I Am The Villainess With A Maxed-Out Luck Stat - Chapter 127



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127. What happens if I don’t accept it?

Who would say he’s not a romance novel male lead? His confession is like a line from a love story.

But I didn’t feel any new emotion.

I looked at the sword that Perwin held out with a suspicious eye.

“How on earth did you find this?”

That too, from a man who fell off a cliff.

He shrugged proudly.

“The sword was hidden in the waterfall below the cliff. I found the sword from the beginning and went to the cliff.”

If Perwin had come to find the sword, the victory would have been his.

He was portrayed as someone who naturally received the spotlight under everyone’s cheers and blessings.

My appearance, receiving the victory medal next to him, was also the center of everyone’s attention.

“But this is more than I deserve.”

“Is that too much?”

Perwin’s eyebrows rose in displeasure.

His hand, which had been playfully handing over the sword, slowly lowered.

“Isn’t this something you give to a beloved lover? I am Your Majesty’s fiancée, not his lover.”

“Why is there such a distinction between us? Since the princess is my lover, it is only natural that this should be her share.”

“That is Your Majesty’s opinion.”

“what?”

The conversation started to creak a little, like misaligned gears meshing together.

‘It’s always like this.’

A deep sigh escaped his lips.

Conversations with him always felt like they were running on parallel lines.

The man who unilaterally despised me even confessed unilaterally.

But he was upset and asked why people didn’t accept his sincerity.

One-sided sincerity without understanding and communication is just as annoying as contempt and misunderstanding.

“Your Majesty, you say you like me, but you don’t have even an iota of respect for me?”

“I?”

A puzzled look spread across his eyes as he settled into his seat on my lap.

“Your Majesty, your own thoughts and feelings always come first. Have you ever seriously thought about my feelings even once? How difficult it would be for me, my situation, my position?”

“that…….”

You’ve never thought about it, right?

I probably never had to think about other people’s positions in my entire life.

Especially if that person is your fiancée.

His beautiful shell, captivating voice, and characteristic confident smile were enough to paralyze reason.

The prestigious title of Crown Princess not only ensures one’s own honor but also the advancement of one’s family.

If you were chosen as his fiancé, you would instantly reach the pinnacle of power.

The most honorable, most noble woman.

Who would not be intoxicated by that sweetness?

“Do you think I will like you just because Your Majesty loves me? No. Not at all.”

“what?”

“I like someone who can look ahead at the same time as me, not someone who looks down on me from a high place.”

When the line was firmly drawn, Perwin looked openly shocked.

It was quite a sight to behold.

He has always been the one choosing, never the one being chosen by others.

His overflowing wealth and his power over all others filled him with arrogance and selfishness.

What can we expect from him as a lover when he has learned commands instead of compromise, obedience instead of understanding, and charity and good deeds instead of consideration?

“Just because I was chosen as Your Majesty’s fiancée, it doesn’t mean we can become lovers. Just as Your Majesty’s subject cannot be a friend.”

A marriage concluded by contract between families.

A relationship that is swayed by the will of the royal family.

This was the essence between us.

If Perwin had not realized this fact, if he had been so intoxicated by romantic feelings that he had turned a blind eye to the hierarchy that came before love, we would never have been able to get close.

“I am-”

Perwin, in shock, spat out each word with difficulty, as if vomiting.

“I’ve lived like this my whole life. I’ve never had a friend who wasn’t a subject, and I had a fiancé before I had a lover.”

“… … .”

“Maybe even blood relatives. My father is the father of all people, so I learned the responsibility and duty as a successor before familial affection.”

I know.

Because his identity as the crown prince was so great, no human relationship could exist outside of power and hierarchy.

“Actually, I don’t know. What does the princess mean by equal lovers?”

Perhaps because of his severe injury, his speech was much more gentle than usual.

Like a wanderer trying to find his way through a maze, he was calmly searching for answers even in the midst of confusion.

“I just wanted to give the princess the best I could.”

“… … .”

“When you said you didn’t have a dress, I wanted to give you the most precious dress in the world as a gift. When you said flowers were pretty, I wanted to give you an entire flower garden. Instead of a shabby ring, I wanted you to cherish a precious sword.”

His gaze lingered on my ring finger.

The resentment and grudge that had not been resolved yet slowly settled down.

“But I didn’t know that it would be forced on the princess. The princess always craved my affection.”

“… … .”

“I was always the one avoiding that feeling, so I thought that if I responded to that affection, that would be enough.”

He bit his lower lip as if he was trying to swallow something hot.

His voice resonated softly.

“……Sorry.”

Sincerity poured into each and every letter.

It was an apology to the villainess Roselia, who had never reciprocated her feelings.

Instead of answering his question, I brought up an old story.

“I had that dream once.”

“dream?”

“I had a dream that Your Majesty hated me so much that our relationship became uncontrollably strained, misunderstandings piled up, and I ended up dying by Your Majesty’s hand.”

I closed my eyes quietly.

I closed my eyes and thought back on the memories deeply engraved in my mind.

A story from the past that I have never told anyone.

I continued speaking calmly, as if I was telling an old fairy tale.

“That dream repeated itself every night. I tried to survive somehow, avoiding the Emperor and running far away, but it always ended in death.”

“… … .”

“The same horrible ending is repeated over and over again, just in different ways. After death, a new life begins again.”

“… … .”

“After going through several lives like that, I finally woke up from the dream. Even after waking up from the dream, I couldn’t tell if it was a dream or reality.”

Perwin’s face became very serious as he listened to my story.

“Even now, I can vividly picture the image of Your Majesty in my dream. The face that turned away from me, the contemptuous voice, even the gesture of the hand that pronounced the death sentence.”

Days when even the smallest mistake was judged and we walked on thin ice.

There was never anyone on my side. At the end of every tragedy, death awaited.

“After that dream, I came to my senses. Your Majesty’s beautiful appearance, your sweet voice, and the splendid position of crown princess… they all seemed like traps to me.”

“… … .”

“That’s why I avoided it. Because I knew this place wasn’t mine.”

“For just that reason.”

Perwin, who had been listening to me silently, laughed in vain.

“That’s why the princess changed overnight.”

Yeah, just a dream.

It might seem that way to other people.

But for me, it was a reality engraved in every bone.

In one life Perwin abandoned me, in another he killed me.

The nightmarish reality piled up layer by layer, creating an unfillable gap between them.

“That’s not me.”

He lifted his eyelids with difficulty as he pondered my words.

“That idiot is not me. No matter how vivid and realistic the dream, a dream is just a dream.”

“… … .”

“I’ll try harder. Even though I can’t erase my mistakes, I’ll try to cover up the memories of the past.”

He neither blamed nor resented me for being obsessed with past memories.

I just kept convincing myself over and over again that I was different in this life.

He was trying to change my mind. His serious eyes and pleading voice made a faint echo.

I felt renewed.

If I had been honest with him from the beginning, if I had been honest with him about my situation and cleared up the misunderstanding, would our relationship have been different by now?

No, that’s a nonsensical assumption.

“We’re done here.”

The only regret I have when I look at him is my longing for the road I never took.

“… … .”

It was a distorted relationship from the beginning.

A relationship that requires a lot of courage to turn back.

I didn’t have the courage to hope that this time would be different.

Even though I knew the misfortune that awaited me, I did not have the confidence to surrender to fate again.

There are times when some hearts have to be closed off, holding on to vague regrets.