If You Raise Three Idols Well, They Will Confess Their Love - Chapter 146



146 – I Will Leave It as a Memory

Episode 146

“Have you not already heard?”

Jin Yeo-reum said, shivering slightly in the cold rain.

“I guess I’m the person whose name is called the most in Korea right now? A doping woman, an indulgent businessman, a case against youth support policy, the shame of the Korea-Japan War, the main culprit in the decline of national prestige, the third generation of corrupt tycoons. … There are a lot of names called it. After all, it’s all true.”

Sun Taeyang wiped away her tears without saying a word.

Jin Yeo-reum couldn’t stop the touch and continued speaking.

“I am that kind of person. The worst bomb and the public’s disfavor. Are you saying you want me to become an idol? Are you saying this is going to improve my image? There’s no way something like that is possible!”

“…”

“I feel so foolish about the time I spent volunteering at an orphanage. Did you think you could forgive your sins with just that little? I am? … 10 years? 20 years? Ha, even for 50 years, that’s impossible. “I will forever be unlikable, and that won’t change no matter what I do.”

Why did she do rhythmic gymnastics?

Why was she not satisfied with her amateur position and turned to her professional career?

Why does she represent Jin Gang’s name

?

… Why is she Jin Summer?

I don’t know. But she knew it was already too late.

“So, Team Leader Sun. Stop wasting time.”

Seon Taeyang spoke to Jin Yeoreum.

“I want to become an idol with Yeoreum. In that mind, other conditions don’t matter at all.”

“…”

Is Sun Taeyang feeling it?

The tears that seemed like drops were now falling as if they were flowing.

I think you probably know. Because she was no one else but she herself was wiping away her tears.

Jin Yeo-reum said as she gently closed her eyes and felt the touch.

“It’s raining right now, is there any point in wiping my eyes?”

“Even if it falls in the rain, tears must be wiped away.”

“Why?”

Sun Taeyang responded to her question with a very kind smile.

“The memories of crying alone are all memories of loneliness. But the memory of someone wiping away my tears will be remembered as a memory.”

Jin Summer opened her eyes and looked at the man in front of her.

“Mr. Summer is a strong person. However, it seems like she has such a strong heart that she wants to bear even her own weaknesses alone. Like now.”

“… I’m not strong. “He is a very weak person.”

“Are you Summer trying to overcome all the resentment in the world by yourself?”

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“I can’t get over it. … I just hunker down and accept it.”

“You are a strong person because you can say that.”

A man whose eyes only focus on himself even when his entire body gets wet from the rain.

“But. I think it’s okay to not be strong.”

“So?”

“Wouldn’t it be nice to cry a little, cause a bit of trouble, and complain too sensitively?”

“… That’s a really annoying person.”

He laughed again at her words and said.

“It’s just like me.”

“…”

“If you rely on troublesome people in a cumbersome and messy way, sadness can easily change.”

“… “With what?”

“Joy.”

The rain continued to fall. Her whole body was cold, and her fear and depression made her heart colder than her body. But from the moment that man appeared, she seemed to be getting warmer.

“Yeoreum, let’s try being an idol together.”

“…”

“I can’t say for sure that a moment like this will never come again. It will hurt. But at that moment, I will definitely wipe away your tears. When I remember it later, even that will remain as a memory.”

“… Ah.”

In order for her to be by someone’s side, she has to hurt that person.

So it would be appropriate for her to be the person next to her who she hates.

Or a person who has no interest whatsoever.

It might have been possible for her to imply that Sun Taeyang was that kind of person and follow her as if she was crazy.

However, Jin Yeoreum clearly recognized that it had become impossible.

Because now, from this moment on, I don’t want to hurt that person more than anyone else.

“Team Leader Seon.”

So the choice became clear.

“Yes, Summer.”

Getting away from Sun Taeyang.

“It’s a refusal.”

That was the only way to truly care for him.

“… “I never want to be an idol or something.”

***

A year has passed.

She did not leave this university and stayed.

So she wrote a letter to the sun to make it feel as bright as possible.

-Hello. Team leader Sun. It’s deep summer. It’s been a long time since I last greeted you.

-One year is enough time to call it a long time, right?

The circumstances surrounding her did not improve as miraculously as she did.

The misunderstanding did not resolve itself, but instead became more serious.

The gaze that approached her like a thorn and the words that rotted her heart like poison burrowed into her heart.

Because it was a small community and we had to meet each other unavoidably, there was no way to avoid it.

She was so isolated.

