Lord Of Dying Smoke - Chapter 185



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The King of Death Smoke Episode 185

Blood Audition (11)

Orphanages are still unwelcome today, but they used to be even more detestable.

First of all, the budget was insufficient.

Embezzlement was also common.

If the child had the courage to point it out, he would have been beaten with a laundry stick because he was a spoiled brat.

Therefore, the primitive beings had to survive on their own.

Wouldn’t it be strange that gangsters and thugs don’t arise naturally in such a primitive place of life?

This terrible chaotic era naturally disappeared as the IMF somehow passed and the budget, donations, and surveillance increased. In a recent survey of children who had left foster care, a huge gap occurred with the college enrollment rate (usually vocational colleges) exceeding 40%.

But of course, public perception did not change.

[So does that mean our kid hit first?!]

[It’s not just Yoona’s words. There’s also testimony. It’s said that he often verbally abused and harassed Yoona.]

[Stop talking nonsense! Is he the only orphan in this class?]

[Isn’t that evidence… .]

[What?! You told me to tell an adult every time, so that they wouldn’t call you another orphan?!]

[… … .]

When Kang Min first entered the orphanage, he naturally became the oldest.

It wasn’t that the facility was being run like a mess, but that the government was screwing up as they always do.

The good intention of separating the generations because the older ones kept bullying the younger ones went awry, but somehow it ended up creating a strange daycare center where only the kids are left.

[Phew…]

Of course, Kang Min was not responsible for anything.

But, except for the very busy supervisors, there was nothing else that could be discussed on an equal footing with the ‘adults’.

Kang Min, despite his headaches, stuck his face into the accidents and incidents that occurred almost every day.

But every time I saw the kids, I would always preach to them, so they would start to dislike me.

Seobom thought it was foolish.

-Please, Bom! ‘My mom and dad are trash, so I guess my head is also trash’ is not a reason to get a 12 in math! This is just you messing up your studies! Quick, let’s try again!

-Oh my goodness, Spring! When someone asks about your parents, you should ask them about them too! Your parents worked hard to make money for your family, so why are you uglier and more stupid than me? Why did you start with your fists when you could have just said that your parents, who failed at the lottery, are pitiful!

-I believe in spring. I said I wouldn’t do it anymore.

-Where the hell is this little punk talking nonsense! I thought he’d just keep quiet if I apologized, but I’m afraid someone might call me an orphan!

– Bring proof when you find my parents in a dignified manner, proof. I repeat, Bomi didn’t do it. Because she said she wouldn’t.

-This, this kid…!

Really, I thought it was pathetic.

‘… … .’

So, it was okay.

If I die in a way that helps such a person,

It must have some value to me, who was born unable to understand such people, and whose supervisors muttered the difficult term “antisocial personality disorder.”

* * *

Seobom knew that suicide was often the last resort for the weak.

If you take your life because you are so wronged, so angry, so unbearable, if that becomes known to the world, public opinion will turn around.

oh my god….

Why must it have been like that?

What did the perpetrator say?

He refused the interview and ran away.

아주 개새끼구만!

What are the police doing? They should be arrested and taken into custody immediately!

Anyway, they’re all rotten…

Of course, the effect is not permanent. There are countless things that happen in the world every day, and most of them are soon forgotten.

That’s why you need a plan.

Plan to spread the aftermath as widely as possible.

Seobom polished it.

‘The method is, of course, jumping from the school rooftop.’

It’s the best way.

All the hundreds of people taking the class are witnesses. Even if you try to ask, you can’t.

Above all, Seo Bom’s status and tragedy as a student are emphasized.

‘The reason is, bullying, harassment, and false accusations against children in school facilities.’

You have to leave behind several clues.

In particular, it would be a good idea to write a new diary.

At first, I thought I could just imitate the kind and gentle child that the world considers ideal, with elegant handwriting. I want to grow up quickly. I want to help children like me when I grow up. I thank the Lord for everything I have, but is it the same nonsense?

But as time goes by, the handwriting gradually becomes shaky, and the owner of the diary expresses his suffering. At the end, he should at least leave behind something like, “I guess I shouldn’t have been born.”

I’m serious about this.

‘And, above all, actual damage cases.’

I have to get bullied at school.

This wasn’t a difficult task, since for some reason the children often showed serious hostility towards Seobom.

What did they say? “You’re unlucky.”

If it can be used, it’s a good thing.

‘Three months should be enough.’

In the yard of the daycare center, Seo Bom looked at Kang Min, who was holding onto a boy and lecturing him as usual.

