Bamboo Forest Manager - Chapter 83
83 – 83. Precious Person**
“…….”
Dinner time.
Today’s filming was over and everyone was slowly packing up, I was sitting next to Ahn Hyun-ho on the bench.
He glanced at me with resentful eyes and tried to say something, but ended up sighing deeply and shaking his head.
“It’s because of you.”
I understand that he wants to blame me, but in the end, isn’t the choice his own?
“You little punk, you were too hasty.”
No matter how much you like Choi Yi-seo, what do you do when you just confess out of the blue?
I couldn’t help but quickly avoid him when I saw him approaching me with a face that wasn’t even a scourge.
“You didn’t explain it to me in detail.”
I sighed as I watched Ahn Hyun-ho, his face covered, continuing to blame me.
I didn’t really think it was my fault, but it felt rather sad that he just needed someone to blame.
“Ugh, if you had been popular in high school, wouldn’t you have dated a lot? Why are you so immature?”
Don’t the kids usually go around dating each other?
“At that time, the kids just approached me.”
“You should just die.”
I couldn’t help but click my tongue at the absurdity of the deception.
Well, in the case of high school, appearance and strength are more important than grades, so Ahn Hyun-ho would have been the best catch.
Imagining the fight between the students to win over the handsome guy made me feel even worse.
If women come to you just by opening your mouth, why would you need to study this?
“Anyway, are you giving up on Yi-seo now? I’ve never seen her make such a fierce expression.”
“……How far did you see?”
“I ran away as soon as I saw you confess. I don’t like gore.”
Wasn’t it practically Ahn Hyun-ho’s dismemberment corpse show?
It wouldn’t be just blood splattering, but Ahn Hyun-ho’s limbs would have been bursting out everywhere.
“I see.”
Ahn Hyun-ho was somehow relieved.
Then he clenched his fist and replied.
“It’s a bit too early to give up. It’s hard to find a woman like Yi-seo.”
“…….”
I wanted to agree, but I didn’t. I felt like it would just create a subtle atmosphere if I did.
“What about you?”
“Hmm? Me?”
“You’re interested in Yi-seo too. That’s why you confessed, and you’re going to try to date her for real in the second semester, right?”
“Ah…….”
It was ambiguous to answer.
Since I had no intention of CCing, the chances of developing a romantic relationship with Choi Yi-seo were low.
Honestly, I had the feeling that the hurdles had been gradually breaking down lately.
This is probably because, as time goes by in my memories with Oh Yoon-ji, Seo Ye-rin and Choi Yi-seo continue to knock on the person I am.
“I don’t know.”
This was my honest feeling.
It was something that was hard to say to anyone, but because Ahn Hyun-ho was not an important person to me at all.
Rather, I felt like I could open up to him more easily.
“Don’t be jealous if I end up dating Yi-seo.”
What will my heart be like then?
I thought I needed to diagnose it calmly, but when I closed my eyes, I remembered the expression Choi Yi-seo had when she looked at Ahn Hyun-ho.
“Can I?”
That was the only answer that came out.
“f*ck.”
Ahn Hyun-ho also seemed to agree, sighing deeply and brushing his bangs up.
While we were talking about this and that, the group came over from the other side, having finished packing up.
“Tsk.”
Choi Yi-seo clicked her tongue at me.
“Huh?”
I was taken aback because she was looking at me, not Ahn Hyun-ho.
Choi Yi-seo’s genuine annoyance made me feel quite precious, and I immediately wondered what I had done wrong.
“Sorry…….”
But unexpectedly.
I couldn’t help but glare at him when I heard Ahn Hyun-ho’s apology from the side.
“Why are you sorry?”I felt more uneasy as I watched Hyunho Ahn trying to get up while avoiding my gaze.
I immediately grabbed his clothes and pulled him back down, asking,
“What are you sorry for, you little punk?”
“That…”
That?
“The confession plan… I said you told me to do it.”
“Huh?”
