Became an Academy Spearman - Chapter 519



519. Their strange hearts

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It is said that the end of everything is always important.

Even if the beginning is poor or the atmosphere is not that good, if the ending is good, everything works out well.

…I tended to agree with that to some extent.

Because if things end well, things usually turn out well.

Again.

That… .

But even as I watched the two people disappearing from my sight, I had to feel a strange feeling.

Leonhard and Yumia.

The sight of Leonhard with a slightly depressed expression and Yumia looking at him with a somewhat worried expression caught my eye.

It was a bit different from what they had been like so far.

“What should we have for dinner?”

“Yumia. “If it’s something you like, I’m okay with whatever it is…”

“Hey, don’t say that… I want to eat something you like today. huh?”

I can faintly hear the awkward conversation between the two people.

The two have always been close, and I knew from the past that they would become lovers. That’s because I know the future of this world, and among them, relationships that can never change are determined by my standards.

The relationship between Yumia and Leonhard was like that.

It was a natural order for them to become lovers and to fall in love with each other.

“Whoa.”

I let out a deep breath and gently tapped my cheek.

slap.

It seemed like he hit me a little hard, but he seemed to wake up from the pain and shook his head.

Rather, this pain felt much better to me now. It definitely gave me a strange feeling.

And I can’t think of something stupid… .

“I’ll have to be careful from now on.”

Let’s never accept Yumia’s strange request again.

For some reason, I even made a promise to myself.

Rather, I felt fortunate that I had realized something important at this point. It didn’t go too far, and fortunately, it ended in a way that didn’t lead to a major conflict.

A situation that could have ended in a much worse mood than it is now, somehow ended well.

Sreuk.

As I turned and walked in the opposite direction, my eyes blurred.

“I feel it at times like this, but I also can’t like people too much.”

I felt this indirectly while watching Leonhard a little while ago.

…It’s not a good thing to think that I have similar tendencies to him.

That’s right too.

Leonhard didn’t get angry when he saw me and Yumia today.

In fact, the situation that happened today was mysterious, and although it was an accident that happened by coincidence, it was visible that Leonhard was suppressing his emotions inside.

Yumia fell as if she was going to attack me,

As I competed for strength at the end, I unintentionally got to see Yumia’s inner skin… and even her red underwear.

As the scene of that moment came to mind without me realizing it, I shook my head loudly.

‘Don’t think about it.’

I had to forget.

I thought I should forget about Yumia, whom I truly saw.

Tight.

Even as I chewed my lips, I felt a little anxious.

“…I guess that wasn’t really what they were aiming for.”

In fact, it was no exaggeration to say that while sparring, I had completely forgotten about Yumia’s request.

I fell in love with the sparring and focused on the power of fire that Yumia displayed.

But the moment when Yumia suddenly spewed out blue flames and rushed towards me. I felt it without even realizing it.

As I looked at Yumia falling towards me, I hesitated and stopped.

So I accepted Yumia’s actions of falling down as if she was attacking me.

I wonder if Yumia may have intended that.

I definitely said it was a hand, but I was just wondering.

Shaking my head!

I shook my head loudly and shook off the useless thoughts that kept coming up.

“…She’s my friend’s girl.”

I cleared up all my thoughts with just one word.

There was nothing to think about about Yumia.

***

Yumia and Leonhardt in the cadet cafeteria for dinner.

It was quite quiet as we each ate the food we brought. Rather, the two people could only occasionally hear the voices of the cadets eating around them.

“……”

“……”

Although the silence was awkward, Yumia paused.

Glancing.

And then I caught sight of Leonhard eating right across from me.

It was calm. And he seemed to be concentrating on his meal, which wasn’t that different from usual.

‘But… you’re still angry, right?’

Maybe we should think like that.

Everything that happened today was absolutely not of my own will. To be exact, I sparred with Han Tiansheng with slightly impure intentions, but I didn’t even have time to think about it.

Because Han Tiansheng was too strong.

…So it all happened by chance.

“Big, big.”

I cleared my throat for no reason and turned Leonhard’s attention to me.

“what’s the matter?”

I smiled awkwardly as I looked at Leonhard, who naturally had his eyes on me.

