Became an Academy Spearman - Chapter 791
791. [Western Front] – Unexpected words (67)
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It’s sudden.
It was so sudden that Cheonseong felt shaken for no reason.
“Sit comfortably.”
The calm purple hair, and the face beneath it are extremely calm.
So I didn’t have any unnecessary concerns.
“yes.”
As I sat down on a nearby chair, Lieutenant Roxanna sat down on her bed.
And then we faced each other.
‘What on earth are you trying to say…? … ?’
In fact, I was so determined that I tried to find Lieutenant Rune.
The conversation with Lieutenant Sabrina in the morning training room greatly changed my values and mindset.
I had the courage to approach properly.
But suddenly, I was caught by Ensign Roxanna.
“first of all. I know you’ve been trying to distance yourself from Rune lately. And that it’s natural.”
From her first words, I stopped.
“… … “I’m sorry for causing any inconvenience.”
“Don’t apologize like that, it’s not your fault, is it?”
Even with her calm voice, I felt uneasy.
Actually, I was regretting my attitude towards Lieutenant Rune at that time.
Even though I could have treated him better, I acted as if my emotions took precedence.
“So, Han Tiansheng. “The fact that I have caught you like this and what I am about to say are actually all related to Rune.”
“As expected, you said that.”
“As you know, I am the second unit commander and am responsible for managing the platoon members. In that sense, there has been a big change in Rune’s heart recently… … .”
Seeing her smiling cautiously, I felt like I was sitting on a thorn cushion.
In the end, the culprit of the problem was me.
And that’s why Lieutenant Roxanna stopped me and led me to her room.
“First of all, I hope there are no unnecessary misunderstandings. Because I can understand your attitude now, and that may be the right answer. “Maybe you’re really embarrassed too.”
“I’m fine.”
It was actually okay. Because I thought it was okay as long as I got my mind right and didn’t have a half-hearted attitude.
“… … “You too have a strong heart.”
However, I was momentarily speechless due to an unexpected remark.
I have a strong heart, where was there a part in my words to say that?
A car that I didn’t quite understand.
“Yes. Han Cheon-seong. It’s a bit personal, but the reason I tried to find Rune a little while ago. “If it’s okay, can you tell me?”
More unexpected questions followed.
And this one, I had to immediately shake my head.
“… … “I have to tell Lieutenant Rune about that, so I can’t tell you about it separately.”
Actually, I was planning to say something out of the ordinary to Lieutenant Rune.
These were words that would be difficult for other people to understand, but I let go of my feelings and tried to act lightly.
I was thinking about a comfortable relationship.
“Are you sure you can’t tell me?”
As Ensign Roxanna spoke again earnestly, I inadvertently felt it.
‘You’re worried about Ensign Rune.’
I wonder if she might get hurt again by my words or my approach. Ensign Roxanna had caught me with that mindset.
“I can’t tell you, but what I can say for sure is that I will not do or say anything that will make Ensign Rune more difficult than he is now.”
Indirect answer.
But I thought this was enough.
“… … “Rune won’t have a hard time.”
“yes. “That’s why I wanted to meet Ensign Rune.”
It was a moment when I answered with a little confidence.
“Can you guarantee what you say? “What you’re saying is that your attitude now won’t make it any harder for Rune.”
Ensign Roxanna spoke to me a little coldly.
Can you really be sure? … .
And those words made me look at her again.
“… … .”
Ensign Roxanna.
He is the partial commander of the 2nd unit and usually shows a cautious and calm demeanor.
And now… … I felt like I learned one more thing.
‘I really care about Ensign Rune very much.’
It seemed like it was more than just a feeling of being cared for because he was a member of the platoon. Maybe he was paying more attention to my behavior as we were always close friends.
“yes. “I can assure you.”
And I had no hesitation. That’s because it was a decision I made after thinking about it over and over again.
If I had half-hearted thoughts, I wouldn’t have even thought of going to see Lieutenant Rune first.
“… … .”
I carefully stretched out my hand as I saw Ensign Roxanna blinking in surprise.
Suddenly.
Then, a little presumptuously, he held her hand firmly and made sincere eye contact with her.
“So, will you trust me?”
Ensign Sabrina’s actions felt like they had awakened me, so I felt a little lighter in my actions and words.
“… … uh. “I will believe it.”
Swish.
But why is Lieutenant Roxanna shaking my hand away so strongly?
For a moment, that felt odd to me.
***
dripping.
Rune, who was in the inner room, blinked blankly at the sound of a knock on the door.
“ha… … .”
A deep sigh escaped me, and the corners of my eyes naturally wrinkled.
I want to lie in bed and sort out my complicated thoughts, but even that has to be interrupted.
I hate it so much now.
In fact, as soon as I realized why I did that and how I felt, I hated everything that came out of my mouth.
I hated myself more than anyone else.
… … In fact, it wasn’t easy for me to accept that I made a confession that didn’t work out, and that I was dumped.
And now I just want to be alone and clear my mind… … Because the situation doesn’t work out that way. It felt more difficult.
“… … who is this.”
It was a moment when I answered in a voice that was too weak to even think for myself.
ㅡThis is Han Cheon-seong. Ensign Rune, may I speak to you for a moment?
At the uniquely calm voice that came through the door, my head went blank for a moment.