“I was so embarrassed at the time, so I thought I had to make some kind of excuse…!”
Is this guy crazy?!
“Hey! I just told you that there was such a way, when did I tell you to run to Yiseo Choi right away and confess to her?!”
I immediately raised my fist and started beating up Hyunho Ahn. The guy must have felt sorry, so he just put up his guard and blocked me, but it pissed me off even more that he didn’t seem to be in any pain.
“I’m sorry… I’m really sorry.”
So now, from Yiseo Choi’s perspective, I…
I must have looked like a weird piece of trash who was trying to introduce the girl he liked to another guy.
As I made eye contact with Yiseo Choi, who had approached us,
Yiseo Choi said something to me with her lips, without Yuarin and Yerim noticing.
“You’re cool?”
No, I’m not.
“You’re thirsty?”
No, I’m not.
“Horororo?”
Yiseo Choi immediately put her middle finger up.
Thanks to her doing it again, I could finally figure out what she was saying.
“Ah, you lost?”
As I watched her nod, I couldn’t help but sigh instead of feeling happy that I had guessed the correct answer.
* * *
“No, I’m not.”
After parting ways with the others, I was making my own excuses as I walked home with Yiseo Choi.
No, not excuses.
I was checking her reaction.
“Really not?”
Yiseo Choi asked with a sullen expression.
The coldness she had directed at me earlier had softened considerably.
“Remember when I told you I confessed to you last time? I said that as an excuse, you know? Why would I tell you to confess to you?”
Did she understand my sincerity?
Yiseo Choi’s heart seemed to have softened a little.
“I misunderstood.”
Yiseo Choi said as she slowly approached me.
“Right? So from now on, before you beat me up, can you at least listen to what I have to say?”
“…It was irresistible.”
Thanks to her running up to me with her fists raised as soon as we parted ways with the others, I got a good beating.
From Yiseo Choi’s point of view, it must have felt like I was introducing Hyunho Ahn to her on purpose to distance myself from her, so I understand her reaction.
Anyway, now that the misunderstanding has been cleared up and I’m feeling a little more relaxed, Yiseo Choi starts to grumble lightly.
“How do you think Hyunho will look at you now? Ah, why did he have to confess!”
As I said last time, they were in a position of exaggeration and understatement, so the two of them were bound to clash or get involved with each other.
In the midst of all this, Hyunho Ahn suddenly confessed, which meant that there was nothing but awkwardness ahead.
That’s why Hyunho Ahn left alone earlier because he felt awkward being with Yiseo Choi.
“Well, I’ll do my best. Not to be awkward.”
“….”
I said that because I didn’t think I could give her a satisfactory answer, but it seemed that it wasn’t the answer she wanted.
Yiseo Choi asked me, her cheeks slightly puffed out.
“What would you have done if I had really started dating Hyunho?”
“Why are you asking that?”
“Well, I could have gotten tired of you and gone to another guy. Life is a battlefield.”
That’s true.
I think I had a similar thought earlier.
“What could I do?”
This was my own way of giving her a well-thought-out answer. In the first place, Yiseo Choi doesn’t say anything when she sees me getting involved with other girls.
Even though she knows I spent the night with Yerim, she couldn’t say anything because she’s not my girlfriend.
To put it bluntly.
We’re friends.
We had crossed the line a little, but we were still in that kind of relationship.
“Just like you don’t say anything to me, I can’t say anything if you meet another guy.”
If you start dating, I’ll congratulate you and cheer you on.Choi Yi-seo glared at me with an extremely annoyed expression.
“You like that? Being robbed like that?”
“Are you crazy?”
How could anyone like that?
No, I guess there are people who like that. There are people in the world who eat sh*t.
But I can confidently say that I’m not one of them.
“I don’t like that at all?”
As I answered firmly, Choi Yi-seo crossed her arms and questioned me.
“Then why can’t you speak properly? Can’t you at least tell me not to go to other men?”
“I don’t have the right to do that….”
I don’t, right?
