Became an Academy Spearman - Chapter 745
745. [Western Front] – Absolute strength of mind (21)
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Crash.
After finishing the conversation with the two people, Cheonseong returned to the room and sat down on the bed for a moment rather than doing anything.
“I never thought something like that would happen.”
I thought something was strange. However, the inside story was much more serious than I thought.
‘Apostle of Twisting.’
As I have never encountered one, I cannot specify its strength. However, I felt very alarmed when I heard that Lieutenant Leria and three other platoon members were not properly executed even though they were attached.
And there is even talk of a person with a weak heart becoming corrupted and killing an ally as a result.
It was important to learn why the relationship between Jeok-ik and Eun-ik was bad through various stories, but more than that, I felt like I realized something bigger.
“More than just being strong… … .”
There are more demands from the front line. No matter how strong a person is, there can be moments of weakness. Since humans are humans anyway, they cannot be said to be superhumans who can transcend emotions.
As humans are the ones who are happy and sad together in happy or sad moments, what I heard was shocking.
Ensign Rune called the person Velenia trash, but I knew what kind of emotions Ensign Rune was feeling.
“Because it was sadness.”
The sadness seemed much bigger than the anger. That’s probably why Lieutenant Roxanna also stepped forward to speak on her behalf.
I think that a person named Bellinia gave in to the apostle’s temptation not because of his usual bad behavior, but because the circumstances were unfavorable.
I was on the verge of death, and because it was difficult to reason and correct myself, I momentarily crossed a line that I should not have crossed.
Even though what Velenia committed afterwards was an unforgivable sin… … .
“ha.”
He let out a deep sigh and rubbed the two snowballs together for a moment.
Hearing these unexpected words made me feel very confused and a little distraught.
But it wasn’t that my heart was shaken. As I said to the two people a moment ago, I had strong confidence in myself.
“Because if you’re an apostle, you’ve encountered enough people to be sick of it.”
Regardless of whether the apostles I encounter on the front lines are strong or weak, I have always faced difficult crises.
It was always difficult to overcome on my own, and every moment was close to death. It was a series of crises in which it was clear that if there had been even the slightest deviation from that moment, one would have died.
And in that crisis, I was able to say something about myself.
—The will will not be broken by the apostle.
Rather, the more difficult and powerful I was, the more I tried to push myself to the limit, and I expressed a stronger will to stand against the apostle even if it meant burning my life.
Above all, there was the biggest difference between a person named Velenia and me.
“I won’t do something like attack my allies just to survive, even if it means dying.”
No matter how many times I have been prepared to die for others, I can definitely say that I have never tried to kill someone else in order to live.
I have not a single regret about the life I have lived.
I have never regretted my choice.
That was my will and value. That’s why I was able to say it with confidence.
Even if my head is complicated and my heart is disturbed, the reason why I was able to promise the two people that my heart would not be broken by the apostle was because I had a firm confidence in myself.
“… … “The problem actually lies elsewhere.”
However, the reason I am distraught right now is not because of ‘me’.
I was looking beyond it.
‘if… … .’
I don’t think something like that would ever happen, but I think it would have been very difficult if I had been at the scene of the disaster caused by Velenia.
A comrade you trusted and relied on becomes corrupted by the apostle and attacks your allies.
It is one thing to accept that reality, but there is also the fear that one may have to kill a degenerate colleague… … .
“Everyone was stronger than we thought.”
In that sense, I got to see Ensign Rune and Ensign Roxanna again.
I originally thought they were strong and outstanding people, but even after experiencing such a disaster, they are able to strengthen themselves and look ahead.
This was possible because of the strength of the mind and the ability to accept reality.
When I thought about that, a strange laugh escaped me.
Even in the carriage where I learned that I had been assigned to the enemy wing, I felt a kind of absurdity and despair. Why are you putting me through this ordeal again and again?
But I no longer felt that way.
“It was all a good thing.”
Now that I was assigned to the right wing, I thought it was a good thing. I formed new relationships with such good people, and I was able to become stronger.
Regardless of the irrationality of reality or the situation I was in, I was convinced that I could become stronger.
The one month I will spend at the front is a time to make changes that will never come again.
Tuk.
Suddenly, the window on one side of the inner room was carefully lifted.
“… … .”
As the bright moonlight illuminating the inner room dimly illuminated the blue window, I looked at it as if fascinated.
Slurp… … .
As I slowly swept across the window, my troubled mind gradually disappeared and a quiet peace took over. And she always was like that.
Even when my mind was tired, my body was tired, or the situation was unreasonable, I could overcome it with just one spear.
