I’m not going to die - I’m not going to die chapter 73

73 – Corruption (5)

“Let go.”

I said so.

I don’t know why you’re holding my hand while crying.

I thought about how to get this hand off.

…that’s really odd.

The moment I tried to move to shake it off, I definitely hesitated.

For some reason, the feeling that I couldn’t shake her off stopped me from moving forward even a little.

When such hesitation was contained for a moment.

Changsung shouted like that.

“Catch someone!”

“Yes?!”

“That way we can stop it!”

…I don’t know what the hell the intention was, but Bessia heard Changsung’s words and immediately hugged me from behind.

Why do you do that?

With even Raeli clinging to me, I could never physically move my hand to sign the contract.

I couldn’t understand so I asked.

“Why are you blocking me?”

“Because you are trying to cross a line that shouldn’t be crossed.”

“Why did you think that?”

“It just felt that way.”

She wiped away the tears and held my hand tightly.

Bethia also helped.

“I know you’re immortal, Argal, and I understand what you’ve been hiding all this time, so stop, you’re weird.”

“therefore! It’s not the same as it used to be, it’s not Argal who was pure and strong!”

My whole body was still covered in blood, but I didn’t let go of me as it was all covered with blood.

Even though I couldn’t understand it, I couldn’t shake them off.

It would have been as simple as snapping a finger.

Even if you don’t know my hesitation.

In the end, the decision did not change.

Even if I see Changsung’s tears, even if I see your pleas.

After all, you don’t know me.

All of your thoughts are made up of illusions, misunderstandings, and delusions.

…will you still show the same reaction even after knowing my true identity?

Can you forgive that many sins? No, do you even have the right to forgive?

Still, I am bound by the past.

However, I had to fully accept the past.

Only then will my mind regain its integrity.

The more you get the feeling, the more you get it.

Because my collapse will be quicker.

No matter how persuasive they were, I felt useless.

If there’s one difference, it’s that she, Chang-sung, came out to sympathize with my heart.

I will acknowledge that effort.

Even with this spirit, the hand I reached out to you was full of hesitation.

“done.”

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Just-

When you snap your fingers, a strong demonic storm covers the surroundings.

Three girls fall off me, and I raise my hand again with a contract.

The content of the contract remains unchanged.

The shape of the Great Devil, visible only to me, was smiling strangely.

[Embrace your rest.]

[Is that your complete perfection?]

be complete

Like the Black Tower Master said, is madness my rest?

I couldn’t be unaware of my bizarrely changed behavior patterns.

This was madness, an overly familiar spirit.

Madness was not comfortable.

However, there was no anguish, no pain.

It became the strength to shake off deep thoughts and thoughts and only move forward.

It is both a curse and a blessing.

I came here because I had madness, and I solved everything with madness.

-Sureung.

What was aimed at the outstretched hand was an ink-colored spear.

Her spear was pointed sharply at me.

What on earth do you know, do you relentlessly run?

“Creation.”

“…is that a compliment?”

I involuntarily spit out her title.

Calling me Changsung at this point is, in a way, highly praised.

It is said that your talent is a talent that will reach the sky.

However, Changsung was still Changsung, both now and in the past.

said to her

“Back off, or you will die.”

“The Argals I know don’t talk like that.”

Changsung replied with a more broken face.

“Until now, I am not myself.”

I shake my head.

A life without madness is only a small part of my life.

“Now is the real me.”

“no!”

“There is no need to deny it.”

Changsung wasn’t the only one who drew a weapon against me.

Bessia and Raeli tried to block it together.

If emotions don’t work, even with force.

It has been dealt with so far.

But not now.

There was no need to hang out at play house anymore.

aaang!

Black magic poured down on them at a speed they couldn’t even react to.

Raeli endured, and Besiah blocked it with her holy power.

Can you stop it with your overflowing talent?

Besides, Raeli, she seemed to have grown a little more, even after a very short time had passed.

If these incidents hadn’t occurred in succession, wouldn’t he have reached the rank of Expert the second fastest after the Sword Saint?

It will be worth growing.

all of them

However, it was not necessary in my plan.

It was my intention to kill everyone in the city by myself to become a Transcendentalist, then annihilate the people in the capital and then gather demons to kill the demon king.

However, I saw something unexpected.

“Why didn’t you dodge?”

“Seeing this, don’t you feel anything?”

Changsung was bleeding.

Even though he was able to block it, Changsung, who was hit without blocking properly, was not seriously injured, but it was clear that he was seriously injured.

…it’s not that her methods have changed.

Still standing here with the determination to change my mind and stop me.

“…Do whatever you want.”

Are you trying to arouse sympathy with it?

Black magic shoots out again.

Stronger for Raeli and Vesiah, who blocked my attack.

And Changsung, who unconsciously got hit by my attack, flew a weak attack.

Raeli passed out without being able to block it this time, and Bessia endured, but her face was pale.

She somehow stood still, but as if she let go of her mind, her eyes weren’t focused.

And Changseong was attacked again this time.

More blood soaked her face.

“Even like this, can’t you feel it?”

“…stop.”

My black magic, which tried to attack the spear approaching me without collapsing, hesitated several times.

Why don’t you want to attack her?

Was it me who killed even younger children mercilessly?

