Became an Academy Spearman - Chapter 759
759. [Western Front] – Facing reality (35)
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“… … “Disbanded.”
“”dissolution!””
With a few concise words from Lieutenant Leria, the assembled enemy forces dispersed.
And of course, instead of heading to my room, I ended up looking at the other platoon members. What I should do in this yellow situation was not something I could decide.
And the person who led me on that day was Lieutenant Rune.
Slam!
Another space within the enemy barracks. I was able to enter a place labeled ‘Strategy Meeting Room’ with several other people.
“Everyone, take your seats. Han Tiansheng sits next to Rune.”
As we headed to our seats, listening to Lieutenant Roxanna’s calm voice, I noticed the faces of the people inside.
First, Lieutenant Roxanna was at the head of the table, and Lieutenants Rune and Elphie were seated on either side of her. And next is the situation where Lieutenant McPhill and I are.
“First, Han Tiansheng. To put it lightly, the enemy wing will be divided into two squadrons at the yellow border. “The program may change flexibly, but it is probably safe to say that it will continue as is.”
“… yes. “I understand.”
Considering that the last mission was carried out by dividing into two squadrons, it seemed that there were almost no cases of enemy forces acting in unison.
“We are taking Han Tiansheng with us.”
When Lieutenant Rune looked at me and spoke, I felt something strange. Even when the personnel were divided, I thought that Lieutenant Leria and I would be in the same organization.
But it’s a little different.
And at that time, Second Lieutenant McPhill carefully expressed his opinion.
“Um, Ensign Roxanna. “Can’t you tell us the exact reason for the yellow stance?”
“They say that’s currently in an urgent meeting at the top. That’s why Lieutenant Leria didn’t give a specific reason in the hall earlier.”
“okay… … .”
Suddenly, between Lieutenant McPhill’s answer, Lieutenant LP was seen opening his mouth.
“Roxanna. “I also want to check one thing now. Is it really true that we are carrying out a mission with Han Tiansheng?”
Stop.
At Lieutenant Elphie’s words, Lieutenant Roxanna and I stopped almost at the same time. And then we looked at each other.
“… … .”
“… … .”
While I was staring at her blankly, she quickly took her eyes off me.
“Unless there are special instructions, it will probably happen that way. “Lieutenant Leria is not one to make exceptions.”
“… … Are you really taking Han Tiansheng on a yellow posture mission?”
Even though he heard the answer, Lieutenant LP’s voice was filled with deep doubt as he asked again. And when I heard that, I couldn’t say anything.
‘Because that’s natural.’
Lieutenant Elf wasn’t saying that because he hated me. I knew that the moment I heard it.
Still, I couldn’t help but feel strange.
In a situation where the crisis level was raised to yellow alert, I realized again what kind of situation I was in now.
‘yet… … .’
I am a burden to the enemy.
Although he was clearly in the enemy’s wing, he was a young chick who had arrived at the front less than a week ago. According to Lieutenant Sabrina, the probationary period for new recruits had just ended.
So, of course, carrying out a mission with me like that was a huge burden on both of us.
“I also agree with Lieutenant LP’s opinion. Anyway, shouldn’t Han Tiansheng be excluded from missions for the time being? It seems too harsh… … .”
When Second Lieutenant MacPhil spoke to me, I looked at the two people blankly.
The feeling becomes even stranger.
They are both saying those things for me. I know that, but strangely enough, I wasn’t that pleased with what they said.
“Of course, I understand and sympathize with what they say, but… … .”
And when even Second Lieutenant Roxanna, who was in the strategy meeting room as the division commander, had her eyes glazed over, I bit my lip for a moment.
‘I don’t want to be excluded from the mission.’
I knew the situation was dangerous right now.
It wasn’t a good situation, and it was even worse because I knew that the unknown beings of the Nine Apostles existed no matter how far away I felt them.
‘Even so.’
