I Can’t Run Away From the Girl Who Saved Me - I Can’t Run Away From the Girl Who Saved Me chapter 69

69 – Sign (2)

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‘…How long has it been?’

Sylvia couldn’t count the days properly.

Dying alone in this forest without meeting anyone was too painful for even the strong warrior to endure.

As she stopped counting the days so as not to be conscious of the slow passage of time day by day, she has almost lost her sense of time.

So, Sylvia suddenly became curious.

How long has it been since Ash came into her life?

Seeing as the seasons have only begun to change since Ash came, it certainly seems like it hasn’t been a year yet, but it doesn’t seem like it’s been a few weeks either.

However, it seemed clear that it would be an absurdly short amount of time compared to the changes in Sylvia that had occurred since Ash entered this forest.

Even before Ash was cursed,

At that time, both of them still felt uncomfortable living together.

At that time, Sylvia was completely devastated by the anxiety and panic she had suffered for several years, with no one to rely on.

Because she had no one to talk to, her conversations with Ash were often interrupted in the beginning.

She also reacted more sensitively than necessary to Ash, who was simply curious about the identity of her benefactor.

And her anxious appearance seemed very strange even to Ash, who spent most of his days lying on her bed, struggling to swallow her sorrow over the loss of her Lila.

In fact, it was hard to say that Sylvia’s mental state was any better now than it was then, but at least now that all of her attention and interest was directed towards Ash, she was no longer gnawing at herself in her sad reminiscences. .

However, Sylvia’s appearance at that time when her feelings of love for Ash had not yet bloomed,

After being tormented by her terrible memories for a long time, her appearance was so broken that Ash could not bear to reveal that she was Maria’s younger sister.

Ash’s consideration and judgment were certainly no different.

The moment she first found out that Ash was Maria’s younger sister, Sylvia was so shocked that it felt like the back of her head was hit by a large blunt object, causing her to stumble and eventually hit her buttocks.

The sight of Maria dying while trying to save herself was one of Sylvia’s nightmares that caused her the most pain.

However, in the end, even his younger brother was forcibly excluded from the world due to his curse, and Ash even went through the terrible experience of killing her person due to Sylvia’s greedy trick to have him.

It was definitely very painful.

If she had known first, she wouldn’t have done so in good conscience, but she was punished because she loved Ash, which made Sylvia suffer even more.

Conscience, honesty, courage, sacrifice.

On that day, all the values she had protected and followed as a warrior throughout her life collapsed in an instant, and all that remained of Sylvia was her bizarre obsession with Ash.

Sylvia’s uneasy mind did not improve due to Ash, she just turned her head towards Ash.

That’s why Sylvia seduced her Ash.

Shamelessly.

To relieve her pain of having to face her own disgusting hypocrisy and her desires, she shamelessly fawned over Ash in front of her.

Her sweet fantasy of being with Ash was the only happiness left to Sylvia.

And surprisingly,

Ash gave Sylvia that sweet fantasy.

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In fact, Ash at that time had just seen the violent murder committed by the curse, so he was very scared and confused.

Sylvia could not deny that the confusion and fear were clearly the biggest factors that led him to helplessly succumb to Sylvia’s temptation.

A feeling of guilt that cannot be erased even if one tries to erase it.

Even amidst the ecstatic feelings, scorching heat, and melting sensations that spread throughout her body during her lovemaking with Ash, the cold, sharp remorse that remained bothersome until the very end pricked Sylvia’s conscience mercilessly.

However, the lovely Ash was fortunate enough to finally erase even the sharp thorn that had sprouted in Sylvia’s heart.

‘I… I like it.’

No matter how confused and scared she was, the moment Ash’s clear affection for her came out of his mouth, everything became irrelevant to Sylvia.

Bad b*tch? Yeah, what a double b*tch.

Hypocrite? You can accept as much as you want.

A coward? That was before she even met Ash.

Not qualified to be a warrior? Yes, you don’t have to be a hero anymore.

As is known in this world, Sylvia, who was a warrior, died on the spot with the evil demon king in the demon king’s castle where Maria died.

All that remains is a woman with a cowardly and base desire who loved a boy named Ash so much that she even ordered him to commit a terrible murder.

That’s how Sylvia defined herself.

As long as Ash was by her side, she would be fine with that.

But…

“…I’m sorry.”

“No… There’s nothing to be sorry about.”

“Why isn’t there…”

The problem was that Ash had no idea about all of that.

Also, Sylvia already knew that he was Maria’s younger brother.

