Became an Academy Spearman - Chapter 767
767. [Western Front] – Anastasia’s Faith (43)
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“So how many people are there?”
For a moment, my mind turned completely white.
‘How many people…’ … .’
I never really thought about how many women I was in relationships with. When asked how many people I am currently dating, numerous people immediately came to mind.
And it was mostly people I was currently in a relationship with, but ironically… … A woman who was not my lover also came to mind.
Like Ariya, with whom I had s*xual contact.
“Currently, I have a total of seven lovers.”
“… … .”
Seeing her pursed lips, I couldn’t say anything more.
I decided to reveal everything, and even though I made up my mind, it definitely wasn’t easy. How many other women do I have in my lover’s family?
Even if you say the truth, it can’t possibly look good.
“… … “7 people.”
“yes. “There are 7 people.”
It was limited to just me and the person I was in love with. And as I spoke, I once again understood how much undeserved love I received.
‘Still, I decided to have them.’
I have feelings for them, but I was definitely greedy.
Additionally, ironically, my desire also supported my heart even more. As a reason why I have to face reality, try harder, and look ahead.
Because there are women who are so lovely that I deserve them. She couldn’t be weak-hearted.
So they were able to push me more harshly. To be a man who is not lacking to them, and to be proud.
“It’s more than I thought.”
“… … “I have nothing to say.”
Even though I had ten mouths, I had nothing to say.
This is the reality I chose, and I knew how much of a bad guy I would seem to Anastasia who listened to me.
Still, I didn’t want to hide it from her.
“ha. I don’t particularly want to criticize you either. I kind of guessed that it would be like that, but it feels different to actually hear it. Honestly, I don’t feel good. However, when I look at you revealing everything like this, Han Cheon-seong, you also have some similarities to Glesia.”
I was quite surprised when, rather than getting angry, she accepted me.
To be honest, I was willing to take any criticism or cold treatment I received. However, she was showing a much softer attitude than expected.
“Am I with Glesia?”
“uh. “She’s not good at hiding her feelings, and what she shows on the outside reminds me of Glesia when I see you.”
Stop.
Just by talking about Glesia, she showed a warm smile that was different from before, but for a moment, no words came out.
“… … .”
I saw it with my eyes.
Her smile now was a smile that would never be directed at anyone other than Glesia. That’s why it touched my heart even more how much I care about Glesia.
“And yet Han Tiansheng. “Are you confident?”
she was asking
Are you confident in making Glesia happy?
“Yes, I am confident.”
And as far as that was concerned, I didn’t even have an inch of hesitation. Anastasia then nodded her head with a light smile of her own.
“You are confident.”
Grumbling.
Her lightly flowing blue hair suddenly reminded me of Glesia. But it was only a moment.
“Then you don’t have to say any more. It seems like you’re about to reveal your feelings with quite a heavy heart. Because I understand without having to listen any more. And even though I knew that, I accepted you as Glesia’s partner.”
Calmly.
Seeing her accept me even though she heard everything I said, my heart swelled.
As I spoke, I assumed several situations.
If your relationship with Anastasia goes sour,
If you are looked at with contempt,
If you are against a relationship with Glesia… … .
We assumed countless different situations. And almost all of them were not very good results.
however. To my surprise, an unexpected result that I had not expected appeared in reality.
‘Even in a country like this.’
Anastasia tries to accept it.
Although he acknowledged my relationship with the younger sister he loved so much, he did not try to reject or deny me.
“… … Are you okay?”
So I ended up asking a stupid question without realizing it.
This reality is so dream-like, so ideal to me… … .
“How could I be okay? “From the moment you said you and Glesia were lovers, I had no intention of interfering with you two.”
“Well, you said that.”
“You’ve probably felt it as you look at me now, but what’s most important to me is neither the situation on this front nor the future of the empire.”
When she suddenly spoke in such a cold way, my heart seemed to freeze without me even realizing it.
Damn it!
In fact, the surrounding atmosphere began to freeze and become extremely cold.
“As much as you have become a lover with Glesia, if I tell you how I feel, there is only one reason why I am standing on the front line and supporting this western front as the main axis.”
“… … “That means.”
When I barely moved my frozen body to answer, Anastasia smiled colder than any smile I’ve ever seen.
“I want Glesia to have a comfortable life. That’s all. I’m on the front line right now because I don’t want you to feel fear or anxiety due to external dangers like Apostle.
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Because I thought that I absolutely had to do it, and that if it wasn’t for me, Glesia wouldn’t be able to have a comfortable daily life from now on. “I think the fact that I have the power I have now is a kind of responsibility.”
As the harshly cold words continued, I couldn’t even swallow my saliva.
The feeling of my skin not being frozen in the extreme cold. And that wasn’t because my mana was surrounding my body.
‘this… … ‘Is it her beliefs?’
-Anastasia’s beliefs.
I was suddenly convinced that it was so by her words and attitude.
For the sake of the empire or for herself, Anastasia was not the main axis supporting the front line. She was willing to give everything she had for her one and only blood relative, her Glesia.
And the bitter coldness contained in those words revealed her feelings.
An absolute mindset that no one can change her mind.
