Became an Academy Spearman - Chapter 543



543. Princess Rachel’s Love

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“……”

Rachel, who was staring blankly, couldn’t understand for a moment.

why?

‘Why are you rejecting me?’

I understood why he was so hesitant, seeing that he hesitated even though he had been charmed earlier.

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Because there is another woman.

He is hesitant to face me because there are other women he has given his heart to.

Because I understood that, I made as much concession as I could. Even the imperial family tolerated something that was unprecedented and said they would accept him… .

He was really considerate so that I didn’t have to end my relationship with another woman.

That was a really difficult decision for me to make.

Nevertheless, I willingly spoke up. What an unprecedented statement that you don’t have to give up on other women by choosing me… .

“Would you like to say that again?”

“I think my relationship with Princess Rachel is at its best right now. Since you believed in my words and made this choice, I will do my best to do whatever the princess chose from now on. “You don’t have to doubt that much.”

He spoke calmly and did not avoid my gaze.

So I saw it with my eyes.

The way his eyes were shaking clearly reflected his feelings of wanting me even now while he was staring at me.

…and yet he tries to reject me.

Her heart is probably already full of me, and even though she desperately wants me and desires me, she tries to reject me.

I couldn’t understand.

Rather, it was harder for me to accept it.

This reality that he is trying to reject me.

“Why? “Why on earth are you saying that?”

“As I said earlier… I know that what the princess said to me yesterday showed great consideration. But now I still have a lot to do. Moreover, I have not yet escaped my humble status, and I believe that I have achieved little.”

“So… ?”

“How dare I have such a relationship with the princess? I still think I am receiving undeserved love. I am already receiving too much love from women for even myself to handle. That’s why I think we shouldn’t enter into relationships with the same mentality as we have now.”

It continues endlessly.

Han Tiansheng had no hesitation in speaking to me as if he had already thought about it.

Even though his eyes were shaking greatly as he looked at me and his body desperately wanted me, he was pouring out those words that were hard to believe.

refuse.

And it was rejection again.

“……”

I felt like I was suffocating for a moment at this completely unexpected development.

Today I thought of a good answer. And my heart swelled more than ever before as I looked forward to what kind of days I would spend in the future by becoming connected to him last night.

…Because it was my first time.

It was the first time I had cared for someone so much, the first time I fell in love with someone… he was the first.

So the shock in my heart right now felt indescribably great.

“You can’t lie to the princess. Therefore, even now, my heart clearly believes that she is in love with the princess.”

Hearing the voice that continued, I looked at him blankly again.

“…….”

His slightly smiling face was a mixture of various emotions, making it difficult to tell.

But one thing was clear.

‘For sure… .’

he loves me

So how on earth can you say something like that? Even if that feeling was full of lies due to fascination, it would feel much closer to sincerity to him.

It had to be that way.

‘Just as I love him now.’

The result of the emotion itself was no different from mine.

So how can he even smile like that when my heart hurts so much when I hear his words?

“so… .”

I kept stopping to speak.

My emotions were crashing like huge waves, and I couldn’t express them.

“Why on earth are you saying it can’t be done?”

I barely finished speaking and stared.

I never wanted to give up on this feeling. It was the first emotion I felt, and it was an emotion that captivated me more than any other emotion I had felt since birth.

So I don’t want to miss it. I want to have him.

…I want to make it mine.

It was a desire and a wish that was stronger than any other desire.

“Because I want to be proud of myself first and foremost. In that sense, I don’t think I’m qualified to accept the princess yet.”

Nevertheless, he continued to carefully express his opinions.

I was able to see it belatedly through the shaking eyes.

No matter how much he thought and hesitated before coming up with that answer, it wasn’t like his heart wasn’t hurting right now.

Just as my heart was continually breaking as I was being rejected by someone for the first time, he was also hurting by saying that to me.

He didn’t say that to me casually.

“But like you said, you like me. And I said… I like you. But what qualifications do you need? We like each other…do we need something more than that? I told you I like you. You gave permission. And I understand why you hesitate, so I even told you that yesterday. He said he would accept it even if there was another woman, and that it didn’t matter… … .”

Even as he spoke as if pouring out his emotions, his heart ached.

It was strange.

If I did this… I couldn’t do it.

I made such a big decision and even said those words to him to keep him by my side.

But the fact that he would reject me was a reality I had never imagined.

So I didn’t want to accept it any more.

“I know how much consideration the princess has given me. “I just don’t think I’ve become enough of a man to be by the princess’s side.”

“I… gave permission.”

I bit my lip, barely able to suppress the emotions that were threatening to burst out.

As my vision became endlessly blurred, I shook my head without realizing it.

I just wanted him to…accept me.

Then we could both be happy.

Who likes and loves whom, but why do we need qualifications?

Even I already gave permission.

He can stay by my side. I personally gave permission.

“Even if I received permission, I don’t think I can be in a relationship with the princess right now. That’s why… I hope we can maintain the relationship we had before.”

Sreuk.

I held my face without realizing it.

No matter how much I suppressed my emotions, I couldn’t control them anymore.

Through my blurred vision, something kept dripping down my cheek.

…Even as I tried to wipe it away, my mind was blank.

yesternight.

I didn’t know how much I looked forward to today.

He confesses his love to me, and I accept it, clearly demarcating the relationship.

By becoming lovers… .

But the reality was not like that.

And I also felt that we exchanged a few words.

‘I can’t change it.’

No matter what I said now, there was nothing I could do to change that decision he made.

It was that firm.

How can he say something like that when his heart hurts as much as mine? .

I still didn’t know.

“……”

As I looked into his eyes as he waited for me for a moment, I had a blank thought.

‘I’m here…’ .’

I didn’t know if I could change his mind by force if I approached him again and showed fascination.

He was already in a state of complete fascination with me. If I use a greater charm there, he will demand me much more strongly.

It was inevitably so.

however.

I couldn’t help but laugh out loud.

I… didn’t want to do that.

I no longer wanted to use charm to turn his heart toward me.

He already said he loved me. But then again, I instilled false emotions in them and made them look at me… .

My heart couldn’t do that anymore.

Because my feelings are not the same as when we faced each other at the Magic Tower.

Because I don’t want to just keep him by my side and use him as a huge ally.

“ha… .”

Even though I bit my lip, I let out a sigh that I couldn’t hide.

Even now, seeing him staring at me and waiting for an answer made my heart ache.

It felt as if one side of my chest had been cut with a knife.

‘It’s different.’

I felt it again.

That he is so different from other people.

Until now, I never understood how he could become strong. How have you overcome so many crises?

…But now I felt like I knew a little, a little bit.

“Even so… I won’t allow you to go away from me.”

This was just a reprieve.

He said he wanted to be proud of himself. Among the reasons he rejected me, the biggest reason was his need for himself.

You need greater qualifications to be by my side.

So, later on, when he shined even brighter and fully revealed his value.

I will have him.

So our relationship never ended.

“…yes.”

When I saw him pause and answer, a strange laugh escaped me.

It was really funny to see him as if he was waiting for such an answer from me.

So I was able to accept it even though it was difficult.

He was a man who rejected me with a heart that had even overcome fascination. He had such a strong heart that he made his determination clear to me.

Then I had to do something corresponding to that.

‘He has no choice but to look at me more.’

I also had to increase my value so that he could not help but want me in some way, rather than just looking at me because of the trait of fascination.