I had no desire to protect my own safety. While I ensure safety, other officers and soldiers will head to the front lines.
And what difference would it make if you just watched it from the barracks?
That was the moment I was thinking about.
“No, your opinions and mine are slightly different.”
I heard completely different words from Lieutenant Rune, who was right next to me.
“Rune… … ?”
Even at Lieutenant Roxanna’s voice, Lieutenant Rune let out a faint laugh.
“Of course, you could say it’s probably harsh on Han Tiansheng. It hasn’t even been a week since I came to the front line, so I wonder if it’s right to go on a yellow-ready mission? Everyone will think no.
But those of you who have seen Han Tian-seong in the past few days, don’t you already know something? “Han Cheon-seong is on a different level from the other new officers.”
When she looked at me with those words out of nowhere, I blankly made eye contact with her.
“… … .”
Ensign Rune’s eyes were different from other people’s.
It was no longer as playful as Lieutenant Rune’s usual self, nor was it so heavy.
Extremely calm eyes. And in those eyes, my current self was completely reflected. Ensign Rune was looking directly at me right now.
“More than anything, boy. You’re the same as us, right? But why exclude him? Han Tiansheng is also afraid, and if he were scared, he wouldn’t say things like this. But just by looking at him, that’s not the case now.”
Her words seemed to pierce my heart, and I couldn’t help but laugh out loud.
… … Strangely, it seemed like she perfectly represented my feelings.
Like, more me than me.
“Even so, the ‘experience’ itself is different between us and Han Cheon-seong.”
“Lieutenant LP is correct. Of course, we understand that being able to handle attribute levels and openings means that Han Tiansheng may be more powerful than us, but in the current situation, it is difficult to let Han Tiansheng experience… … “Wouldn’t it be too dangerous?”
Nevertheless, Lieutenant Elphy and Lieutenant McPhill did not give up their opinions.
What they said showed that they didn’t look at me lightly.
“… … .”
That’s why I was even more grateful, but I just listened to this moment of conversation.
It would be presumptuous of me to assert myself and express my opinion here, so I first wanted to hear how they viewed me.
“To be honest, I also want to give my opinion to Rune.”
And when Lieutenant Roxanna expressed her opinion very carefully, I was surprised without realizing it.
Because I thought she agreed with both of their opinions.
“yes? Roxanna, you see our youngest child the same way I do. “He’s not a child we have to protect and take care of.”
“… … It’s as you said, Rune. Because Han Tiansheng is already strong. Honestly, none of us here can fully handle openness. In that sense, Han Cheon-seong will be a very meaningful force for us as well. “The difficulty of completing the mission will be much lower than if you exclude it and perform the mission.”
As I watched her calmly explaining about me, I felt a little overwhelmed.
… … It was strange.
And I felt a little funny about myself like this.
‘It might not really be normal.’
I also realized how twisted my thoughts are right now, to the point where Lieutenant Sabrina’s words came to mind.
Any other new officer would have been afraid to go to the front.
No, it would be right to be afraid and try to protect yourself when you first encounter the Yellow Stance situation. And no one will blame me for that.
Because it’s so ‘natural’.
But now I was delighted with the words of Lieutenant Rune and Lieutenant Roxanna.
“I think I have quite a bit of experience.”
So, instead of just listening to stories, I opened up about myself for the first time.
“… … “You have experience?”
I nodded my head carefully in response to Lieutenant Elf’s question.
And, conscious of everyone looking at me, I spoke calmly.
“I don’t think my experience of encountering apostles in the various situations I experienced at the academy was insignificant.”
I can’t say that I know all about the numerous dangers on the front line.
Because that is an extremely arrogant statement. Still, I was sure of one thing.
“You have a lot of experience with apostles?”
When Second Lieutenant McPhill frowned, he did not care about that attitude and opened his mouth with even greater force.
“Each apostle I encountered was different. The number of apostles encountered easily exceeds five. And that doesn’t mean I’m going to say that I’m the same or stronger than the apostles that others faced on the front line. But every moment I faced the apostle, I was in contact with death.”