…I tried to smile without feeling awkward, but it didn’t work out the way I wanted.

“I just thought it was too quiet. “We’ve never been like this before.”

“Ah, if you think about it, it was like that. “I just thought dinner was delicious today.”

He responded to my words with a light smile, and just by looking at his appearance, he didn’t seem to be angry at all.

But I didn’t lose my mind.

“okay? Good thing then… and Leonhard. “It was just as you said.”

“As I said?”

“There was something I felt clearly while sparring with Han Tiansheng.”

Tuk.

I know that talking about Han Cheon-seong is a very uncomfortable topic right now, but I still mentioned it out loud.

This had to be solved properly now. So that I don’t have any feelings left inside.

“…”

Stop.

As I thought, I saw Leonhard pause for a moment and look at me again.

It seemed like he was clearly aware of what had happened today.

“If that’s the case… I’m glad. Han Tiansheng is definitely amazing in many ways.”

“Yes, it was really as great as you said. Both the response Han Tian-seong showed and the way he faced me with pure power. Even though I showed my best today, I clearly felt that I couldn’t reach Han Tiansheng yet.”

Even though I spoke quietly, I felt one thing clearly.

‘Even if I pour out all my might… .’

The only cadet who can stand so calmly is Han Cheon-seong.

Even for Leonhard in front of me, that would be impossible.

Explosion, my power manifested with all its might, seems to have its origins in high-level magic. It was a power solely for destruction, and it was a power that could easily hurt anyone.

In fact, as I unleashed my full power today, for the first time, I felt like I had completely unleashed my power.

It was definitely like an epiphany.

“…….”

When Leonhard, who had been looking at me silently, gently lifted a piece of meat to his mouth, I smiled slightly in resignation.

“Did you feel bad watching sparring today?”

“huh… ?”

When Leonhard opened his eyes so wide that anyone would think he was surprised. I continued calmly.

“In Dalian today, neither I nor Han Tiansheng had that intention, but there was a situation like that… Why not even in the middle or at the end… .”

As I said it, I also felt a little embarrassed.

I never thought there would come a time when I would have to say such strange things to Leonhard.

‘If I were to relate to a man other than Leonhard… .’

I never even dreamed that I would have to apologize and explain.

“no. Yumia, I don’t know why you said that, but there’s no need to think that way at all.”

“You can just be honest now. Honestly, even if it was all an accident, you wouldn’t have felt good as everyone was watching.”

I actually allowed Leonhard to speak a little more easily.

If you feel bad, say it was bad.

“That’s… But that doesn’t mean I have any bad feelings toward you or Han Tiansheng. “I just realized for the first time today that this kind of feeling exists.”

When Leonhard carefully accepted my words and smiled slightly, I paused.

“okay… ?”

That was a bit different from the answer I expected.

“then. I can accept it just because it wasn’t something the two people had in mind. Because it’s even weirder to have unreasonable negative feelings. As you said, it didn’t feel good. But that doesn’t mean I have any intention of saying anything about it.”

He expressed his feelings with a very refreshing smile, but for a moment I was speechless.

‘Strange.’

Really… something felt strange.

It was the first time while watching Leonhard, but there are times when I feel it often.

‘How could someone be so nice?’

Even though I’m an adult, I wonder how I can trust others so easily. I often thought about that thought without even realizing it.

Compared to any other person I’ve seen in my life, Leonhard is a unique person.

Although I was attracted to his handsome appearance at first, I was naturally drawn to his behavior the whole time we were together.

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I was more attracted to the choice that others would not make and the attitude of having a pure mindset.

Sreuk.

When he gently took my hand, I flinched without realizing it.

“Yumia. I don’t want you to think too much about it. Today’s incident happened today, so you don’t have to feel different and feel sorry for me. “I’m not angry.”

It was still like that now.

As if denying everything I had to say, Leonhard spoke to me with a pure smile.

Everyone understands.

Of course, I didn’t think I had committed a major injustice.

It was all an accident, and it happened somehow. Even if Han Cheon-seong spoke with such an impure meaning at first, at least he never had such an impure meaning during the sparring.

