Became an Academy Spearman - Chapter 787
787. [Western Front] – Excitement (63)
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Sabrina returns from talking to Han Cheon-seong in the training room.
After closing the door and entering the inner room, she threw herself on her bed in a daze.
Phew!
As the soft bed fell along her slender body, Sabrina shook her head forcefully without realizing it.
Sararak!
Her long black hair was making a mess of the bed.
“ha.”
A deep breath echoed in the air. At the same time, Sabrina’s ears, who were rolling around on the bed in a daze, were greatly red.
She was more patient than she thought before returning to her room. And she felt that she was proud of herself.
“really… … “I endured it well.”
Even though he spoke blankly, he turned around. Then, the ceiling appeared.
I let out a light breath and unconsciously placed my hand on my chest. My chest rises and falls greatly as I breathe in and out… … Something was strange.
Excited. Exciting!
Above all, the sound of my heart beating loudly could be heard. If someone were in here right now, they would definitely have heard my heartbeat.
And even now, it continues to glimmer before my eyes.
“… … .”
Although I wasn’t able to achieve my original goal of training in the training room, Han Tiansheng’s smiling face came to mind as vividly as a lie.
That was different again.
It was so, so different from before that it felt foreign.
Tuk.
When I put my hand to my cheek, I felt hot heat. And it wasn’t just the face. A strange heat was lingering throughout my body.
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“… … “I wonder if Rune felt this way.”
Why are you so stupid?
I confessed at such an absurd time and was stupidly dumped.
When Roxanna came to see me the other day, I couldn’t help but laugh when I heard Rune’s situation.
Anyway, what kind of foolish confession would you make?
But now, I felt like I knew Rune’s feelings. If I had relaxed just a little, I would have done something really stupid in the training room.
ㅡ… … Somehow, I feel a bit foolish.
It felt like I was even hallucinating.
A pure white hand absently traced his face, as if he had belatedly realized that he was laughing at what I said. And Han Tiansheng’s smiling face filled with happiness… … .
It was different from before.
Because for the first time, I realized that he could make a face like that.
Whenever I saw Han Cheonseong, I could see that he was thinking about something and being cautious. Above all, try to act cautiously.
So, I felt that way every time I saw him.
It’s kind of amazing.
No matter how well we treated him, he seemed better in many ways because we could see that he was trying to stay within his own rights.
Despite the kindness of Runena and Roxanna, who occasionally showed excessive skinship, he seemed to be trying to put his mind right. Even I was no exception to that.
And that made it feel more vague.
‘Because I have a lover.’
Han Cheon-seong’s attitude made it even clearer that he was trying not to have relationships with multiple women indiscriminately.
however.
I felt like I got it right today.
What would it look like if Han Tiansheng let go of his guard?
And how powerfully that can captivate a woman.
“… … .”
Before I knew it, a sigh of relief escaped me again.
Tuk. Grumbling.
As I gently untied the string that held my head in place, I shook my head loudly through my loose hair. He turned around again, buried his face between his black hair, and held his breath.
Excited.
Exciting!
My heart was still beating like crazy.
‘calm down.’
I hope this abnormally beating heart will calm down a little.
I want to think rationally and get my mind together. But it didn’t work out the way I wanted. And I was so unfamiliar with myself that it was difficult to do anything right away. And then I vaguely realized.
How I feel and why I act so strangely… … .
“ha… … .”
Even as I took a deep breath, my whole body lost all strength.
There is no fatigue from back-to-back missions or the discomfort of waking up in the middle of a battle sleep.
just… … Due to the bigger emotions, I didn’t feel that it was that important to know what my body was like right now.
So it was more abnormal.
“It was like this.”
This thing called love.
Even though I was more aware of my emotions, I clenched my hands and gently opened them.
And the feeling couldn’t have been more strange.
It’s good, but it’s embarrassing.
I’m happy, but I’m embarrassed.
and… … More than that, many complex thoughts shook my mind.
“This is why it doesn’t go down well no matter what I eat.”
After confessing to Han Tiansheng, Rune’s face became noticeably thinner.
I heard from Roxanna that she hasn’t been eating much since yesterday, and that she can’t eat much at all, so I completely understand how she feels.
Rustling.
“… … .”
I turned again and looked at the ceiling, groping my face blankly. She hesitated with her lips even as she tidied up her greatly disheveled hair.
