I Became the Burden of a Conscienceless Party - I Became the Burden of a Conscienceless Party chapter 191

191 – Side Story 2. The Story After, Tina & Tana (3)

The story afterward, Tina & Tana (3)

“I understand what you mean.”

“is it so?”

“Because you did that too.”

“… … Let’s not talk about that.”

Tana lowered her eyes as if embarrassed and grumbled.

The past.

The bond between a couple that was formed when Jim took a break from his asceticism.

One of the three apostles sent by Mara Papyas, who wanted to tie his feet with the lust of the seven passions.

Tanha of Greed.

She was eventually impressed by Jim and let him go.

And all of those actions required a fundamental prerequisite.

“Yes… … , just do it like that.”

Because on the bed, Jim was so good that he could beat those three apostles.

Tana eventually gave in to Jim, and ironically, it was only then that she was able to see his true self.

He was far from being transcendent. He was more human than anyone else, and through that humanity, he came closer to being transcendent.

Yes, he is a god who can do only the things that a human can do.

How could one not feel respect for such a person? That is why Tana did not regret sending Jim away.

That’s why I loved him.

“Tana?”

“Huh? Oh, why?”

“You don’t look so good. Is there a problem?”

“… … Haha, I guess you can’t fool your master. But don’t worry. This is something I have to take care of. You said there are times when you have to use only yourself as a light, right?”

“That’s… … . I see.”

Tana thinks.

Can you really say that it is right for you to be here now?

Even now, as she talks to him like this, she can’t help but feel guilty toward Tina. Isn’t this the only life she has? She’s just a part of that life.

That’s why I held my breath.

I never once thought of taking Tina’s body.

I just wanted to live quietly, holding my breath, as if I was there and not there.

A world where being insecure is a given.

I am satisfied just by being able to observe such a world.

Because she will never live the way her mother wants her to.

That is her decision as she watches over Jim’s journey of suffering.

However, her mother is the most evil demon in this world, the first demon lord, and the incarnation of wealth who carries all kinds of evil titles.

She must have let Tina into her heart because she knew she still loved Jim.

Don’t play around.

“So it’s okay, Jim.”

“… … .”

So, let’s draw a line.

A term meaning breaking up with one’s past self and not looking back on the past.

Not by the name of the one she knew and loved, but by her current name.

“Oh, that’s what happened.”

Jim could sense that fact. Of course, they were once a couple, so how could he not know that?

But, it wasn’t pointed out.

Because the answer to what Tana is feeling right now is up to her to decide for herself.

No, to be exact, her feelings and the answers to them. She’ll have to share them with Tina and come to a compromise.

If Jim interferes and pressures her to give an answer, the relationship between the two will inevitably become strained, and in the end, it could only have a negative impact on both of them.

“I may have been too negligent toward you.”

“It was a situation that couldn’t be helped. I know because I saw it myself. The situation is more difficult now than it was then. Of course, we approached you to seduce you back then, so even if the situation is different now, it can’t be helped.”

Rather than being jealous, they tried to please Jim. That was the love of the sisters who went to seduce Jim at Rapha’s order.

There was no time to feel jealous.

After I truly fell in love with him, I had come too far to be jealous.

So maybe both Jim and Tana are to blame for being unfamiliar with this situation.

“But still, if I may add one thing… … .”

Tana can see the whole situation from Tina’s inside.

A restraint for all members of the warrior party.

A daily life where we only interfere with each other’s love and hold each other back.

I was able to see many things.

However, since she is in Tina’s body, she cannot help but feel Tina’s emotions more keenly than anyone else.

Yeah, that’s right.

“Please take care of Tina. She is an anxious child.”

Even if there is favoritism, it can’t be helped.

“Tana… … .”

“This is the same.”

Tana slapped Jim’s hand that was hugging her and blocked the spot where his sinister hand was heading.

You could say it was what I had hoped for, but isn’t this Tina’s body?

Not without her permission.

No, at least Tina should go first.

“I’m not asking for much. Just… … Please take a little more care of poor Tina, who feels entitled to others.”

“… … .”

“I think it’ll be okay the first time, right?”

“Uh, um… … .”

“Was it a difficult request? But I can’t help it. In the end, if I want to resolve this situation and escape from here, I have to choose that method.”

“Oh, of course.”

Jim couldn’t help but break out in a cold sweat at Tana’s serious words. Fortunately, she didn’t seem to notice yet.

