Having Reincarnated a Million Times I Won’t Let My Guard Down Even in a Peaceful World - Having Reincarnated a Million Times I Won’t Let My Guard Down Even in a Peaceful World chapter 63

63: Graduating from BL Doujinshi Production Leadership

“There’s a proper reason this time”

Words are difficult.

For instance, how would you express “eating a delicious apple”?

You’d probably just say “delicious” and be done with it.

But people tend to have an obsessive compulsion to elaborate, to compare, and to add unnecessary decorations to simple things, resulting in giving others too much information and leaving a bad impression.

That’s what happened with Karina’s case this time.

Summer festival.

This year, I had plenty of time, absolutely plenty of time – we kept in touch at a pace of once every three days for about seven months. “Got it, got it, got it,” ignoring unread messages, unread… Such days went by, and then came the summer festival preparations, just in the nick of time.

“This time, I have a proper reason,” she said.

It meant “I have a proper reason for starting work so late this time,” implying that there wasn’t a reason last time, which was true.

“I was working on a commercial manuscript”

Karina said that her one-shot manga was going to be published in a magazine.

This was an unprecedented Cinderella story in the industry (it would be impossible in an island circle), and I was convinced that Karina was a hero with a celestial destiny.

A hero is someone who meets the right people at the right time.

When they need guidance, a guide appears; when they need friends, they’re blessed with them; and when they need rivals, rivals emerge… That’s how heroes progress, leaving people in the dust at an incredible speed.

To be honest, it’s possible that I was led to meet her on the rooftop during my middle school days due to her heroic destiny.

I don’t know how her life has been influenced by it, but maybe my existence was a necessary external part of her life.

I’ve been troubled for a while… Yeah, I’ve been thinking of quitting my role as a BL doujinshi production leader for a while.

The reason is that I’m not a hero, and I’d be left in the dust at an incredible speed.

So I said it.

I’m going to quit. I actually wanted to say it last time, but I missed the timing. So I’ll help this time, but it’s the last time.

“What?! Why are you quitting?!”

I want to live a long life.

However, preparing for the festival with Karina and the others is undoubtedly shortening my lifespan… I’m the type who wants to eat at a fixed time every day, spend time on hobbies, and sleep at a fixed time…

I admit that forcing myself is fun. But I don’t want to ruin my body and mind with that kind of lifestyle.

And…

I don’t want to see anyone breaking down mentally or physically.

I try to schedule everyone’s sleep and nutrition as much as possible, but there are limits to that too. Because everyone has the same amount of time in a day.

So… I want you to have some flexibility.

Eat, sleep, take care of yourself, and then work on your manuscript.

Manuscript! Manuscript! Manuscript! Manuscript!!!!!!!!!!

…I think it’s better to stop living like that.

If you make a plan, I’m sure you can do it.

“…I understand. You’re right. I was being selfish… I used the excuse of ‘I can’t find inspiration unless I’m cornered’ and kept playing mobile games until I was cornered…”

I really want to say, “Don’t be ridiculous…” but I haven’t said it yet.

I stay silent and wait for Karina to continue.

“…But I understand now. I’ll make a schedule. And I’ll draw manga in a healthy way.”

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Yes, that’s good.

“So, Rex… How do you make a schedule?”

…Huh?

“I’ve never made one, so I don’t know.”

I was speechless.

“I don’t know how to make a schedule.”

What does that mean? What are you talking about? Making a schedule is something you learn during elementary school summer vacation, right? You know, drawing a daily schedule in a pie chart format, writing the general schedule on a calendar…

“Rex, I don’t know anything about the future… Do you understand? Making a schedule is a skill. It’s a special ability. Because we have the kind of personality that loses interest in the plans we made for the weekend when the weekend actually comes.”

The circle members are nodding in agreement.

Whaaat… What is this… I mean, what is this?

I don’t understand what they’re talking about… How does interest relate to a schedule? Am I talking to an alien?

Our understanding of what a schedule is is so different that our conversation doesn’t make any sense.

I was confused. I seriously doubted if the language I was speaking and the language Karina was speaking were “languages with similar sounds but different meanings.”

As an experiment, I said, “Pancake.”

Karina said, “I want to eat it.”

We understood each other.

I became even more confused.

“Rex, I won’t make things difficult for you anymore. So… I want you to make a yearly schedule for us.”