I Was Sick of Loving You - I Was Sick of Loving You chapter 76

76 – Tranquility

The early morning of the day when spring has completely left and summer has taken its place. As usual, he is focusing on training to train his body and mind.

While spending time like any other, a different sense came to me.

I felt the sword and my body more clearly than usual, and the world gradually became blurry.

The sensation gradually became clearer, and then the world completely disappeared, leaving only the sword and me.

In such a world, I became immersed in the sword and even I disappeared.

The world, with only the sword remaining, continued and then broke off, and me and the world returned.

When the world returned, the sun that had been stretching was lighting up the world from the highest point in the sky.

I felt the flow of time and the joy was pushed.

For the first time, the fact that I put everything else aside and only immersed myself in the sword, a phenomenon experienced by geniuses or those who have reached a high level, made me very happy.

When I was immersed in such joy, the fatigue of the body that I had forgotten came over.

The fatigue began to come in gently, then became strong like a wave and began to weigh me down.

I couldn’t bear the tiredness any longer, so I washed off my sweat and went to bed.

Darkness came with a deep haze.

It slowly sinks in the approaching darkness.

As I was sinking like that, I heard the laughter I had heard in my previous dream.

The sound of laughter that borders on ridicule gradually grows louder, and my head vibrates.

My head is ringing and I try to cover my ears, but the laughter doesn’t go away.

It resonates in my head and eats me up.

As I struggled with that feeling, a woman wearing a wide-brimmed red hat approached me from beyond the darkness.

As the woman approached, the echo began to die down.

The ringing died down and my head and heart became quiet.

While feeling that sensation, a voice identical to that of laughter came out of the woman’s mouth.

“Don’t look forward to it.”

The woman’s voice dissipated, and grotesque laughter was heard from all directions.

As I listened to that laugh, an indescribable emotion came from deep within.

However, the feeling soon dissipated and calm returned.

The stillness is so heavy that I sink.

As I was sinking like that, I felt a soft warmth on my cheek.

The warmth eased the stillness, and I opened my eyes.

Iris and the room dyed red with hazy eyes entered.

“I must have woken you up.”

“no. He only came when it was time to rise.”

She smiled, stealing my breath.

I also stole her warmth.

Feeling her breath and warmth like that, warmth came and filled my heart.

It pushed away the serenity left by the dream.

By the time the serenity was completely pushed out, her breathing receded.

“I’m here for dinner, what should I do?”

Even listening to her, I don’t feel hunger. I haven’t eaten anything except breakfast, but I’m not hungry, but rather have no appetite.

After thinking about it for a while, I opened my mouth.

“I will eat later.”

“Right. Then I’ll go first. I’ll be back later tonight.”

After her words, we kissed each other’s cheeks.

As she left the room, a silence came over the room.

As the silence came, the warmth that had risen in my heart began to fade.

As the warmth faded, the serenity that had been pushed out returned.

It came slowly and steadily.

That sticky serenity settled in my heart and began to color other things.

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Little by little, my mind calmed down and my head cleared.

I don’t know how to accept that feeling.

I don’t know if it’s a continuation of the phenomenon I experienced in the morning, or if it’s the reverberation of a dream.

Neither of them would be bad, I thought.

While thinking that, I looked at the reddish scenery.

As I watched the world go down, I thought that this time was not worth it.

With that thought in mind, I went back to the gymnasium and devoted myself to training.

As in the morning, the world became blurry again, and the sword and I became clear.

In the sense that came back, I sold out my sword and woke up, and a cool wind blew from beyond the darkness.

The cool breeze of the night passed by, and her last words came to mind.

“I’ll be back later tonight.”

Her words came to mind, and the image of her waiting for him came to mind.

Feeling embarrassed and apologetic at that appearance, as I hurried to return, I heard her voice.

“Your sword is still straight, lovely.”

I heard a voice full of warmth and felt a soft touch.

When I turned my eyes to the touch, I saw her smiling and wiping the sweat with a towel.

