If You Raise Three Idols Well, They Will Confess Their Love - Chapter 184



184 – Farewell

Episode 184

I was not a great person.

An ordinary person who struggles somehow, using luck and coincidence as his weapons

It was nothing more or less than that.

There were countless proofs in front of me.

“People look at me and say, Words like genius and celebrity. And then I tell them to go up on stage with that word in front of them.”

Even on that stage, all I could do was do my best in the hope of not being a burden to the children.

“People recognize me. Manager Sun Taeyang appeared as a guest on Star Challenge. Composer of ‘Albatross’, duet vocalist of ‘the duty of singing’. Porter of ‘Girls in Road’, in charge of viewership ratings of ‘First Person Observer’. … Well, there are a lot.”

Yes, I know that there are thousands of people who are longing for this opportunity.

From the beginning, I also provided mental education to children who had these concerns.

You are a professional and what you need to do is to approach all schedules with a professional attitude.

But in the end it looked like this. I was not the subject of such admonitions.

“I’m not tired. I’m not trying to complain about not having enough sleep because I have a lot of work to do. If work was simply necessary, I could get through the days when I only slept 3 hours a day and chewed several packs of sleepy gum a day. … But now I’m so afraid of making mistakes and being disappointed. Something like this… Ah.”

I realized something while I was talking.

That means the person in front of you is Seo Eun-byeol.

Seo Eun-byeol is a person who has devoted her entire life to meeting her mother’s blind expectations, enduring them in order to meet them. In the end, telling such a person about these concerns was no different from complaining to them to lick their wounds or to empathize with them.

Perhaps, what Seo Eun-byeol will say has been decided.

So did I. She struggled to overcome. But she was able to endure it with the help of those around her. If it’s okay, I’ll be the person around him.

Those words.

That’s what the Seo Eun-byeol I know would say.

After thinking about that, I apologized for my mistake and tried to stop the conversation.

Seo Eun-byeol’s words will be sweet. It will be fascinating and warm.

But no matter how weak I became, I didn’t want to fall into a state of begging for what I wanted to hear. That was the pride that remained in me.

At that time, Seo Eun-byeol spoke half a beat faster than I opened my mouth.

“Take it away.”

“…”

It was something I never expected Seo Eun-byeol to say.

“In the first place, is it normal to ask one manager to do everything from entertainment, composition, planning, general task distribution, care, interviews, AllTube appearances, sessions, featuring, etc.? Even for a small business, it’s too much, right?”

“No, it’s not that the company is strange, it’s that I said I would do it…”

“Even so, I have to stop him from the side. I’m just good at everything I touch, so do this, do that. Please do this. I’m so excited. What is it? Shit news mindset? A damn company?”

I protested, feeling a sense of responsibility for no reason.

“No, our company is different from those places. A place like that doesn’t compensate you properly for your work, right? Two Bears are different! “How much money do I get now?”

Bonuses, bonuses, appearance fees, copyright fees, etc. Is there anywhere in the world that will take care of everything on its own as long as there is some excuse? I was being treated undeservedly.

“No matter how much money you make, what does it mean if you leave early due to overwork? Are you going to go to the afterlife and get your old money?”

“…”

… That’s harsh.

“Take it away! Just take them all off!”

“If I act so irresponsibly, who will fill the void?”

“Why does Team Leader Seon care about that! “It’s up to the boss to take care of it!”

“… Uh? Is that so?”

Seo Eun-byeol said to me who she was momentarily worried.

“What did Team Leader Seon want to do?”

“… I am doing what I want to do now. Management was truly my dream.”

“I heard it was difficult. “I thought that way because it wasn’t necessarily the case.”

“…”

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Those words were particularly deeply embedded in my heart.

What did I want to do?

Why did you feel that the similarly busy early days of Two Bear and Flower Entertainment were worth enduring?

What have I done and what have I hoped for?

And what came to mind were certain scenes that were engraved in my heart and would remain forever.

A girl smiling more happily than anyone else while holding a ceremony with the exploding chat window next to the monitor behind her.

A girl singing a song that will steal hearts in front of thousands of people with just a guitar and her voice

A girl dancing on a crimson-filled stage to prove why she was the best.

And the sight of a girl acting with her whole heart for the first time in front of people who doubted her.

“… “I want to make it shine.”

“…”

“I want to make the children, who can shine brighter than anyone else, shine, not me.”

It’s not like going on a variety show and joking around with the celebrities who appear on it.

Rather than being interviewed while being revered as an up-and-coming composer.

Behind the children shining like stars, looking into the eyes of people captured by the light.

And adding a little light to that stardust. That was what I wanted to do.

When Seo Eun-byeol saw me saying that, she smiled slightly and said.

“Team Leader Seon is a manager.”

