He Is a Master Who Can’t Handle a Slave Properly - He Is a Master Who Can’t Handle a Slave Properly chapter 45

45 – A reed once broken will break again and again

Seeing her stare at me while shedding tears, I felt my head go blank.

When you feel really wrong

When I felt I was in danger.

At such times, my head would always feel heavy, and I would feel something similar to the sound of a heartbeat in my ears.

It always has been.

When it happened, I couldn’t do anything.

It was a problem I would face someday.

Even though it was obvious that there would be an aftermath after hiding behind a mask and committing irresponsible things –

I did not give a single return to anyone who showed me infinite favors.

While making excuses,

I only took advantage of it when the mask came off, and I didn’t even take responsibility.

I felt my vision getting narrower and narrower.

It was so clear in my head that the things I had been doing flowed one after another.

While giving a favor, without taking any responsibility for it,

Even though he gives love to the rabbit, he doesn’t even face it properly when she expresses it.

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Receiving what she gave, but not responding to it.

She always clung to me with her ears trembling when I stroked her,

When I was around, he put his nose to the nape of my neck and looked at me with a dreamy expression.

She was always honest. always.

From the moment he was by my side and since then, in all the days we’ve been together, there’s never been a time when he hasn’t been honest with me.

But i…

During the long hours that I was in anguish and regret, she just looked at me without saying a word.

Looking at her mouth, asking for an answer, I felt more guilt pressing down on my shoulders.

And finally, when I felt that even the fragile membrane was breaking, I was able to let go of everything.

No pride, no shame, no shame,

Throwing everything away, he knelt in front of her and bowed his head deeply.

At that moment, I could feel only one emotion.

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Regret. bitter regret.

Like dropping your heart off a cliff, like dropping something precious down the drain…

Nevertheless, I had to open my mouth.

I wasn’t stupid enough to kick even the belated opportunity with my own hands.

“Mi, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, Ellie. I don’t know how to comfort you or how to express how grateful I am to you.

It’s all my fault. It’s all my fault.

When I first met you, you were so beautiful. I’ve never felt unhappy with you for a moment. sincerely.

It might have been because it was unrealistic to spend every day with someone so pretty, and that such a person enjoys my touch so much.

I just pushed you away thinking I didn’t deserve it. you.

I knew you loved me, but I thought I had to push you away on the pretext of doubt, and give you the upper hand on the pretext that I’m a man and your master.

Even though I knew better than anyone else that I was neither worthy nor a great person, I deceived me and deceived you.

It’s true that it was hard when you coveted me wildly.

But more than that, I liked you. I liked that you honestly revealed your desires to me.

I liked that you instantly read and matched my scent, my saliva, my body, and everything inside me.

When I proudly said that I would like to be yours, to be honest, I was really nervous.

I like you. For the 23 years I’ve lived, I believed that love doesn’t come that quickly, but I guess I was wrong.

I finally realized that even if I look away from reality with all sorts of excuses, the only thing that comes to me is the suspicion of the person I love.

No matter how much you put on a mask and show off as if you are on top, you will only be wrinkled in front of the chrysalis.

That it’s just meaningless in front of you,

In the end, it was only now that I realized that I was just acting like a child, denying the fact that I was committing a big mistake by not being honest with the person I was supposed to be most honest with.”

I felt like my head was getting hot.

The eyes continued to burn.

My throat was sore, and I was coughing all the time.

But it didn’t stop.

I felt like if I stopped now, all my courage would be destroyed.

He raised his head and looked into her red eyes.

Only I was reflected in those deep dark eyes that seemed like they were about to fall into them.

Eyes that looked only at me, eyes that contained only me. And those eyes that are still looking at me.

Even though I knew how difficult it was, I felt resentful of myself in the past when I was in denial.

Now, instead of trying to avoid her, he honestly looked at her.

Then he opened his heavy mouth once again.

“I love you, Ellie. There’s nothing more satisfying than hearing a beautiful person prick up her ears and tell me she loves me.

I fell in love with the courage to say I love you first without asking the person you love to confess first.

I was moved by the fact that even though he gave me his love, all he wanted was me.

I am so grateful to you for risking my life to save me and for getting me out of there once again.

