Civil Servant in a Romance Fantasy - Chapter 931



931 – Prayer for Me – 3

It’s been about three days since I realized that my true identity is not that of a possessed person, but rather a person returning from a long-term business trip.

There were no dramatic changes or major events during those three days. I just heard it from Enen, so I wonder if anything would change.

If there was anything that had changed, it would be that the guilt I had harbored for about 10 years had been completely wiped away. I felt sorry for driving out the real thing and taking over its body, but who would have thought that the real and the fake were the same entity, without any need to distinguish between them?

‘This is a tag scam.’

If my life were a novel or a comic, I would have been lying about the tag for 10 years of serialization. My life, which I had been living thinking I was a possessed person, has completely changed genre.

This vulgar sun god. If you knew, why didn’t you tell me sooner? Because I thought my existence was fake, I was shunned by my family, and I married my wives rather late. How am I going to compensate for this waste of time?

‘Did you tell me quickly by the new standards?’

However, it is said that even years are just a moment to God. So, from Enen’s perspective, what was revealed to him after 10 years must have been revealed quickly.

It is truly a pity. The immortals of heaven do not know the feelings of mortals. I think that in order for gods and believers to truly become one, they must first look at each other from the same eye level.

‘It’s fortunate that I found out, even if it’s late.’

And Bing-ui─ no, it’s a shame that I didn’t know the truth for ten years after my return, but I’m glad I know it now. Because I learned the truth before I turned thirty, before the passage of time dulled my guilt.

If the guilt toward the sword that he thought was the original had dulled, if he had no feelings at all about it taking over his body, would he have felt relief or smiled bitterly at Enen’s words? No. He certainly would not have. He would have simply moved on, leaving behind only the impression of ‘I guess so.’ He would not have felt the relief he feels now.

The ending where the guilt I harbored was not resolved by meeting the light, but rather decayed and disappeared on its own. This is much better than that ending.

‘Is there a way to turn back lifespan?’

By the way, it’s incredibly strange when I think of the original sword, me before I returned, and my current fortune side by side.

The original died at the age of 16, and before returning, I died at around 26. When the two are combined, a miraculous life with an average lifespan of 21 years is born.

‘How is the average life expectancy 21 years?’

I am speechless. The original sword was from a high-ranking noble family, and before returning, I was a person from a 21st century advanced country. How did I die at a speed that rivals that of a poor country? Was it perhaps a soul’s struggle to return to the original world?

Anyway, since I ended my two lives so quickly, my third life ended up taking up two people’s lifespans. If my lifespan is extended according to Tricky’s grand plan, I will live for 4,500 years.

In fact, the combined lifespans of three people wouldn’t amount to 4,500 years, but it was still paid in full. If you assume that interest was also paid, it wouldn’t be wrong.

‘If there is a next life, please live normally and then die.’

Honestly, if I lived three times, I would like to start enjoying the honey in heaven, but if I were to start my fourth life, I would like to live normally until I am 80. If that is impossible, I would be willing to accept living until I am 90. I absolutely cannot go beyond that.

If I were a soul who went on a business trip to another world and returned after 26 years, my fourth life would definitely be hell. I don’t want to live that kind of life until I’m 100 years old.

‘It’s heaven.’

Soon, I found myself laughing without realizing it.

In a world where God exists, there must be an afterlife. I didn’t ask Enen, but it would be even more disappointing if there wasn’t one.

And I am a living adult. If I ask Enen a favor, there is a good chance that he will gladly let me into heaven. Unless I volunteer to be reincarnated, my future will be a leisurely old age in heaven instead of a fourth life.

‘heaven…’

If I go to heaven, who will be waiting for me? If my life span is extended by hundreds of years, how many people will go to heaven first and wait for me?

I can’t even guess. Even though I’m not even thirty yet, I’ve already made quite a few connections. I’m sure that just my blood relatives would form a company or battalion.

However, I can be sure of one thing. Of those who are waiting for me, I can be sure of who will be the first to enter heaven.

‘Should I go and brag?’

I quietly got up from my seat and grabbed my coat.

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In the past, I thought of myself as an immigrant from outside and was a bit shy, but I realized that I was actually an indigenous person who had matured for a long time compared to those guys. I was superior in both status and bloodline.

Where the original 16 years, 26 years before the return, and now 10 years. Let’s try the native’s tail that’s been around for a total of 52 years.

The section of the National Cemetery where the fallen soldiers were buried. Among them, the section where the people from the Inspectorate who died during the Great Suppression War gather.

The six tombstones lined up there looked considerably more splendid than when they were first built.

“You are a commoner, but you are wearing the lion emblem. You should know that it is an honor.”

