Having Reincarnated a Million Times I Won’t Let My Guard Down Even in a Peaceful World - Having Reincarnated a Million Times I Won’t Let My Guard Down Even in a Peaceful World chapter 59

59 – Each Development

“Next time, since we have some unfinished work from this time, we might be able to finish it faster than usual.”

Where was it that they said, “Humans are creatures that learn from failures”?

Or maybe Karina simply enjoys finding hope within the limits.

There are occasional people who enjoy adversity – or more accurately, have a disposition that prefers “escaping from adversity.”

If such individuals have luck and talent, they are called “heroes.”

Karina might possibly have the potential to be a hero, I think.

Somehow, she has never made a fatal mistake until now.

Even this time, when she was tasked with creating a “Kowtow Copybook,” the one she hastily finished had strangely good reviews. People even joked, “If you can achieve this quality at the last minute, please continue to be pushed to the limit for the next one.”

I know what it means to be a hero.

I’ve had a life involved with it. I’ve also had a life where I thought I wasn’t one.

I have the desire to be an ordinary hero too. I used to believe that my life, with the favor of the gods, was surely filled with blessings.

At that time, I was convinced that “all the laws of this world move for my benefit.”

That’s why I acted heroically and tried to become a hero.

Well, it was impossible.

Even if I had succeeded as a hero, I couldn’t imagine that it would lead to “living to old age.”

A hero is like a shooting star that runs across the earth. They appear suddenly, shine brightly, and then disappear without a trace. It is the way of heroes to leave no remnants. “Longevity” is the opposite.

That’s why what I say to Karina is… well, just one thing. Just one word.

“If you continue working at this pace, you’ll die young…”

Oh, and your usual diet isn’t good either. The kitchen is in a mess, and there are only energy drinks and nutritional drinks in the refrigerator. And sometimes, air out the bed, okay? Tiny bugs die in the sunlight. It’s definitely more refreshing to sleep than on a bed that’s damp and you don’t know what’s hiding in it. If necessary, I can teach you some simple housekeeping…

“Mom…”

My nickname within the circle has become “Mom.”

They call me someone who “coordinates the production of BL doujinshi as a hobby,” and my activities in this circle only bring me dishonor.

I’m seriously considering whether I should continue participating in circle activities.

If I have to say whether it’s necessary or not, it’s not necessary. Not necessary, or rather, it’s a hindrance to my life.

After all, it consumes me mentally and physically every time there’s a festival. Just as I advised Karina, that lifestyle is definitely bad for the body.

Moreover, it’s now treated as a university circle, and the circle has been given facilities…

From noble mtl dot net

Although the room assigned to the circle itself is smaller than Karina’s house.

This time too, I was convinced that “Oh, I won’t be able to sleep in this room.” So I let Karina use her room as a workspace and somehow managed to get some sleep. But apparently, they were doing preparations for the summer festival in the circle, and it feels like everything is heading straight towards “death.”

And the momentum of these girls heading straight towards “death” drags everyone involved with them.

Truly the way of heroes.

Heroes unconsciously involve those around them and make them die young.

People cannot live their lives at the same speed as shooting stars. Most ordinary people burn out halfway, satisfied with just the feeling of “being able to run with the shooting stars.”

I might also become an ordinary person who burns out like that.

But…

Considering it unnecessary, or rather, dangerous, I still can’t bring myself to sever this connection.

…However, I have been receiving constant messages from Milim asking why she wasn’t invited this time. It seems that she is also concerned about my well-being.

…Alright, I’ve made up my mind.

Ignoring the loneliness seems impossible, but this is the time for a decision.

Hey, Karina, I… this time, with this circle–

“Oh, wait. I have a communication.”

Karina politely responds on the other side of the communication device, and after a brief conversation, she exclaims in surprise, “Really!?”

Then she turns to me and says, “Rex, I might… become a professional.”

Huh, what does she mean?