I see the sunlight once more, and now I’m grateful to you for giving me a place to return.

Thank you for giving me a place to lean on. I’ve come to love you who brings me happiness.

Feelings I’ve had for a long time, it’s only when I’m in this situation that I can confess to you, so I’m sincere…”

It was only after I brought all my emotions out in front of her.

After all the masks are thrown off and crushed,

Only after I gave away the things I believed in with my own hands,

I was able to fall into her arms again.

“…Only me, I thought I was the only one who loved you for all those years.”

I didn’t know what the look on her face as she sniffed and hugged me, but I had to do something before questioning it.

He hugged her as hard as he could and buried her tears in her arms.

Till it slowly stains her clothes,

Until my clothes are stained with her tears and spittle,

For a while, we were hugging each other in the hospital room.

for a very long time –

As the sun outside the window slowly sets over the mountains,

Until the end of the mountain, saying that he would see the two of us until the end.

***

It was quite funny to see the owner slowly walking out of the hospital room with her support, but he also looked extremely relieved.

Occasionally, he would shake his leg as if he had a foot and hit him with a bruise on his slightly shocked face, but Mr. Eli made him smile by holding his shoulder tightly and walking away without saying a word.

That’s right, that master who used to be frustrated now seems to be playing the role of a human being.

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Realize with your body how scary Mr. Rabbit is, and above all, that ‘heroic-‘

no,

As I remembered the warning the old woman had given me, I was preparing to walk away from him.

That’s because he didn’t pay any attention to me anymore.

When I think of the occasional Ellie handing me gold coins for pocket money, I couldn’t believe that he had completely forgotten me.

After losing his leg in the dungeon, he became a completely different person.

…which needs a bit of explanation, right?

First of all, the split magic crystal of the golem didn’t dissipate even though it was split into two huge chunks and retained its magical power.

The guild couldn’t bear to ‘purchase’ it, so they wrote a contract to give 10 gold coins every month to the owner in the form of renting it.

I became rich in an instant. It’s also a fortune-teller.

Well, if you imagine what you can do with a magic stone of that size, it’s almost a waste to say it’s barely.

It’s putting very small pieces together to make simple magic work with very little magical power. What can you do with something that size?

Wouldn’t it be unreasonable to recreate the technologies found in ancient ruins?

Next, Mr. Ellie knocked down the guards who ran to the rescue with hospital bills and consolation money.

As a down payment, I gave them one out of ten gold coins, and everyone shut their mouths.

Seeing Ellie try to lower her head, instead stop her from there and bend over –

…Money is scary.

After finishing the case like that, the guild side invited the owner to accompany them on various adventures, but they all refused with a single knife.

It’s really ironic that the owner chose me, but the person who bought me to get out of the house someday is now stuck at home, always following Ellie around.

I am on crutches because I have one leg missing, but there are many cases where I am hugged by her with the crutches thrown away from time to time.

Sometimes I get a frown when I see that scene, but I can’t say anything when I see the person hugging me and the expression of the person hugging me.

With a face that melted in ecstasy, he was held by her, and when a bird left a mark on his lips like a bird feeding, his head was grabbed and his tongue mixed thickly.

It’s really nice to see them hanging on her shoulder and going into the bedroom together. very good.

It’s grinding to the point where it hurts – well, that’s not something I care about anymore.

…It’s true that it makes people’s sides feel cold for no reason.

I… I don’t really know what to do now that my original purpose is also gone.

Maybe it’s all about getting paid, cleaning the house, going out to the garden once in a while to pass the time –

people bored.

Honestly, I want something more to change here, but I feel like I can’t answer for sure what can change.

Judging from the atmosphere, it seems that they will fire me in the name of liberation soon.

My illness has healed, there is no reason for me to exist, and there is no reason to achieve that goal in the first place.

I also feel like something is off. Really boring feeling.

As they slowly wag their tails in the sunlight, it seems that they are drowsy.

The weather is warm, so it would be nice to get some sleep in the rocking chair in the garden.

…Except for the sound of moaning coming from the second-floor window that hadn’t been closed for a while…it would be great.

I really want to break in and close the window and come back.

Or is there even a pole…

Oh really.