Black Badger - Chapter 411



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411. The Wizard’s Blessing

Then what happened?

A terrible headache came over me.

But there was no need to dwell on the time I couldn’t remember.

Because the memories from afterwards came flooding back as if I had read my doctor’s prescription.

What happened after the memories were torn apart.

‘Are you awake?’

Cecil ended up doing as he pleased.

At first, only part of the memory was erased.

A fragment of memory that was not long but was fatal to me.

I realized it from her perspective.

Cecil was the first to have his memories of the end of the First War erased.

‘Cecil?’

It was such an important memory that I was frozen in Cecil’s memory.

‘How did I end up here?’

Ray’s presence had ceased.

The scene we had at the last moment with Kyle evaporated from my mind.

Cecil lied gloomily.

‘I don’t know. You just showed up here at some point. You don’t remember the details either.’

I was confused, but I believed her.

She must have had no choice but to believe it. She even brought up the scene where she argued with me about not erasing her memories.

After watching the following scenes, I began to understand a little why they did it this way.

As Cecil said, I sometimes immersed myself deeply.

There was no reason to stop, but I stopped and didn’t move for a long time.

‘But after I deleted it, the frequency really decreased. Before, I thought it would go into hibernation and never wake up…’

‘What frequency?’

‘It’s time to go to sleep, Hilde.’

Cecil dragged me away, avoiding the question indirectly.

‘You said you’d sleep periodically.’

‘I think I’m letting him sleep for too long. Wake him up at the right time.’

‘I’m waking you up at the right time.’

We started taking turns sleeping as if we were standing guard at night.

So I moved forward, clearing away the ruins without much suspicion, and when Cecil told me to go to sleep, I went to sleep. Little did I know that she was slowly erasing my memories while I was sleeping.

The wizard recited the spell from the moment I fell asleep, even sweating profusely.

Looking at a tightly woven carpet, it would be an easy task to remove just one thread without ruining the picture.

However, thanks to her meticulous skills, the memories were erased smoothly, starting with the bad ones.

Until a certain point.

‘Cecil.’

One day, as soon as I opened my eyes, I said:

‘What are you doing while I sleep?’

Cecil’s vision suddenly stopped.

I couldn’t see her expression since it was her memory, but I could tell she was extremely flustered.

In my memory, I wasn’t angry.

He just stared blankly into space and muttered.

‘Erasing memories without anyone noticing is not an easy task.’

It was a voice drained of all emotion.

‘I wondered why I couldn’t shoot the gun.’

I sat down on the ruins and stared into space for a long time.

‘I shouldn’t have been concerned about Bingje’s death. I was worried for a long time because I couldn’t understand myself in my memories.’

‘Hilde.’

‘I wonder if someone got shot and died.’

I didn’t hear Cecil’s trembling voice at all.

‘who is this?’

My eyes rolled back in my memory.

He seemed to be holding back his anger by only rolling his eyes without turning his head.

‘Cecil. Who are you?’

Cecil didn’t answer until the end.

Her persistence was admirable. I even added a sigh, saying that I wouldn’t be angry if she told me, but the wizard was adamant.

He closed his eyes and opened them again, then answered in a voice that seemed to be choking with fear.

‘If your condition improves…. If you find a way out or get even a little better, I will definitely return you to your original state.’

‘I wish you would give it back now.’

‘And just watch you gradually turn into a doll?’

Cecil began to cry.

‘Hilde, this world is a place where even sane people become strange. I can already feel myself becoming distorted. What if you become an unmoving shell like this? Most people say that happens. You’ve seen it too. People who become dolls or even statues covered in smoke from the remains.’

Well, it was quite a creepy sight.

As we turned the black and white world upside down, Cecil and I often encountered people who were so crazy that they were frozen. People who had become ruined and turned into husks. It was like looking at the shells left behind by snakes.

The scariest part was the fact that I couldn’t breathe.

Although it was biologically alive, it could never be said to be alive.

It’s understandable to be scared… .

Cecil cried without saying a word.

After a while, I sighed and got up from my seat.

There was nothing more I could have done.

Even if you threw a tantrum and asked for it back, Cecil wouldn’t have given up, and it wouldn’t be too late to grab it after finding the exit.

They say the road to hell is paved with good intentions… .

‘I won’t sleep anymore.’

I left Cecil crying and disappeared from sight.

***

Time has passed again.

Time to dig through the ruins so much that your fingers become worn out.

During that long time, Cecil didn’t cast a spell on me. I didn’t ask for my lost memories to return. I just silently looked for the exit.

This is what happened around the time we were living like that.

Still unable to find the exit, the inhabitants of the bizarre world had no intention of returning.

Someone showed up.

As I was immersed in the memories I had discovered.

Simon Diamond stared blankly ahead.

‘Where am I?’

He muttered in the common language.

‘what’s this?’

Simon and Cecil did not see each other at the same time.

Cecil was the first to discover Simon Diamond, who was wandering around.

Sensing something strange, she secretly went to check on the strange presence. Cecil approached like a cat, hid behind the ruins, and observed the man wandering around.

She remained silent until Simon Diamond collapsed from exhaustion after sobbing and running around.

Only after the mysterious man buried his head between his knees did Cecil cautiously close the distance between them.

And after putting the man to sleep, he extracted his memories.

I need to check if he is a dangerous person or if there is any information that can be helpful… .

This is how Cecil sees the Earth after the end of the First War.

Center core and the disappeared border.

A world where children who have never heard of war are growing up, even after World War II.

‘uh?’

