Became an Academy Spearman - Chapter 717
717. False love, change of heart
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The moment I saw the word fascination trait.
His nature did not try to change his attitude ‘immediately’. Rather, he took another close look at Rachel’s eyes, words, and actions toward him, and what she thought.
And he found out.
‘It was quite surprising, though.’
In fact, it was difficult to sense that Rachel was playing with me or anything else in her attitude.
It felt even more powerful because I was able to look at Rachel calmly, rather than having to endure the desire as my body was drawn to her.
What did she really think of me and why did she use the trait called fascination?
“The real you always surprises me… … .”
Even now, Rachel’s voice dripping with affection as she whispered words to me while she was in my arms.
‘I’m serious.’
It was clear that she liked me and loved me sincerely.
so… … As shocked as I felt at first, I couldn’t show my cold attitude on the outside.
You just end up treating her in a completely different way.
Sreuk.
As I slowly and carefully rubbed her back in my arms, my heart was divided.
Even though I know that I didn’t like her because I wanted to, I can’t just hate her.
It wasn’t like I had a negative view of Rachel.
Whether you like it or not, you are manipulating people’s hearts as you please.
“Princess Rachel. “Would you please wait until I return?”
However, rather than rejecting her, he treats her more affectionately and lovingly.
I continued to act as if I was fascinated, as if I was acting out the person she wanted me to be.
“I will wait as long as I can. and… … I won’t necessarily wait. I’ll go see you at the front myself. “I won’t be away for too long, I’ll see your face again.”
“… … “The front line will be very dangerous.”
“You are in such a dangerous place. Then I don’t mind.”
It was still like that now.
‘under… … .’
I felt like the sigh I couldn’t suppress inside my heart would burst outward if I let my guard down even a little.
The affection she showers on me now.
No matter how hard I try to look through colored glasses and think negatively about it, I can’t.
He whispers pure affection and continues to express his strong feelings for me. The way she is still holding me so strongly, the way she leans on my shoulder and whispers her love… … .
‘I can’t see it as deception.’
Trying to lure me into doing something. Assuming the worst, I don’t get the slightest hint that he’s trying to use me as an outcast or as a force for himself.
“Then I’ll look forward to it too.”
“I look forward to it. “If the princess appears on the front lines, many people’s views on you will change.”
She burst out laughing and whispered in my ear again, and I absent-mindedly caressed her back, feeling extremely confused.
In the story, Rachel appears only as a heroine. She just appears like a wise mother and good wife who assists and supports the main character.
No matter what kind of performance she showed, there was no indication of her characteristics or powers.
And the first time.
I learned what kind of power Rachel had.
I also understood why her characteristics were not described in the story.
‘Outrageous abilities.’
Regardless of how powerful he was, it had to be seen as an unbelievable amount of power to make someone fall for him.
It is a spirit-type trait, and she is even in the highest position of princess.
It’s up to her… … .
“… … .”
For a moment, I blinked my eyes blankly.
Rachel’s words about aiming for the imperial throne. At first glance, I thought it sounded like an ideal, but when I found out about her abilities, I felt completely different.
Gulp.
Even as I swallowed my saliva, I felt dizzy. It will cause a huge upheaval.
It was also such a huge disruption that the previously established structure of the imperial power itself was distorted.
“Really why… … “Do you think you just keep getting better?”
And now, Rachel, with such great power and potential, was whispering love to me.
He shows an obedient attitude as if he is completely in love with me and expresses his affection by offering to give me his body.
In fact, what I said a little while ago that I would go to the Western Front and visit her in person was a kind of ‘deferral’.
How should I deal with Rachel, who tried to lure me using charm? It’s time for me to think about it properly. But it felt like a very important issue.
I definitely had no intention of treating her harshly due to a slight sense of betrayal. Ironically, I realized.
A comment saying that he resisted her charm due to the effect of his resistance ability.
But… no matter how fake the feeling was due to fascination, it was true that it really made me like her.
“My feelings for the princess are growing even more.”
“… … “Then why don’t you ask for me?”
I stopped for a moment at the sound of her sad voice.
Even though I was laughing for a moment, it was absurd.
“We’re not lovers yet, are we?”
“I’m sure we’ll be lovers soon. “That’s because I like you this much.”
Her sudden expression of affection penetrates my heart indifferently.
And I know that my fake feelings of fascination are reacting to her words… … . Knowing that didn’t mean I could strongly resist that feeling.
