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60: Our Future Plans

In the world I used to live in, there was a concept called the Cinderella story, which was a Success-Ambition filled with dreams.

Those who work hard at the bottom, with the help of miracles, catch the eye of the powerful and get married.

However, in reality, such a thing shouldn’t exist—or maybe it does, but I have no experience with it. Likewise, Karina’s invitation is something like “Please bring in your name,” and there’s no guarantee it will be published as a book.

Still, Karina seems happy and says, “Good… I didn’t want to go through an interview in formal attire… Good…” She is delighted.

Nothing is decided yet, but if she’s happy, then it’s fine.

As someone who values prudence, I find such an invitation like “Welcome to the gambling den” to have no reassuring elements. However, that doesn’t mean I should expect prudence from others.

People are people, and I am me.

I have made many mistakes by misunderstanding this fact, and I have seen many others who have made mistakes. Now, in this world, what we call “humanity” is not a single-minded “individual life and its information gathering terminal,” but individuals with different beliefs and thoughts.

Therefore, it is natural for people to make different decisions and act with different convictions than me.

…Two people who are older and close to me are determining their future direction one after another.

I am still a freshman, and the university I attend is a four-year program.

I have decided to pursue a career as a teacher for the time being (being a full-time househusband is not socially accepted), so I have no worries about the “future.”

It’s a good thing not to worry.

No worries mean no stress. Stress shortens lifespan… When stress is too strong, eyelids twitch, teeth grind too much during sleep, jaw and teeth get damaged, temporomandibular joint disorder occurs, tinnitus occurs, and palpitations become severe.

However, I do feel pressure from the gradually increasing weight of the “future” that I have already decided on, even as someone who has chosen a career path.

Karina’s heartfelt remark, “I don’t want to go through an interview in formal attire,” is also something I feel… especially if I aim to be a teacher, there will be teaching practice.

I will have to dress formally and join a group of idiots…

Ugh! The stress!

Middle school, high school, or perhaps I should consider the nursery school route (if it’s possible at the university level). Or should I just disregard societal expectations and immediately pursue being a full-time househusband…

The future seemed boundless.

But that was an illusion, and the path I saw from where I stand could turn out to be not a “way” but a “wall” when I actually headed towards it.

People are people, and I am myself — but maybe I should discuss my future a bit with Mirim.

I didn’t join in the festival preparations with Karina and the others the other day, and I’ve been keeping my distance because of that, but it’s a good opportunity to talk to her.

…I’m nervous!

I say I’ve been keeping my distance, but it’s only been about two days since we last communicated, but still, I don’t know what to talk about… How should I bring it up!

But I’m a nineteen-year-old who has lived a million times.

I’m confident in my mental control.

I chant “unnoticeable” three times to regain composure. For me, who has lived by this word, “unnoticeable” has already lost its original meaning and reached the realm of a spell. Just by chanting it, I can regain composure.

With this word, I have calmly overcome numerous difficulties…

My oldest memory is probably when I was in first grade. Nostalgic… Back then, there was a trend like “It’s lame to play with girls!” and because of that, I was told not to “play with girls” while playing with Mirim.

At that time, by chanting “unnoticeable” three times, I calmly persuaded Martin and ended the unnoticeable thing. There’s no mistake. I’m confident in my memory.

So this time too, I chanted “unnoticeable” three times… no, just to be sure, I chanted it nine times before contacting Mirim.

How have you been lately?

“Eh, what do you mean?”

She seemed surprised, not angry. I was surprised too. What’s with “how have you been lately?” What am I saying… How am I going to continue this conversation from there…? Oh no, I have no idea.

But I am unnoticeable. No, I’m calm. Let’s continue the conversation calmly… The current social situation is only getting more and more uncertain, and thinking about the future weighs heavily on my heart. I don’t know if I can endure the anxiety of living, or if this modest, grand wish of wanting to live will really come true, so I wanted to hear your voice.

I sang impromptu.

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“Are you okay?”

Alright, I’ve elicited concern!

Just as I calculated!

Hehehe, just as I calculated!

I needed to take a deep breath.

So, I want to talk about the future. What should I do?

“I’ll leave it to you.”

Alright, then please bear with me as we both work.

“Yeah. I’ll go along with it, so invite me. For anything.”

Got it, got it.

And that’s how we made up.

I remembered that I had intended to talk about my future plans long after the call had ended.