…I may not know the process, but looking at the results, I felt proud of myself.

“Thank you for saying that, but… Leonhard, by any chance.”

The words leaked out without me even realizing it.

“huh. why?”

“Then… haven’t you thought of anything else?”

I knew that he had such a good heart and that he understood me and Han Cheon-seong with the right heart.

But the most important thing was missing.

Words that are more important than anything else.

“Any other thoughts?”

Seeing the innocent question, frustration welled up inside me again.

…why.

Why does he look so innocent and talk to me in such a nice way?

I hoped it wouldn’t be like that, at least not for now.

I wanted him to get angry at me and express some kind of disappointment.

“Well… no matter how Han Cheon-seong is, I ended up in such a strange situation with another man. But you… can you get over it so easily?”

So I said it quite bluntly.

Why are you trying to ignore what happened today?

I couldn’t help but say it because I felt like Leonhard would just move on if I didn’t say it properly.

“Easy… let’s get over it. “I’m not really like that.”

“I think you get off on it too easily.”

It was as if our circumstances had changed.

It was Leonhard who had to press and interrogate me like this, and it should have been me who smiled and awkwardly answered Leonhard’s question like that.

But it was just the opposite.

“I did it because I was thinking of the two of you. Because I could see Han Tiansheng feeling sorry for me at the end. And Yumia, you also spoke to me in a strange way, as if you were watching me, right?”

“That’s it… that’s right. by the way. Leonhardt. Is it really… that’s the end?”

I answered blankly and asked again.

Even as I faced Leonhard, who was staring at me calmly at my words, I felt very strange.

‘If this happens… .’

It shouldn’t be like this.

Am I really weird?

Even though I had many different thoughts in mind, I thought about the answer that would come out of his mouth.

“It’s over. I don’t want to talk any more and fight my feelings about it. “It’s already over, and I know that both of us looked at me that way, but I don’t think it would be better if I kept holding on to that.”

Leonhard was still calm.

Even though it wasn’t his intention, he hugged me as if he was attacking another man. Even though I showed him my body, he seemed strangely calm.

And it wasn’t that I couldn’t understand it.

however.

I… I hated it.

I really, really hated it.

“I’d rather… please be angry.”

“Yumia. what’s the matter?”

I was out of breath even as I watched Leonhard ask such a foolish and innocent question.

…Then he took a deep breath and poured out his words.

“Leonhardt, you know. “I… I really like you… I really like you, but sometimes I feel like I’m going to hate you when you show this side of me.”

As I spoke, my emotions filled me with endless emotion.

I know that what I just said is something I shouldn’t say, but I couldn’t hold back my feelings without showing my true feelings.

‘I do not know.’

But I was so depressed.

Why on earth do I… .

Did he go to sparring today by asking Han Cheon-seong like that yesterday? Even though we were barely conscious of it during the sparring session, it was because I was that desperate.

Because I wanted Leonhard to look at me a little more properly.

“……”

When I saw Leonhard, who had stopped talking and his eyes were wide open, I burst into laughter.

Sreuk!

Even though he was holding my hand tightly, he just said it.

“I am. “I wish you were more obsessed with me.”

Even as I spat out the words in a daze, the emotions welling up in my heart seemed to be twisting.

Why do you have to tell me everything to know?

And I could only think that Leonhard had fallen too far back.

I felt like an idiot having to explain everything like this.

“Obsession… .”

As I looked at Leonhard mumbling absently, I held his hand even more tightly.

“Yes, you are obsessed with me. “I’m telling you to look after me more properly so that I can’t be with other men or hang out with other men in the future.”

Even if I say it so bluntly, if Leonhard doesn’t treat me properly.

…Now really.

I also felt like I would have bad feelings.

“Is it okay to be obsessed…?”

Then, when I heard Leonhard’s voice asking carefully, the feelings that had been filled with resentment seemed to let go…

“Yeah, you’d rather be obsessed with me. “Like I’m obsessed with you right now.”

…I didn’t expect you to be as obsessed with me as I was.

‘Because Leonhard is so kind.’

But at least for me. I didn’t want Leonhard to make me be with another man.

I hope you love me that much more.