Became an Academy Spearman - Chapter 683
683. Her blunt confession
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Excited.
Excited.
Celestia’s heart, which was pounding hard, could not be calmed down. And it’s been that way ever since the moment she met Cheonsung.
After being with Cheonseong, my heart continued to shake more and more, and it did not calm down easily.
Sreuk.
When she raised her head from the table, her eyes blankly fell on Cheonseong in front of her.
“… … .”
His actions as he tasted various desserts with a faint smile seemed very natural. Even now, just looking at that scene, my heart was racing like crazy.
‘Why is it so different?’
It was so different from what I thought.
In fact, I tried to meet him and spend time with him just yesterday, but for some reason he rarely came back after going out, so I couldn’t meet him.
And today, I purposely went to him early in the morning and spoke to him first.
To make sure we spend time together today… … .
But when I met him, my feelings changed.
Meeting him in the Grand Colosseum was completely different from meeting him alone in a private setting.
“I am quite satisfied with this quality of dessert, but how do you feel about Lady Celestia?”
“Oh, me too… … “It’s not bad.”
Actually, it didn’t really matter to me whether the dessert tasted good or bad.
Because I don’t like sweet food that much, contrary to what I told him, I didn’t prefer dessert.
“Then I’m glad. Actually, I especially like apple pie and Mont Blanc among desserts… … “I really like the desserts at this cafe.”
Sigh.
I awkwardly nodded as I watched him gently taste his share of dessert.
gulp.
“… … .”
The dessert disappearing between his lips seemed strangely stimulating.
I thought to myself as I noticed everyone nodding their heads thoughtfully as if they were savoring dessert.
‘My favorite desserts are apple pie and Mont Blanc.’
I don’t know when I’ll meet him again, but I thought it would be good to remember it when I have the chance.
So I carefully scooped up the dessert he ate and brought it to my mouth.
Suddenly.
“… … .”
As the extremely sweet taste spread throughout my mouth, the corners of my mouth trembled without me realizing it.
‘It’s really too sweet.’
I wonder how much sugar must be added to get such a strong sweetness. Even though it was so sweet that it made me shiver, I had to work hard not to show it on the outside.
“It’s delicious.”
And when I responded positively, his smile grew even brighter.
“Yes?”
“… … yes.”
And just seeing his smile made it worth enduring this moment for me.
I think it’s a very low price to pay to be able to see his smile by enduring this much sweetness.
Excited.
Even as we made small talk with each other, I felt like I was floating.
There was no important or meaningful conversation taking place.
Just a very trivial chat.
“… … “The weather is really nice today, and I like going for a walk on a day like this because it changes my mood.”
“Ah, I agree with that too. “Walking slowly in the garden on a day like this puts your mind at ease, right?”
“yes. “I think it means the same thing.”
Even as I gently moistened my mouth with a drink in response to his answer, my heart continued to flutter.
‘Why on earth is it so awkward?’
And my unnaturalness in dealing with him felt too great.
At the Grand Colosseum, I was still able to act proudly. I showed myself completely and at least I didn’t get nervous and stutter when dealing with him like this… … .
However, my feelings now are very different from then.
It was very different to meet him with such completely personal feelings compared to being endlessly focused on the game under the gaze of countless people.
Something… … A part of my heart continued to tickle.
So I became more conscious of him.
Sigh.
“… … hmm.”
Even now, as he happily savors the dessert, I look at it one by one, taking note of his small gestures, facial expressions, and even his eyes.
“… … .”
In order not to be awkward, I ate my share of dessert, but the atmosphere was also different.
The Grand Colosseum had a strong yet calm feel. Now he was infinitely gentle and gentlemanly.
Although he treats me with dignity, I can clearly see that he cares about me and tries to be considerate so that I don’t feel burdened.
‘ha… … .’
I swallowed my saliva even as I tried to swallow the breath that was about to burst out from inside me.
They all reminded me of the main characters in novels. Just like the protagonists of many romance novels, he treats women affectionately and speaks sweetly to them in a friendly manner.
And now, it was like the foreshadowing part came to mind.
Before he and I became lovers, there was a time in the novel where we were strongly aware of each other and had an exciting time.
I’m reproducing it exactly as it is in reality… … .
“Lady Celestia.”
“Say something.”
When he stuttered like an idiot again, he gently put down his spoon and looked at me.
“Is there anything that makes you uncomfortable?”
“no. Not at all… … .”
“I feel like the young lady is feeling a little burden… … If that’s not the case, I’m glad. And personally, I hope that you will treat me more comfortably. “The noble lady speaks so highly of me that I don’t know what to do.”
A friendly voice. At the same time, I looked at him as if I was fascinated by his gaze that was staring at me, but I hesitated.
‘really… … .’
They were all the same.
The soft and calm appearance of the protagonist of a romance novel I had seen overlapped with the images of men I had only seen in novels.
That’s right… … Because he is recreating in reality the ideal image that I only dreamed of.
“… … “I just want you to be comfortable with me.”
“I am… … “You mean?”
