Damn Idol - Chapter 34



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Damn Idol Episode 34

There were many factors that made me nervous.

Despite all this effort, it was far-fetched that we could not even exceed 50 million copies, let alone 200 million copies.

The frustration of not being able to share my true story anywhere.

I obviously tried like crazy and achieved great success, but I felt hopeless that everything would go to waste anyway.

And what bothered me more than anything was cognitive dissonance.

I was confused as to whether I was really Han Si-on or whether I was a crazy psychopath delusional.

Panic disorder and depression from numerous causes tormented me, and at some point, I became addicted to drugs.

Even in that situation, I was still bitter and bitter about album sales, so I fought with the staff almost every day and clashed with management.

As an aside, Koreans at that time didn’t like me very much.

No, I hated it.

I shouted “I Love Japan” to try to sell at least one more album, but then I went around being called a traitor.

That’s how much I wanted to sell at least one more album at the time.

I couldn’t get through each day without that kind of achievement, so I asked my management to report my album sales every day.

According to the record, I felt good like a manic patient, and then I felt sad like a depressed person.

When the 5th round, which was so intense, ended in failure, I suddenly felt like I wanted to run away.

Rather than deciding success or failure with my own hands, I wanted to leave it to others.

So I decided to become an idol in the 6th episode.

Looking back, I don’t think I really liked idols during the first episode.

There was no particular reason, it was just that I was a person with no clue about the world who was suffering from Hongdae disease and hipster disease.

But after about the 6th episode, I didn’t even feel that way.

Moreover, if you succeed as an idol, won’t you be able to eat all of Korea, Japan, China, and Southeast Asia?

After two years as a trainee, he debuted as the leader and main vocalist of a team called .

The team achieved immediate success.

The debut title song I pushed immediately reached #1 on the music charts, and the follow-up song I composed reached #1 on three broadcasting companies.

After that, as I achieved success with a lot of songs that touched me, the way the company looked at me changed.

They treated him not just as the leader of an idol group, but as an artist with a genius sense.

I was also able to pursue solo activities to my heart’s content.

But success was short-lived.

Discord soon arose.

I don’t quite remember what the starting point of the feud was.

I think it was my solo activity, or it was the year-end Song Festival.

It was a very old memory, and I tried hard to forget it.

At first, I had a good relationship with the For the Youth members, so I tried to eliminate the discord.

They even divided the profits earned through solo activities into N parts, and even fought with the company to guarantee the members’ individual activities.

Nevertheless, the discord deepened.

No matter how hard I tried, people hated me.

And he said it was all because of me.

Because I risked my life for solo activities rather than team activities, because I pushed my teammates without consideration, and because I was a genius, I looked down on those without talent.

Even fans said that.

In the end, For the Youth took the step of disbanding.

But surprisingly, I didn’t regress at this moment.

Although For the Youth was disbanded, I, Zion, who was the leader and main vocalist of the team, still had many fans.

There were times when my image deteriorated for a moment, but when For the Youth disbanded and I was left alone in the entertainment industry, my image quickly recovered.

Afterwards, I made a solo comeback and continued my successful career, and began selling albums targeting the Japanese and Chinese markets.

It was about three years after the team was disbanded that I returned.

It all started when one day, after the team disbanded, the team members who had canceled their contracts with their agency and became ordinary people wanted to meet me.

They handed me an apple.

It was very difficult at that time because I was blinded by jealousy.

He’s happy to see me doing well, but he also misses me.

Can’t we reunite again?

Please think about it for the sake of the fans who are waiting for the full For the Youth group.

If it were now, it would have been a suggestion that would have made one scoff.

No, it would never have gotten into that situation in the first place.

But back then, I had a much softer sensibility than I do now.

Stupidly, to the point of getting hurt by people.

It was a time when I was feeling the limitations of solo music due to falling album sales.

So, they accepted the members’ apology and decided to prepare for a full comeback.

However, in the end, the complete product could not be formed due to one contract condition.

[The profits earned through solo activities are divided into N parts.]

A desperate measure taken to prevent the disbandment of the team.

They asked for it again, and I wasn’t stupid enough to give in to a request that had obvious intentions.

So the For the Youth members spat at me again and left.

When I opened my eyes… … .

Bippo, Bippo-

It was at an intersection.

After that, I became a lot calmer.

I’m not sure if it’s because the first team activity failed or because I saw their ugly side.

So, in the 7th round, I once again chose For the Youth.

I wanted to try an experiment.

How do they change if you treat them not with warmth, but with the logic and business of capitalism?

The success of the second For the Youth was faster than the first, and the plane arrived at a higher altitude.

But the result was the same.

“You already branded us as bastards. “You think we didn’t feel it?”

“You really are a selfish bastard.”

“Isn’t it so strange that bastards like us are eating the rice from genius spatulas?”

Maybe someone was right.

