Hero’s Downfall Report - Hero’s Downfall Report chapter 59
59 – Report on the Fall of Humility (7)
The hallway was quiet, but too open for conversation. As Lily looked around to see if there was a suitable place, she saw a door leading to the backyard at the other end of the hallway. Lily grabbed the sleeve of Cain’s clothes with one hand and guided him.
It was a space that was neither large nor small enough to accommodate a carriage, but was too mediocre to do anything.
The owner and servants turned this place into a wonderful sculpture park. They come in the shapes of all kinds of animals, angels, and people, and come in a variety of shapes and sizes, from fist-sized to knee-high.
If it were ordinary couples, they would have been busy looking at each statue.
But Cain and Lily stood facing each other on the backyard lawn with serious expressions. It’s about four steps away.
“So. “What do you want to say?”
Cain’s tone of voice was blunt, perhaps because his cheek was still numb from being hit by Maria. Lily, who was quietly looking at Cain, came closer to her and gently touched Cain’s cheeks.
“You were in a lot of pain.”
A stinging Cain put her head back behind her, but Lily didn’t let go. She gently wrapped both hands around the back of Cain’s neck and slowly traced her cheek with her thumb. Then, she subtly moved towards her lips.
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“I asked what you had to say.”
Her touch and gaze stopped. Cain was even more uncomfortable. But Lily responded by pressing her body closer. Now the gap is about half a step. A perfect distance for her breasts to reach as they puff out loudly with each breath she takes.
“When capturing Goetz, the damn knight. She broke the rules and filled her with alcohol. They say that only then will we all be able to return safely. At the monastery, he ran into the monastery, prepared to die. In words, he told me to watch the fight and find out how to fight, but in reality, he bought me time so I could avoid it.
In Magdeburg, of course, I was too drunk that night… He climbed over the wall, leaving me behind. Without even a single word of discussion. Then he fell down defenseless, so I had to take care of him afterwards. And just now. “You took a dangerous step without consulting me or Maria.”
Cain squeezed her eyelids as her fatigue seemed to hit her. She seemed to know what Lily was trying to say.
All in all, Cain did things as she pleased, although the reason was to achieve her goals. It wasn’t everything, but making Lily sad was a bonus.
“Yes, I did.”
Lily smiled brightly and hugged Cain. Cain was surprised by the unexpected movement and tried to pull away, but Lily, who had come forward, did not let him go. Lily whispered into Cain’s ear while hugging him tightly.
“But I also like that side of it.”
“What are you talking about? And let go of this. I’m a little uncomfortable…”
As soon as Cain complained, Lily pressed her body closer to him. It seemed like her whole body was telling her that she couldn’t run away.
“Sometimes I was angry. There were many times I was disappointed, and sometimes I felt sad. But looking back, I know that you always tried to find the best answer. You always put people’s lives and safety as your top priority.
It may seem like decisions are made spontaneously and according to the whim, but I also know that in reality, decisions are made after seeing many things and thinking about many things. That’s why I like it.”
“I understand, so stop now…”
“But why don’t you protect yourself?”
Lily kissed Cain’s forehead. Cain’s crushed heart beat heavily. It felt like all the strength was leaving her body.
Although hesitating, Cain lightly hugged Lily’s back. She slowly patted and stroked her back with her palm, as if comforting her baby.
“Thank you for your concern.”
“No. This is for me too.” Lily whispered softly.
“In Masada. On the streets of Masada at night, a shadow whispered to me. In fact, it was bothering me. I still couldn’t forget that woman, and I wouldn’t even be able to replace that woman…”
“No!” Startled, Cain lifted her head slightly and looked up at Lily. “We now know that shadows twist and distort the mind. There is no reason to listen.”
On the other hand, my teeth were ground. Never in her dreams did she imagine that Beatrice’s shadow, which flew towards Lily, would whisper such a thing.
Lily knew that she had been very anxious since that day and that she was scared, but she had no idea that it was because of her.
“He whispered that he would leave me behind. Then he kept showing me something. He was lying bleeding alone in the wasteland, under a strangely twisted tree. Alone in the dry ground with his mouth wide open. .”
“Lily. No.”
“She said she would chase that woman’s shadow away.”
Lily let out her breath in pain. It seemed like she was trying to show her anxious heart.
“I know. I believe it too. I know that you won’t go. But, I keep getting scared. Every time you go out alone like that, every time you go to a dangerous place alone. Every time you leave me behind, that delusion may be the real thing. “I am afraid that this may become a reality.”
“That won’t happen.”
“I heard Arianne say that she still sees that woman’s shadow. She is imprinted and will not fall away.”
It was only for a moment, but Cain was silent. Lily seemed to have heard all the answer she needed to hear through her silence.
But, as always, she did not sit down or feel sad.
Instead, she grabbed the side of Cain’s head with both her hands and pulled him toward her and kissed her.
She was surprised and she didn’t even give herself time to panic. When you push away she approaches and when you push she follows. She removed her mouth for a moment to catch her breath, then put one arm behind her back and the other behind her head.
