Became an Academy Spearman - Chapter 508



508. Will you always be by my side?

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“……”

I looked at the scenery outside the window as if I were immersed in it.

The sunny sky slowly turned red due to the sunset.

And the sky, which had changed color like that, was suddenly engulfed in darkness.

The sky was so completely black that it felt strange that the night, which had slowly given way to the sunset, was slowly fading away and then swallowed up in an instant.

“Do you have a lot on your mind?”

Then, I slowly shook my head at the voice I heard next to me.

It was Sir Isabelle.

“no. Not really. “I just felt like it was a long day.”

Even as I answered, I couldn’t take my eyes off the pitch-black night sky outside the window. Something… felt like a dream.

Today, as I encountered the apostle, I experienced a truly terrible day that will remain in my life.

Now the day is slowly coming to an end.

My mind had calmed down before I knew it.

And that was because I met many people.

First, Karite and Darsha.

After that, Milia and Luna urgently came to see me.

As I calmed down the surprised people, my heart also calmed down.

There was nothing like that because there was someone like Karite who accepted me warmly, but I realized again what was important.

Because there were people who connected with me and people who looked at me, I was able to calm my trembling heart without realizing it.

…It felt like it was natural.

“What happened today… I don’t think it’s a good moment to remember. “It is truly a terrible day, and it may be a day you will never forget even if you try to forget it for the rest of your life.”

Sir Isabel’s calm voice seemed as if she was trying to help me.

So I just listened in silence.

In fact, even now, when I close my eyes, I feel like the terrible moment will naturally come to mind over and over again.

Isn’t that why I can’t take my eyes off the sky outside the window?

Lots of corpses.

A terrible moment when the body that was originally a person was scattered and scattered here and there.

Even the blood that poured out endlessly to the point that the whole world was dyed red.

“But you have to be able to overcome it and accept it. you told me He said he would head to the front line later. In order to prove yourself and increase your value by heading to the front, something terrible like today can happen. “Maybe… we’ll see even more terrible sights.”

Calm.

The words that continued without much ups and downs throughout the conversation were heard comfortably in my ears.

So I thought about it more.

‘The front line might be worse than what I experienced today.’

Even though I had to face various crises like this, it wasn’t ‘every day’.

Not every day was painful and difficult.

However, they are the ones who stand on the front lines every day and struggle to protect the empire. I didn’t really know how much hardship they were going through as they faced danger every day.

I verbally promised myself that I would head to the front line and made my intentions known to those close to me.

But I truly… .

Did you really feel the weight of those words?

When I thought about it, I was able to accept it a little more.

“…I think I went through what I had to go through a little early.”

As I slowly opened my mouth, I gently looked away from the night sky that I was staring at as if I was fascinated.

Sreuk.

I turned my head and looked at her sitting next to me.

“…”

With her long blond hair and without much change in her expression, Sir Isabel was just like always.

Compared to me, who was shaken today and unable to control my emotions the moment I lost consciousness and regained it, she was so different.

Even though I faced the same horrible scene today… it was so different.

“However, that doesn’t mean that what happened today is something that anyone can experience easily.”

As she added, a small laugh escaped me without my knowledge.

It seemed like he was holding me strongly and admonishing me, but I felt another side to the way he was gently soothing me.

Strength and softness.

In the past, I only saw strength in her, but now she has softness and it was much more comfortable to look at her.

“Have you ever been shaken like me, Lord Isabelle?”

“there is.”

I was intrigued by the way he nodded as if it was obvious.

I had no idea how much time would have to pass before I could become like Lady Isabelle, who was looking at me now.

Unwavering even in the face of an apostle who committed such terrible atrocities… .

‘No, rather, Sir Isabel… .’

He showed such a strong heart that he supported me and calmed me down when I was greatly shaken.

I thought it was different regardless of strength.

There is more to her than just having power.

“I am also a person like you.”

“…Oh, that’s not what I meant.”

“i know.”

I glanced at her with a faint smile. It was the same as always, but even so, Lord Isabelle had changed.

I could see through her small smile that a lot had changed in her, whether she knew it or not.

“I was shaken a lot before becoming the Golden Knight. Do I really have to go down this path, and do I really have to sacrifice my life to go down this path? Do you have any regrets about your choice? I guess I could tell you a lot about how shaken I was. “In fact, at the same age as you, I would have been more shaken than you.”

“…is that so?”

“yes. In fact, compared to me back then, you are doing really well now. It shows more progress than I expected and is always moving forward. Just looking at the way you stood up to the apostle today is like that.”