‘Because it’s actually lovely.’
Even though Rachel could have oppressed me with her authority from her supreme position as princess, she did not do so.
He meets me carefully and continues to confess his feelings to me and tell me his love.
Even if she was definitely trying to fool me about my feelings… … ,
The feelings she had for me were ‘real’.
So I continued speaking cautiously.
“I will go to the front and think more seriously about whether I can accept such a princess and whether I can really become that kind of person.”
“I often feel this when I look at you, but I think you tend to view your own value as low. “Just now, you are worthy of accepting me.”
A blank laugh escaped me at the unhesitating expression of affection.
“So you were trying to give me your body?”
“… … That’s because I like you a lot. So, you can change your mind right now. Tonight… … “Because I really saved some time.”
Although I was embarrassed, she whispered provocatively, and I unconsciously let out a happy sigh.
‘really… … .’
She would know best that she used charm, but she still seemed so disappointed that I didn’t ask for her.
She was undeniably lovely as she continued to ignite my heart.
In fact, until now, I didn’t even understand why I liked or cared about the princess.
That’s why I was more careful. I’ve already been in relationships with many women, so I thought I wouldn’t be sure about my feelings if I formed a special relationship with the princess.
I feel like everything will go wrong because of that.
But now my mind is definitely at ease.
Sreuk.
When I gently took her away from my arms, she hesitated a little but accepted me.
He looked at her in silence and gently placed his lips on her pale white cheek.
side.
“ah.”
I laughed a little while watching her shivering reaction.
“I’ll just leave now.”
“Just a little bit, just a little more.”
“Didn’t you say you were coming to see me from the front? “Then we can see each other again.”
“… … still.”
He gently stroked her visibly sad cheek and straightened up.
‘Now I too am at my limit.’
The more I felt that I loved her, no matter how fake it was, the more difficult it was for me to resist my desires.
The problem wasn’t that her fascination affected me, but the fact that she, so beautiful, leaned into me and expressed her love without hesitation was so great.
As a result, my body, which began to feel s*xual desire, really became a much bigger problem.
‘If I don’t receive proper medicine from Ariya before going to the Western Front tomorrow… … .’
Now, even my daily life was being greatly disrupted.
… … .
Jerk.
As I parted ways with Rachel and walked around the academy in the middle of the night, my mind felt empty.
“This is the effect of fascination.”
It was a new realization for me, and I also felt once again how great the influence of fascination still remains on my body.
It was like ‘fated love’.
As Rachel’s beautiful face flashes before my eyes, it’s hard to believe that my longing for her is a lie.
But I know that those feelings are lies.
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In the first place, she… … .
‘Since when did you start using charm on me?’
When I think back to the moment I felt a sense of alienation while facing her, the moment when we reunited at the Magic Tower was the most memorable. Because when I looked at her, I felt like she was my destined partner.
The moment when I was drawn to her even more strongly.
“Whoa.”
A deep sigh escaped me.
‘Let’s think calmly.’
In a way, going to the front was an opportunity.
There was definitely a need to think seriously about Rachel. Now she has discovered the great secret that she possesses the trait of fascination. Her Rachel’s worth has gone up incomparably compared to what she was before.
And just as she said that she would aim for the imperial throne… … .
‘If I really rise to the highest position of emperor.’
I couldn’t make her give up on me. So, a little while ago, I didn’t intentionally treat her more kindly.
To make her love me more even though she knows I was deceived. Unable to let go, he whispered love into her ear.
“It’s scary that it’s only half-serious.”
Even though I was trying to act out love, my heart was so shaken in the middle that it was hard to know what was going on.
Still, one thing was certain.
‘True love’ is completely different from the feeling you get from fascination.
Obviously, the magnitude of the emotion itself felt much greater than the fascination Rachel gave me, but when I thought about the person I truly loved, I could immediately see the difference.
“… … .”
A faint smile escaped me as I gently placed my hand on my chest.
The feeling that my heart, which was empty after breaking up with Rachel, was filled again.
And tonight… … .
Above all, there was someone else I needed to be with.
‘Carly.’
If I hadn’t made a prior commitment to her, it was clear that it wouldn’t have been easy for me to reject Rachel’s temptation, even if I knew it was attractive.
“And if it’s Kali…” … .”
I felt much more at ease than when I thought about my first night with Glesia.
You will be able to spend your first night with her more easily.