I Was Sick of Loving You - I Was Sick of Loving You chapter 91

91 – (Side story) Winter’s End

Dad wanted us to be happy. Even though he died in loneliness, he hoped that the eternal winter that came to us would end and spring would come.

But that didn’t happen.

Winter never came. Rather, it was full of the warmth of spring.

It’s just that we didn’t recognize the spring.

that’s our sin

Spring has left us who have sinned like that, and winter has come.

Only then did we realize what spring is. The realization was painful because it was too late.

In the pain of such pain and winter, we struggled to achieve our father’s wish.

I tried to be happy.

But the effort was futile.

Happiness does not come to us who do not recognize the happiness next to us. no, i can’t find it

That’s how we couldn’t find happiness, and our hearts were rotten in the cold winter.

Still, we didn’t show it off.

They wore masks and lived like normal people.

It was the best we could do, so we lived like that.

As I lived while hiding my rotten heart, I was left alone before I knew it.

It’s been more than 20 years since my mother passed away, and it’s already been 5 years since my ugly brother died.

Now I am left alone in this winter.

Only I remember the damn curse, and only I bear it.

That’s enough. Because there will be no more curses to follow.

Thinking so, I wait for the end of winter with a curse.

Dad, mother, and ugly brother yearn for rest in the poor room of the annex where they died.

I longed for it and waited, but rest did not come and an uninvited guest came.

“Auntie, I am.”

Along with the sound of knocking, I heard the voice of my nephew who was adopted by my ugly brother.

“Come in.”

The door opened, and a nephew who was not related by blood entered. Well-groomed brown hair and clear blue eyes. The image of a nephew who resembles his father keeps stabbing his heart. So I avoid it every time because it’s uncomfortable, but my nephew, who even resembles a lot of affection, visits like this.

“Auntie, are you okay?”

“Yes, it was peaceful. Are you at peace?”

“I am always at peace.”

The nephew smiled and said so. That smile also resembles my father’s, and my heart throbs.

“I’m glad that’s the case. Well, I guess I will have time to come see this old man.”

The nephew smiles shyly. Even that makes my heart throb.

“So, did you come to say hello today?”

My nephew smiles again. It’s like this every time. Because of the throbbing pain, I talk harshly to this guy, and this guy always smiles awkwardly like a foolish guy. I don’t hate such a nephew, but I don’t want to be close to him because he resembles my dad.

The winter has become clearer, so I don’t want to get close to it.

“Then go back.”

So he issued a congratulatory order. My nephew, who had grown accustomed to me, greeted me with an innocent smile and left the room. Silence came again.

Employment came and the throbbing was gone. Just like that, the throbbing was gone, and I resented my ugly brother.

“If you brought my nephew without consulting you, you will be held responsible until the end. Why die first?”

An ugly older brother who adopts a nephew just because he resembles his father and then irresponsibly doesn’t give it to him. I didn’t like that brother’s decisions and actions, so we fought for a long time, but now that’s too old.

As I thought about it, old memories came to the surface one by one. The older brother who came to me holding the hand of a child with no connection. And then I said it irresponsibly.

“It’s your nephew.”

The words were so absurd, but I could understand that. I lived pretending to be normal, but I can understand such a strange decision because my insides are rotten.

yes i could understand Until you see what the damn human did after that.

The damn older brother adopted the child and selected him as his successor. Of course, the backlash was great. I gave a heavy burden to my young and fragile nephew to suppress the backlash with my ability. I didn’t like it.

Just seeing him for the reason that he resembles his father makes one side of his heart ache, so how can he make them carry such a heavy and difficult burden?

I told the damn thing about it, but the answer was spectacle.

“No matter how heavy the burden is, it is better than dying as an orphan.”

“No, you just have to adopt. There was no need to make him an heir.”

The answer that followed was also spectacle.

“I don’t want to give this family name to others.”

that sounds funny While I resented this family more than anyone else. While cursing the family more than anyone else. It was only natural that he got angry and fought. Even if I went back in time, I would have done that.