In three months, I won’t have to see that pathetic face anymore.

* * *

The start of the plan wasn’t bad.

Strangely enough, Seo-bom’s classmates got angry and beat her up just for asking her, “Why are you guys jealous of me?”

It was a strange thing, but Seobom was satisfied.

The level of bullying itself was subtle, but since they were all not skilled, they may not have been able to do anything about it.

* * *

A month has passed.

The plan went smoothly.

The classmates who had simply bullied Seobom out of anger seemed to have gradually realized that violence and the sense of superiority that came from bullying others brought her pleasure.

Pouring dirty water into a mop may seem a bit too old-fashioned, but I guess I can’t complain.

Let’s hope it gets more novel.

* * *

45 days have passed.

The plan went smoothly.

My classmates, who used to bully me like monkeys, have now succeeded in approaching bullying that is somewhat similar to human behavior, such as tearing up textbooks or touching shoes. This should be enough evidence.

Half of the children are singing, so I hope they will join in quickly. As more people join in, won’t the response grow?

* * *

50 days have passed.

The plan went smoothly.

Finally, some people other than the Fatmals began to join in the bullying of Seobom.

I think I might add a new plan.

* * *

60 days have passed.

Today, even the class president, who had his eyes tightly shut, joined in, trembling.

The whole class agreed.

I feel happy.

* * *

65 days have passed.

As planned, the homeroom teacher refused to help Seobom.

As I tried to act shocked, she threw the book down and screamed hysterically. You’re not the problem! It’s your fault for not getting along with all the kids! You can’t expect me to be your mom and dad! Get it right!

I recorded everything.

It was perfect.

* * *

70 days have passed.

The diary is finally complete.

I didn’t like the last seven unfinished pieces, so I went into the file room and shredded them. I felt bad about the last one, but the paper from the diary I received as a donation felt really luxurious, so I ended up shredding them together. Isn’t the background important?

I pretended to help prepare dinner and brought some onions to wipe away the tears.

I don’t think any of us are weird enough to care about the tear stains in our diaries, but hey, wouldn’t you rather have perfection?

* * *

75 days have passed.

Everything is going smoothly.

Now all we have to do is wait for the decision date.

* * *

90 days have passed.

… a problem arose.

* * *

100th day.

When I came to, Seobom was on my back.

It was moving while being carried.

My head was dizzy.

I tried to remain quiet and recall my memories.

What went wrong? Where did I start my mistake─

Perhaps, that was all.

‘… … .’

Even though it was the day of the event, it wasn’t easy to jump.

Although the fear of human death is simply the activation of the amygdala due to the influence of the prefrontal cortex, Seobom could not overcome that brain function.

My classmates were dumber than I thought.

While Seo-bom spent several days bewildered by the mistake she had made, they were furious – or perhaps scared – at Seo-bom for starting a ‘rebellion’ and used more violence than usual to the point of leaving scars.

and,

While Seobom was weakly worrying, Kangmin noticed the whole situation.

‘ah.’

My vision cleared up.

Seobom realized that she was being carried on Kangmin’s back.

His back was covered in bruises.

It was because we fought.

The most upright person Seobom knows, who has never committed violence as far as she knows,

It was because I did it for people like Seo Bom.

The boys flew away, spewing blood, and the girls screamed. Seobom just watched blankly.

Seobom was watching the most upright person she knew push her life into the gutter.

[Are you awake?]

[ah….]

[Spring?]

[sorry….]

[Seo Bom?]

[I’m sorry… I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry… .]

[… … .]

It was the worst.

It was terrible.

The work I did to find the value of being born, the work I did to not cause trouble to anyone, ended up causing trouble again.

The supervisors were right. I wasn’t normal.

My way of thinking was distorted, I was not normal, I was a person who produced troublesome results no matter what I did, and I was a person whose premises and conclusions were all distorted.

He was a creepy person who was so calm even after breaking the head of another child. He was a person who didn’t even know why it was wrong.

That was the only truth.

[sorry….]

Seobom apologized.

He apologized while crying.

There was nothing else that could be done.

[… … .]

Kangmin thought about something for a moment.

Seobom has no way of knowing what exactly he was thinking at that time.

Anyway, after a while, he said this.

[Spring.]

[I’m sorry─]

[Don’t you want to try acting?]

[……yes?]

Seobom blinked.

Tears welled up in my eyes. It was such a ridiculous statement.

But Kang Min continued speaking calmly.

[No, I’ve been thinking about it for the past few months. Spring is about you pretending to understand common sense and people’s thoughts.]

[yes….]

