Became an Academy Spearman - Chapter 600



600. Leonhard Loriant – Inner Awakening

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The next day, Friday.

Only one day of rest was given until the Grand Colosseum quarterfinals. Even though it was such a precious time, not many people could fully rest.

All of the participating cadets felt it.

No, I was craving it.

Winning the Grand Colosseum, even if you don’t win, how much it means to get good results.

Even if you look at it in a small way, if you are a noble family, you can greatly enhance the reputation of the family you belong to through the Colosseum, and you can contribute to the family yourself.

That meant a lot to those who grew up receiving a lot of support from their families.

Regardless of the title, this was a huge ‘opportunity’.

You can prove your value by announcing the name of yourself and the family you belong to to the royal family, high-ranking nobles, and countless crowds visiting the Grand Colosseum.

In fact, such a position was never easy to come to, even throughout life.

In that sense… … .

There were also people with bigger hearts.

… … .

It was already past lunch, and the afternoon sun was shining brightly on the ground. The indoor training area, which does not receive sunlight, was perfect for concentrating one’s mind.

And inside the training hall, Leonhard was alone, staring at his sword.

“… … .”

Even as I looked at my sword in quiet silence, my heart wavered slightly.

‘opportunity.’

I was slowly realizing that the opportunity that had come to me was such a big opportunity.

I found out later.

Even my family came all the way to the capital to see me.

I had to feel a strange feeling while meeting someone from my family. Even though I lost my parents in the past, there were countless people who were connected to me along with my family.

They had expectations of me.

Very high hopes for the Loriant family to regain its former glory.

“Whoa.”

Even as I stared at the sword that was now one body, only a light breath escaped.

‘I forgot.’

Without realizing it, I had forgotten the mindset I had when I first entered the academy.

So far, I have been running endlessly forward with the intention of becoming endlessly stronger.

The old glory of the Loriant family. I wonder how much support I received from my family, which was on the decline, and how I was able to reach this position.

But I forgot about that and was only thinking about myself.

I have now advanced to the quarterfinals at the Colosseum, and my future will be decided in the quarterfinals that will be revealed in an hour from now.

Rather than feeling like my future is in my hands, I feel like my future is determined by the upcoming match.

That was funny even to think about.

I needed to be confident, confident, and face the reality of the future, but I didn’t do that myself.

It was something I already knew.

The difference in rank that exists between them and me. When I look at the faces of the people who advanced to the quarterfinals like me, I can vaguely feel whether I can beat them or not just by looking at the matchup.

I shook my head slowly.

I opened my mouth in a daze while my eyes were filled with blonde hair that had grown long due to lack of maintenance recently.

“I have to do it.”

It wasn’t the time to think about whether I could win against them or not. Considering the goal I had when I first joined the academy, I had to do it.

And in order to do that… I needed to strengthen my mind more.

A desire to improve, a desire to improve my skills. That wasn’t enough.

‘more.’

I needed to look further ahead and refine my mind. Then, the focus of the eyes that were looking at the sword momentarily became blurred.

It was like a strange phenomenon I experienced recently. Even though she had the sword in her eyes, she somehow wasn’t looking at it.

It felt as if the sword I was holding in my hand had suddenly disappeared.

Something like the blue sky began to overlap in a strange way, as if it was glimmering in my vision.

“… … .”

I concentrated my consciousness in that state.

A feeling of sinking one’s consciousness to a deep place. I didn’t even have to close my eyes to do that.

You know it yourself.

How should the power truly desired advance, and what kind of power is pursued by the true source of power possessed by Changcheon Ilgeom.

In a transparent consciousness where I felt as if I would disappear, I unconsciously remembered a person.

‘Han Tiansheng.’

Suddenly, a figure holding a spear and displaying enormous power flashed across my vision.

At one time, I thought of him as a rival, and when I lost my strength due to an accident while facing an apostle, I thought that he showed me the path I should take.

And at some point, I started to lag behind Han Cheon-seong.

I definitely thought he had great talent. Even though the characteristics given to him by the world are so low, Han Cheon-seong’s talent itself is clearly similar to mine or even better.

