Became an Academy Spearman - Chapter 798
798. [Western Front] – Believing (74)
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ㅡDay 21 of the front line.
Time passed.
That’s quite a bit of time too.
As I spent the last few days, I couldn’t even feel each day properly.
I joined a platoon called Jeokik and had many experiences.
And I felt it.
How strong and trustworthy the members of the enemy platoon are. Maybe they are really good people who wouldn’t waste a single bit of trust even if I gave them their trust.
So it was harder for me to accept it.
Lieutenant Sabrina, who had always approached me jokingly and without hesitation, was unconscious.
Fortunately, she received treatment in time and overcame the risk of her life, but she has continued to lose consciousness since then.
Crash.
So like now. Whenever I returned from a mission, I would visit the infirmary where Ensign Sabrina was sleeping.
“Lieutenant Han Tiansheng. Isn’t it time for a battle sleep?”
I smiled awkwardly at the voice of Lieutenant Neril, the nursing officer.
“… … “I was wondering if Lieutenant Sabrina’s condition was improving.”
“I feel fine. However, it just takes time to become conscious. “Ensign Sabrina will be able to overcome this.”
A voice full of power.
And the trustworthy voice of the nursing officer seemed to contain such confidence.
Sreuk.
Hearing those words, I gathered myself a little more and carefully sat down on a chair nearby.
I wonder if there is a foreign body feeling from the front line, but now that I have finished showering, I am entering the infirmary in a clean state.
“… … .”
My gaze naturally turned to the face of Ensign Sabrina, who seemed to be sleeping soundly.
A pure white space.
In the center of the infirmary located within the enemy wing barracks, Lieutenant Sabrina was sleeping with a peaceful face.
“… … .”
I stared blankly at her face. That was enough for me.
There was no need to sleep to relieve the fatigue I felt upon returning from the front. The fact that Lieutenant Sabrina, whom I rescued, is alive and breathing like this.
Because with that alone, I felt my tired heart healing little by little.
“… … “Would you like me to leave for a moment?”
Then I blinked blankly at the sound of the nursing officer’s voice.
“no. “You don’t have to.”
Why are you trying to make room for me?
“no. I’ll leave the room for a moment. I’ll be back in about 10 minutes. In the meantime, take a moment to gather your thoughts. “I should at least bring some warm tea.”
When Lieutenant Neril, with a faint smile, left the room, I awkwardly got up, saw her off, and returned to my original position.
In a place where you can see Ensign Sabrina from a not far distance.
“… … .”
As I stared blankly at Ensign Sabrina again, I once again felt how quiet this inner room was.
It was so quiet that there was silence.
Then, several moments flash before my eyes.
I completed two more Apostle Execution missions in the past few days, but strangely, after remembering catching the Lich, my feelings about the other Apostles felt dull to me.
No matter how difficult the mission was, the moment I faced the mutant lich left an extremely deep impression on me.
‘It was for the best.’
And I kept thinking about the worst moment.
The moment when Lieutenant Sabrina had an accident that no one expected or could react to. Could I have saved her with a better response?
I’ve looked back on it dozens of times now.
And every time I thought about it, there was nothing better than this. I didn’t regret it. At that time, my body acted before my thoughts, and it turned out to be like the lesser evil in the worst situation.
The opening unfolded immediately and, as if moving through space at once, it returned to the first fortress in less than 10 minutes. I was unable to come up with anything more to deal with because I was pouring out all the strength of my entire body.
And the results were now in front of me.
“I believe you will wake up like always.”
Since Lieutenant Neril was out of the way, the words escaped me without my knowledge. And now I understand.
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Why did you try to leave me alone like this?
My heart naturally leaked out of my mouth.
“Just as I am worried about Lieutenant Sabrina and wish her well, the other lieutenants are also hoping that Lieutenant Sabrina will get well. “I hope that tomorrow, I will wake up without any problems and face someone else.”
The words in my heart continued to leak out uncontrollably. And that… … Strangely enough, it made me feel a little more at ease.
“Everyone is struggling in their respective positions to fill the vacancy left by Lieutenant Sabrina. I am also filling in for Second Lieutenant Sabrina in the 1st Unit. I’m pretty… … I think you’re doing well. Without feeling lacking, without feeling empty… … .”
The words continue blankly and blankly.
And as I continued speaking, I kept looking at Ensign Sabrina, who had a relaxed face.
Clearly this is reality.
The sight of him coughing up a lot of blood,
There was also a large hole on one side of the body caused by a pleural effusion enveloped in darkness.
All of that is a lie.
Only Lieutenant Sabrina, breathing comfortably before my eyes, existed before me as reality and as a fact.
Sreuk.
I nodded, even though I unconsciously clenched my hand tightly.
‘So, it’s okay.’
You don’t have to have nightmares anymore. I felt that way about myself.
Since the day Lieutenant Sabrina had the accident, I haven’t been able to sleep well. Every day, I could clearly see Lieutenant Sabrina coughing up blood, and I would wake up in a cold sweat.
And today.
… … I felt like I could finally erase my bad feelings.
Above all, I had to have faith. The belief that Ensign Sabrina will regain consciousness and rise again.
After that, I stretched out my hand.
Sreuk.
