Became an Academy Spearman - Chapter 790
790. [Western Front] – Roxanna’s Anguish (66)
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“ha.”
A deep sigh rang hollowly.
“… … .”
Roxanna felt sad for no reason when she heard Rune’s sigh. When I carefully looked to the side, I saw Rune who was completely listless.
There is no trace of his usual lively or mischievous appearance.
It was difficult.
‘What should I do with this?’
So I was even more dazed. Everyone, regardless of whether they were in the 1st or 2nd division, was extremely tired due to the consecutive missions.
During this difficult time for the body, if the mind is tired, it could easily lead to a dangerous situation.
So I was more concerned.
“… … Rune. “Shall we have dessert?”
“dessert?”
“Well, let’s stop by the cafe outside the castle and have some delicious dessert. “If you eat something sweet, your mood will change.”
I spoke carefully, hoping that Rune would accept my offer.
A change of mood.
Rune needed to change her mind more than anything else. Stop thinking about Han Cheon-seong and focus on other things… … .
“No, I’m fine.”
“Rune.”
“… … I know what you are suggesting and how you are trying to help me. however… … “I just want to be alone for now.”
Looking at Rune smiling bitterly, I couldn’t bring myself to suggest it again.
Again.
As he walked away from me with such weak steps and headed towards his room, I just watched Rune disappear with his lips hesitating.
And as the door closed, Rune disappeared inside.
“… … Roxanna. “It might be best to leave Rune alone for now.”
I was momentarily dazed by Elphie’s calm words.
“Is that so?”
I didn’t know that I really needed time like she said.
“I also think that Lieutenant Elphie’s words will be good. Lieutenant Rune will be able to overcome this. “Aren’t you really strong?”
Even MacPhil spoke cautiously, and I smiled awkwardly.
“Yes, Rune is really strong. “I guess so.”
Even as I spoke, I felt very strange.
The 2nd unit of the enemy wing.
We worked together for a long time, and the mission was almost as successful as the 1st unit that Lieutenant Leria belonged to. It wasn’t surprising that they developed a bond to the point where they developed trust in each other.
however.
I actually don’t know.
‘Is it really okay to leave you alone?’
The pain of broken heart. So what is it really like to have your heart rejected? Because I didn’t experience it myself, it was hard to know how difficult it was for Rune.
And even though I, the sub-commander, had to manage the platoon members, Rune was a bit different.
“Then see you tomorrow.”
“Rest in peace, everyone!”
“huh. Rest in peace, both of you… … .”
I went into my room as well, watching the other two people go into the inner room.
Crash.
As I closed the door and entered, the feeling of being left alone was very vague. As I sat down on the bed in a daze, Rune came to mind.
“… … .”
While taking a deep breath, my eyes unconsciously fell on the badge hanging on my chest.
A pair of red wings that I received as a partial commander. It was not a single existing wing. Like I need to do something bigger with two wings… … .
I was given ‘responsibility’. To a position where I am responsible not only for myself but also for the platoon members I will command.
‘And originally, these wings… … .’
It should have been given to Rune, not me. I really felt that again.
“ha… … .”
He sighed loudly while shaking his head.
The most unfortunate accident in the fleet.
“No, I should say it was a disaster.”
To be honest, I didn’t blame Belenia that much.
Even though everyone in the enemy wing, including me, missed out on promotions, and went from being the most honorable platoon to being the unlucky one. Even now, I didn’t feel like blaming Belenia.
Because that must have been difficult.
I also often consulted with Belenia about small concerns, as she got along well with everyone and was depended on by many people.
It is difficult to be a member of the enemy.
It is difficult to complete the mission.
I don’t have the confidence to do as well as others… … .
I consulted with her about various concerns and received a lot of comfort from her.
And that’s her.
caused an accident
She was a member of the platoon who seemed to others to have no problem and was better than anyone else, but she fell for Sado’s temptation and committed a mistake that should not have been made.
“… … “Why did you do that?”
When I thought about it, I thought I was one.
-Because it was difficult.
Bellinia, who was superior to everyone else and was depended on by everyone, was in fact suffering from a difficult heart without anyone knowing, so she was taken over by the apostle.
No matter how many other reasons I tried to think of, that was all I could think of.