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But there was something that couldn’t be explained even with that.

‘Something more than talent’

There was a very large gap between Han Tiansheng and me that could not be bridged.

“… … .”

My transparent mind became distorted, and many negative thoughts filled my head.

It was close to a feeling that I couldn’t hide no matter how hard I tried to erase it.

Envy, disappointment, depression, confusion… … .

Whenever I felt those negative emotions, I denied myself.

I scolded myself that there was no time for me to be lost in such intimate feelings, even if I tried harder and faced the future.

However, deep down in my heart, I always had suspicions about Han Tiansheng.

Why can that guy just look ahead and move forward in a crisis?

Just as I was in agony and confusion after a major accident that caused me to lose my characteristics, Han Cheon-seong, who faced the danger of death while facing several apostles, was not much different from me in a big way.

It wouldn’t be strange at all if he fell into confusion like me and had a hard time recovering his strength.

Rather, it was surprising that Han Tiansheng did not lose himself while facing so many apostles.

Nevertheless, I looked ahead and grew.

While it took several months for me to stagnate and recover my strength, Han Tiansheng grew further apart during that time, widening a gap that I could not possibly bridge.

Tight.

“… .”

I chewed my lip and held my breath that was about to burst out.

If I really think about it honestly, I felt even more resentful about it.

Even at first, I was definitely ahead. And through sparring, I came to acknowledge him.

He said he was comparable to me.

I truly thought that he was a person worthy of recognition, regardless of his characteristics.

However, as time passed, I was feeling angry at myself.

It was never anger toward Han Tiansheng.

‘Why me.’

Why is it so stopped?

By demonstrating his will to work hard, he regained the characteristic of Changcheonilgeom.

Feeling the joy of regaining my strength, I tried harder. Still, I vaguely felt it.

‘Why can’t I look further ahead and move forward quickly?’

A huge feeling, like a deep longing, existed in the back of my mind like a well that could not be filled.

I couldn’t help but feel that way when I met Han Cheon-seong while preparing for the Grand Colosseum. It changes every day.

Even when I was not achieving significant growth day by day, Han Tiansheng, who was far ahead of me, was taking strides and moving further.

Why could that be?

Before I knew it, I was projecting myself onto a being named Han Cheon-seong.

I thought that he was the one who showed me the way forward, and that he helped me tremendously in regaining my strength.

that much.

…I was also able to see the path I would take.

In that sense, it’s something I lack.

What I don’t have now.

What is missing… … .

I thought in a daze as the accidents continued endlessly.

I didn’t even know how much time had passed in those thoughts right away. But a huge change occurred.

“ah.”

A dazed sound escaped me without my knowledge, and I woke up as if my vision of the blue sky had been shattered.

And before I knew it, I was seeing reality.

There was a sword in sight.

A sword that I hold.

“It wasn’t strength.”

A feeling that I felt for the first time lingered in my heart.

Refreshing to the extreme. Through the strange feeling that my mind was completely empty, I realized in a daze.

ㅡResolution.

…That was Han Tiansheng’s determination that I didn’t know about.

Although Han Tiansheng wanted to grow greatly, he did not set his sights on power itself.

Considering the look in his eyes, I felt like I knew now.

Something to aim for.

Power was nothing more than something that existed for that purpose.

I purely yearned for power, and that was also the reason why no matter how hard I tried, I could not reach the same level of growth as him.

What was important was an extremely strong heart, but what was even more important was the direction that heart was heading.

Sreuk!

The hand holding the sword gained strength.

“under.”

A light breath escaped me, and an involuntary laugh escaped me.

I was just hoping to move forward, forgetting the most important thing.

Why I need to have power. It was never simply about becoming stronger. Forgetting the point, I was just hoping to become stronger.

“You have already reached this point.”

Even as I thought about it, I inadvertently burst out laughing. She finally felt confident in herself.

My heart was filled with confidence in my sword and in the Changcheonilgeom.

There was no need to be buried in the gaps in attribute levels, the presence or absence of skills, or any other longing for powers I did not have.

Saaa!

The black color began to gradually disappear with a transparent blue light… … .

It had been reacting to my heart for a long time.