I Was Given a Political Marriage - I Was Given a Political Marriage chapter 21

21 – Scarlett’s Heart (2)

It was a sudden confession.

The first confession I received from the opposite s*x I always went out with.

Contrary to Aileen, who approached her first through an arranged marriage, this confession started with pure love.

“I know I can’t answer you right now. But… I really like you.”

“Father, go, it’s so sudden.”

However, this confession also came as a shock to me.

I knew Scarlett had a crush on me to some degree.

But I never imagined it would come this far.

After I graduate, I will belong to the Estes family rather than Laiheart.

Even if I wanted to accept it, I was not a person in a realm where I could easily accept that heart.

“It’s okay, I already know. Everything is hard for you to accept.”

“But why…”

Xian couldn’t understand why she confessed to him even though he was in pain.

It’s like facing a painful reality even though you know full well that it can’t be done.

“Because I like you. Even if it’s just for a moment. Before you really get away from me… I wanted to be loved by you because I like you even once.”

My heart aches at the sad smile like a child longing for affection.

I couldn’t take my eyes off of Scarlett and the discomfort of someone squeezing my chest.

Xian silently hugs Scarlett’s head, who keeps her head down and doesn’t say anything.

“Actually… me.”

He knew long ago that she liked him.

“Scarlett… I’m sorry. I thought the engagement would break up.”

“That means.”

“huh.”

Actually, it was because I thought the engagement would break up and went out with her. I also had a certain crush on Scarlett.

It was possible to protect her when she was sad because I felt a sense of kinship and an outgoing crush.

“I would have accepted it if it hadn’t been for the engagement. I’m sorry, Scarlett.”

If only it wasn’t for the engagement. If only the arranged marriage had been broken, I would have accepted this confession now.

Since this was the last freedom for me, there was nothing more I could do for Scarlett.

She was a commoner, and I’m a low-class aristocrat sold out of my family.

I’m sorry, even though it hurts, there was nothing we could do.

“Yeah… Yes, I knew… I know.”

Scarlett’s eyes blushed like her red hair, but all she could do was give her a hug.

‘I’m sorry, I’m sorry.’

I couldn’t open my mouth to the guilt and regret that surged in my heart.

I’d rather this wouldn’t have happened if I hadn’t even given her a chance in the first place.

I thought I was the beginning of all of this, so I felt like I was going to shed tears together.

“I love Xian so much. That’s why I can’t stand it.”

“But…”

“I dreamed every night. What shall we do tomorrow? What would you like to talk about?”

With every word from Scarlett, the relationship between the two grew closer.

Reaching in front of Xian, she closed her eyes and finished her final resolution.

“Sorry.”

At the end of those words, both arms were suppressed, and at the same time, Scarlett’s face came right up to her nose.

A familiar yet nostalgic feeling on the lips.

It was only then that I could tell when I felt the soft, yet crumbly texture on my lips unlike Eileen.

That I’m kissing you right now.

“Huh, uh… Now, sleep.”

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry Xian.”

Resistance itself was meaningless against a force that was stronger than Scarlett’s to force it out.

A clumsy yet slowly wrapped woman’s body, a tongue trying to come in between the lips.

And even Scarlett’s teary eyes.

At first, I tried to push it away and bite it, but as soon as I saw the tears, my whole body relaxed and I allowed it.

once, twice, three times.

Every time saliva filled his mouth, he moved his throat to swallow.

“Huh, huh, now, wait a minute.”

“Sorry, I like this so much. I’m sorry.”

Every time he entangled his tongue, his legs relaxed as if his soul was being drained.

But every time that happened, Scarlett supported her with her legs and forcibly lifted them up and continued.

Unlike Eileen, the kiss is more lively and pressurized.

Scarlett was obviously kinder, but her skinship was more violent.

“Ha ha, ha ha… just sleep. You, if you get this wrong.”

“I can afford everything.”

When we caught our breath and looked into each other’s eyes, they looked more confident and confident than anyone else.

As if whatever happens, he will bear it all.

“I don’t know anymore. I don’t know what will happen either.”

“Then let’s do it again, Xian.”

This time, he approaches more leisurely than before.

It comes more sticky and slowly and supports the waist.