As soon as these guys were appointed Counts of Ribnoman, the lion emblem was engraved on their tombstones. The lion is a noble emblem that symbolizes the empire and the royal family, so it is a kind of medal that only those above the vice-minister level can wear within the administration.

But the commoners are the team leaders who are wearing that sentence. After all, the title of Count of Ribnoman is good.

“I came empty-handed this time. I just came because I had something to tell you.”

After carefully touching each of the carefully engraved lion emblems, I sat down in front of the tombstone.

More specifically, I sat in front of Hecate’s tomb. Why would I sit near smelly men when my seventh wife is right in front of me? If I’m not careful, their smell can spread.

“I was more fundamental than I thought.”

Anyway, I leaned back against the tombstone and opened my mouth.

I’ve already confirmed that there’s no one around. Here, I don’t have to worry about anyone hearing what I say.

“Even if I’ve wandered elsewhere for a long time, it’s not unusual for me to leave my home behind and go out. If this is my home, even if I’ve been away for a long time, I’m a native here too.”

It’s something that’s difficult to understand even if you hear it in the first place.

Perhaps these guys wouldn’t know what I’m talking about if they were on Earth instead of Heaven. It’s a secret I don’t tell anyone that I’m a possessed person (or not). But if Enen is so considerate that he appears in my dreams, then he must know my fate.

Let’s just think about it that way. If we keep considering various variables, we won’t be able to say what we want to say.

“I felt bad for the time being because I thought I was the one who immigrated but couldn’t protect the natives. But if I had known that this wasn’t due to the immigrant’s lack of ability, but rather a minor incident that occurred among the natives, I would have felt a little better.”

I burst out laughing as I was saying this, wondering what the heck I was talking about.

Whether you are an immigrant or an indigenous person, the fact that we failed to protect you is an indelible past. It is a truth that cannot be covered up by any excuses or reversals.

But there’s a difference between ‘a guy who failed while taking someone else’s body to protect you’ and ‘a guy who just failed’. They’re both miserable, but the latter is better than the former.

“And I’m a little worried. Where will my soul go when I die? Will it go to you, or will it fly somewhere else?”

This was a worry that I had kept to myself and could not tell anyone while I was alive. I worried for a moment that if I died, my soul would not return to the original world.

But the world that existed before was a wrong world to begin with. When I die, I will not go there, but rather go to heaven in this world and enjoy a peaceful old age.

What a joy it would be. How grateful I would be to be able to see you when I die.

“When I die, there are three gods to catch.”

Of course, even if I had been an immigrant, my soul would not have returned to the previous world.

Enen, the eternal blue sky, Constantina. There is no way that three gods would neglect my soul. It would be a disgrace for a god to have his own saint, his honorary priest, his benefactor go to another world.

“Oh. Now when I draw a portrait, I draw a halo behind it too? Isn’t that cool?”

While the word adult came to mind, he also bragged about his poetry while he was alive.

Just as you received the Lion’s emblem, I received a halo. Now, when you draw a family portrait, you can draw a halo behind my head.

‘It’s terrible.’

I couldn’t help but sigh as I imagined the family portrait with the halo painted on it.

A family portrait with a halo. It is obvious that it will be used in textbooks in the religious and art world for hundreds or thousands of years. What a terrible thing.

“I’m an adult after all, so I’ll pray while I’m here. This is more precious than Boyar wine.”

I quickly got up from my seat before more terrible thoughts came to mind.

It is true that I came to reveal my identity, which I did not know, but this prayer is the real purpose of my visit. I prayed for the piety and the situation, and even for me, who I thought was dead, so now it is right to pray for you who are truly dead.

“Hold on to a good piece of land and wait. I’ll probably be a little late, so take your time.”

Before praying, I asked with a little selfishness. If possible, please choose only the best real estate in heaven.

I’ll go in 400 or 500 years, so I’ll be able to get a good piece of land by then. I believe it’ll be possible, since the adults are praying for me.

If it’s impossible, well, I guess I can just ask Enen for help.

‘Cheer up.’

But please don’t let me get my head smashed in.

***

After the child of the Crassius family withdrew, he approached the tombstone that the child had been touching.

Although I am the caretaker of the national cemetery, I have no right to disturb the remembrance of the deceased. That is why I waited until Crassius’ child finished his business.

I was curious to see what would happen if a living adult prayed with all his heart. Even though Crassius’s child did pray for the situation, it would not be as effective as praying for his own friend.

“Hoo.”

Fortunately, this little curiosity yielded satisfactory results.

The gravestones that Crassius’ child had caressed began to emit a soft light and then slowly sank. The gravestones themselves had become holy relics imbued with divine power.

‘I see. So that’s how it turns out.’

Even I, who was once a Dragon Lord, am seeing this for the first time.

I am satisfied. There are more gravestones that need to be carefully managed and observed.