-Everyone here calls me ‘Jin’ or ‘Summer.’ I think the name Summer is quite difficult to pronounce for foreign friends. Still, I don’t feel bad. On the contrary, I am glad to see it. This means that no one here recognizes Jin Yeo-reo, a doping criminal.

-Although controversy erupted, foreign friends naturally don’t seem to be very interested in the news that there is a drug addict in a small country in the East.

No. The news that a foreign girl who was taking the same class as she was a celebrity that dominated main portal news in one country was an issue that would arouse great interest, even if it came from a far away country. Even if the content is negative.

-I sometimes see my Korean friends, but I don’t think they think I’m Jin Summer. Has her face changed that much since she was a child doing rhythmic gymnastics? Or is the perception that I will study here not keeping up? In any case, it is a welcome event.

-Ah… , The scene you saw last time was a small misunderstanding. After talking to the Korean community, the misunderstanding was resolved. Of course it wasn’t easy. But everything has improved now, so you don’t have to worry.

So she continued to write her lies.

As I wrote her letter, I remembered what her sun said to her a year ago.

The words that if you wipe away her tears, she can remember them as memories rather than loneliness, were words that still move her heart

Like those words, I hope that her memories of Sun Taeyang will also be felt differently through this letter.

It’s not that I let go of something dangerous, but that I let go for a happier path.

It seemed like a good idea to think of it that way.

So the letter continued to be filled with lies.

But not everything was a lie. There was also a drop of truth thrown in as if nothing had happened.

-I wanted to be an idol with Team Leader Seon, Winter, and Autumn. Sincerely.

“…”

A teardrop fell on the letter.

The hand writing the letter stopped.

‘… Actually, you shouldn’t use something like this. I’m not writing this to put Team Leader Seon’s mind at ease.’

Even if this letter was delivered to Sun Taeyang, it was unlikely to have a positive effect on him.

If it is revealed that the sender is Jin Yeoreum, it will only cause trouble for him.

I think Sun Tae-yang, the person involved, would also consider this to be something of a hassle.

Crunchy.

Nevertheless, the hand writing the letter moved again.

‘But please forgive me just a little bit. Because I will endure harder in the future. Because I will make you forget the name Jin Yeoreo silently and as if you were dead. … Please forgive me a little bit.’

This letter was not simply a letter reporting the current situation.

An impulse that could not hold back the sadness that overflowed like a slice.

Or a drop full of longing that comforts every day when tears well up.

And it was a love letter.

“… Black, black”

From a certain moment.

More and more.

As if digging into Sinab.

The mind has grown to the point where I can’t pretend not to know.

I liked Sun Taeyang.

Even that playful smile.

The wide back is also considered reassuring.

Even the hand that wipes away the tears.

Entire. And everyone.

-Reminiscing the memories of a midsummer night. Posted in mid-summer.

I wrote the last phrase in the letter.

It’s over.

She was born and gave up one more thing in her life that she had to give up one by one.

Maybe that’s the only story.

But this time, like always, I couldn’t accept it lightly.

Did they say that tears shed alone are loneliness?

It was true, based on what she felt now.

Therefore, knowing that this moment could not become a memory, she cried quietly alone.

And at that moment, her vision changed completely.

‘… Uh, where is it?’

It is a familiar structure and interior.

In an instant, Summer realized where this was. It was the hallway behind Jin River.

And there was an unforgettable man in front of me.

Jin Yeoreum repeated that name.

“Team Leader Seon?”

Is it a miracle wrought by something transcendent? Or has she truly gone crazy?

Objectively, it was the latter that was most likely.

You need to come to your senses and wake up. But even that was scary.

Because the fantasy that unfolded before my eyes was so sweet.

The sun spoke to her as she trembled in confusion.

“You said in a letter that you wanted to become an idol, right?”

… This may be a momentary dream, a fantasy.

“So I tried using some strength. Actually, I also wanted to be an idol with Yeoreum.”

But even if it was an illusion that would soon disappear, she wanted to get drunk on it.

So she hugged him.

She was so tight, like she couldn’t let go anymore.

And at that moment, Jin Yeoreum woke up.

***

Summer woke up in a dark hospital room and was in a cold sweat.

When I saw that, I hurriedly pushed her laptop her her her her, where she was editing her her document her her her, to her her her side her her her and said to her.

“You’re awake!” Summer. Are you feeling okay?”

Jin Yeo-reo’s eyes turned to me. Then her trembling body her calmed down.

Eventually, tears flowed from her eyes as she looked at me blankly.

The world looked sad.

… No, what on earth did you dream about?