I held Ensign Sabrina’s pure white hand very carefully and prayed strongly.
“You will never lose. “Ensign Sabrina is a really strong person.”
Unconscious.
A state in which there is no abnormality in the body, but no consciousness can be found.
I heard there are so many reasons for that. Lieutenant Neril, a nursing officer, said that no one can know exactly what is causing the patient to lose consciousness and how long it will last.
They also say that they cannot be sure.
‘Unknown, instability, uncertainty… … .’
Many disturbing emotions are floating around in my mind.
Anxiety about how long it would take for Ensign Sabrina to regain consciousness.
However, it is said that a person with a strong mind will eventually find himself again.
That he would be trying to find consciousness on his own, and that he himself would wish for that.
“Everyone really wants to see Ensign Sabrina again… … .”
Even as he continued speaking, his lips hesitated.
It was strange.
Was my heart this weak?
My heart kept shaking.
Even compared to other days when I had to just watch and not say anything, today felt especially special. Even though I was pouring out what was on my mind and conveying my feelings, I was just in a daze.
Even now, I feel like she’s going to open her eyes and play a joke on me with a light word.
The reality was that she was in a state of unconsciousness, not knowing when she would wake up.
That itself felt unrealistic to me.
It wasn’t that Ensign Sabrina let down her guard during the mission, or that someone made a big mistake, or that she was underprepared for the lich.
But then this accident happened.
She was close to me, and I found great comfort in communicating with her the day before the accident.
That you don’t have to be too perfect,
This means that you don’t have to look at reality too seriously… … .
She gave my heart great peace with her many words.
Suddenly I had an accident like this.
There was no reason for it.
It was just an ‘accident’.
Tight.
“… … .”
I was chewing my lip and couldn’t say anything for a moment as my emotions continued to overwhelm me.
As I grabbed my own hand so tightly, I unconsciously couldn’t hold Ensign Sabrina’s hand anymore.
My heart keeps going.
Over and over… … I tried to become weak.
No matter how much I was hurt in the past.
No matter how hard it was for me… … .
There was no case where my heart broke while overcoming it.
Because I looked at reality on my own and tried to move forward somehow.
But it wasn’t.
I became increasingly aware of how easily my heart, which I thought was strong, could be broken.
… … It was really hard to bear.
That the person I depended on so much and who treated me so kindly had to suffer such a serious accident.
It was heartbreaking just to face that reality and look at it every day.
“ha… … .”
I let out a sigh mixed with strange emotions and unconsciously cupped my face.
And I could barely suppress the emotions that were rising.
I didn’t want to have a hard time now.
I had to get my emotions together and go back to normal.
“… … “I’ll come back tomorrow.”
I spoke blankly and cleared my mind.
I felt like I shouldn’t look at Ensign Sabrina anymore.
I think that would be even more difficult.
I feel like I’m going to forget reality and just break my heart.
The moment I was about to leave the infirmary.
Crash.
The door opened.
“… … “Han Cheon-seong.”
And when I met Lieutenant Rune, who was coming into the infirmary at that moment, I laughed really awkwardly.
“… … “Lieutenant Rune.”
“Sabrina… … “It’s still the same, right?”
She looked surprised as she faced me, then asked me about Ensign Sabrina, and I nodded cautiously.
“yes. You’re okay. “You will wake up soon.”
“Okay… … “I see.”
“I will make room for you.”
“Oh, no! Let’s just go out together. Rather, I came to find you.”
I blinked blankly at Lieutenant Rune’s words.
I didn’t come to the infirmary to see Ensign Sabrina. But as soon as I met her eyes, I naturally started walking with her.
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Sigh… … .
The door to the terrace in the enemy wing barracks opened and a strange noise rang out.
And as Rune entered, her eyes inadvertently caught Han Cheon-seong next to her.
‘… … It must be very difficult.’
I could feel many things just from Han Tiansheng’s face.
Emotionally, how difficult Han Cheon-seong was right now, no matter how calm he pretended to be on the outside, the difficulty was visible.
And even though I was having a hard time because of Sabrina’s accident, seeing Han Cheon-seong like that made me calm down even more.
Soon I was standing on the terrace railing, and I spoke brightly.
“We will overcome it.”
“… … Yes, I think you will get over it.”
“The Sabrina I know would never be broken by an accident like this. So, don’t worry too much. “Right now, I’m just tired from overworking my body, so Han Cheon-seong, don’t think about dying like that.”
Tuk!
While saying that, I strongly tapped Han Tiansheng on the shoulder, and Han Tiansheng staggered and looked at me with a blank laugh.
“Was I thinking about dying?”
“Oh, no matter who sees it, it’s like that. Besides me, everyone else in the platoon knows that you’re overdoing things right now, right? therefore. Don’t think too deeply. Just believe it. “You just have to think and believe what kind of person Sabrina is.”
He said it emphatically, and I thought the same thing.
It’s hard for everyone.
And the more difficult it was, the more I had to believe. No matter how hard it is, nothing will change… … .
This was something I realized hundreds of times during the Velinia disaster in the past.
“trust… … “This is it.”
Seeing Han Tiansheng answering blankly, he smiled brighter.
“huh. “It’s faith!”