Is this really the right thing to do?

In the midst of countless doubts, the madness that dominated my mind aimed its black magic at Changsung again with strong will.

Perong!

dump-

Changsung collapsed.

But more blood, more pain.

If you can’t give up, stand up again using the spear as support.

took a step

“I told you to stop.”

“thank god.”

Chang-seong, who came right in front of me, hugged me with his bloody body.

The smell of her blood made my head hurt.

“Like this, you’re hesitating.”

“…”

“That’s your heart, Argal.”

…is this my heart?

no.

Never.

Then why did I kill my family members without hesitation?

Why did you commit such a slaughter?

If I had been like this before, I had nothing to regret.

I wouldn’t have wanted to erase the past full of madness.

There is no such thing as taking on such a sin.

“no.”

“that’s right.”

“That means my heart, not my mind!”

perok-

pushed her away

Leaving her rolling on the floor with her eyes wide open, I held out my hand to the contract again.

His fingertips contained a large amount of demonic energy, and he tried to sign without hesitation in order to complete the contract.

“No! Please do not do that!”

“You don’t know about me!”

“Then tell me! Because you will listen, because you will understand, just like I told you, you just have to say it!”

I laughed out loud.

…after all, she is not the party.

It’s not the target that can’t forgive my sins.

It’s not like I killed Chang-Sung in the past, and the damage I’ve done to her is probably only a fraction of the many sins.

What’s the use of telling me

There is no remorse for those countless victims.

Even if it’s just my wildest thoughts.

Even the feelings that do not die completely are unable to forgive themselves.

The moment he reached out his hand again and was about to touch the contract.

Chii Ik-

I heard the sound of flesh ripening.

This was not a signed contract.

That’s just rubbing someone’s shoulder with magic.

There was an unexpected person in front of him.

“…brother?”

Endless tears flowed from his eyes.

How many of those tears run down your cheeks and wet your entire face.

Ardel’s words were too heavy.

“How much pain have you been through?”

Eventually he saw

My past, before regression, and a life full of sins.

The sin of killing all family members.

even look at it

“How painful it was.”

Tried to forgive me.

“How hard it was.”

“…Are you saying that after seeing everything?”

“Yeah, I saw them all. until the end of you.”

“Are you still going to forgive me?”

“Forgiveness?”

The older brother asked in a tone that he did not understand at all.

“Why do you need forgiveness, what you need is comfort.”

“Will you comfort me after seeing that?”

“really.”

“My older brother could be, because he has seen everything about me, and no one in my family has died! However, can Ardel from the past really do that?”

despite my refusal.

Even when he sees the sins of the past that he would be crushed to death if he carried them on his back.

Moved on.

while hugging me tight

“You’re back! little brother.”

“eww… .”

“So you’ve returned to your family after a difficult journey.”

“Ahh… .”

“You have a family to bear your pain. Argal.”

“…Even though I killed that family?”

“How can you rebuke me when I see your past? I resented you because I didn’t know the past me.”

Ardel smiled through the tears.

He was truly grateful.

Even if I committed such a sin, even if I killed all my family, even if I committed a terrible sin.

Because I came back from regression.

The fact that all my family can greet me with kindness.

he was grateful

“So thanks for coming back.”

“Ahhh… !”

My head hurts like it would break.

Emotions that even madness couldn’t overcome were fluctuating.

why do tears flow

why am i sad

Again, can’t you understand my actions in trying to walk down such a terrible path?

The madness that dominated his mind began to wash away.

my feelings.

A strong will not to repeat the past again.

It drove out the madness that followed like a curse.

It was only after I had sorted out my emotions and thoughts that I finally gained completeness.

I couldn’t find a way to fix the broken bowl.

I ended up relying on soldering as madness.

However, his consolation put the crumbling bowl back together.

After some time passed and I came to my senses, I looked at Changsung and the other girls and apologized.

…It seems like everyone passed out already, so I couldn’t hear anything except for the singing voice.

“…I was wrong.”

“it’s okay.”

Changsung smiled brightly.

Even though she was hurt like that, even through the pain, she was able to smile like that when I changed my mind.

“If I change your mind, that’s fine.”

“…had to be changed.”

What she originally wanted to change was her heart toward death.

She changed something more important.

Thanks to that, I came to my senses, but I had a few big problems.

I fell into madness for a while, and the aftermath was so great.

I can’t understand myself who planned to annihilate the city to become a transcendent.

Now you know the unexpected side effects of immortality.

The curse of madness did not disappear, but was reset due to regression.

It’s okay to die once or twice.

But if you die many times, today will repeat itself.

The moment you let out a sigh and shake your head.

dump-

My body collapsed right away.

The Great Devil’s goat mask appeared in front of me.

You seem a little angry

[Since the contract was not extended, I will take my life immediately.]

…There is one thing I forgot.

The Great Devil promised to take my life when the job was done.

It doesn’t matter.

Because my immortality will still be maintained.

The problem is, even if the people around me find out about my immortality, I wonder if they will wait for the extended time through the contract.

…Especially my older brother knows that after dying, he is resurrected a few hours later.

However, the time to respawn is delayed.

I should have said that and died, but the Great Devil took his life without giving me any time.

It’s a big deal.