Became an Academy Spearman - Chapter 509



509. Because I’m a worse woman than you think

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“Will you always be by my side?”

“…!”

Isabelle opened her eyes at the completely unexpected words and blinked blankly.

Then she realized something.

The way he looks at himself now is different from usual. It felt even bigger because it was a look in his eyes that reminded him of the fond times he had spent in the past on the meadow.

Sreuk!

When I suddenly felt a strong force in the hand I was holding, my body flinched.

“no, I do not want?”

Then he smiled softly and asked again, and I found myself shaking my head without even realizing it.

“There’s no way you wouldn’t like it.”

Even as I opened my lips, my heart was pounding loudly.

“I want to hear Lord Isabelle’s answer.”

“…Even if you don’t say that, I will be by your side.”

“always?”

“yes. always… .”

Even as I was answering the persistent questions, I felt confused. More precisely, it felt sudden.

I thought he was very confused and probably still shocked by what happened today, so I said several things to him. I interfered with him more than usual and tried to show him how to make up his mind and not be shaken.

But suddenly, the situation completely changed.

I couldn’t feel any more confusion when I saw him in my eyes.

The eyes that were staring straight at me were full of gunfire and felt like they were shining.

I was extremely fortunate that he had regained his composure, but every single word he said shook my heart.

“……”

It was still like that now.

With the person just staring at me, I couldn’t easily say or do anything.

As my eyes fell on the lips that slowly opened, a soft voice came out.

“From now on, I will treat Lord Isabelle more seriously.”

“That means… .”

“Sir Isabelle responded that she would stay by my side from now on. “Then shouldn’t I look at Lord Isabelle differently now?”

Even though the voice that asked with a smile was light, the words were not light at all.

‘actually… .’

During this time, I felt a little strange.

Exactly what kind of relationship should I see between me and him?

Because I couldn’t come up with an answer to that.

I lost my mind early on, and a strange feeling of awkwardness lingered after that. Then, at some point, we started treating each other as usual.

As if the kisses and sweet words in the meadow were all just a fleeting dream.

So, I was happy when he leaned on me in the park last night… but I couldn’t go any further than that.

And now it felt like there was an answer to our relationship.

He also told me that first.

Ask him to stay by your side.

“…….”

Even though my lips were hesitant, I just looked at him.

The eyes looking at me with a faint smile were just soft.

“So what relationship do you and I have now?”

So I asked without thinking.

Even though I wanted to ask for a long time, I couldn’t say it.

I don’t think so yet.

Because I don’t think he cares about me.

I think I need more time… .

But that time has come so far ahead.

I really felt the way he looked at the woman who was his lover. And I knew he didn’t look at me like that.

But right now, I could feel it in the way he looked at me.

Now I know he has clear feelings for me.

“What kind of relationship does Lord Isabelle want with me?”

I frowned at the mischievous answer.

“…I was the one who asked the question first.”

Since he already knows how I feel, I wanted to hear it from him first, at least for now.

“As Sir Isabelle said, I may have made a bit of a mistake. “First of all, let me tell you how I feel… I want to be with Lord Isabelle always.”

“I want to be with you…”

“Because I started to like it that much.”

Tuk.

My gaze wavered at the words that followed.

“I’m sorry for not speaking properly until now. But now I can talk.”

“……again.”

The words leaked out inadvertently.

“Tell me again.”

I felt like I needed to listen again.

Now, isn’t this moment like a fleeting dream? .

Even though I clearly heard what he said, I wanted to hear it again.

Peek, he burst into laughter for a moment, and even though shame was welling up in me, I did not avoid his gaze.

“Isabel Eleanor. “I like you.”

And when he spoke more directly, saying my full name, my heart sank.

That was… really strange.

It just sounded like an easy thing to say. And it felt like he conveyed his feelings to me very lightly.

But when those light words reached me, they sounded like the biggest words of anything in the world.

I vaguely remembered the time when I was the most proud of myself for being a Golden Knight.

I feel like I have the whole world.

A sense of accomplishment that I had finally achieved my dream by becoming the Golden Knight I had longed for.

Those moments of endless happiness seemed to overlap.