It’ll be the same.
Because I tolerated my emotions, which I became even more aware of today, an accident like Rune did not happen.
however. It was so easy to predict.
If I couldn’t endure this feeling right now, I would definitely end up just like Rune.
Also, I wasn’t in a situation where I should have burst out laughing at Rune’s situation… … .
“Really, what should I do?”
Even as I spoke, my mind was blank.
Above all, it was an exhibition called “Yellow Stance.” And in several units that were not part of the enemy wing, I saw people who were in romantic relationships for a few days.
Even in this wartime situation, seeing the couple clinging to each other and expressing affection was honestly very annoying.
Would you want to do that in this situation?
It’s ugly.
“under… … .”
When I thought about that, I burst into laughter.
I wasn’t in a position to say anything.
Grumbling.
A deep sigh continued to escape from the corner of my mouth as I absentmindedly brushed my loose black hair.
“I’m going crazy… … .”
What should I really do? I don’t think I can bear it.
I definitely endured it somehow today. However, if I see Han Tiansheng again tomorrow or are with him, my heart will rise again and I will find it difficult to suppress it.
And that couldn’t have happened.
‘I can’t believe I was dumped by someone.’
It’s not that confessing is the problem, but the consequences after confessing are so obvious that my feelings felt so contradictory.
I have hardly ever felt that Han Tiansheng likes me or feels anything rational about me.
If there was one, there was a time when Han Cheon-seong avoided my gaze when I was helping him in the training room.
‘But that’s because it’s so natural.’
In the first place, if a woman is sweating or her clothes are wet, any man can’t help but feel conscious.
I easily realized that it wasn’t because I had feelings.
So, it was a problem.
Han Cheonseong wants to date anyone in our platoon right now. So I had no intention of opening my heart.
Even though he is aware that there are several members of his platoon who are attracted to him, the most important person is keeping those feelings locked away.
So, of course, there are people who are rejected like Rune.
“… … uh.”
Then, in a daze, my thoughts stopped.
Han Tiansheng is locking his heart.
So, it is difficult to approach.
Even if we approach each other, it is difficult to be rationally aware of each other.
Several thoughts came to mind one after another, as if a small gap was visible.
Gulp.
Even as I swallowed my saliva, I unconsciously covered my mouth.
‘There was a way.’
As I said to Roxanna, a man was a man after all.
… … And in that sense, it was as if I already knew the answer.
Just because you have a lover doesn’t mean you won’t open your heart to other women. In fact, harem is a strange word that has now become socially accepted and spread, but that is the reality.
Sreuk.
He slowly moved his hands and touched my body.
I really don’t feel anything.
It’s just a piece of flesh that I can hold in my hand. As I touched my body, which felt solid, I felt a little strange.
Compared to the average woman, I was taller and felt a bit thin and long. But that didn’t mean I wasn’t confident in my body.
“… … “Because my body is definitely not bad.”
Moreover, Han Cheon-seong is not shorter than me, and it felt like it was just right for us to face each other when we were together.
Crucially, Han Tiansheng also spoke directly to me at that time.
Tall women are also attractive… … .
And those eyes were not ones that told me lies.
“And the mind and body are separate.”
Even as I mumbled, my mind was deeply colored in a very mysterious way.
… … It was a feeling I also felt for the first time.
I like men who have lovers. No, I love you.
In fact, if that was all it took, as I had told Roxanna earlier, it was possible to accept the harem, if I were willing to endure it.
So now. If it were a problem, it could be seen that Han Tiansheng did not open his mind.
And there was a ‘way’ to open that heart.
that is… … When I thought about it, I felt like this was really strange.
“no.”
Why on earth do I think like this?
Even I had a hard time understanding these days.
however… … My heart was so inclined.
‘Even so.’
I thought it would be meaningful to approach.
Rather than worrying alone and confessing my feelings without realizing it like Rune, I think what I think now would be much better.
That’s why my heart was so inclined.
It’s a hundred times better than giving up and not even trying to approach at all.
“… … .”
Even as I closed my lips, my face heated up for no reason. It was a completely different feeling from before.
Still, I thought so.
‘Naturally.’
You should never feel that it was intentional or that Han Tiansheng felt strange.
chance.
“okay. “It has to be a coincidence.”
As I thought about it, my face kept getting hot.
With a strange excitement that feels like my heart keeps tickling… … .