As I added that, Choi Yi-seo bit her lip as if she was in pain again.
“You never say what I want to hear, do you?”
“…….”
Choi Yi-seo exhaled and looked around. We were almost home, but she stopped walking and stared at me. There were tears in her eyes.
“You had s*x with Ye-rin, didn’t you?”
“That’s….”
“I let it go when you had Ye-rin’s picture. But now it’s clear. Right?”
It definitely wasn’t back then.
“I’ll try to explain myself. It really wasn’t back then.”
“Let’s skip that. Anyway, you did it now, didn’t you?”
“Y, yes.”
I feel like I’m becoming a piece of sh*t. I was trying so hard to convince her that I wouldn’t do it.
“But why do you think I don’t say anything to you?”
“……Be, because you’re not my girlfriend?”
I thought that was why.
Choi Yi-seo actually said that.
“That’s part of it. But that’s not all.”
“Then?”
“Because you’re having a hard time.”
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For a moment.
I was speechless.
Choi Yi-seo, who was staring at me, kept her lips tightly shut for a moment.
I wished she wouldn’t say anything else, but as if she had figured out my mind, she immediately added.
“Because you’re having a hard time with women because of Yoon-ji. Even if you have a physical relationship, you’re rejecting emotional intimacy.”
Cowardly.
I was a coward.
Choi Yi-seo, who understood and cared about my cowardice.
“s*x? I can do it right now if you want. I can get a hotel room! I can go to your room! But I’m not doing it on purpose. Do you know why?”
“…….”
“Because! Because that would open your heart with my body. It would be forcing you to date me when you’re not ready!”
Thud!
Choi Yi-seo punched her chest with tears in her eyes. It was a weak punch, but it hurt more than anything else I had been hit with today.
“I don’t know what Ye-rin is thinking. She might see a side of you that I don’t see and approach you differently. It’s not a question of who’s right.”
Kim Woo-jin as a manager.
Seo Ye-rin saw that.
Choi Yi-seo and Seo Ye-rin could be said to be on opposite sides.
If I were to list my relationships with them in alphabetical order.
Choi Yi-seo started with A.
Seo Ye-rin started with Z.
“You don’t have the right? You don’t have the right to stop me from going to other men? Who decided that?”
“That’s….”
“I’ll decide it. Hold on.”
Bang.
Choi Yi-seo, who grabbed my hand, was breathing heavily. She was trying to hold back her emotions.
“Hold on. Don’t go anywhere. If I ever get excited about another man or try to look away.”
“…….”
“Hold on, you bastard!”
Choi Yi-seo hugged me tightly.
She didn’t want to show me her crying face, so she held me tight and wouldn’t let go.
Looking down at Choi Yi-seo.
“I don’t want to love anyone.”
The honest feeling that I had never told anyone came out of my mouth.”It was so… painful. To be honest, I still see Oh Yoon-ji in my dreams often.”
The reason why I can’t date anyone.
“After she left, I couldn’t do anything. It was really fortunate that it was the vacation.”
Otherwise, I wouldn’t have been able to attend the lectures.
“Because it was so painful at that time, I don’t want to date anyone.”
Choi Yi-seo’s sobs and my trembling voice are mixed together.
“That’s my heart and my vow.”
The woman I thought I would spend my whole life with.
The woman I sincerely thought about marrying.
The woman who always smiled brightly and loved me.
Eventually, she left.
That was the reality.
There was no such thing as the absolute love that appears in dramas or movies.
Oh Yoon-ji left.
So did Choi Yi-seo.
She’s telling me this now.
But she could leave at any moment.
Then.
It seemed like it would be really hard.
Because I’m a coward and a weak person.
“Don’t shake me anymore.”
My two hands, which had lost their place, were trembling as I held Choi Yi-seo.
“Please.”
I carefully hugged her.
“Don’t become someone precious to me.”
Despite my request for her to not enter me anymore.
Choi Yi-seo’s hand.
Still, she didn’t let go of me.