I was excommunicated from the Holy Knights - I Was Excommunicated From the Holy Knights chapter 141

141 – My dear 8

“ha..”

Estelle walks around the room while letting out a deep sigh.

Outside, there were items from the Dragona Empire, the result of the work she had been pushing for all along, and in relation to this, the people of the Bohemia Lord’s Castle and the people sent by the lords of the Heretic Alliance were busy doing their own work.

however..

Despite the fact that the people she had longed for were bearing fruit right in front of her eyes, there was only a dark cloud in Estelle’s heart.

The reason was simple.

Apart from the fact that this time went the way she intended, what she ultimately wanted to get her hands on was…

This is because the goal of Santana’s love was not achieved in the end.

‘No.. to put it calmly… rather, it’s to the point where I wonder if it’s gotten worse…’

For some time now, Estelle has been able to feel it all the time.

Ever since she tried to confess using this incident as a stepping stone,

The fact that Santana began to show signs of intentionally avoiding her.

In fact, until now, he had almost always responded to her invitation to a meal, and there had been quite a bit of time to meet and talk separately.

Although most of the stories were limited to work. Nevertheless, Santana rarely turned down her request.

however..

After that confession, Santana began to show little, if not outright, rejection of her invitation.

Even if he came to the table, he seemed to try not to mix his words as much as possible, and it might be because of his mood, but his eyes looking at her were more gentle and cold than before.

And these facts…

It was enough to put deep pain in Estelle’s heart, who had come this far only for love with him.

‘I’ve been working hard… but in my own way… I did my best to win that man’s heart…’

Of course, it was true that he planned things with Polena along the way.

However, this was because he judged that he, as an unequivocal fiancee, had the right to do so no matter how much he started with a contract.

In the eyes of others, that itself may be arrogant, but…

At least she wanted to believe that.

It was the first time I’d ever loved someone like this…

It was also the first time I had ever felt jealousy towards someone with love.

In a situation like this, no matter how much she is, she can easily be swayed by emotions and commit violent acts.

But anyway…

As a result, it was clear that there was a high possibility that Santana would be offended by this, and Estelle was feeling deep regret about this as well as making a hasty confession.

‘I was too hasty… If I hadn’t done what I was performing… If I had been a little more patient and approached slowly… Things wouldn’t have gone to this point.’

With that thought in mind, Estelle starts to do her best to solve this frustrating situation in any way possible.

however..

Even she, who prides herself on having greater intelligence than others, could not come up with a clear solution to the current situation.

The complicatedly twisted situation was also a problem, but the biggest thing was that she was not familiar with the emotion of love.

Even though she fell in love herself… Even so, she didn’t know much about how to make the other person fall in love with her.

Although this time with the Dragona Empire, she had made an effort in her own way. As a result, it was a situation where even that seemed like a failure.

‘In the end… am I just a tool? You can’t be loved by that man.. It’s just a tool..’

In fact, given the nature of contractual engagement, it can’t be said that this meaning isn’t very significant.

like that..

Even with the success of her work ahead, only gloomy feelings lingered in Estelle’s heart at that time.

-“Smart Tok”-

“… ? yes. Come on in.”

sudden knock

As a result, Estelle began to have doubts and a little hope.

The odds aren’t very high, but the faint hope that maybe there’s Santa or that guy out there.

at that time..

“… Excuse me.”

“ah!..”

The next moment, the figure of the person that begins to come into her eyes.

The man she had always wanted to see…

Seeing Santana, Estelle’s heart instantly began to feel a deep happiness.

*

“Uh.. Welcome, Mr. Santana.”

Estelle has a visibly happy expression while looking at me.

Looking at her like this, I started to feel the feeling of a burden that was already feeling quite big.

‘I’ve been trying to avoid it as much as possible, but it’s been a while since I’ve come back?… It’s a very dramatic reaction in many ways.’

Estelle, who has always maintained a poker face with a calm smile, is showing her emotions.

However, the fact that I didn’t look for her all the time was actually a bigger problem on my side than hers.

Even though I was trying hard to keep my promise to Cazeros, I was never squeamish.

A beautiful woman who expresses that she likes me while looking at me.

Continuing to face such a person was burdensome to say the least, and in the worst case, the promise with Cazeros might be shaken.

In addition, the fact that I was engaged, even though it was called a contract, left room for me to create a psychological gap.

‘Anyway, since we’re engaged, it’ll be okay… Because we could have had the same thoughts…’

Actually, it’s a shame because Cazeros returned at the right time so that he could keep his promise to her.

I really don’t know what would have happened had my relationship with her lasted a few more months.

And in that respect… I couldn’t help but express my sincere gratitude to Estelle apart from her affection for me.

If she hadn’t pushed for this…

So, if the return of Cazeros had been delayed, I might have caused an incident where I was really embarrassed to see Cazeros.

However, as a result, the situation has practically come to an end.

Cazeros is back and I have a relationship with her.

I was thinking of formally introducing her sooner or later and going straight to the wedding if possible.

There is only one thing left.

To Estelle, who had indirectly helped her reach this situation somehow, the only thing she could do was give her a present that she would be satisfied with.

To the best of my ability.

So, right after I made up my mind once again, I began to speak cautiously to the woman who was drinking tea in front of me.

*

Santana sitting in front of the snow

As the feelings of joy she had felt while watching him calmed down a little, Estelle regained her cool, and doubts as well as some concerns began to bloom in Estelle’s mind.

Sannata, who had been avoiding her all along, appeared in front of her confidently for the first time.

This means that he has something important to say to himself.

And this was most likely… an extension of the confession she mentioned last time.

‘I can’t believe this.. I will end my engagement with the incident last time.. Is that so?.. Let’s end the contract and go back to South Korea now..’

As long as she doesn’t know Santana’s conditions well, it’s possible if something is met in his position.

Concerned about that fact, Estelle asked Santana cautiously.

“The fact that you came to see me without contacting me… must mean that you have something you want to tell me. What is that?”

She didn’t like the whirlwind anyway.

Whatever is behind this, it’s on her mind to hear the outcome as soon as possible.

And… as if he had noticed her intentions, Santana looked at Estelle and said in a clear voice.

“Yes, that’s right. I have something I want to say to you. About the confession I talked about earlier.”

“… ”

She had expected it, but the moment she heard it directly, Estelle began to be seized with even deeper tension.

Santana’s words to her

that..