Our breakdown in the 7th round may have been because of me.

But it doesn’t matter what happens.

After that, I headed to America and achieved greater success.

I have been distrusting and suspicious of my team members for a very long time.

In that sense, GOTM was a special team to me.

Because I felt quite comfortable when I was in GOTM.

For the Youth, I thought I had forgotten everything.

It happened so long ago, and strictly speaking, it is something that has never happened in this world.

but.

“It’s a fade in the take scene. i look forward to.”

When I saw the face of one of the members of For the Youth, I couldn’t help but think of the emotions of that time.

* * *

Why is Cho Yong-seong here?

I’m sure you’ll debut as For the Youth in two years, right?

When I monitored Take Scene YouTube, I never found Cho Yong-seong.

I was confused for a moment, but quickly found the answer.

I once heard that Cho Yong-seong was in another debut group before debuting in For the Youth.

The debut group is the take scene.

Of course, as far as I remember, Cho Yong-seong never debuted in a take scene.

But this is only a memory of the 7th episode.

Since I left for the United States, I haven’t even paid attention to Korea.

Maybe there was a time in the meantime when Cho Yong-seong made his debut with a take scene.

As you go through countless regressions, you will often encounter situations that you have never seen before.

Even if the same thing happens 10 times, the result may be different the 11th time for no reason.

It could be because of a sudden change of heart, or it could be a butterfly effect caused by me.

It doesn’t matter what happens.

Now, there is no need to take revenge on Cho Yong-seong, and there is no need to burn off emotions.

In this episode, he’ll be seeing me for the first time, so it’s only funny to feel emotions here.

However, I am motivated to do my best.

In any case, it is a given that Take Scene will debut once the broadcast ends.

No matter how good I am, according to the logic of capitalism, there is no way I can debut every three months.

But I hope people who watch this program say this.

I think Han Si-on should have debuted with a take scene instead of Cho Yong-seong.

I know it’s childish, but who cares?

A worn-out regressor who may end up regressing must force himself to move forward by creating motivation.

This is enough motivation.

At that time, a staff member came over and started explaining the situation to Cho Yong-seong and me.

They selected overlapping songs from the list of favorite songs and had them sing the same song, and 50 audience members who heard them voted.

I like Cho Yong-seong’s song… … .

No, from now on I will call it fade.

Because you might make a mistake.

Anyway, I couldn’t hear Fade’s song, and Fade couldn’t hear me sing.

Perhaps that was why Fade was smiling and just staring at the monitor where the voting results would be displayed.

The result was like that.

3 Months 101 – Hansion: 41 votes

Take Scene-Fade: 9 votes

It made Fade’s face collapse in an instant.

hmm. But who are the nine devils?

I’m with Fade, but I can vote for Fade?

It is clear that they are relatives.

Anyway, it felt good to see Fade’s rotten face.

That bastard in For the Youth was the worst, and he was always attacking me.

Of course, I wasn’t an amateur enough to show these feelings on air.

“ah… … .”

He was rather embarrassed by such a big victory, so he pretended to notice Fade’s feelings for a while, then bowed to the audience and headed next to the members.

As I sat down, Lee Ion whispered to me.

“It’s 2 to 2 so far.”

“Is it the score?”

“huh.”

Of course, I thought Onsaemiro would have won, but looking at his swarthy face, I guess not.

The order in which you take your seats is the order in which you sing… … .

I got stuck with Juyeon.

I don’t know how good Juyeon’s skills are at this point, but it’s going to be hard for Onsaemiro to win.

I remember him singing really well.

Still, I don’t think the score difference between me and Fade would have been as big as that, right?

While I was watching the Take Scene members soothing Fade, it was Choi Jae-seong’s turn for the last turn.

3 Months and 100 Days – Choi Jae-seong

Take Scene-Ilevel

I’m not really interested in whether Team Sedalbaekil wins, but I’m curious about how Jaesung Choi will sing.

How will my advice to deliberately upset the balance work?

-Woo, tonight!

I started listening to the song with such interest… … .

I saw results that I had never expected.

Did Jaesung Choi sing worse than usual?

no.

So did you sing better than usual?

That’s not it either.

It was just the same.

Even though I sang a song without a break, clearly with a breathing section every half measure, there wasn’t much of a difference.

Breathing is really long.

That’s something I was born with.

Could it be that Coming Up Next has robbed swimmers and other talented people who could challenge for the Guinness diving record?

-Moderate feeling, cool breeze

Still, if we had to compare, the one that took a long breath sounded better.

Jaesung Choi had the disadvantage of having slightly different emotional lines in each word, but that doesn’t exist anymore.

It’s a subtle difference, but I’m satisfied that it was the right advice anyway.

The result was Choi Jae-seong’s victory with 28 votes.

Sedalbaekil won against Takeshin with a score of 3 to 2.