Became an Academy Spearman - Chapter 635



635. Unquenchable fire, strong heart

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The day is coming to an end.

Darkness descended on the entire earth to welcome another tomorrow, and the light that had brightened the world slowly faded and disappeared.

After breaking up with Azazel, Han Tiansheng was unable to sleep in his room.

“Will I be able to endure tomorrow?”

Even though I was muttering absentmindedly, my mind was blank.

I felt it while staring at the night sky outside the window.

The spirit is infinitely elevated.

In some ways, it was similar to being excited, but the texture was different. Should I say that my whole body felt sharp, or could I say that I was tense? One thing was certain right now, my mind was clearly awake and it was not easy for me to fall asleep.

Sreuk.

A shallow sigh escaped me as I roughly brushed my hair.

All I did today was some minor results in personal training, and the time I spent with Azazel afterwards was great. Other than that, nothing else entered my mind. At the end of the day, I could only say one thing.

‘Today’ was endured.

“Okay, today… … .”

The longer I was with Azazel, the more severe my body’s rejection reaction became. I somehow endured it, endured it, and filled today’s time.

As soon as I parted ways with Azazel, I was in my room catching my breath without even having a proper dinner.

My mind is sharp, and my body reacts too sensitively.

So I also felt a little afraid of myself.

I was concentrating on getting my body and mind in control due to that uncertainty, wondering if I could control myself properly.

Even now, I unconsciously and unconsciously look at the window.

“Drakaris.”

The red spear that I received as a gift from Kali was in one corner of the inner room. And she was showing off her delicate figure. It felt like he was telling me to grab him as if he was tempting me.

gulp.

Even as I swallowed, I gently squeezed my hand and then released it.

The moment I made up my mind to recognize Azazel again as an apostle, it felt like it was an opportunity for me. The already unbearable time with Azazel became even more unbearable.

It felt like there was a fire in my heart constantly. It was a huge fire, a fire that could not be extinguished easily, constantly whispering and tempting me.

‘I have to kill him.’

If you are convinced that Azazel is an apostle, you must kill her. My heart soared, as if my heart was being stained by the rejection my body was showing.

Sreuk.

I slowly covered my eyes with my hands.

I forced my eyes to close, completely blocking my vision.

“… … no.”

But I couldn’t do that.

I chewed my lips and tried to calm the fire in my heart. Without thinking about anything, he breathed out in a daze, followed by a moment of breathing in again.

ha… . ha… … .

I couldn’t see anything through the darkened vision through my closed eyes, and as I calmed my mind by taking slow, deep breaths, it had little effect.

How many minutes have passed since then?

“under.”

Then a laugh escaped me.

It was funny.

There’s a long way to go right now, and there’s so much I have to do and so much to think about. This moment just felt so difficult.

When I finished training today, I felt relieved. I thought I was on the right path, and even though the results were not clear, my heart was full of will.

But it faded away like a lie.

Afterwards, my heart aches just because I spent two hours with Azazel. It seemed ridiculous now that I had to calm myself down and that I was holding my breath in my bedroom for fear of not being able to control my emotions.

“… … Eustea.”

When I remembered the reason that had put me in such agony, my eyes that had been closed blankly opened. Meanwhile, as if I had adapted to the darkness, my eyes were able to see clearly into the dark interior.

My eyes suddenly blurred.

‘The impact is too great.’

It was also bigger than I thought.

Shinchang Eustea, which can be said to be the origin of my strength. Clearly, I was clearly aware of him. And I inherited fragments of his memories and power.

But that wasn’t the only good thing about it. It’s as if his strong will is imbued with power, and it’s even trying to influence my mind.

“… … “I will act according to my thoughts.”

I clenched my hands as hard as I could while muttering something I didn’t know who I was talking to.

Sreuk!

I wonder how many times I’ve already grabbed and released it again in this inner room, but I didn’t care even though my hands didn’t require much strength.

Even if other beings don’t know, I understand what Eustea wanted in the past and why she left behind that power.

The moment I was sealed, I looked at Eustea countless times in what felt like eternity.

‘Hatred.’

And it was hatred that supported such a strong will. Eustea was filled with endless hatred and resentment toward the apostle.

Even if her body was destroyed, Eustea did not hesitate even if she sacrificed her soul to reveal greater power.

It was literally like a fire that would never go out. The will he showed as he resisted the original apostle until the end was like a strength stronger than anything else.

And it was only natural to think that such willpower would have an effect on power.

therefore.

‘are you okay. No problem.’

I accepted the feeling of death and hatred toward the apostle that was welling up in my heart as it was.