That contradictory situation where you can’t tell anyone that you’re having a hard time even though you’re having a hard time.
A weight carried only by Velenia, who could not even tell Rune, who was probably her closest friend, that she was having a hard time. That weighed on her heart.
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“… … .”
And I didn’t know if I cared more now.
Rune was the mood maker of the platoon and had a special charm that made even heavy topics lighter.
So, when I’m with Rune, it’s fun and friendly.
That’s why I thought Rune, not me, would be the sub-captain.
‘And that’s how it should be.’
But everything changed due to the disaster caused by Velenia. The internal atmosphere of the enemy wing and each person’s appearance changed one by one, no matter how big or small.
Among them, Rune has changed more significantly.
He earnestly asked me to hand over the partial command, and I took charge of it.
And Rune didn’t just hand it over to me. He hung out with me often and reached out to me to check if I was having any difficulties and to make me feel comfortable opening up my mind.
And that too consistently.
It was like that until just the last few days.
After dinner, he often came to my room or took me to his room and told me the most trivial stories, opening up our feelings to each other.
And I am. I took that kind of daily life for granted.
But now I know.
That it wasn’t natural… … .
Sreuk!
He suddenly raised his upper body.
And again, I thought differently.
“I don’t think leaving me alone is the answer.”
Over the past few days, Rune has already been spending time alone. However, the idea that my mind would get better if I continued to leave it alone did not seem right to me.
I don’t know if my thoughts will be the answer or not.
But that was where my heart was heading.
Don’t leave Rune alone like this… … .
If you can’t think of a way to help, think about the core of the problem.
“absoluteness… … .”
I didn’t want to experience the same pain as Velenia again.
Even though I knew that Rune had a stronger heart, I wanted to be more helpful.
Therefore, even now, it cannot be taken lightly.
In the beginning, I wanted to erase that pain by spending less time alone.
… … .
It was the moment I left the room and headed towards Rune’s inner room.
And then I saw a man in front of Rune’s boudoir, and I blinked without realizing it.
‘Han Cheon-seong… … ?’
Why is it in front of Rune’s room?
Although Han Tiansheng is still eating with us, I thought he would no longer be there from tomorrow. Obviously, Han Tiansheng is avoiding Rune. And since I don’t want to give it any space… … .
So it was even more surprising.
Even though he had left the place himself, he was in front of Rune’s room again.
Not even a few seconds after I stared at him blankly, Han Tiansheng’s head turned towards me.
“Ensign Roxanna… … .”
“Uh, Han Tiansheng. what’s the matter?”
Although I was momentarily taken aback, I thought I needed to know his intention.
“Personally, I have something to say to Lieutenant Rune.”
Rattling.
For a moment, my heart sank coldly.
Looking at Han Tiansheng, who had a calm expression and seemed to have decided something, my heart was shaken without me knowing.
‘Not now.’
Now that Rune was barely able to get her mind together, Han Tiansheng urgently shook his head, fearing that he might cause an even bigger shock.
“… … Hey, wait a minute! “Please talk to me before that.”
“You mean with me?”
“It only takes 10 minutes, no, 5 minutes. “You can talk to me briefly and then go see Rune again.”
Out of urgency, I kept saying whatever was out of my mouth to keep me from meeting Rune, and Han Tiansheng, who had been looking at me blankly, nodded awkwardly.
“All right. “Then shall we go alone?”
“No, come to my room. “I think it might be a bit personal.”
Shocked.
As Han Tiansheng made sure to be careful in his behavior no matter who was watching, I laughed and shook my head.
I feel it sometimes, but Han Tiansheng had a very strange and cheeky side.
He’s clearly not the type to show off what he’s good at, but I guess his behavior feels strangely cheeky.
It was a little funny.
“I have no intention of saying what you think, so don’t hesitate.”
“Ahaha… … .”
As Han Cheon-seong, smiling awkwardly, approached me in agreement, I also turned back into the room.
Crash.
And after that, when Han Cheon-seong naturally went into my room, I felt a little dizzy.
‘Let’s do something first.’
I don’t know what Han Tiansheng was thinking when he came to Rune, but I thought that I had to persuade Han Tiansheng at this point.