I Wish My Husband Were Dead - Chapter 149



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2024.03.28.

She realized that showing her mother’s memories just now was also Servette’s warm consideration. Cordelia struggled to reach him. She

still had something to say to Servette. There were so many things she wanted to ask him. She wasn’t ready to accept parting with him yet.

Now that she had finally learned of your existence.

“Servette!”

However, her cries soon died down in the air. With eyes full of longing, Servette confirmed that Cordelia had completely disappeared before turning around and entering the dense forest.

* * *

When Cordelia came to, she was at the entrance to an unfamiliar village. A traveler passing by saw a woman lying in the bushes, thinking she was a corpse, and as he searched his pockets, his eyes met Cordelia’s.

“Eww!”

The old man screamed and ran away, but fell backward. He seemed to think the corpse had risen.

Cordelia didn’t have the presence of mind to pay attention to him. Her back ached and her whole body felt heavy, as if she had just woken up from a very long sleep. She felt stiff and weak, as if she had a cold.

The first thing that came to her mind was Servette, the kind devil with the same eyes as Cordelia. Just thinking about him brought tears to her eyes.

“I couldn’t even say thank you.”

She hugged both of her hands, remembering the last time she held Servette’s hand. She didn’t know if she would ever see him again, but the words he left behind would make Cordelia live each day. She stood tall, strengthening her legs.

She didn’t know where she was, but Cordelia wasn’t worried. She lifted her left arm and kissed her bracelet. Then she thought of Leonard. Just thinking about his beautiful platinum hair and mysterious purple eyes made her heart race.

“Leonard.” She

muttered the name and closed her eyes.

When she opened them again, Cordelia was not standing on the cold dirt floor, but in the middle of a beautiful garden. The garden was filled with flowers that had been soaking up the autumn sunlight.

Leonard stood still, looking up at the sky among the fluttering flowers.

Instead of calling his name, Cordelia approached him slowly. When they got close enough, Leonard turned around at the sound of his presence and met Cordelia’s eyes.

She expected him to run over in joy, but instead, Leonard froze like a mouse that had seen a snake. Cordelia didn’t say a word until she was right in front of him. Because of that, she also didn’t know what to say and just blinked awkwardly.

“I’m home.”

“… … .”

“B-You haven’t forgotten me yet, have you?”

“Am I finally going crazy?”

Leonard muttered, staring down at Cordelia.

Cordelia mustered up her courage and took a step closer to him. When she looked closely, her face was half the size it had been the last time she saw him. When she realized that, her heart ached.

It is unknown how long it had been since she disappeared, but she must have thought she was dead, so she must have been having a hard time.

“Why do you think so?”

“Because I’m hallucinating and even hearing things.”

“It’s not a hallucination, it’s real. Cordelia Vasquez. Master’s disciple.”

She carefully took his hand and placed it on her cheek. The large hand completely embraced Cordelia’s cheek.

“You said you wouldn’t forgive me if I left you alone. That’s why I came back.”

“Really… … Is that you? Cordelia?”

“Yes. But why is your face so hurt? Master, Leonard is nothing but his face.”

It was a joke to lighten the heavy atmosphere. But suddenly a tear fell from Leonard’s eye.

Cordelia was quite flustered, not having imagined seeing his tears here.

“Oh, oh. That… … . So, a handkerchief.”

She searched her pockets in a panic, but there was no way she could find a handkerchief.

Tears ran down Leonard’s chin and fell to the floor. It was even more pitiful to see the man who had always been arrogant and confident show such weakness.

“Even if it was a dream, I would be happy. If only I could see you again.”

“I said it wasn’t a dream. Why can’t you trust what people say?”

He seemed to have a strong misunderstanding that I was crazy or dreaming. Thinking about how to make him believe it was real, a good idea came to mind.

Cordelia lifted her tiptoes, placed her hand on his shoulder, and kissed his pale white cheek. She tasted tears.

“When I was sealed with Nazabut, Servette was in my body. He was sealed instead and let me out.”

“… … .”

“So now, believe me. I’m not a hallucination or a dream.”

And she lifted her heel again and kissed his other cheek. Normally, she would have been too embarrassed to do it first, but at this moment, she could do anything for him.

“Ugh.”

The man who had been as still as a stone suddenly hugged Cordelia tightly and kissed her. Cordelia was flustered by the unexpected kiss and struggled. Leonard became even more violent, perhaps because he thought it was rejecting him.

The expression “immobile” was the most appropriate for this situation. She couldn’t escape his embrace from head to toe.

