Became an Academy Spearman - Chapter 778
778. [Western Front] – Then do you happen to… … (54)
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The morning of the 15th day of the front line dawned.
Early in the morning, I visited Lieutenant Leria’s office. I wondered what if she wasn’t awake, but fortunately she was in her office from early in the morning.
-Come in.
I was nervous even as I walked inside.
Ok. Good!
He was probably looking at data or organizing documents. I could no longer feel any kindness in the eyes that were looking at me lazily through their unique red bob.
The aftermath of the conversation we had yesterday seemed to still clearly remain with her.
“… … “Sit down.”
It was clearly different now from the tone I heard yesterday when I entered. She sat down carefully against the coldness.
Sreuk.
Afterwards, Lieutenant Leria, please take a seat across from me. First I made eye contact with her.
“First of all, I wanted to apologize for the rudeness I showed yesterday.”
Even if his favor toward me disappeared because of what happened yesterday, it was a relationship that had to be fixed in the end.
“it’s okay. I don’t really care about that. So what else do you have to do today? “I don’t think you’re trying to say the same thing as yesterday.”
“yes. That’s not the case. “I would like to say something different.”
“What else? “I’ll tell you in advance, if you say something so absurd again, I might get really angry.”
There is no pitch in the voice.
Even though it was not a very cold voice, I felt that this voice was even creepier now. Nevertheless, he nodded cautiously first.
“yes. “I’d like to ask you another favor.”
“ask?”
When Lieutenant Leria looked at me with the corner of her mouth slightly twitching, my heart seemed to sink for a moment.
I realized once again that many of the good feelings I had shown during my time at the Jeok Ik had disappeared after yesterday’s conversation.
‘You can’t make even the slightest mistake with your words.’
When speaking, we must be more upright and sincere.
“It’s no different… … “I would like you to change the organization of my units within the enemy wing.”
“What about organization? “What does that mean?”
“I literally want you to change the unit formation from the 2nd unit to the 1st unit. “To the 1st unit where Lieutenant Leria is.”
I carry out my opinion without a single hesitation and with an unwavering voice. As I stared into her frost-cold red eyes, I strengthened my heart even more.
“… … .”
Lieutenant Leria remained silent after that.
But as those two eyes slightly frowned, my heart also became heavy. Still, I had to say it. For me, this is something I have to do.
‘Unless you can help other units.’
Beyond that, I have to be more active in this right wing. I also want that quite badly.
I felt like just facing the 2nd and 3rd level apostles was not enough. Moreover, from what I heard, Eun-ik is also carrying out his duties without a break regarding Sado.
I wanted to take on a more dangerous mission.
“ha… … .”
Her deep sigh filled the space heavily.
“Am I perhaps saying too much?”
“No, that’s not such an unreasonable request. but… … “I thought you were different from what I thought.”
I blinked blankly at her words.
‘Didn’t what I said sound bad?’
I felt like her attitude toward me had relaxed a little.
“Well, I can do it. “It’s beyond my authority to change the troop formation, but before that, I’d like to hear a more proper reason.”
“I can tell you that the reason is my personal desire to be more active. “It is by no means because I am dissatisfied with the current unit organization or have different feelings from the platoon members.”
“Han Tiansheng. “Not like that.”
Tuk. Those words seemed to penetrate my heart, and I was momentarily speechless.
“… … .”
Above all, her red eyes were staring at me, and there was no sign of her trying to get over what she was saying.
‘What should I do?’
There is not a single lie in what I say.
If a being with a higher power than me can detect the lies in my words to some extent, I am also very careful not to give even the slightest chance.
That’s why I have no complaints whatsoever about Lieutenant Roxanna or the other platoon members of the unit I am currently in. On the contrary, being with them made me feel more than satisfied.
‘but… … .’
Nevertheless, Lieutenant Leria penetrated my heart.
The fundamental reason for my request to change units was because it was in a completely different place.
“Why can’t you talk?”
“… … no. “You can do it.”
“Then tell me.”
Lieutenant Leria, smiling again with a twisted smile, felt even more foreign. In the end, I had no choice but to speak.
“… … “If you belong to the first unit, you can perform more dangerous missions.”
“and?”
“… … “I think that if I become more active, I will soon be able to go on more missions.”
“I guess so.”
I felt instantly fascinated by Lieutenant Leria, who gave a calm answer.
You can’t hide even a single piece of your heart. Even though everyone was saddened, my heart sank deeply.
I thought changing the unit formation was a light request to me. It was almost unclear whether she, who had heard everything I had just said, would think it was a really light request.
Tuk. Tuk.
My eyes suddenly fell on her hands tapping on the table. Before I knew it, she was looking away from me.
“… … .”
And even as I watched her with bated breath, I was confident.