“You suffered.”

Her words made her feel ashamed.

I do what I love like Han-ryang, and she carries the weight of the family… How can I deserve to be told that I have worked hard?

“I was just doing what I loved.”

“You say that, but didn’t you take the lead for the family with the sword you polished like that? So don’t talk like that.”

Her firm yet soft words permeate warmly.

“All right.”

“Yeah, that’s it.”

She said and hugged me.

“Since you sweat a lot, this will be done later…”

My words got stuck in her mouth.

Our breath and warmth mixed and fell leaving a transparent line.

“It’s fine.”

“still…”

I couldn’t speak at the soft, warm feeling I felt in my throat.

“Our sweat was mixed up every night, so why bother?”

There was color in her words and smile.

The sight of it stirred desire.

“And as I always said, I love all of you. So never mind.”

After her words, our breaths lightly collided and fell.

Her mixed breathing dropped, and a slight slyness permeated her expression.

“If you still care, I will wash it for you who have worked hard.”

“You don’t have to…”

Her hand choked up.

“Don’t hold back. May you be happy to receive her heart and sincerity.”

So she said, and decided what I had to say.

“I will.”

“Good idea.”

Satisfaction washed over her face.

She took my hand and led me.

“And I will serve for you who are tired even at night. So look forward to it.”

Her desire-filled words were delivered, and the time when our desires and warmth were mixed began.

The time passed when our desires were entangled and poured out for a long time, and the desires were satisfied and blurred. Warmth filled the blurred spot.

In that warmth, he kissed her lightly on the mouth.

“Have a nice dream.”

“You too have a nice dream.”

She smiled and closed her eyes as she hugged me.

I looked at her like that and waited for the haze, but the haze didn’t come.

My body is tired, but it’s not strange since I slept like that during the day.

Thinking of that and feeling her warmth, I felt a bit of a difference.

The heart beats silently.

Even if he had poured out all his desires and fell asleep, he would run faster than usual when holding her… but not now.

Run calmly as if nothing happened.

that’s not the end

Emotions are pale. The warmth that filled my heart is light.

The warmth that should be filled up like it’s going to explode… it wasn’t filled.

that’s weird

It’s strange and strange… It makes me feel anxious.

That anxiety raised the fragments of a strange dream.

A strange dream at the end of spring and a dream I had today.

Iris, who was crying sadly, and a heart that was strangely calm.

And a familiar, ominous laugh.

The words the owner of that laugh threw.

“Don’t look forward to it.”

They are intertwined and the ominousness permeates more deeply.

As I pushed away the ominousness, thinking it was just a dream, a strangely sticky calmness came over me.

The serenity I felt in my dreams…

Gradually, calmness sets in and the ominousness fades. My mind was calm and my head was clear again.

To the point where even the time to worry about dreams and emotions feels meaningless.

As I was thinking that, I felt her toss and turns and saw her peaceful appearance.

The serenity faded from his appearance. In the place where the tranquility was blurred, warmth came again.

Warmth fills me up and the thoughts I’ve had pass by.

The thought that dismissed the sunset that I usually liked as worthless, and the thought that the time spent worrying about dreams and emotions was meaningless passed by, and I felt that something was wrong.

Things you wouldn’t even think about normally. They made the ominous reborn.

very thick ominousness.

He tried hard to deny that ominousness.

It’s because you’re tired. Just like there are days when you are irritable and nervous for no reason, today is just a day when you often have negative thoughts. yes, that would be it

Thinking so, I pushed the ominous feeling away.

Pushing away that ominous feeling, I gazed at the happiness I had barely attained.

He stroked her hair as she slept peacefully, filling her heart.

Filling it with her warmth, it pushed away any remaining ominousness.

Her curse was also gone. The unhappy future is gone. The eternal winter is over, and spring has arrived. So, there is no reason to feel unlucky.

With that thought, he brushed off even a handful of ominous thoughts and filled his heart with her warmth.