Became an Academy Spearman - Chapter 506



506. Each of our hearts

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“ha.”

The sound of heavy breathing echoed in the hallway.

Again. Again… .

His endless pacing and occasionally wandering gaze were filled with worry and anxiety.

It wasn’t just one person either.

Karite and Darsha.

Two people were pacing in front of the door of the nurse’s office.

Their movements, who had not been able to enter since Cheonseong entered, were very similar. However, the feelings they had were very different.

Tuk.

Then, Darsha, who stopped walking first, carefully looked at Karite.

‘It must be very… difficult.’

Even I, who was friends with this guy, was so worried right now. The sight of her unconscious, with her whole body covered in bright red blood… .

Because it was engraved in my eyes so strongly that I could never forget it.

“…It’ll be okay.”

So I thought I should also talk to him.

“Yes… I hope so too.”

Karite’s eyes were still focused on the door as she blankly accepted my words.

The shaking eyes and flowing light blue hair just seemed unsettling to me. How severe is the turmoil in your heart? So much so that it appears intact on the outside… .

“…….”

I tried to say more, but then I closed my mouth.

‘ha.’

I felt anxious as I felt the suppressed breath filling my heart.

When I left the dormitory, all the comfort and excitement I felt with anticipation had disappeared.

What should have been a perfectly relaxing weekend suddenly felt terrible.

‘…I don’t know.’

Why did he have to be like that while I was trying to have a normal day?

While he left the academy and stayed at the Magic Tower, I thought that was a good thing.

Every day at the academy was filled with tension at some point due to the incidents that continued to occur. There were days when I was having a good time, but incidents inevitably broke out, and he was always at the center of those incidents and accidents.

As I was close to him, I saw him often.

And it was a little… sad.

‘How does this always happen to him?’

…So, I thought it would be better for him to spend the day without incident while in the magic tower where the magic tower lord resides.

smart.

Then, I paused as I saw Karite knocking on the door again.

“Karite… ?”

“…I just can’t bear it without checking.”

There was no strength in her expression as she spoke blankly. She knew she had to stop him from knocking on her door anymore, but she couldn’t.

‘If I, being friends with him, feel this way… .’

Because right now, I don’t have the slightest understanding of how the women I am in love with might feel.

Crash.

Then, when the door was carefully opened, a woman appeared.

Through the swaying emerald hair, extremely calm eyes could be seen. There was something about the seemingly cold impression that made one hesitate to make eye contact.

‘Erpe.’

This was a woman I had seen a few times, and she was instructor Adelia’s assistant.

“Karite… didn’t I tell you that I couldn’t do it today?”

“Can’t we really see just a little bit? It’s nothing else… I just need to be able to confirm that he’s really safe and that Han Tiansheng’s condition is okay. If you could just let me see it in person for just one minute… .”

An earnest appeal followed.

“…’

It was an appeal filled with such sorrowful emotions that even I found myself staring blankly.

“That’s not something I can do for you. Instructor Adelia has already said that she does not want anyone to come in. And there is nothing wrong with Han Tiansheng’s body to worry about. I can promise you that. “Right now I’m just a little tired and passed out.”

Afterwards, I inadvertently felt relieved to see Erfe calming down her expression a little and answering carefully.

It was fortunate.

‘Wasn’t there any blood shed?’

When I first saw him, I instantly wondered if he had lost that much blood. It felt like my heart was sinking at the sight of such a miserable sight.

But the assistant’s words still put me at ease.

“How on earth can you believe that? I personally saw him go inside in such a terrible state, how can you say there was nothing wrong with his body…? That doesn’t make sense… And if it’s really true… I’ll ask you one favor too. Please let me see for myself. “If there really is nothing wrong with your body…”

But Karite was different from me.

Contrary to the fact that I was relieved by the assistant’s words, she became even more anxious.

He spoke passionately and expressed his opinions even more strongly.

“Karite. Now, calm down for a moment.”

For a moment, I felt like I had to stop her, and when I stopped her, Karite suddenly turned her head towards me.

Startle.

And the moment I met her eyes… .

I was speechless for a moment.

“…….”