It is also true that the murder that Ash committed due to the curse was actually a result of Sylvia’s instigation.

Even the fact that Maria sacrificed herself and died to protect Sylvia,

“I… have so many things I’m sorry for.”

Without Sylvia knowing anything, she pulled Ash’s head into her arms and hugged it to her chest, trying to comfort her.

It wasn’t that she wanted to hug him.

It was because she couldn’t bear his gaze looking at her with affection, and because she couldn’t bear the pathetic voice that tried to comfort her.

Suddenly, Maria’s will buzzed in Sylvia’s ears.

‘Mom.’

As she slowly met her death in the cruel hands of her demon lord, she thought of her own family.

And Ash was Maria’s only living last family member.

Now that Ash can’t see, Sylvia places her forehead on the top of his head, biting her own lip as if biting.

Her guilt weighed down on her head and she could not raise her head.

Guilt stirred through Sylvia’s head like a sharp blade.

Sylvia, who eventually got tired of her selfishness and only thought about herself, was able to perfectly understand Ash’s intentions through that sharp self-reproach.

In the past, Ash was considerate of Sylvia because he was worried about the hurt she would receive,

Ash, who was determined that she would take care of her wounds for the rest of her life, bravely revealed all of her truth to Sylvia.

His consideration, kindness, and courage.

And the love was so pure and big.

The overwhelming weight pressed down on the back of Sylvia’s head.

Like Ash, Sylvia did not have the consideration for others or the courage to reveal everything.

Ugly obsession and desire to monopolize.

Struggling that I don’t want to be lonely ever again.

And, it’s just a base desire to have someone.

She truly realized the size of the human being named Ash.

In her sincerity, she realized how insignificant she was.

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The two returned to the cabin holding hands.

Ash’s steps were so familiar that they felt natural as he headed towards the kitchen.

“There’s still meat left… Oh, there’s deer. Good. Just wait a little while and I’ll prepare you something delicious right away. “

Ash smiled and washed her hands, which were covered in stone dust.

Even now, his slightly moist eyes were curved like a crescent moon.

She hadn’t thought about it, but she seemed so happy and grateful that Sylvia took the initiative to make a coffin for her.

Sylvia nodded her head, looking away from that dazzling smile of hers.

To be honest, her intention in making that coffin was also far from pure.

It was by no means a gift filled with condolences for Lila or comfort for Ash.

‘Now, let’s send Laila away properly.’

Just like she said when she showed him the coffin she had made,

Sylvia said she didn’t want Ash to have any more regrets or sadness about Lyla.

More specifically, I hoped he would no longer care about Lila.

I want you to look at me and only me.

I hope Ash only thinks about me.

It was a gift filled with such obscene desires.

Sylvia covered her face with both hands and slowly swept them down, as if trying to cover up her disgusting bare face.

“What’s wrong?”

“…”

“Do you still care?”

“Stop…”

“…Maria is a hero. Like Sylvia. “The reason I feel pity is because I look down on my sister’s sacrifice…”

“Ash.”

“…”

Sylvia cut off Ash’s words harshly.

Surprised by her firm and harsh attitude, Ash stopped her words and slowly looked at Sylvia, swallowing her breath.

Then, as if she realized something, she slowly nodded.

“…I’m sorry. “I was insensitive.”

“…No, no. “It’s not like that.”

“She was my older sister, but she was a friend and colleague to Sylvia… So it’s natural that it’s difficult to think about it.”

“Ah… No, not like that…”

It’s not that it’s not, but

Clearly, her memories of Maria’s final days were so sad and painful that it became so depressing just thinking about them.

That wasn’t the only reason why she had a hard time listening to Ash right now.

This was because compared to her kind and pure Ash, she felt so disgusting and dirty that it was difficult to bear how corrupted she was.

“That…”

“…?”

“Yeah… I’ll tell you the details someday, so… for now…”

“…Yes,”

Sylvia trembled, clenching her fists with both of her hands that had been left under her table.

The nails on the tips of her curled fingers pierced her palm, causing her blood to leak out.

She opened her mouth, staring blankly at the drops of blood falling on her floor.

“… I can’t help it.”

“…Yes?”

“Ash.”

“What’s wrong…?”

Sylvia asked without raising her head.

“…Do you love me?”

“…”

Ash chuckled.

“How can you not love a wonderful person like Sylvia?”

“…”

A dazzlingly beautiful dissonance passed by her ears.

Sylvia let out a helpless laugh without even realizing it.

“I can’t help but love you. Ash.”

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