Damn Idol - Chapter 178



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Episode 178

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Memories of the past really come to mind from time to time.

It’s as if human memory capacity is fixed, so it’s usually compressed and then decompressed when there’s a trigger.

The moment I arrived at the waiting room of the year-end music festival hosted by MBN, I was reminded of my days as a member of For the Youth.

I’m not sure if my memory is correct, but the location of the waiting room seemed to be the same.

Of course, the waiting room was the same, but the situation was very different from now.

Putting aside the differences between Sedalbaekil and Poderyouth, first of all, it’s 2020, not 2017.

No, I think it was 2019.

I remember that after being active for exactly a year and a half, there were restrictions on my activities due to COVID-19.

Naturally, the team’s achievements were also different.

Three months and one hundred days is far superior.

Even then, I was a regressor, but I wasn’t a complete regressor like I am now.

Although he could sing somehow, he could only play the guitar and piano, and even those weren’t top-notch instruments.

Are you just one of the top pop singers in Korea?

That’s why I needed help from my colleagues at that time.

So I suggested something similar to today’s stage for the year-end music festival to the members of For Youth… … .

‘Hey, why did you do that?’

‘Yeah. It’s not like doing well today will raise the music show rankings.’

‘It’s the end-of-year stage. Let’s enjoy it.’

Got rejected.

At that time, I wasn’t on bad terms with Foderyouth.

Since we debuted and immediately achieved success, there was no need to fight.

I was so busy.

So their rejection and their reasons were sincere.

I honestly didn’t have the motivation to do that.

I think he was angry.

I thought that was something people who only live once would say.

I’m the one who doesn’t have to risk my life on a single stage.

Of course, I understand their feelings now.

Not everyone lives a life of giving their all, and that’s not the only answer in life.

But at least I want people who give it their all as teammates.

We want people with an unattainably high desire for improvement.

Like three months and one hundred days.

But how did it come to that?

“Gu Tae-hwan.”

“huh?”

“Wasn’t it hard when you practiced?”

“Was it hard?”

“But why did you do it?”

“Huh? I have to.”

“That’s why. Why did you do it like this? You could have just decorated the stage properly.”

At my words, Gu Tae-hwan rolled his eyes.

It’s a rare sight to see from Koo Tae-hwan.

He’s a very quick-witted guy, so he lives with most situations in mind.

Koo Tae-hwan was unable to answer this simple question for a while before finally opening his mouth.

Even that is questionable.

“Was it because of a sense of accomplishment?”

Since I didn’t get an answer, I asked similar questions to other members and received similar answers.

It was thanks to Onsemi that I realized the answer.

“Why did you do that?”

Although Onsemiro asked this question, it feels like a question I received during my time at Poderyouth.

Before things got worse, the members often asked me why I did that.

My answer to that has always been simple.

“just.”

“What? You’re the same.”

“… … .”

“what’s the matter?”

“no.”

Yeah, that’s it.

I just do it because I can.

Maybe it’s not something you get for any grand reasons, like a sense of accomplishment or a desire to improve.

Even when I wasn’t a regressor, I was someone who would inevitably dig deep into a song when practicing it.

It’s just a bunch of similar guys gathered together.

It wasn’t something I, the regressor, collected, it was just by chance.

If I think about it, I’ve only been an idol for three months with For Youth, and I’ve only lived the second life with For Youth.

This is amazing.

Whenever I jump into a genre, I go through it at least 5 times.

This was the case with the exception of classical musicians who had overcome the wall of talent, or gospel, where the gap between genres and races was too great.

so…….

Perhaps today’s stage is an answer to the past members of For Youth.

The question of why you do that and the answer to the denial that you don’t want to do that.

And probably the answer is quite appropriate.

“Two, three, four, exactly, two, three, four, crack.”

When I see the members nervously trying to match the movements that they have practiced countless times and have become ingrained in their bodies, I feel that kind of confidence.

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2017 was a very good year for the domestic economy.

Thanks to this, the streets were filled with a year-end atmosphere, and the broadcasting industry was no exception.

The ratings for pilot programs or special programs that broadcasters pushed for a one-time boost were quite good.

Some may say that this is an over-interpretation, but surprisingly, the total viewership ratings of TV programs are greatly influenced by the actual economy of the year.

It’s not that the physical time I have to watch TV changes depending on whether the game is good or bad, but the mental space I have changes.

In this situation, MBN was the first to start the year-end music festival.

In the distant past, when terrestrial broadcasting dominated the South Korean content market, broadcasting stations would broadcast year-end music festivals on the same day and at the same time.

But not anymore.

Broadcasting stations negotiate and coordinate schedules, and capitalist logic is incorporated into this.

It was like watching the viewer ratings for MBN’s year-end music festival and other broadcasting stations playing around with their advertising unit price cards.

But that was show business, not the audience.

They just wanted to cheer for a certain singer or listen to a certain song.

-Why is it that the year-end music festivals are always held at Balka? Even on all three major public broadcasting stations.

-It’s like a rule for the year-end music festival. I don’t know why. Anyway, okay.

-Isn’t it because you didn’t rehearse much?

-No matter what, this is too much.

-It’s ridiculous, but the sound is better than ever lol. I can hear it so well.