“Still, I was… shaken a lot.”

“It didn’t shake much. No matter who you are, you will be greatly shaken when faced with a moment like today. And if I was just growing in power like you, I would have been even more shaken.”

It was calm.

I was speechless even as I blinked blankly at the sight of Lord Isabelle making eye contact with me and answering each question one by one.

Something felt unfamiliar.

Now that I am hearing these words with such direct meaning from Sir Isabel… .

Did I do something that great?

Compared to her, I don’t think I had a very good day.

“In that sense, the attitude you showed today was ideal in some ways. If you were hesitant to engage in battle with the apostle, you didn’t show any signs of being scared by the apostle or being swayed by the apostle’s suggestions. “I believe that, more than anything else, that attitude alone enabled you to grow more rapidly than any other being.”

“……”

I felt a lot from Sir Isabelle’s words.

Was she afraid or worried about something about me? And when she remembered it, she naturally laughed.

“growth… .”

Even as I looked at my hands for a moment, I vaguely felt it.

The strength I showed today was difficult even for me to understand. Because I used openness beyond my expectations and beyond my limits.

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It was clearly foreign.

However, there was nothing wrong with my body right now.

‘It’s strange.’

In fact, while using my power, I intended to accept any damage that might come to me in the future.

If only I could kill the apostle.

If only we could erase from this world the apostle who manipulates and exploits countless people as he pleases… .

I didn’t think about anything else.

Every time the apostle continued to do terrible things, my heart was shaken, and it soon turned into a huge hatred for the apostle.

Like lava filled with great heat.

From some point on, I was consumed with hatred.

Sreuk.

Then I saw Sir Isabelle’s hand holding the hand I was looking at.

It was pure white.

Even though they were the hands of a knight, her hands were very beautiful.

“And you’ll know more because of today.”

When the gentle words made eye contact, Sir Isabelle smiled slightly.

For a moment, I couldn’t understand and just looked at it, and then I felt a gentle hand caressing my hand.

“It’s not confusing anymore.”

“…yes. that’s right.”

“Why do you think that is?”

The way he asked softly made me think of it for a moment.

People I saw today.

When I thought of all the people who had consoled me, including Adelia, I unconsciously came to understand.

What have I learned now?

…and what Sir Isabelle wants to say to me.

“This is a reason not to be shaken.”

“that’s right. It is very difficult for any person to encounter the sight of a person dying or a corpse and to see an apostle using it. Whether someone is very sad or very angry, their emotions are bound to be shaken. And it’s not that different even to me.”

Sreuk.

Strength went into the hand I held.

Sir Isabelle was holding my hand tightly.

“Nevertheless, everyone is overcoming it, enduring it, and facing reality. Even if it’s hard, you have to overcome it. There is a reason to continue living or something I want to protect. Or you have to fight back to protect yourself.”

“……”

Rather than giving any response to her words, I just made eye contact.

Sir Isabelle said that she, too, was shaken by the terrible atrocities of the Apostle.

However, he said that he did not express it outwardly and reveal it.

…And I didn’t say that the reason was different from mine.

Same as me.

“For me, you are the biggest reason why I am now. A reason why I shouldn’t be shaken. And a reason to face the apostle even more calmly.”

I was speechless as she slowly expressed her sincerity.

…Something was cowardly.

I feel like she keeps making it impossible for me to say anything.

So now I didn’t know how to react.

I’m grateful to her for saying so many things to me right now, and I’m grateful… .

At the same time, it felt like my heart was going to her.

“It’s the same for me too.”

What she said at the end was the same thing she said.

“…same?”

“yes. “Because Sir Isabelle was by my side… even though her heart was shaken, she was able to stand up to the Apostle.”

If she wasn’t by my side today, would I have been able to properly confront the apostle alone?

Thinking about it now, I felt unsure.

Even before I faced the apostle, I had confidence in myself.

He said he had that much power,

The power you have. And with the strength I gained, I thought I would not be swayed by the apostle.

We will no longer be able to barely overcome crises and survive like before.

But it wasn’t.

The atrocities the apostle showed were beyond my expectations, and I did not truly understand what he meant when he said he knew my tendencies.

So my heart was greatly shaken.

Sreuk!

A deep breath escaped me as I held her hand that was holding me tightly.

Even as I composed myself, I could see her eyes staring at me.

It was beautiful.

And… I felt like I could now definitely establish a relationship.

Now Sir Isabelle… .

I felt like I couldn’t be myself without you by my side.

“Will you always be by my side?”

“…!”