And just like that, I thought with a completely boiling heart.

If you understand one, you will vaguely understand the other. Just as I realized why my power of openness had the same effect as Eustea’s power of openness. The skills I had were also like that.

“Sura Rasen seven meals.”

As I spoke the skill out loud, I naturally understood it. It was strange and unknown why the skill had Sura in its name. But it felt like it was resolved now.

I could say that the strongest concept I came up with regarding the original skill was ‘spiral’. And even though I came to understand higher-level concepts there, the spiral ultimately became the basis of my strength.

However, the modifier that existed before the concept of spiral was ‘sura’.

And the only concept I knew of Sura was that he was a being who only longed for war and battle. And if that was the case, skill meant only one thing.

“… … “You probably want me to kill you.”

Everything about yourself. He desperately wanted to kill the original apostle, even if it meant sacrificing his body or soul.

And if my power was based on his, then naturally I, too, could not help but be influenced by his will.

The flesh and hatred that fills my heart right now, and the sadistic desire to tear Azazel apart, are trying to consume me, and that must be along the same lines.

Sreuk.

As I slowly raised my upper body, my breath escaped.

“ha… … .”

There was so much heat in my breath.

My body was hot, and a strange vitality began to flow through my body, which had been exhausted from suppressing it.

Because I do not suppress the anger in my heart, and because I accept the hatred as it is. It was as if he was trying to give me new strength.

“… … .”

And my eyes focused on my window as if it were natural.

Red spear blade. Overlapping with the darkness, it stimulated my heart even more strangely.

It seemed as if there was even an illusion of a spear blade stained with blood, as if it had to be covered with more vivid blood, and that the apostle’s blood must naturally exist on the blade of the spear.

And I felt it all and accepted it.

I expected it to be difficult.

But this also felt like an ordeal to me.

It’s something that you have to overcome anyway and face again without giving in. If I were to use more of the power of Shinchang Eustea and accept it more fully into my body, I could not avoid it from now on.

Just by inheriting a fragment of his power, my heart is affected in this way.

Sreuk.

He wiped his face once and nodded.

“Eusea, I will do it my way.”

The voice he was spitting out sounded extremely cold and chilly, even to himself. Even though it was clearly my voice, it didn’t seem to be my voice.

Even though I was aware that there was a lot of murder involved, I ultimately planned to carry out my will.

I decided for myself.

Rather than making a decision influenced by Eustea’s power and will, I put into practice what I thought was right.

So he put me down, even revealing everything to Azazel.

He even excluded all of his personal feelings for her, and even suppressed his feelings of rejection towards Eustea as an apostle.

All for just one thing.

‘A crossroads of fate.’

I have to change it.

And because there is that possibility. Then it doesn’t matter how rare it is.

I must face it, not anyone else, and I must try. I thought that way even more because the memory of Eustea confronting the original apostle came to me clearly, like a thought.

I have to appease.

“I hate it too. I want to kill Azazel. I feel like I want to grab the spear and run out of the room right now… … . But you can’t do that.”

If anyone saw him, he was muttering to himself like he was completely crazy, but he was also laughing like he was crazy. I had to somehow control these intense emotions coursing through my body.

‘I can definitely do it.’

I believed it.

It wasn’t that I believed in myself.

The absolute will that Eustea possessed.

I know that I cannot match his strong will. No, I still did not think that anyone in this world, not even me, could reach the absolute will that he had.

But right now, at this moment, I thought I could overcome it.

Now that I’m under the influence of Eustea’s power, there’s no way I can’t overcome it.

That’s right… … .

‘Because you chose it.’

Eustea would have chosen me and no one else. I thought I could be sure of that much.

Then he must have seen it in me.

ㅡGreat possibility.

From noble mtl dot come

It was that he saw in me the possibility of inheriting his power and reaching the level he had reached.

How did you do that, did you know me? There is no need to even know the reason or process.

The fact that I have inherited that power is proof more than anything else.

Therefore, I was able to have confidence in myself thanks to Eustea.

Sreuk.

I slowly calmed my eyes and let go of my heart.

I even let go of all the strength that had built up a moment ago as I accepted the heart full of hatred and death. And my mind began to empty, as if I was forcibly erasing the negative thoughts that had entered my mind.

“… … .”

Even though I was laughing silently, I felt more at ease now.

There was a fire in my heart that seemed like it wouldn’t go out, but I wasn’t afraid of that fire anymore.

There was no longer even a hint of fear that I would be caught up in the fire.

… … Maybe it was easy.

Just as I followed Eustea’s story and learned more about her. On the other hand, it also allowed me to have more confidence in myself.