… … In a way, it seemed similar to pushing myself harder and trying to grow for the sake of the person I love.
Just as no one can change my mind.
That was how Anastasia felt right now.
No one can change Anastasia’s mind.
Damn it!
And that was the moment the frozen air fell to the ground. It felt like I was trapped in time for an eternity.
“… … .”
“… … .”
look at each other
And when I was reflected in her abyss-like blue eyes, I too could not do anything even as I looked at her.
Clearly, my body is alive, and there is a vivid warmth in my body.
Everything else seemed to stop.
It was as if my consciousness and my heart were all bound by Anastasia’s abyss-like eyes.
And at that moment her lips opened.
“Even if I don’t have to say it, you would know very well.”
The moment I heard the coldness in her voice disappear, everything felt like a dream.
A lot of the extreme coldness in the air disappeared in an instant, and the intangible chill that had been constricting my body also disappeared in an instant. The difference was so extreme that I couldn’t even breathe properly for a moment.
“… … .’
I opened my lips in a daze and took a very cautious breath, and only then did my body begin to respond properly.
ha.
ha… … .
I was in a daze, trying to catch my breath but unable to say anything.
‘I meant it.’
She obviously didn’t say anything like this.
He just showed me his sincerity.
It wasn’t like he was trying to warn me about a complicated relationship with a woman or threaten me.
The situation just moments ago certainly felt like a huge warning and threat, but to Anastasia, it was definitely not at that level.
He just showed his feelings.
‘And because Glesia likes me… … .’
Anastasia knows that too, so she decided to accept me like this.
That was all she had.
Because Glesia really likes me, she just accepts me.
“… … “Thank you for listening to everything I said.”
I barely opened my mouth and spoke.
“no. I think it’s quite nice that you had the courage to speak so honestly. “Now go and rest.”
At the second order to congratulate the guests, I showed the utmost respect and left the office.
Crash.
As soon as I opened the door and came out, my body, which had been tense to the limit, was released.
“Han Tiansheng.”
Have you been waiting for me this whole time? Even as she saw Lieutenant Leria approaching me, her mouth did not open for a moment. And it wasn’t just her lips.
My arms were shaking and my body didn’t feel like my own.
Belatedly, I understood. My body is greatly shaken by Anastasia’s heart right now.
‘How on earth… … .’
Could this be possible?
I was just facing Anastasia’s true feelings, but my body couldn’t be corrected just by the heart she showed.
Even though I understood that it came from a ‘difference in class’, I couldn’t believe it.
It was clearly not a warning or a threat, but just encountering her heart, but my heart could be shaken this much… … .
Hot!
Then, I finally came to my senses when Lieutenant Leria’s hand strongly grabbed my arm.
“ah.”
“what… … Han Cheon-seong. “Why are you having such a hard time?”
“no. “It’s nothing.”
I smiled awkwardly and only then was I able to control my body.
“ha… … .”
Then, when I flinched at the sight of Lieutenant Leria sighing deeply, she smiled.
“Can you walk properly?”
“it’s okay.”
Jerk.
The moment I said that and took a step forward, I felt my vision shifting.
‘uh?’
For a moment I didn’t understand myself.
I had definitely regained my sense of body, but why was my body tilting like this? It was something that couldn’t be possible.
Sreuk!
For a moment, a hand grabbed my shoulder and I was barely able to avoid falling to the ground.
“… … “What can I say, you are truly amazing.”
“… … yes?”
When I turned my head blankly and looked at her, Lieutenant Leria had a very complicated expression. It is difficult to describe her eyes in words, but the emotions contained in her unique red eyes were beyond me.
“You encountered Major Anastasia’s energy.”
Although I still didn’t understand a word of what she said, Lieutenant Leria very naturally wrapped my arm around my shoulders and supported me.
“Let’s just go back to the barracks, I’ll lend you my shoulder.”
“thank you.”
Without understanding anything, I absentmindedly accepted her favor.
Again.
Jerk.
And at a very slow pace we started heading back to the barracks. That was because my walking speed was slow.
“… … .”
So I moved, leaning on Lieutenant Leria’s shoulder, and just thought about the situation from before.
‘Anastasia’s energy?’
The words that Lieutenant Leria uttered in passing seemed to contain so much meaning.
Suddenly, my eyes fell on the woman right next to me.
‘So Lieutenant Leria also experienced this?’
It was the moment when I returned to the enemy barracks, thinking that I was not the only one who had encountered Anastasia’s true feelings.
“… … “Lieutenant Leria?”
“Uh, McPhill.”
At the moment when I heard Lieutenant Leria’s light voice, I was about to throw myself away from her.
Stumble!
‘crazy!’
Even though so much time had passed, my body still didn’t feel like my own.
I didn’t have much strength in my whole body.
“Ugh. “You’re telling me not to do anything for a while?”
When I saw Lieutenant Leria’s face accepting me again with a deep sigh, my face filled with heat as if it was about to explode.
It’s already embarrassing. I showed such disgrace in front of my senior.
“S-sorry!”
It was a moment when I urgently gathered my wits and looked straight ahead.
“… .”
The moment I saw Lieutenant McPhill with an expression I had never seen before was reflected in my eyes… … .