‘My actions must be right.’
I thought my choice was meaningful in the unstable frontline currently in yellow mode.
The fatigue of the platoon members, which could be said to be the first unit of the enemy wing executing a first-class apostle, was much greater than that of the second unit to which I belonged.
Looking at Ensigns Sabrina and Christina, they were extremely exhausted, to the point where they spent almost all of their time sleeping except for missions.
In that situation, I thought I should be more active in the right place.
It wasn’t that I was better than them in skill.
‘Physical leisure.’
Even the day after completing a mission, I can maintain my physical strength at almost normal level.
Tuk.
The sound of tapping on the table suddenly stopped.
“really… … “The more I look at you, the weirder you get.”
“Is that so?”
“Yes, I wonder if you act the way you think, because you always deviate from my thoughts. “Actually, I think I have a good eye for seeing people, so I feel like you’re even weirder.”
Although the voice was calm, the words whose meaning I could not understand made me even more nervous.
‘First of all, it doesn’t feel the same as yesterday.’
This was definitely different from when they immediately kicked me out, as if my opinion wasn’t worth worrying about.
However, I couldn’t say that it was good yet.
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“Do you have some strange obsession or something?”
“no. “I don’t think there is.”
He immediately denied it.
I didn’t come here to face her because of my obsession or something.
“Then why on earth are you trying so hard? You are already doing well enough. No one, including me, is forcing or expecting more from you. “I know how unreasonable it is to ask for more than this from you, who has only been on the front line for two weeks.”
“… … “That’s right.”
“I know very well. “But why are you trying to push yourself so hard?”
I thought absentmindedly at the deep voice.
‘company.’
Does it seem like I’m being too hard on her now?
“I’m not trying to do something that is beyond my capabilities. It’s just that I… … “I just want to execute more apostles.”
As I spoke, I momentarily let go of my feelings.
If each other’s words continued like this, it seemed like there would be great restrictions on my future actions.
so… … .
I remembered it on purpose.
Those are not mine, but some of the biggest memories of Sinchang Yustea. Memories of him who had a great influence on me in the past when I realized the origin of my power.
… … Just thinking about it was enough. The core of many memories was only one.
‘hatred.’
It was also the same feeling of endless hatred for the apostle.
Shocked.
In an instant, I felt her eyes change significantly as she looked at me. Nevertheless, I allowed endless hatred and anger towards the apostle to completely color my heart.
‘It doesn’t matter what I look like now.’
Lieutenant Leria seemed to want me to act cautiously, but I didn’t expect that at all.
-I had to do it.
Yesterday, I thought to myself, made a decision, and even strengthened my resolve.
As long as I am on the front line, I will no longer act half-heartedly. And that gave me a completely different mindset than before.
That’s why I ended up meeting Lieutenant Leria yesterday and today.
As it is now, there is no problem and I can maintain a favorable relationship with her, but I want to get over it myself.
“Han Tiansheng… … .”
“More than anything, I think that apostles should be completely exterminated from this world.”
sincerity.
That too was sincere.
Among the many wills that Eustea had, the memory of the apostle was, without a doubt, heavier than anyone else.
It was no exaggeration to say that it was perhaps stronger than any will I would face in my future life. And I intentionally imbued my mind with that will.
My appearance on the outside right now may not be much different from how I feel.
“… … .”
Looking at her completely speechless, I slowly caught my breath.
‘I can control it.’
Although I momentarily let go of my thoughts and recalled the memory of Eustea, my thoughts were intensely colored. She was sure she had enough control.
While spending time with Azazel in the past, I learned how to control Eustea’s absolute hatred for the apostle.
It was also almost semi-compulsory. Because I had to control myself somehow not to attack Azazel. And for the first time, I was carrying Eustea’s will in my heart and reflecting it to others.
Phew… … .
I naturally tried to calm my rough breathing.
And when I controlled my mind to regain my composure, I was able to see her as usual, as if it were a lie.
Even though I was aware of the hatred for the apostle that had risen to the top of my head and the intense heat lingering in my body, my heart became transparent and calm.
“Lieutenant Leria. Do I need any more reasons than this?”
“… … No, this is it.”
I was able to remain calm at the slightly dazed tone of her voice.
‘This is better.’
I had to harden my attitude from now on, as I was afraid of either being rudely rejected or being persuaded by her. So that Lieutenant Leria will not have any doubts about me.
Rather, this situation was not bad.
“Han Tiansheng, then are you… … .”
As she suddenly continued speaking and her lips hesitated, I was surprised to see her for the first time.
‘Lieutenant Leria?’
Lieutenant Leria was a person who always spoke out loud and expressed his opinions. From my first impression of her when I met her at dawn on her first day at the front, she had always been like that.
But Lieutenant Leria was hesitating right now.