-Yeah, I think I can tell the difference between AR and voice.

By the time the first part, which was decorated in a perfect performance format, ended, the viewers could see that the singers who had not yet performed were the ones nominated for awards.

From Part 2 onwards, the award-winning singers will perform.

In fact, the year-end music festival awards ceremony was so controversial and controversial that the three major public broadcasting companies agreed to abolish it in 2006.

However, after that, the popularity and viewership of the year-end music festival began to decline, and eventually SBN revived it in 2012.

MBN was revived in 2014, while KBN was still mulling it over but had no plans yet.

Of course, it has been revived, but it feels more like handing out hats rather than ranking and awarding prizes like before.

Unlike terrestrial broadcasting, M-SHOW was properly ranking and giving out awards.

Given this situation, those watching MBN’s year-end music festival today weren’t particularly curious about the various trivial awards.

What they were curious about was the target and the rookie award.

First of all, it seems like the Rookie of the Year award is a certainty for Se-dal-baek-il, but I’m not sure if he’ll even win the Grand Prize.

There are some singers who have won both the Rookie of the Year and the Grand Prize at the same time, but there aren’t many.

However, the rookie award winners at MBN’s year-end music festival were FFBA, who debuted in January of this year.

-FFBA really seems to have the best luck among the rookie groups this year. They had a schedule in China from January to June.

-Why is that?

-You avoided it for three months and a hundred days.

-Ahahahahahahaha

-It’s surprising that they became popular in China right after their debut. Aren’t they more popular in China than in Korea?

-I thought you were going to give me the Rookie of the Year award for 3 months and 100 days;

-I was trying to give it to you, but I couldn’t see it.

-No, FFBA’s agency is really close with MBN. They’re practically related.

-They were really handsome lol

The FFBA, which won the Rookie of the Year award, decorated the stage, and then other minor awards followed.

The surprising thing happened next.

Sedalbaekil received an unheard of award called [Trend of the Year].

Considering that it didn’t exist last year, it was a hastily put together award.

-Wow, this is how you show the sadness of an independent group?

-The three-month and one-hundred-day independence diary isn’t over yet lol

-Are you crazy, MBN? Are you ignoring Apple’s pioneering spirit?

-But Three Months and One Days wasn’t on MBN at all. That could be true. This isn’t even a one-shot deal.

-What are you talking about? Of the three major public broadcasting companies, MBN is the one that has been working the hardest.

-Huh? Really? Where did you come from?

-Masked Singer.

-ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

-Oh, right, I went to work for 4 weeks straight.

-Even if you graduate and go, you’ll be surprised lol

In fact, it was only the public who didn’t really know much about the entertainment industry who were surprised, but it was something that could be guessed on the stone tablet.

Titi also didn’t react much.

Of course, there was chaos in the private space where they communicated among themselves, but that was how it was externally.

Meanwhile, Han Si-on grabbed the microphone and opened his mouth.

But he stopped talking and looked up at the light.

After a brief silence, his mouth opened again.

No one knows, but the words coming out of Han Si-on’s mouth right now were not something he had prepared in advance.

It was spontaneous.

Because a certain moment came to mind.

[… … It feels like it’s been a long time since I gave an acceptance speech. Actually, it hasn’t been that long.]

The public assumed that was the case, but Titi tilted her head.

As far as they knew, Han Shi-on had never given an acceptance speech.

What Han Si-on recalls is the last scene from his past life.

Acceptance speech after receiving the grand prize at the 2028 Grammy Awards.

“Thank you for everything, everyone.”

“I will never forget it. No matter how many more lives I have, I will never find a more perfect band.”

With these thoughts, I returned and started my life in Korea.

And exactly one year has passed.

To a regressor who has lived a long, long life, one year is nothing, but strangely it feels long.

[Thank you always. To my team members and Titi.]

[No matter how many more lives I live, I don’t think I’ll ever find a more comfortable and perfect team than this.]

The fandom of Sedal 100 Days was surprised that Han Si-on was called Titi instead of Time Traveler, but the members of Sedal 100 Days thought otherwise.

They were surprised to hear the word comfort come out of Han Zion’s mouth.

Although Han Si-on himself didn’t seem to have any particular thoughts, in the eyes of the members of Se-dal-baek-il, Han Si-on was a very self-destructive person.

Especially when you feel depressed for no apparent reason or when you are running towards a goal.

But what was more surprising than them was Han Si-on himself.

He lives in a closed time, so he rarely closes the ending.

The words, ‘It can’t be perfect anymore’ are like a death sentence to Han Si-on.

If you have a perfect band but can’t sell 200 million records, then there’s no reason to continue being in a band.

Originally, Han Si-on had planned to challenge himself as a K-pop idol even after his life with Se-dal-baek-il ended.

but…….

Maybe this could be the last idol.

Even if it fails.

The stage began after the acceptance speech, which was important to the officials but not to the public.

On-site, there was time to prepare the stage after the acceptance speech, but this was not the case on air.

Even though it was live, the video wasn’t actually broadcast in real time.

There is usually a gap of about 3 to 5 minutes.

So, the viewers could see the stage that came up right after the acceptance speech.

“uh?”

I was a little embarrassed.

Because there was only one grand piano left on the stage.