Having Reincarnated a Million Times I Won’t Let My Guard Down Even in a Peaceful World - Having Reincarnated a Million Times I Won’t Let My Guard Down Even in a Peaceful World chapter 55

55 – Branching Route?

Anna-san always seems to be two steps ahead of me.

Of course, that’s because she was born two grades ahead of me. But even if we were born in the same year, I still think she would be two steps ahead of me.

It’s part-time work.

Anna-san, being a third-year music college student (attending a four-year program), is about to finish her part-time job and start her “internship” for job hunting.

I am expected to fill her position afterward and receive training.

I didn’t really understand what a music internship entailed, even when it was explained to me. It’s just that the whole thing sounds grand.

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Even if someone were to say, “You’ll join an orchestra as a disciple of a certain maestro,” I can’t really grasp the scale of it.

Anyway, Anna-san’s efforts and talent have been recognized, and she is taking her first step as a musician.

Daily practice must have been challenging, yet she still manages to do her part-time job, which is admirable.

Moreover, she is meticulous in her work, kind to her juniors, skilled at teaching, and being a hall staff at a restaurant, she is popular among customers. It’s quite impressive.

“God doesn’t give you two good things at once.” I wonder which world that saying is from.

There have been some nonsensical things, I think. Divine blessings tend to concentrate in one aspect.

Those who have something keep acquiring more, while those who don’t have anything lose what they have without the means to gain something new.

Usually, when I see someone who is “loved by God,” a cynical sense of jealousy arises in my heart.

Someone who is talented, loved by God, and also incredibly beautiful—I usually feel disillusioned with the world and think, “Oh well, it’s not like I matter anyway.”

However, when I watch Anna-san, that kind of emotion never surfaces.

She is someone who is loved. She always seems to be at the center, wherever she goes.

Although she possesses elements that would only breed jealousy in the hearts of those who observe her, in reality, she is a person who brings comfort with her cheerful demeanor.

After I finished learning all the aspects of the part-time job, Anna-san said something to me.

“When I can participate in a concert, I’ll send you a ticket.”

I still don’t understand music at all, and the kind of music Anna-san specializes in feels too highbrow and unapproachable, so I had no interest in it.

Even so, I was determined to attend the concert no matter what.

Even if I didn’t care for highbrow music, I was interested in the music Anna-san played.

I have long felt that Anna-san is like someone far away.

Sometimes, I imagine.

“What if, somewhere along the way, I had made a different choice? Would my fate be different from what it is now?”

That’s it―― I think there might have been a fate where Anna-san and my relationship could have become deeper.

Hmm…

No, there isn’t.

I can’t imagine it.

On the day of the Snowfall Saint’s Birth Festival, if things had gone differently and I hadn’t accidentally sent Anna-san to Milim’s house, but instead invited her to my house like normal, would it have happened?

If she had been invited to my house where my parents were normally present, would that have happened?

…Every time my life ends, I have a “reflection on life.”

That’s why I understand. “There is no such path.” If my personality had been different, it might have been possible, but if I can disregard the element of my personality, then anything is possible.

My personality doesn’t change.

Even if I were reborn a million times, I wouldn’t embark on an adventure.

That’s why I say to Anna-san,

“I’m rooting for you. Please do your best.”

A typical word of encouragement.

But with heartfelt emotions, I celebrated the path she chose.