“Petelias.”
While mumbling the name of the new window, I slowly brought the cool window to my cheek. And then I slowly closed my eyes. I slowly concentrated my consciousness, feeling comfortable with the touch of cold steel.
‘strength.’
The outline of the next step I should pursue was slowly becoming clear.
I recently reached level 7 and the power I gained was considerable.
This was the level I was able to reach by completing ‘Surabicheon’, the fourth ritual of the Suranaseon Seven Ceremonies, but even more than that, I began to see something a little different.
ㅡThe attitude with which Eustea treated her spear.
And that was the next step I needed to pursue.
“… … .”
A small smile escaped me as I slowly opened my eyes. The feel of the cold iron gradually became dull, and I even felt a strange sensation as if it had become a part of my body.
But if you ask me if that was completely the case, it wasn’t like that at all.
Even as I let the cold spear fall from my cheek, I held the spear in my eyes again.
“To have complete faith in the window.”
And those words were the same as believing in ‘oneself.’
Because I am the one wielding this spear and no one else.
And the initial stage of ‘Shinchanghapil’.
I thought I was at that level. Aside from simply reaching the 7th level of the characteristic, I have already reached a certain level in the attitude of Shinchang Yustea towards the spear itself.
“Because you have strong faith in me.”
A smile escaped me as I spoke. When I think about it, she has always been like that.
A long time ago, when I first met Glesia, I was confident and would not be intimidated no matter where I went in order to win her favor. And as it continued, I naturally began to believe in myself.
Absolute confidence that I must believe in myself first. And I have worked sincerely, looking forward with an unwavering mind.
“And by my side… … .”
There was always a window. As I practiced holding the spear every day, I was able to trust my spear without anyone saying anything.
“Because this is my power.”
I nodded while carefully sweeping the window.
Rather than distrusting the power given to me and ignoring reality because of the common level, I tried to look ahead and view the power of spearmanship more highly.
I think that’s why I was able to come this far.
He is ahead of everyone else and has reached an overwhelming level where he can look at the higher realms.
Now, his talent has improved to the point where people around him often call him a genius.
And this wasn’t a talent given to me from the beginning.
“Because I worked so hard.”
He vomited blood, cut his bones, and did not give up even if he was on the verge of death.
That’s why Shinchang Eustea chose me, that’s what I thought.
My actions and attitudes all overlapped one by one to make me who I am today.
If I had been frustrated when I was first given common grade spear skills and had stayed where I was, I would never have been given the power I have now.
“… … .”
I stared at the blue window endlessly in deep thoughts, and then carefully put it down.
Tuk.
I had to slowly calm my breath and prepare to face tomorrow.
I got up, took a light shower, and slowly got ready to fall asleep. Several people suddenly came to mind.
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“What is everyone doing right now?”
Not only did I feel even more sorrowful because I couldn’t see him for a while, but many faces came to mind as well, and one person who left me right away also came to mind.
dump.
As I sat down on the bed, I suddenly burst out laughing.
“I’m really out of my mind too.”
Although I had felt Sir Isabelle’s absence every few days over the past few days, I was now taking it for granted.
-As long as we are inside the first fortress, we will stay away for a while. Instead, I will definitely be by your side when you leave the fortress.
The voice of Lord Isabelle calmly speaking came to mind.
And with those words, we parted ways. It was what I wanted, and it was also what she wanted.
“I miss you a lot… … .”
I wanted to directly feel the warmth of the woman who always stayed by my side and looked at me, but I felt a deep regret that realistically I couldn’t.
That is the mighty power of the Golden Knight. She, who is such a powerful force, must be having a close conversation with Anastasia right now.
“She would convey my words well.”
As he spoke, he slowly laid down. I am aware of a crisis that will unfold on the front lines around this time.
And it will also result in numerous casualties.
But I cannot interfere directly with it.
Because I am only a first-time officer who has arrived at the front, I do not have that level of power or influence. That’s why Sir Isabelle was an extremely special and precious person to me.
‘Instead of me.’
Because you will be able to exert a strong influence with strong influence and power. So I thought she and Anastasia should work together for a while.
I slowly closed my eyes, taking in the inner room filled with bright moonlight.
‘are you okay.’
Soon, when I meet Anastasia, I will be able to meet Lord Isabelle again.
Until then, very little was all that was needed.
I only had to wait a few days to be reunited with her, so it wasn’t that difficult.
“I heard you’re going on another mission tomorrow… … .”
Even though I was muttering absentmindedly, I felt sleepy.