Cordelia, who still had difficulty kissing, patted Leonard’s shoulder because she had difficulty breathing.

“Wait, I, haa, breathe, breathe.”

She pushed Leonard away with all her might. Then she took in air to survive.

Leonard grabbed Cordelia and groped around, touching her here and there. Cordelia’s cheeks turned red because she was embarrassed by his hands touching her bare skin.

She slapped Leonard’s hand that was going down to her chest and said,

“Hey, what are you doing in broad daylight?”

“You’re saying this is reality?”

“How long are you going to keep saying that? Where is this? It doesn’t seem to be Atili Townhouse.”

“Isn’t this a dream?”

The two of them just blurted out what they wanted to say to each other.

Leonard’s eyes, which had been as hazy as the cloudy sky, gradually became clearer. Only then did he realize that the kiss and hug he had given her were not an illusion.

Leonard hugged Cordelia again. This time, Cordelia obediently entered his arms.

He stroked the back of her head ceaselessly and muttered incoherently.

“I thought you were dead. That day, when you disappeared with Nazabut. Everyone praised you as a great saint who saved the world, but… … . I wished this world would collapse.”

Instead of asking why, Cordelia buried her face in his chest. The sound of her heartbeat in her ears was irregular.

“I felt guilty for living and breathing because it seemed like you protected the air, water, and even the clouds I breathe with your sacrifice… .”

“… … .”

“I thought I would die, but I couldn’t die because I wasn’t sure what happened to you.”

“Don’t say that. I made that decision because I wanted you to live, Master.”

Cordelia lifted her face from his chest and looked up at his thin chin. Leonard stared at her with a distorted face, neither smiling nor crying. Then he slowly raised his hand and stroked her cheek.

“Next time, kill me and go.”

“What is that… …”

“I can’t do it twice. I just can’t stand it. I thought I was strong, but I wasn’t. When I tried to breathe in a world without you, I struggled over and over again, not knowing how I could breathe… …”

Cordelia realized then that Leonard had been deeply hurt by her ‘decision’. She

had always thought it would be okay because he was a strong, tall tree. However, even if the wound healed with time, the scar would haunt him for the rest of his life.

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry.”

She put her arms around Leonard’s back and hugged him tightly, asking for forgiveness. There was nothing she could do but say that.

On the contrary, if he had made the same decision as her, Cordelia would have felt the same way. It was just an excuse, but at the time, she was so caught up in the thought of stopping Nazabut that she had no time to think about what would be left behind after she left.

“I was born and grew up without any shortcomings. Thanks to that, I easily got what I wanted, and I was smart enough to do what I wanted without any obstacles. The only difficulty in my life was Maximilian trying to kill me, and even that was funny to me.”

He lowered his head and kissed Cordelia’s forehead and the bridge of her nose lightly, like a butterfly landing on them.

“But you are the exception. You are so difficult. I don’t know how to deal with you. I love you, but sometimes that scares me.”

“Leonard.”

Cordelia, who saw the traces of pain stained in his purple eyes, realized that she couldn’t end it with just a few words of apology.

“You may not believe this, but I will not leave you first. I will stay by your side until your hair turns white and you become a grandmother, and when you die, I will come to your grave with your grandchildren after the funeral and say hello.”

“Am I going to die first?”

Leonard smiled for the first time at Cordelia’s words. It was a faint smile, but it was enough. Cordelia held his arm tightly and said firmly.

“I will not make you suffer like that twice. I promise. I put everything I have on the line.”

“… … .”

“I will study magic harder so that no one can harm me, and I will always be careful about what I eat and exercise hard so that I will not get sick.”

“… … .”

“I will never leave your side for the rest of my life, so can you trust me just this once?”

Leonard did not say anything. Silence flowed between them.

It took a long time for the hot tea to cool before Leonard opened his mouth.

“What if the same thing happens again? If your sacrifice is said to save everyone, what will you choose then?”

“I did it once, so shouldn’t someone else be able to save the world next time?”

Cordelia said with her eyes wide open as if she had been waiting. Leonard tapped her forehead.

“Easy for you to say. If people cry and cling to you like this, aren’t you just going to pretend not to win again?”

“No. In fact, the reason I didn’t stop my magic even when I knew I would be sealed with Nazabut… … . was because I wanted to prove my usefulness.”

Cordelia brought out her true feelings that she had kept hidden deep inside. She didn’t want to show her embarrassing feelings to anyone, but she could be honest in front of Leonard.