Perhaps Xian had given up now, and he responded little by little, hoping that this moment would pass safely.

‘Good mood. It’s a different feeling from Eileen.’

Maybe it’s because it’s a completely different feeling from Eileen, who was my first kiss, so I keep comparing them.

I move slowly in line with Scarlett, who slowly and leisurely approaches.

Just for Scarlett. For this fleeting moment, even for Scarlett.

So we kissed each other without thinking.

It must have been a long time since we kissed, but when I came to my senses, more time had passed than I thought.

I don’t know how I got there, but I went to the alley where I was earlier and I was sitting on a park bench.

Just like in the old days, the situation of giving Scarlett a leg and stroking her hair.

“Are you all right now?”

“huh…”

He stared at him with his eyes slightly closed, probably tired, and continued to stroke his hair.

The wild beast, which had been running amok with excitement until just now, was meekly leaning on his lap.

In my head, I recalled the situation at that time, and I was still pampered.

“Thank you. Thank you always Xian.”

“Thank you.”

Scarlett kept saying thank you with her eyes closed. He watched over me and comforted me saying it was okay.

“So I don’t think I can give up any more. Xian, are you really happy?”

“Happiness… are you?”

“Do you regret getting engaged to that woman?”

‘Even if I ask if you regret it…’

In the first place, I had nothing to say about arranged marriages because none of my opinions were aired.

Even if you ask me if I’m happy, I have no idea that I’m happy right now.

“…I don’t know.”

“why?”

“It’s just that you do what you’re told to do. And you do it well.”

I am aware to some extent that Aileen is considerate of me.

Of course, that consideration has a strong feeling of a preventive measure to prevent the worst from happening, but it is big.

“That’s why I can’t give up any more. You don’t want to.”

“huh…?”

“I wanted you to be happy. I didn’t want you to get sick. But… when you’re with that person, you’re not happy. You’re deceiving yourself.”

Xian’s face gets darker as he listens to Scarlett’s advice.

In the meantime, I’ve been living my life accepting skinship and noticing, but I felt like I came to my senses only then when I heard it myself.

From the moments I struggled to gain freedom to the memories of the day I was forcibly engaged.

“…but there’s no way to do it. I don’t want to get married already. But… there’s nothing I can do.”

The most important thing is that you can’t even run away with this weak man’s body.

If you run away and get caught by bandits, you might see all the bad things, and it’s hard to make money because you can’t do bad things with this body.

“Then… do you want to run away with me? I’ll give up all of myself and do anything for you and the child.”

“escape…?”

Scarlett’s words to run away together almost hit her head.

The aristocratic life up until now was just sleeping in a nice bed.

Even if I live like a commoner from now on, I think I’ll be able to adapt quickly.

but..

‘What is Scarlett’s dream? And can I run away?’

Indeed, even if I ran away, I had no thought that Aileen would let go.

Rather, you might get caught and face more harsh things.

“Sian, I really…”

“Wait a minute, I’m dizzy. Wait a minute.”

What would happen if she and Scarlett ran away safely?

It’s natural to give up your aristocratic status, but will you find a house together and live a leisurely life in the countryside?

Of course, the marriage will be Scarlett, not Eileen, but are you really getting complete freedom with this?

While Xian struggled, Scarlett began to see hope.

Xian thinks that he will be completely rejected and seriously thinks about what he said.

I believed that if I could shake it a little more, I could dream of a happy reality.

‘I don’t need any articles. Honor is more important than that.’

Knights always said they could sacrifice everything for honor.

But she always had something more important than honor in her heart.

Because a happy future is more precious than an innocent honor.

“It’s okay to think slowly. No… You don’t have to think about it. I just don’t want you to forget me, Xian.”

At the last word that seemed to pierce my heart, my eyes fluttered.

“I-I…”

“What are you two doing?”

Just before they say anything, the two people lose their minds at the voice that is so cold that the whole body is frightened.

The gaze of the two slowly began to turn to the side, and at the end of that gaze stood a person who seemed to embody the word cold.

“Ah, Eileen…!”

“hahahaha… I told you not to be with a woman before I left. Get out of there and Xian.”

The atmosphere began to change in an instant with the appearance of the person Scarlett hated the most.