“yes. Just because the Grand Colosseum is over, I don’t want to treat you with authority. “I hope that we can meet each other properly, regardless of our social status.”
Even though I spoke calmly, images of the female protagonist also came to mind.
The images of a confident and bright female protagonist dealing with such a soft male protagonist.
‘It’s a little disappointing.’
Female protagonists in novels usually had a lower rank than male protagonists. But now I have a much higher rank than that. The situation could not be completely the same.
“Thank you very much for your words. but… … “I think I can feel at ease a little if you treat me comfortably.”
“Me?”
“yes. No matter how equal the status of academy cadets is, isn’t there a line that must be kept? “If I were to treat you, the daughter of a duke, in a comfortable manner, you could say that it would be a huge departure from etiquette.”
I was a little surprised when I met him who answered calmly but calmly and politely.
‘If you think about it… … .’
He was now a commoner. His gentle and calm demeanor made me mistaken about his identity, but in reality, his identity was a commoner and not even a noble title.
So I’m even more surprised now.
‘Where did I learn such formality and manners?’
It was amazing to see him be more formal than most nobles.
“That too.”
Afterwards, when the conversation ended awkwardly, I found myself fidgeting with my hands folded on my knees.
I felt a little stuffy.
I want to close the gap with him further and treat each other without hesitation, but since I have different feelings and he treats me politely, the distance between us keeps growing.
So it was as if there was a transparent wall between him and me.
We have no choice but to be careful with each other… … .
‘I hate how time passes by like this.’
Above all, for me, time was not infinite.
From noble mtl dot come
I don’t know when I will meet him again after today, and even if I do, it will definitely be a while before then.
That’s because the capital of the empire was far away from the north.
Sreuk.
Even as I watched him savoring the dessert again, I hesitated with my lips.
More than anything, I thought that the important thing between us was ‘me’. I had to act more boldly than the way he is treating me now.
‘Yes, I have to do it.’
It was realistically unreasonable to hope that he, a commoner, would boldly approach me and close the distance.
“Hey, Han Cheonseong.”
“yes. You tell me. “Young lady.”
“… … “What do you think of me?”
And my heart made me impatient.
Stop.
As soon as I said it, I immediately regretted it.
‘What should I do if I ask so blindly?’
We haven’t even had a proper meeting or conversation yet, but you’re asking me how I feel about you.
“… … I think she is a beautiful person, befitting the daughter of a duke. And even if you look at him as an individual, you can see that he has achieved great things and has great talent. “I think she is an ideal woman in many ways.”
“ideal… … “Are you a woman?”
As I answered blankly, joy welled up in my heart.
Surprisingly, he faithfully answered my ridiculous questions.
“yes. Even now, wouldn’t it be so if everyone around you could just see you? “He is such an outstanding person that I look up to you.”
His words suddenly drew my attention to the surroundings.
“ah… … .”
All I could see was the only thing around me, and I couldn’t see anything around me, but it was exactly as he said.
Many people inside the cafe were looking at me with surprise and envy.
“… … Is that all it is?”
Still, I started asking him more questions.
How other people viewed me wasn’t really that important to me.
That’s the most important thing to me right now.
“I also think he is a very pure person.”
“pure… … .”
“yes. Just like looking at a beautiful crystal, the lady’s heart also feels extremely transparent. So, wouldn’t I be able to talk to you comfortably now, even when I’m facing you like this?”
When he spoke with a gentle smile, I lowered my head without realizing it.
‘Beautiful crystal… … .’
Although his words were not that big of a statement compared to the numerous rhetoric I had heard around me, his words touched my heart deeply.
The term ‘pure’ compared to me sounded like a good thing, and he seemed to clearly know that I treated him with sincerity.
“… … I also think you are an upright person. “Regardless of your status, you are a very good person.”
And when I spoke carefully in response, he gently nodded.
“thank you.”
As I looked into his eyes, I unconsciously let out an excited breath.
‘Clearly he doesn’t hate me either.’
At least this one thing was clear.
Between the cautious way he treats me, I can tell that he wants to leave a good impression on me.
‘If that’s really true… … .’
I guess there was no reason for me to worry this much now.
As I continued to think in a daze, I felt like I had come up with an answer.
“I don’t really want to talk about it. So, from now on, I will be more honest.”
“… … yes. “Of course.”
When he cautiously agreed, I continued speaking.
“I know about several women you’ve had relationships with right now.”
Startle.
When he looked at me, his body stiffening for a moment, I calmed down even more.
“I don’t think it’s a bad thing. “I fully understand that many women are obsessed with a man as attractive and talented as you.”
“Lady Celestia… … .”
When he cautiously called me, I was able to smile.
“Maybe that’s why I’m more attracted to you now. My eyes kept falling on you, and I was always interested. And I felt it even more after facing you in the last final. “How much value do you have as a man?”
“… … .”
Seeing him staring at me without saying a word, I nodded slowly.
An offer he took me up on.
And the most attractive offer… … .
My father already told me the answer to that.
“I’ll be honest. If you… … “I don’t think it would be a waste even if you gave me away.”