From his simple words.

…It was just strange how my mood had changed so much now.

Because it’s so good.

Sreuk.

He gently took my hand and led me, and I was dragged along without any strength.

“Is that what you wanted to hear?”

When his cautious voice rang like a whisper in my ear, a laugh naturally escaped me even though I trembled.

“…You already know how I feel.”

Even though I obviously know the answer.

You don’t have to ask me that.

…It felt even more mischievous than his usual appearances.

“Still, I want to hear it from Lord Isabelle herself.”

I opened my mouth in a daze at the soft voice.

“I’ve always wanted to hear that from you.”

I answered as he wanted, but was dazed.

Sreuk.

I took a small breath while burying my face in his shoulder.

“…”

Even as I felt a hand gently wrapping around my shoulder, my vision became blurry.

Even though I was aware that moisture was building up in my eyes, I couldn’t even wipe them away.

So many emotions welled up.

‘I’m so happy… .’

I didn’t know why my heart was so shaken.

…It was just amazing that my heart could be shaken like this even though I was just happy.

Tuk. Tuk.

As his hand gently patted my back, a small smile escaped me and I felt like I was being pampered.

‘I’m older… .’

Is it right to listen to his words and hold him in my arms without resistance?

‘I don’t know.’

But just being held in his arms like this made me want nothing more.

I’m already happy enough right now.

“…”

I was careful as I gently leaned against his waist and hugged him.

Sreuk.

During that time, I couldn’t easily touch him or approach him.

I wonder if my position as a golden knight and my background as a marquis family are forcing him–because that’s what made him hesitate.

So he is like this. It touched me even more when he first spoke to me and took action.

As I hugged him, I no longer had to worry about such things.

…so it was better.

‘I guess it’s because this is the moment I wanted the most.’

I really didn’t know how to act anymore.

I’m really glad he expressed his feelings.

…I didn’t even know how to express that joy.

“Thank you for liking me so much.”

The sudden remark made me laugh a little.

“…Why are you thanking me?”

“Because this is how I came to like Sir Isabelle. “How could I not thank you for liking me first?”

My heart fluttered loudly at the calm voice.

I still felt it.

How much my joyful heart likes him.

No, I couldn’t deny my love even if I wanted to.

‘And my heart… .’

Did I really make him like me?

Before I knew it, I started liking him, and at some point I couldn’t deny that feeling.

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So that came out.

That I have feelings for him.

It was evident everywhere that he was conscious of him.

He also became conscious of me.

Originally, he was the knight who protected him, and even though he tried to keep his distance, it ended up being like this.

“Thank you too.”

“Because I like Lord Isabelle?”

“Thank you for that, but… . “You caught me back in the pasture.”

“……”

A small laugh escaped me as I realized that he didn’t answer for a moment.

Sreuk.

I spoke calmly while leaning into his arms a little more.

“Even if you didn’t like me at the time, I’m really grateful that you thought of my feelings and came to me… and held on to me.”

When I think about that time… .

I thought that was really selfish.

It wasn’t him who held on to me even though he didn’t like me, but I was so selfish for not rejecting him.

Even though I knew he had a lover, I still cared about him.

Even though I watched Carly so sad, I couldn’t give up.

When he led me to the meadow, I obediently followed him.

and… .

I kissed him and accepted what he was doing to me.

“Lord Isabelle.”

“Say it.”

“If I hadn’t caught Lord Isabelle back then… would you have given up on me?”

At the sound of his voice asking carefully, I gently lifted the head I was leaning against.

And I stared at him from a distance so close that each other’s breath could touch.

“……”

I smiled again as I watched him look at me with clear, passionate eyes.

“no.”

…I probably wouldn’t have given up.

No matter how it continues… I probably still have feelings for him.

I thought that if I had been willing to give up in the first place, I wouldn’t have spilled my feelings outwardly.

“…I’m a worse woman than you think.”

As I spoke, I gently kissed his lips.

side.

Even though I knew he had a lover, I still cared about him.

‘perhaps……’

So, if I hadn’t been connected to him like I am now… .

Maybe I would have done something worse than I am now.