I Was Sick of Loving You - I Was Sick of Loving You chapter 78

78 – compromised relief and luck

A month has passed since I realized that the terrible curse had come again.

I asked the magic tower to analyze the magic circle that triggered the curse, but there is no income yet.

With no income, I feel that my emotions are fading day by day.

The song of the bird that announces morning has become a loud noise.

The warmth that the fragrant aroma of tea had provided became lukewarm.

The beautiful sunset scenery felt like a faded painting.

those things are fine It’s just that the trivial pleasures of the day have faded. It’s not to the extent that it interferes with my life.

yeah, that’s fine It still feels warm to spend time with Iris.

I thought so and took hold of my heart.

no need to hold on My heart is not shaken by the tranquility of the curse.

In that state, most of the time was spent flipping through the copies of books related to curses from the witch’s library.

After spending a day buried in books like that, the time came when the darkness of the night was thick.

As usual, I closed the book without earning any income. And I moved to where I should be,

Opening her door, now closer to the couple’s bedroom, I saw her looking slightly tired.

She erased her tired expression and smiled at me.

My heart is agitated.

“You worked hard today too.”

“Iris suffered, too.”

He said what he always said and kissed his lips.

Sticky lines made and dropped.

I looked at her and smiled.

Her smile widened a little and her mouth opened.

“Would you like to have a drink after a long time?”

“great.”

She said it’s been a while, but I know she’s been drinking every day lately.

But I pretended not to know. Because I lived like that, because I knew the feeling, I pretended not to know.

That would be comfortable for her. Just like I did.

“I’ll bring it, so wait.”

She said that and left.

I waited for her in the empty-looking room, looking up at the night sky.

The moon that was full a few days ago and is now being swallowed up little by little by darkness.

Around such a moon, a cluster of stars shining so that the sky would not be too dark.

And the darkness that tries to swallow them.

There was a time when I enjoyed looking at the sky, saying that it was beautiful, that it was nice to change little by little every day, and savoring and enjoying the scenery. I can’t do that now.

The bitterness passed by at that thought, and a calmness returned.

As I was soaked in that irresistible serenity, she came with a glass and a drink.

She doesn’t have to bring it, but it’s always like this when I’m drinking.

She set down the drink she had been carrying and filled her glass.

We lightly clinked our glasses and emptied them.

After filling and emptying the drink, her face turned red.

Then she filled the glass again.

I thought about stopping her, but in the end I didn’t stop and bumped the glass.

She emptied her glass, hoping that the drink would bring some comfort to her.

After emptying the glass again, she came to my side and kissed me.

I hugged her like that.

she climbed onto my leg

As they shared warmth, her hand began to travel down her chest.

It is a signal to work the night.

I must have drunk a lot

He held her hand and ended the kiss.

“It’s not possible.”

“Why?”

Her drunken voice fills the room.

And her disgruntled eyes look at me.

“Not until the curse is lifted. Didn’t you promise that?”

When I found out that I was cursed, I promised not to work the night until the curse was lifted so that the curse would not pass on to my children like in my previous life.

“Ah… it was. You must be drunk.”

She said that and staggered to her feet.

He picked her up and carried her to bed.

So she tapped my shoulder with her finger.

“water.”

At her words, I poured water into a glass and handed it to her, and she shook her head.

At her reaction, he filled his mouth with water and kissed her.

Coldness and warmth intertwined.

After repeating this entanglement several times, her eyelids began to lower little by little.

“Have a nice dream.”

After saying that, she closed her eyes.

I kissed her on the forehead.

“Have a nice dream.”

Saying so, he covered her with a blanket.

and left the room.

I went to the wine cellar to get a drink, and headed to the detached building where no one was there.

I was able to breathe only after closing the door of the desolate outbuilding.

A deep sigh filled the desolate outbuilding.

I let go of the emotions I had accumulated and headed to the room full of pain.

I drank in a place where the most terrible pain in my life was standing.