[If you think about it, isn’t that an area of ​​really outstanding acting ability?]

[… … .]

Kang Min turned his head.

Their eyes met. Seobom realized that he was being sincere.

And that made it even more absurd.

[I don’t know what a person is, this is actually the main concern of actors. I don’t know what it is, but I have to become it. The famous actor Hong Ji-ho said the same thing.]

[…I don’t know who it is.]

[Well, then the more famous ones… Lee Seol or Lee Do-na… .]

[… … .]

[I don’t know, I see.]

“Well,” Kangmin said, scratching his head.

Then he shrugged his shoulders and muttered, “Then let’s say it’s Kangmin’s words.”

[Spring, you might be a bit of a special person.]

[Professor Jeong Yun-seong said I was a sociopath.]

[That’s because that’s the way he is. That’s how he sees the whole world. How can you ask a nine-year-old to carry a child?]

[…I am.]

[Hmm, I guess I’ll get in trouble since I’m late anyway, so I guess I’ll take a different route.]

Kang Min moved forward without listening to Seo Bom’s words.

We climbed up for a while, passing through a deserted mountain park built slanted on a hill. Seobom asked me to get off, but I didn’t listen.

Kangmin, who had been groaning as he climbed up, soon put Seobom down on a small hill.

I looked up at the sky but it was covered with clouds so I couldn’t see anything.

[Why, why here…]

[It’s a mess. I thought it was half and half since the rain stopped during the day.]

[yes…?]

But, on that day, unusually, the two sides matched up.

The clouds began to slowly clear.

Seobom blinked for a moment.

The evening after the rain.

Humid air.

Above, a sky with an unusually large number of stars spread out.

Kangmin smiled brightly at Seobom, who was momentarily overwhelmed.

[How is it? Is it worth watching?]

[… Did you come all the way here to see this?]

[Isn’t it cool?]

[That’s true, but… what is it, it’s not cost-effective.]

[Okay then.]

[yes?]

[If you think that’s cool, whether it’s cost-effective or whatever, you have the potential to be a top actor.]

[I really don’t know what you’re talking about…]

Seobom looked at Kangmin with the intention of complaining again.

And then, in that moment, the words just disappeared.

[Let’s try, Bom.]

[… … .]

[I will make sure you never regret it.]

Yes, there were countless stars in the sky.

But the two stars twinkling before my eyes were brighter than that.

Seobom was the only one.

I was the only human who could see it.

‘ah.’

Suddenly,

She thought she knew a little bit about the meaning of her birth.

* * *

“… … .”

“… … .”

“… … .”

Even after the audition stage ended, the audience was enveloped in silence.

It was the same in the waiting room, the judges’ table, and even the few who were just looking for something to nitpick.

It was such an overwhelming torrent of emotions.

Actress Seo Bom instantly silenced the audience with just ten minutes of acting.

‘I guess so.’

His counterpart, Judith Leroy, sighed inwardly.

‘This is real.’

It was a half-scam, if you will.

Seo Bom didn’t just bring out the made-up story and the made-up acting. She put Judith up as a screen and told her own story.

They say that when writers write an autobiography, their writing skills improve by leaps and bounds. The density of emotions that actress Seo Bom-jeong has been able to bring out after holding onto them for over ten years is truly incredible.

It was a scam, but no one pointed it out.

In fact, it would have been swallowed up without even knowing the whole story.

‘Even actor Lewis did that…’

Aislinn Lewis tried to keep her composure until the very end, but ended up tearing her hair out.

But that didn’t stop him. Even he himself couldn’t have shown anything worse than this.

The audience was all blank-faced. The talk of the “spanner woman” and the rumors about Seobom and Judith must have disappeared in an instant. Those who had been plotting the plot were probably just blinking in shock.

‘but….’

There was just one problem.

If it was small, it was a very small problem, and if it was big, it was a huge problem.

Judith shook her head and then turned away.

“Ugh…?”

Penelope Olsen was seen gaping at the judges. Well, it’s impossible not to notice an actress of that caliber.

In addition, a few people who knew about Kang Min and Seo Bom were seen gaping, making faces as if they had been hit, or blinking their eyes saying, “Huh?”

After finishing her performance, Seo Bom bit her lips and tried hard to avoid the judges’ gaze.

That’s right.

As an actor, there’s no way I wouldn’t know.

This was a kind of confession.

‘Mr. Kangmin, I’m sure you’ll accept it. I used to do that kind of thing.’

Judith took a long breath and looked at the judges’ table.

… I couldn’t help it, having experienced it so many times before.