Having Reincarnated a Million Times I Won’t Let My Guard Down Even in a Peaceful World - Having Reincarnated a Million Times I Won’t Let My Guard Down Even in a Peaceful World chapter 75

75 – Outer Moat

There is a part of me that wanted to do that “Give me your daughter” thing.

No, I guess that’s just something I think because I didn’t end up doing it. That would definitely be excessively stressful. Even if it was Milim’s parents, or rather, because it was them, I wouldn’t know how to handle such a situation.

In any case, as for the story of me and Milim getting married, to be honest, it’s been progressing without my involvement at all, or rather, Milim has been pushing it forward on her own, and before I knew it, that’s the atmosphere it had become.

As for me, I was impressed, “She’s a really capable bride.”

No, at this point, she’s not a bride yet, but she has taken care of probably the most troublesome “greeting rounds” related to the wedding on her own. I can only feel grateful.

“…Well, Milim-chan is quite a person like that.”

When I sent a message to Anna-san saying “I’m getting married in two years,” she immediately called me, and we talked for a while after a long time.

It was a quiet night.

Since the apartment where I live alone is small with thin walls, at night, I can hear the sounds of birds and insects well.

On this day, which was well past mid-May, the sounds of insects seemed particularly loud. Perhaps it was due to the recent disarray of the seasons, with spring being too cold, summer being too hot, and autumn disappearing, causing changes in the ecosystem.

Because of the thin walls of the apartment, I naturally speak in a subdued voice.

What does it mean that Milim is a person like that?

“…Um… She doesn’t hesitate to use any means…”

None

Means are not chosen.

Indeed, it seems that ordinary people tend to “choose means” considerably.

With various reasons like “cowardice,” “good and evil,” “obsession,” “unnecessary effort reduction”… there seems to be an impression that they significantly limit their means and live inefficient lives.

In that regard, Milim certainly “does not choose means.”

Like me, she dislikes inefficiency and waste. Of course, she adheres to laws and morals, but she can abandon “obsessions” for the sake of efficiency. And that aspect of her is not understood by those around her, or so I’ve heard.

“Well, if Rex is fine with it… Ah, if it’s fine with you, well, no, first of all, congratulations. I’m sorry.”

I’m happy to receive your blessings.

Also, I think I might have admired you.

“By the way, we made a promise to get married, didn’t we?”

Anna’s voice from the other end of the call sounded as if she was smiling.

Today, she seems particularly cheerful, and even I, who have already decided on my marriage partner, can feel my heart race at her girlish tone.

“I wonder if we had such a future where we would get married.”

I don’t think so.

I thought about it a little on the day of the Holy Maiden’s Festival, but I’m sure we were never meant to be in such a fate.

Fate – I do dislike that word, but I can’t help but resist the versatility and convenience that it carries.

Our fate to be together did not exist.

That was something I had thought about and concluded a long time ago.

“Rex, you’re resolute, aren’t you?”

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…Did I just crush a tremendous opportunity myself?

“No, no. Opportunities… That’s not good. …Well, but Rex, you know… You have this sort of ‘just Rex’ thing about you, right?”

What’s that supposed to mean?

“You have a sense of stability in your personality. So, like, when everything falls apart and I give up on everything, I feel like relying on you, you know?”

Anna might be a little drunk.

Well, however, I somehow understand the true meaning behind her vague words.

I suppose I’m what you would call a “safe option.”

Not flashy, reliable, and decent.

So I think I must be an “easy person to deal with” for various people.

“Not flashy? Reliable? Decent?”

Huh, that’s not it?

“**No, you’re flashy… not solid… or even average**.”

It seemed that the “me” I perceived and the “me” within Anna-san were quite different individuals.

Living so modestly and solidly up until now, I thought there were only a few beings other than me who did so, like the House Slime (a pet slime that has evolved into a household companion)…

“To live modestly is because it’s flashy. To strive to live solidly is because it’s not like that. Because I’m not like that, I live aiming for it.”

…Certainly, I understand what is being said.

If I were modest, solid, and average, then there wouldn’t be a need to make efforts to live like that.

Surely, because I’m not like that, I have continued to make efforts to live modestly, solidly, and averagely.

“Well anyway, I think Milim-chan is fine. You guys are, how should I put it… liars. It suits you really well… Ah, I’m praising you, you know?”

The tone somewhere seemed slurred.

Moreover, it felt like that slurred feeling was gradually increasing during the conversation.

Perhaps Anna-san started drinking around the time we began the call and is still drinking now.

Anna-san… heavy drinking is not recommended. It shortens your lifespan.

“I want to live a short and flashy life, though.”

Those words seemed unexpected.

But, I quickly realized it wasn’t unexpected… Those who don’t want a life like a big blooming flower that burns out in an instant wouldn’t abandon a solid path and choose a life like an adventure.

Anna-san, while carefully following news related to music, has become someone whose name is occasionally heard…

Considering the uncertainty of being a “musician,” the possibility of not becoming like that was much higher.

She must be making efforts, surely.

But, everyone is making efforts.

She must have had talent.

But, whether many or few become professionals, they should have some talent.

To survive without being eliminated among them, luck is necessary on top of talent and effort, and luck is something you just happen to obtain. Even if you can increase the chances of obtaining it, whether you can actually obtain it depends entirely on luck.

“…Sometimes, Rex-kun, I think you might be older than me.”

Well, it’s the millionth first time in life, after all—I said jokingly.

Anna-san laughed and said, “Well then, you’re late. Give me an invitation,” and hung up.

I—

Looking at the disconnected mobile device, I felt absent-minded.

I wonder why.

Even though my relationship with Anna-san should continue unchanged—

There was a strange loneliness, and I couldn’t fall asleep easily that day.