However, if there was anything that could be called an accident, it was the efforts of the nephew. No, it was a thirst for affection.

The nephew spent all his time carrying that heavy burden. Even the reckless training of an ugly person was followed without complaint.

I shouldered a heavy burden because I did not want to disappoint my first family, and because the praise that I did well was warm.

An ugly person did not know the heart of such a nephew. Even if I hinted at it, I couldn’t understand it. I didn’t like such a stupid person, so I fought for a while.

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Looking back now, it was a ray of warmth in a winter that never ends.

What a stupid story.

Recalling the old memories like that, I continued my last routine.

I am writing a letter to my nephew who is affectionate and tender.

It’s hard to see, so I’m writing a letter.

Write down the words you couldn’t convey.

After that, I put it in the closet.

I hope to find out when I am at rest, and I did.

Now that I have finished my workday again, I wait for a rest while feeling the smell of the cold winter.

As usual, while waiting for the rest, luck came.

My head spins, I feel dizzy, and my breathing begins to thin.

And all the strength started to drain from my body.

It’s hard, but I’m happy.

I’m glad that winter is finally over, that the damn curse is gone from this world.

Darkness came in the midst of such a mixture of pain and joy.

Accepting the darkness happily, he drowns in the winter while embracing the curse.

Our winter is over.

As I was thinking about it, I felt something strange.

The darkness did not disappear, but the warmth was felt.

I felt a warmth enveloping me that I hadn’t felt in so many years.

As I questioned that, I heard a voice that seemed like it would shed tears of longing.

“My daughter, the way she sleeps is cute too.”

“Honey, I know you’re happy, but lower your voice. I mean, he just fell asleep.”

“Okay, I’ll be careful.”

I heard the voices of my father and mother. The voice seemed warmer and happier than I remember. Hearing that voice, I wanted to open my eyes and check it out, but my eyelids were too heavy. It was so heavy that I didn’t think it would float at all, but I kept trying. I poured my strength into it.

As I was pouring in that effort, I heard words that resonated in my heart.

“Elijah, thank you for coming back.”

Those words touched my heart. My heart, soaked in Dad’s warmth, let go of the tears, and I felt the tears welling up in my eyes. My eyes were wet and my eyelids were light. When I felt it and opened my eyes with strength, I could see my father’s youth beyond the hazy world.

I couldn’t believe it, so I reached out and called out to my father.

“Aww”

No voice came out, but I heard the babbling of a child who looked like he was about to cry.

“You woke up because of honey. I barely made it to sleep… Honey woke me up, so please comfort me.”

Dad stretched out his hand toward me with a wry smile. A large hand wrapped around me, and I felt the nostalgic warmth.

“Who made our good daughter cry?”

“Ugh, I’ll be fine.”

“Uh huh. Honey, be quiet.”

Contrary to the cold memories, the warm conversation between my parents was so good that I laughed. Seeing me like that, my dad smiled triumphantly, and my mother clearly looked dumbfounded.

“look. It just stops crying.”

“Nonsense. It took me a while.”

“It’s because my daughter likes me more than you. Isn’t that right, Eli?”

He opened his mouth because he liked this kind of father who gave us a warm smile and held on to the pain inside.

“cadet.”

“Eli seems to think so too.”

Dad smiled happily. I loved the smile of my father, who was full of such joy, so we laughed together.

“Eh. I gave birth to you hard Like Evan, Ellie likes Dad.”

I felt sorry for my mother’s lamentable words, but what can I do better for my father?

While I felt sorry for my mother like that, while I was justifying myself, my dad sat down next to my mother and kissed me on the cheek. Then the mother let go of her sad expression and tapped her lips with her finger.

Dad smiled and kissed the mother’s actions. Looking at it, I realized that winter was really over.

The day when winter ends and spring returns. I hoped that this moment would not be a dream in the arms of my father whom I had missed so much.