“… .”
For a moment, my lips hesitated and I pinched my side without realizing it.
The pain was vivid.
It was definitely not a dream. So it was harder for me to understand.
‘why?’
Even at the restaurant, he was conscious of me and avoided the table, so why did he come to see me so late at night?
Saabjak!
With a blank mind, I first straightened my hair and appearance.
I don’t know why, but he came to see me in person. And I couldn’t refuse Han Cheon-seong. After adjusting my hair and clothes like that, I was finally able to open my mouth.
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“… … “Come in.”
Crash.
As the door was carefully opened, I was a little dazed.
Han Cheon-seong came into my room, and it felt very foreign.
“I’m sorry for coming here so late at night.”
“No, that’s enough. “Sit anywhere.”
“yes.”
As Han Tiansheng sat down on a chair that was a good distance away from the bed, I became nervous for no reason.
And I felt it again.
Excited.
I realized that my heart was beating abnormally fast, and I tried to calm myself down for the past few days, but just by looking at Han Tiansheng, my heart started beating differently again… … .
“The reason I came to see Lieutenant Rune like this is because I wanted to talk.”
“… … conversation?”
“Yes, conversation. And I also wanted to say something personal.”
“… … .”
Something, really something was different.
The tone is calm and calm. It could be seen as Han Cheon-seong’s usual tone, but it seemed to sound softer. And more than anything, it seemed very different to me that Han Tiansheng was looking at me and not avoiding my gaze.
Just this morning, even when we ate at the same table, Han Tiansheng barely paid me any attention. But now I look at it like that.
And now that we are alone in my room.
“Try it.”
And I answered a little blankly.
I couldn’t even guess what on earth he came to me this evening to say. Plus, I also saw Han Cheon-seong, so I didn’t really know what to say.
It was just a complicated feeling.
“At that time, Ensign Rune asked me if I felt burdened.”
“… … !”
But from the first words that followed, it felt like it was breaking my heart.
‘no.’
Why are you starting like that?
For a moment, I felt absurd and my heart ached again.
“As I said then, I don’t feel burdened at all. And the words I answered at that time were all in that context. But now a few days have passed, I’m starting to regret it a little.”
“… … “I regret it.”
“yes. regret. “I felt regret that I shouldn’t have ended the conversation like that.”
The car that blinked blankly.
Han Tiansheng took a small breath.
Just that appearance alone kept me looking. The soft moonlight that happened to come through the window illuminates the inside, and that moonlight illuminates Han Cheon-seong in a strange way. That caught my eye even more.
So that you can’t take your eyes off me… … .
When I realized once again how much I liked a nice guy, my heart started tickling for no reason.
‘I feel stupid.’
Even though it was already kicked.
And Han Cheon-seong, who came to see me just now, didn’t seem to have any feelings for me.
However, I felt so stupid for being excited to see Han Tiansheng again.
“I plan on staying longer.”
“… … what?”
“I have no intention of just staying at the front line for a month and then going back to the academy. “I’m going to stay longer this time, of my own accord.”
At the words that followed, I had to open my eyes wide without realizing it.
What does that mean?
No, not a month?
“Now, wait a minute. What are you saying… … Are you doing it?”
“Literally. I plan to visit the office tomorrow and tell them. “I guess it’s a kind of extended service.”
He laughed awkwardly while talking, and I was just dumbfounded when I saw him.
‘While going through yellow alert?’
We have to go on missions every day, and we are going through much more difficult times than usual.
However, Han Cheon-seong, who had been through this front, was telling me that he would be at the front for longer. For a moment, it even occurred to me that there might be a problem somewhere in Han Tiansheng’s mind.
It was a time of hardship like the yellow posture, when even officers who had been at the front line for many years were having a hard time and everyone was looking forward to being discharged.
Everyone is extremely exhausted both physically and mentally.
“That’s why I wanted to reconnect with Ensign Rune.”
“… … What kind of relationship are you talking about? “You already gave the answer.”
“I did. That’s why I regret it. “I could have spoken better and maintained a better relationship, but I couldn’t do that.”
As the voice filled with power, I swallowed my saliva without realizing it.
Something was different.
And the feeling itself was completely different.
Han Tiansheng, who had been trying to pretend to be cautious, careful, and calm, now even felt like he had let go of something.
“What I’m going to say from now on… … “You can choose Ensign Rune.”
“select… … .”
At the words that followed, my heart began to pound even louder without me realizing it.
I feel like I’m wondering if it’s possible.
That couldn’t be possible.
“As I said earlier, I don’t care if you think I’m selfish after hearing my proposal. “You can stay away from me even more.”
“I… … “That won’t happen.”
I knew what kind of man Han Cheon-seong was after spending time with him for over two weeks.
A strangely kind guy.
He pretends to be nice and isn’t being polite, it’s just his ‘nature’ that makes him that kind of man.
So even though I was rejected, I didn’t feel like I hated him. Rather, I understood it more. The way you stay away from me and tidy yourself up could be enough… … .
The moment I looked at those lips, expecting the words to continue.
Sarah.
Very slowly, my lips moved.
And I heard it.
I heard the voice clearly suggesting something to me.
I understood what he was telling me to choose.
“… … !”
But my hair turned white,
For a moment I couldn’t say anything.