Firmly closed lips. Her red eyes were already full of water, as if she was trying hard to hold back the emotions that were welling up.

It felt like the slightest touch would burst out the enormous emotions she had been suppressing.

I felt it.

Something was different.

Me being here now and Karite being here… are fundamentally very different.

“ha… .”

When I heard the assistant sigh, I awkwardly turned my gaze away from Karite.

I couldn’t look into those eyes anymore.

…and it seemed like it wouldn’t be possible for me to interfere and stop her.

The magnitude of each other’s emotions was so different.

I was definitely quite worried, so I wandered around in front of the nurse’s office looking for him.

‘But I can’t bear it… .’

I couldn’t say anything while looking into Karite’s eyes.

“it’s okay. Erpe, let you two come inside.”

Then, when I heard the instructor’s faint voice from afar, I felt extremely fortunate.

“Instructor Adelia… ?”

Despite the surprised voice of the assistant, a calm voice was heard from inside.

“If it were anyone else, I would have sent them back too… but there was nothing I could do.”

As the instructor’s voice continued to ring clearly in my ears, I was instantly conflicted.

Again!

As soon as the assistant gently moved out of the way, Karite was seen rushing inside.

There seemed to be no hesitation or even the slightest hesitation.

however.

‘Then I… ?’

Is it okay for me to come inside with Karite now?

Without even realizing it, I felt that way.

“Come on in.”

However, the voice I heard later caught my gaze blankly.

“Ah, thank you.”

He momentarily stuttered and walked awkwardly.

‘Rather than just being told it’s okay… .’

Still, it’s better to check his condition in person.

Yeah, that was all I had.

***

Slurp.

“……”

When I slowly opened my eyes, the space I saw was familiar.

It was impossible to notice the pure white interior and neatly organized space. It was a space I had seen countless times, so it felt very familiar.

‘The nurse’s office.’

Even though I was aware of where I was, I naturally turned my head.

Then, I saw her, who was supposed to be there. I could see her smiling faintly through her vivid emerald hair.

‘Adelia.’

…I didn’t want to be conscious like this when I met her.

Because I know that the more I do this, the more I worry about her.

But I felt like it made me worry again.

“Are you awake?”

I nodded absentmindedly at the soft voice.

“…yes.”

Even as I spoke, my body felt heavy.

It felt like my whole body was submerged in a huge swamp, and I didn’t feel comfortable opening my mouth.

“There is nothing wrong with my body right now. Still, it would be better to calm down first.”

“……okay.”

As I was answering, I was reminded of something.

The moment I personally finished off an apostle who was more terrible than any apostle I had ever dealt with, I still remember that last moment clearly.

By completing the seven Suras, he suppressed the very origin of the apostle and completely cut off his life.

So that the apostles can no longer use innocent people… .

I gave it my all.

And I could also remember looking up at the end blankly.

At that moment, I had no feelings whatsoever.

But I just looked at it.

Amidst the endless falling pieces of flesh and the pouring rain of blood, I engraved each and every one of them in my eyes.

The ugly atrocities committed by the apostle. I couldn’t leave the place because of the impossible auditory hallucinations.

-I’m glad it’s over now… .

-It doesn’t hurt anymore.

…The mouths of countless people screaming seemed as if they were saying that to me.

Even though dead people can’t talk, I definitely felt that way.

“……”

For a moment, my eyes became blurred.

It felt strange even as my eyes filled with Adelia’s beautiful appearance.

A completely empty mind.

At that moment, I was throwing out the spear as if I couldn’t feel any emotions… .

Now it all felt like a fleeting dream.

It was also an extremely terrible nightmare. It felt like a nightmare I never wanted to have again.

Even though I knew that it was reality and not a dream, I continued to think that way.

“……”

Even as my vision continued to blur, I was filled with incomprehensible emotions.

‘I am… .’

Did I really do the right thing?

Not an apostle… .

I feel guilty as if I killed so many people with my own hands.

Sreuk.

I bit my lip as her hand gently cupped my cheek.

The tingling pain of my lips reached me like an illusion.

It doesn’t hurt at all… .

It was strangely heartbreaking.