“… … “Tell me more.”
Coincidentally, when Lieutenant Roxanna, who I spoke with yesterday, expressed great interest, I smiled slightly.
“I am truly grateful that others recognize my strength to some extent. And I don’t think my strength is just something I gained like a flower in a greenhouse.
Every moment was a limit, and every moment was close to death. There were times when I actually thought I was dead. “I have faced it with the mindset that even if I die, the apostle must also die.”
Face ‘reality’.
I was thinking quite deeply about the words that Kali taught me. And the true meaning of those words was extremely heavy.
Facing reality was like having to face my limitations and even my own death. Every time he faced the apostle, he had to suffer serious injuries, and sometimes he intentionally put a strain on his body and pushed himself to its limit.
My life at the academy was almost like that.
So you can be confident.
Even in front of those people who had spent a long time at the front, I was able to present myself without being intimidated.
“When it comes to apostles, I think I can look ahead without fear or hesitation.”
So, I was confident that at least I wouldn’t be a burden.
As proof of this, I was referring to my experience with the Apostle.
“… … .”
“… … .”
As I gazed thoughtfully into their eyes as they stared at me in silence for a moment, something in my heart became clear.
Before, there was a strange sense of tension and pressure that came from being in the yellow stance, but let’s be in a place where we can speak out and convey our feelings. I actually felt relaxed.
“I also want to join you on this mission.”
And then I looked at Ensign Roxanna with even more intense meaning.
She would understand, as she carries greater responsibility and weight as a division commander of the enemy wing.
Also, because of that… … I figured she wouldn’t exclude me from her duties, even though I knew she was saving me quite a bit.
“good.”
Tuk.
I naturally burst out laughing at the words I spat out.
“thank you. “Ensign Roxanna.”
Lieutenant Leria, the biggest decision-maker for the enemy. Because the girl next to me will understand my value.
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“thank you. “Ensign Roxanna.”
Han Tiansheng’s calm yet confident voice resonated inside.
And Rune, who was right next to him, looked blankly at Cheonseong’s profile.
“… … .”
Wiggle.
Rune unconsciously clenched her hands together under the table.
‘I don’t understand.’
I couldn’t understand Han Tiansheng.
Actually, I was worried when I saw Elf and McPhill trying to protect Han Cheon-seong a little more. Adding weight to the words of the two people, I wondered if it would be right to exclude Han Cheon-seong from the mission altogether.
But in the end, I stuck to my opinion.
From the day I spoke to Han Tiansheng about Bellinia with Roxanna, I had some faith in Han Tiansheng.
Trust grew in his attitude and words and actions, and the more he learned about his power, the more trust he gained.
so… … I thought that simply protecting and excluding people was not the answer.
And now.
The result was this.
In response to our words, Han Cheon-seong expresses his own opinion. He was not just accepting and accepting, but was asserting himself and giving his reasons as to why he should join in on the mission.
And that was the most ideal image I had hoped for.
“… … .”
As I swallowed my saliva in a daze, it suddenly occurred to me.
… … Velenia committed a catastrophe after falling for the temptation of an apostle in the past.
I wondered countless times why she did that, and sometimes I even blamed myself.
I had to calm myself down so I could rely on you more.
Since I was close to her, I should have allowed her to lean on me… … .
And now Han Tiansheng in front of me was completely different.
Absolute will and self, as well as a solid basis for oneself. With all that, he has now presented himself in front of us.
that is… … It looked so dazzling to me.
It will never be an easy decision, but no one will criticize the new officer for being reluctant.
However, the sight of him looking ahead and trying to move forward was simply dazzling.
Swish.
So I had to turn my head away from that sight.
“…”
Even though I was trying hard to tear my gaze away, my head was blank.
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Even though I was slowly catching my breath, my heart strangely seemed to be beating faster.