Cain lifted her hand and stroked Lily’s cheek and ear. She no longer ran away or avoided anything. She just accepted it.
Finally, Lily parted her lips. Even though she was out of breath and her body was shaking, she somehow managed to continue her speech.
“You don’t have to protect me. You don’t have to worry about being hurt. I’m not a kid, and I’m not a recovery agent. I’ve never lived without getting hurt, and I’ve never lived without being hated. I also have faith that something like that won’t happen in the future. “No. But I want to decide where I will hurt and where I will be hurt. And I have decided.”
“Lily.”
“Please accept me as a colleague, not a subordinate. Just allow me to stand next to you, anytime, anywhere. Even if I can’t replace that woman. She is better than that woman, she is better than that woman.” I am confident that I will protect you.”
Cain’s words were arrogant and presumptuous enough for her to hear.
Where, how dare… How dare…
However, her body was quietly embracing Lily’s body, which was shaking from her excitement. Lily trembled in her arms like a bird in the rain. Still, she tried to express it somehow with her mouth. She tried to convey it somehow.
“Please allow us to hurt together. Please allow us to be hurt together. So, please do not abandon me. Please do not go alone, alone. Please… Please do not fall alone in the wilderness with no one around.”
“I guess this is why you brought me out. You didn’t want to be labeled a heretic by Maria.”
Laughter. A pleasant shiver. Because of her excitement, because of her excitement, Lily’s body trembled as if it would break or break, but her smile was as bright as it was. It was the first bright smile she had seen since leaving the capital.
“You are a knight, a warrior, an agent, not a prophet. It’s a shadow delusion. Forget it. And.”
This time Cain approached. She patted his back in sync with her breathing, as if putting a child to sleep. Her hand movements gradually became slower. Lily’s breathing slowed along with her and she became deeper.
“And. Don’t compare yourself to a dead person. You are different from that woman. Much better. Prettier. Stronger. Personality… No. Her personality is much better.”
“…Really?”
“Yes.”
As if her mood had improved, Lily snuggled into her arms.
Of course, since Lily was taller, it would have been more appropriate for her to dig in rather than dig in. Lily looked much more relaxed now.
Cain stroked the side of Lily’s hair. Lily blushed and slightly turned away in embarrassment, but did not give up her eye contact.
“So, don’t think in vain. Don’t talk nonsense. Who dies? A wilderness is a wilderness. I don’t like places like that. It may be an orchard or a city, but it’s a place where not a single blade of grass grows… What? A tree? Not even a fruit. “There is no need for a tree that cannot bear fruit.”
“Then promise me.” Lily stuck out her breasts. “Never. Neither I nor Maria will abandon you. You will join her as a companion. Promise me.”
“Okay. I promise.”
But Lily just traces her lips with her tongue.
“You’re not going to hand it over with your bare mouth, are you?”
Lily approached again, as if to stamp a stamp. It was a light and long kiss. Cain let her Lily do whatever she wanted.
At the same time, she thought that whatever couldn’t be done couldn’t be done. Wouldn’t it be better to be a liar than to let someone die?
* * * * *
Back in her room, Lily didn’t say a word of her own. Instead, she stared at Cain helplessly. With her eyes shining, she said something had to be done.
Maria sat in her chair, still angry to the top of her head. Cain, standing in front of Maria, cleared his throat. But before she could open her mouth, Maria intervened.
“Let me ask you just one thing. Let’s say something similar to this happens to you next time. Can you guarantee that you won’t do something like this then?”
“No.”
“What on earth are you going to do with me now…?”
“Signal.”
“What?”
“It’s a signal.” Cain sighed. “It’s a Secret Service Secret, but I’ll tell you one or two things. It’s a simple hand signal. Express it with hand movements, eye movements, or body language. If it’s something complicated, you can draw a pattern by placing your finger on the other person’s body.”
Maria looked at Cain and Lily in turn, as if bewildered. Lily smiled and nodded her head slightly. Cain scratched the back of her head.
“I had no intention of ignoring you. I was anxious. So, in case something like this happens again, I’m going to tell you in a symbolic way. What do you think?”
“… Do you know who gets angry for being ignored?!”
Cain guessed that Mary was angry because she thought she had been ignored. It is accurate to see that he gets angry in that part while leaving all other parts alone.
“Lily and I are not the kind of people who want to keep up with you! If you run away on your own, what are we going to do? What if you make a mistake and die? Come on. Let’s go together. Come on! What do me and Lily do? “At least I discussed it with you before moving on!”
“I’m not used to this type of work since it’s my habit to work in isolation. I’m sorry.”
“I won’t apologize for slapping you, so I know that!”
Cain thought that she must have been quite worried as she was tired of answering questions that were not even asked. Mary was facing Cain, but her eyes were looking in the wrong direction.
“I hit you to make you come to your senses! You made Lily upset.”
Cain said nothing more as he was in the midst of being slapped and even kissed on the lips.
“Okay. Thanks.”
Maria continued to stroke her hair and let out a sigh.
“It’s okay. It’s okay. Let’s make a plan. We still have some time until dinner.”