At the same time, he vomited fragments of emotions clouded by tranquility.

“The damn curse is driving me crazy.”

Having said that, it’s not hard.

Even though it’s hard because of serenity, it’s not hard because the thought that it’s hard is erased.

I hate that. I hate it so much

Thinking so, I took a drink.

As I drank like that, I chewed on the feelings that were still not erased by the tranquility.

As I pondered over the warmth and happiness of my time with her, it faded so much that it disappeared.

And only emptiness and sadness remained.

“It was so clear until morning… but it’s not like that now.”

The morning when I woke up to see her was so happy and warm that my heart fluttered. When I saw her waiting for me, my heart was at peace. Despite her smile, my heart was at peace.

So my mind wandered.

The fact was so sad that it shook.

Hiding that emotion, he smiled at her.

Still, I thought it would be okay if I felt her warmth.

However, her warmth was weak today.

The warmth that had been warm enough to fill me had weakened so much.

My mind wandered about it.

The swaying is particularly vivid and painful.

It hurts so much that the tranquility can’t erase it.

I was relieved by that fact.

I was relieved to be able to fully feel the pain.

It’s funny. I was tormented by the pain, but now I feel the pain and feel relieved.

I laugh because I am dumbfounded by the reality.

He let out a dejected laugh and took another drink.

I drank to be a little more emotional, to be a little more honest about my pain.

Still, no tears came out.

I wanted to shake off the pain with tears, so I came to the place that hurts the most, but the tears do not come out.

Is it because the pain here has faded? Or did the curse dry up even the tears?

I don’t know.

I couldn’t find an answer to that question and drank. At the same time, I miss the pathetic me who shed tears often.

If it were me who shed tears when my heart festered, I would have already shed tears.

The me then and the me now are so different.

Thinking so, I drank and mourned the dead me.

And alcohol erased the pain.

It’s a pain that will one day be consumed by tranquility and disappear, but I don’t want to erase it like that.

If it is a pain to be erased, I want to erase it in my own way.

I don’t want to forget the pain because of the curse.

Thinking such a stupid idea, I drank and fell in love with alcohol.

The alcohol ran out, and I went back to her side, except for the smell of alcohol in the air.

Then, he embraced the weak warmth.

And then he was relieved. I was relieved that even the feeble warmth hadn’t gone away.

I fell asleep in such a compromised relief.

*————*

the next morning. As usual, Iris came to my place as I was flipping through books.

“I got a call from Rachel.”

Saying that, she took out the crystal ball from her bosom.

Beyond the crystal ball, I saw Rachel, who returned to her hometown to show the magic circle to the elder.

“Brother, long time no see.”

“Yeah, it’s been a while.”

After a month, Rachel’s voice seemed a little brighter.

The brightness began to crack the tranquility of my heart.

“I have a lot of things I want to say, but I don’t have time, so I’ll start with the main point. The Elder has succeeded in interpreting the curse magic circle.”

Rachel’s words cracked the calm, and my heart started beating fast.

“Then did you find a way to do it?”

“I did find it, but I wasn’t sure until I checked your condition.”

I’m not sure, but just the possibility made my heart start beating like crazy.

“ah. And as time goes on, the possibility seems to diminish, so he asked me to come here as quickly as possible.”

“i get it. I will go as soon as possible.”

After that, the call was disconnected. And our eyes met.

I smiled in the heartbeat that hadn’t come in a long time.

A smile crept into her face as well.

“I’ll contact the southern gateway and get permission to teleport. In the meantime, be prepared.”

“All right.”

My words were scattered, and her mouth closed mine.

I feel a warmer warmth than yesterday.

The warmth lingered in my mouth for a while and then left.

“I’ll get rid of the curse right away, and I’ll pour out on you as much as I endured yesterday, no, as much as I endured until now.”

“I look forward to it.”

With that said, we started preparing to leave.

I held onto the pounding that hadn’t happened in a long time and was grateful for the quick luck.