at all.

“This is fun.”

“What are you giving it to me for?” Sakakihara Raku saw what he could barely call a thousand origami cranes that suddenly appeared in front of him.

“My mother said that when you meet someone who treats you well, you can fold this out and give it to him.”

Mother?

Speaking of which, Sakakihara Raku never knew about the condition of Yuki’s mother. He only knew that she died of dystocia when she gave birth to Yuki. From now on, Xue will be in a state where she has no friends and no peers are willing to understand her.

“But Zhixue, isn’t your mother gone a long time ago? How did she say these things to you?”

“In a book.”

“Book?”

“There are many words in the book that my mother wrote to me.”

A suicide note.

Sakakihara Raku probably understands what’s going on. Many mothers will write down a lot of things they want to say to their children in advance when they are still pregnant.

Maybe she already knew that she might not survive, so she wrote those contents to Zhixue in advance, right?

“Can you show it to me?”

“good.”

Tianhai Zhixue just glanced at him, then ran to the bookshelf, stood on tiptoes, and brought down a wooden box.

She unlocked the lock with the key in a familiar manner and handed the book inside to Sakakibara Raku.

It’s said to be a book, but it’s actually just a diary with yellowed pages.

Sakakihara turned it over and looked at it.

The front are some pregnancy diaries, which roughly describe the inner journey I went through when I was pregnant with Zhixue.

It was stated in it that there was actually no intention for Zhixue to be born in the first place. After the parents learned that they were pregnant, they were in a tangled state of being reluctant to abort and fearing that pregnancy at an advanced age would cause fetal malformations and wanted to abort the baby.

[I know it may be wrong to do this, but maybe this child will want to come out and see the world? Will you feel resentful because you were given it before you were born? But every time I feel the joy of another little heart in my belly, I feel that this child is looking forward to coming to this world and watching this beautiful scenery with me. I think no one, no matter who it is, can deprive the other person of the right to happiness after the child has some consciousness. This child will have a life of her own in the future, a path of her own, and someone who is willing to love her. After she experiences the beauty of this world, she will look back at the present and be grateful. Our decision now, right? I don’t know, I don’t know]

Turning to this point, Sakakibara Raku was also thinking that because of the prominent family of the Amami family, he actually wanted to believe that Zhiyuki would be happy after being born.

After all, her starting point is already the ending point for many people.

So it was written in the diary that after learning that the fetus was developing well and without any abnormalities, the parents decided to give birth to her.

The risks faced by older mothers are also quite high, and the probability of dystocia is particularly high. Judging from the current results, this is indeed the case. Mother definitely knows this.

But in the second half of the diary, there is no entanglement and melancholy in the front, and the record is full of the beauty of life, the joy and comfort of the sun shining on your face when you wake up in the morning.

Some of the messages written at the back to Zhixue are also full of mother’s care.

She wrote down the possible youth and troubles at each age in advance at the end of her diary.

It can be seen from between the lines that the mother’s mentality at this time is sunny and upward, full of affection and love, and full of blessings and expectations for the children she has not yet met.

In the book, in the mother’s imagination, Zhixue is definitely the kind of sunny and positive little girl.

However, the fact is that Zhixue has been squatting at home for more than ten years. Except for Qijiu and family, she has no friends of the same age.

Sakakihara turned the pages slowly, and suddenly a white paper crane fell out of the book.

While he picked up the Paper Crane, he also looked at the diary in the book.

[Zhixue, I don’t know what kind of person you will be in the future. But I think you will also have someone you like, someone who can treat you well, right? I have always hoped that you can find someone who can truly accompany you for a lifetime, someone who can give you a sense of security, someone who can give you warmth, and someone who can deeply remember your happiness and sadness. Most of all, I hope you find someone you can truly love.

[When you first feel that someone is sincerely good to you, please fold the folding method of the paper crane I drew in the diary and give it to him. This is also a token of hope that your mother and your father can come together. You can also use this to get what you want]

——Winter, the ninth day of the lunar month, stay.

“Le, here you go.”

Sakakibara closed the diary and looked at Amami Yuki who was still folding paper cranes for herself again, feeling an indescribable feeling in her heart.

What made him sad was that he was the first person to make Zhixue feel good. What made him sad was that he had to choose him.