Cecil was shocked when he looked into Simon Diamond’s memories.

‘What about Kyle?’

It seemed like he wasn’t there.

Even though it is certain that this man comes from a world where Hildebert and Kyle were at war.

Is it not curable?

Did I misjudge?

Or are you unable to move because you haven’t fully healed?

Or maybe he really did blend in well with human society, just as Hilde had hoped.

Without seeking revenge on humans or on fellow tribesmen who have differences of opinion… .

For whatever reason, humans appeared to be living peaceful lives.

Although Simon could not confirm the faces of those who were presumed to be his own kind in his memories… .

In contrast to the peaceful daily life unfolding in his memories, Cecil’s face gradually turned pale.

A body that is in deep shock and cannot move for a long time.

‘What if Hilde sees this and decides to give up living again?’

It was my first impression of the wizard.

Her golden eyes trembled with worry.

‘If I can’t adapt even if I go back… . If my memories come back… .’

In a world where there is nothing special to do anymore.

‘What if I can’t find a reason to live?’

Cecil mutters and covers his face with his palms.

Simon is having a good night’s sleep.

That was their first meeting.

***

Cecil didn’t tell me what he saw through Simon Diamond’s memories.

Simon’s presence was also incredibly hidden. It wouldn’t have been difficult to do so, as all they had to do was cast a mute spell around Simon and lead each other in opposite directions.

After separating them like that, we waited for the right timing.

An opportunity to ask specific questions.

‘Hilde.’

When the opportunity came, Cecil asked the question nonchalantly.

‘What if now, where Hilde came from, everyone was living without the threat of war?’

And I got this answer wrong.

Did you ever imagine that Cecil would abandon Kang Kyung-soo after hearing my answer?

I was so focused on my goal that I couldn’t even think about anything else… .

At that time, I turned my head and made a puzzled expression.

Then he smiled broadly.

‘Then it would be nice if there was no need to go through all this trouble, right?’

I was so focused on finding the exit that I didn’t even think about how Cecil would react.

It was a sincere remark that was spoken without much thought.

‘It’s a happy ending in its own way.’

***

‘It sounds like a happy ending in its own way.’

Cecil looked down at me as I lay down and sobbed.

‘Just start over from scratch.’

She has a strong personality.

To prepare for the worst, we made a decision that no one could have predicted.

A milky white sphere appears in the small, thin hand.

A band of gore-like text that wraps around a sphere.

A powerful spell of oblivion.

‘As Kissis said, it’s about creating again what you’ve lost from scratch.’

Forgetting all regrets, mistakes, and sadness.

Because you are a person who is worthy of being loved no matter where you fall.

Surely you will be able to love and be loved again.

There will be a lot to lose.

Cecil wept and recited a great spell of oblivion.

She hoped that this time I could live only thinking of myself, and that I could forget everything and be happy.

Where someone leaves, a new person will surely come.

It will be okay someday… .

‘Forgetting would be a blessing.’

A teardrop falls down my cheek.

‘Hello, Hildebert.’

The field of vision was filled with bright light.

***

The image I had when I appeared in the fragments of memories that followed had changed slightly.

I get out of bed with a blank expression and look around.

Cecil observes me closely.

For a while, I sat silently, taking in the world covered in gray.

Then he slowly turned his head towards Cecil.

When our eyes met, he smiled awkwardly.

‘hello.’

I asked while rubbing my neck.

‘Excuse me, where am I?’

I looked around, asking questions.

Cecil didn’t answer, but I didn’t care.

‘What was I doing?’

This time Cecil didn’t answer either.

I couldn’t answer because my throat was choked up.

But since I had almost lost my memory, I didn’t notice the other person’s strange reaction. I just hung around with question marks all over my face.

After a while, he muttered in a puzzled voice.

‘I think I was looking for an exit.’

Cecil’s vision wavered.

‘Where are you?’

My eyebrows furrowed.

‘There must be an exit somewhere.’

I started to turn over the ruins on the floor.

‘I have to go back quickly… .’

Cecil, who had been sitting on the high ruins, sat up.

She watched me turn the ruins over for a long time from her elevated gaze.

After watching for so long that I got tired of it, I slowly broke the silence.

‘Do you still want to keep looking for an exit?’

As I was looking into the ruins, I turned my body and met Cecil’s eyes.

‘yes.’

‘Even though I don’t remember who I should go back to?’

A question that could not quite hide its admiration, surprise, and sadness.

I couldn’t read the various emotions in her voice.

‘Yes. That’s strange. I don’t remember, but I think I should go back.’

Instead, he smiled faintly.

He was smiling, but his tone was firm.

‘I definitely want to go back.’

‘You may not necessarily have to go back there.’

‘No, I have work to do when I get back.’

The space between his eyebrows furrowed slightly.

‘I don’t remember what it was, though.’

I can’t even remember who I should go to.

‘Anyway, I’ll remember it when I get back.’

I turned the ruins over again.

I started looking for an exit.

***

Kwaaang!

The body was pushed out.

I rolled around on the ground and stopped, then sat up and straightened my sword.

The smell of wind mixed with building dust.

As I blinked and watched Cecil running wild with the flowers, someone came up next to me.

He came closer and stopped next to my knees.

You cried without raising your head.

Tears fell drop by drop onto my knees.

“sorry….”

The subordinate groaned and said.

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry…”

I gently placed my hand on You’s head.

I quietly looked down at my slightly shaking body.

The reason why I wanted to come back so desperately.

I’m finally offering my belated apologies.

“I’m sorry I’m late.”

Youga cried sadly.