Tina had to worry about more than just the warrior party.

It must have been said with the warrior Esmeralda, the saint Irina, and the sorceress Milia in mind, but unfortunately, the beginning was already wrong.

At first, I received it from the Demon King’s Army.

… … and the second one too.

***

Tina had a dream.

While Tana had been borrowing her body, she was able to fall into a deep sleep after not being able to sleep properly due to anxiety for a long time.

Tina was able to sleep comfortably in her warm embrace and have happy dreams, not realizing that this was the moment she had been waiting for.

“Jim! Want to try this? It looks a lot better than usual.”

“Oh, that’s right. As expected, Tina knows my taste exactly. No one else knew, but Tina did.”

“Eh, hehehe, well, that’s to be expected.”

“It seems like Tina is the only wife I have ever had. I am so happy now. I hope this life continues in the future.”

“Oh, really?”

It’s the dream she’s been hoping for.

Her dream of being recognized by someone was fulfilled through Jim’s love.

Compared to Milia, her breasts are extremely small, compared to Irina, her appearance is infinitely shabby, and compared to Esmeralda, she is inferior in every way.

Yes, Tina, who had no confidence in her attractiveness as a woman, could not help but feel insecure all the time. Didn’t Jim value appearance so much that he would openly look at Milia’s chest?

Because she was like that, the desire that was clumped up in her heart was strong.

Not only was he possessive, he also wanted to be loved more than others.

That desire is manifesting as a dream.

Jim is content to live comfortably in his own nest, with his wife supporting him to the fullest.

“Wow, flowers bloom even in a place like this? That’s why… … .”

“Is that a crystal flower?”

“Was it called the Crystal Flower? As expected, Lady Tina is very knowledgeable. She was said to be the next successor to the Eye of Truth, so there is nothing she doesn’t know.”

“Ahem!”

Even in that dreamy scenery that was a bit explicit, Tina didn’t feel an ounce of doubt.

A dream that was so earnest and longed for.

A simple yet pure dream of wanting to be recognized for one’s own charm.

“Oh, do you want to see it up close?”

“But isn’t it dangerous? It’s blooming in such an ambiguous location that it’s impossible… … .”

“Hey, what’s the problem? I have these wings… … .”

Tina suddenly shut her mouth tightly as she spoke.

The wings, tail and horns of a dragon.

It doesn’t feel like what I was using as a matter of course anymore.

Although she might have found that odd, Tina didn’t think much of it.

‘Well, it wasn’t my power to begin with.’

Did you even feel relieved at the thought that it wasn’t yours?

Even without wings in the first place, that height wouldn’t be a problem.

“Just wait a moment, I’ll break it and go get it. We can decorate the room later.”

Tina finally prepared to pick flowers with her bare body.

As the name suggests, the azalea flower was a delicate flower, so she had to put in a lot of effort to pick it.

It can break even with a small impact, so if you climb up the cave, the vibrations may cause it to break.

In the end, the method she chose was that of a scholar, which was her specialty.

“Hmph!”

Tina once moved up to the ceiling through an area where flowers had not grown naturally and attached a rope to it.

Install a pulley there and wrap a rope around the body to keep it level.

At that moment, I slowly lowered the pulley to where the crystal flower was and reached out to pick the flower.

“what?”

The ropes that were holding her up began to move as if they were alive and began to bind her body.

“What, what is this?!”

The ropes started to get tangled.

The pressure is becoming clearer.

‘no.’

There’s nothing wrong with the rope.

No evil powers, including mana, are felt.

But is it even possible for the lines to get tangled like this?

Only then did Tina realize.

It was only under pressure that I realized it.

‘Until now, I haven’t felt anything… … .’

Even when I tasted the food I gave Jim, I didn’t feel anything.

And yet he acted as if it were natural.

I couldn’t even feel the warmth of the hands that touched each other, let alone the taste.

‘This…….’

And the moment I realized that fact.

The moment she reached the correct answer, she woke up from her deep dream.

“uh……?”

“You’re awake.”

The image of himself tied up and the luggage looking down at him.

Tina was embarrassed by the situation.

Are you thinking of running away secretly while holding yourself captive?

Do you hate yourself that much?

That’s when those negative thoughts started to come to mind.

“I think you’ll understand that I’ll be spending my first night like this.”

“what?”

“If you don’t like it, just say no. I don’t want to hurt you.”

I heard something even more dangerous than that.