And I nodded.

“Yes, not a celebrity, not an artist, not a system. “I’m just a manager.”

“Then act like a manager. Don’t be swayed like you are now.”

“… Is that still okay? You will be disappointed.”

“Don’t be afraid to disappoint and be hated for it. If you hate someone for just that one thing, it means that your relationship is only at that level. And there is no need to work hard to be loved in such a relationship.”

Seo Eun-byeol did not rely on anyone and spoke with confidence.

“So, stand up proudly and alone like a rhinoceros horn.”

It was only now that I realized that.

What was in front of me now was not the Seo Eun-byeol I knew.

It wasn’t the Seo Eun-byeol I loved.

That’s right, the Seo Eun-byeol I know would never say something like that.

She is a frustrated woman who is dependent, lacks confidence, and only knows how to work hard.

A woman who suffered from loneliness a lot and wanted me to lean on her as much as she leaned on me.

Still, she was a lovely woman.

There is no such person anymore.

I said after saying goodbye in my heart.

“Is it okay if I speak more comfortably next time?”

Seo Eun-byul looked a little surprised when she saw me, then she held out her hand and said.

“Sure. But is it okay for me to do that too?”

I laughed softly at those words and held her hand. And I answered.

“Of course.”

To my new friend.

***

Sun Taeyang announced that he would return to work late, and Seo Eun-byul sighed as she touched the glass he had left behind at the table where she was alone.

“… By the way, I’m stupid too.”

Then, she rested her chin, lifted her glass, looked at the sloshing soju, and said something that no one could hear.

“Like a fool. It was the only chance anyone could seize. What advice is this when rushing in and trying to heal each other’s wounds isn’t enough? Did you think Team Leader Seon would ever show such weakness again?”

Seo Eun-byeol answered that question in her mind.

‘Probably not. Because he is a strong person.’

Then she smiled bitterly.

“Ah… , Don’t give up on idols. I’m really so jealous.”

Seo Eun-byeol cried as she envied the four Cinderellas who met the prince while she was left alone.

***

‘A composer is an artist. And the artist is the main character. Carving one’s own color into the world, proving that I am alive here, that is what a composer is.’

‘A composer is a person who deals with the system. And the system is history for receiving love. A conductor who extracts the best model answers from the system. That is what a composer is.’

Fuck you.

What I wanted to do, what I wanted to achieve with the tool called composition, was not that.

Neither James Oh nor Cheon Jong-hoon want to do what they want to do without expecting too much from others.

I’ll just do what I want.

I ripped and edited the sound source of ‘I’ll be by your side’, which had already been mastered.

The quality is 90 points or 100 points, so I’m not questioning that, but purely to make the children who sing this song shine.

“…”

And while I was struggling, I realized something. This song could not be completed like this.

The purpose could not be achieved with the tool or instrument called voice.

Because what I needed was not a tool for the song, but the main character.

As soon as I finished making that decision, I took my bag and got up.

To welcome my stars.

***

As I stood in front of the door of the Revolutionary Girls’ dormitory, I realized the reality.

… Now that I think about it, isn’t this just a nuisance?

It was a nuisance.

There was nothing else to call it other than a nuisance to call out children who were already well prepared after finishing their hard training and schedule.

But there was no time.

Considering the schedule, I have to persuade all employees tomorrow morning.

And it was impossible to change the direction of the album title with insufficient data.

Feeling deeply conflicted, I swallowed my saliva, made a firm decision, and rang the doorbell.

The electronic security system rang, there was a signal, and then a voice was heard.

-Who are you?

“Oh, yes, Yuri. Sorry for the late hour. “I’m the team leader.”

-Team leader Seon?

-Taeyang oppa?

-Is Teacher Taeyang here?

Yuri was the one who answered the call connected by the security system, but when I heard his voice, it seemed like other children had gathered next to him.

I brought up the business with the intention of speaking to the children all at once.

“Can I see your face for a moment? “I have a favor to ask.”

-… Just wait 5 minutes, no, 10 minutes.

After those words were finished, an urgent voice and a busy sound of ‘udang bangtang’ were heard over the security system.

-Oppa Taeyang is waiting for you beyond the door? Summer, mascara! Where was the mascara?

-There’s a new one under the cupboard, Gaeul, open it!

-Ugh, I can’t draw eyebrows, what should I do, Gaeul? .

-Come here and I will draw it for you.

-Yuri, what if I dress like this and go out?

– No, summer sister, are you crazy? You can see the underwear! Where is the person who had trouble wearing revealing clothes?

-It’s okay to show a little bit, but no, what you see is actually…

-Should I do it too…

-… Ah, then me too.

-Just quietly wear sweats, you girls!

“…”

… Guys. I can hear everything.