My Ex-Wives Are Obsessed With Me - My Ex-Wives Are Obsessed With Me chapter 50
50 – What the hell am I doing?
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“Huh… Hmm…”
“Uh…Uh…?”
Seung-ah started to shed tears even before I could fully explain why I said I was sorry. Just by looking at her, I could feel how sad and painful she was.
Thinking about it again, I realized that my ‘I’m sorry’ might have sounded like a euphemism for rejection from her point of view.
‘I’m an idiot.’
No matter how confused I was, I spat out the words without even thinking about how the other person would take my words.
The closer you are to someone you have to be more careful with what you say, but perhaps because he is a comfortable and familiar person, he may have inadvertently concluded that it would be okay to treat him like this.
“That… I didn’t just say sorry to say no…”
“Then will you accept it…?”
It’s too dichotomous. She was so impatient now. But since she couldn’t even fathom the size of her heart, I was just determined to understand.
“First of all, I’m so confused, I hope you can understand the disorganized parts of the words.”
It is not simply a story of confession.
“For 17 years, I’ve lived just adjusting to my new life, but suddenly the wives I met in another world came to visit me. That alone made my head very complicated.”
I think anyone has no choice but to do that. I don’t know how many human beings have lived five lives, but if they all went through the same thing as me, wouldn’t their thoughts be complicated like mine?
“Why weren’t my coordinates set in another world? Why did I become recognized after 17 years? I said that I would definitely lose my emotions, but why did they come looking for me? Questions like that. They bit my tail and made my head dizzy.”
Who created this situation? How did the situation that can only feel contrived come about? How much did you love me, what kind of feelings did you have, why did you abandon everything and come to me?
To be honest, if the world I was in was a very dangerous place, if it were a world where safety could not be guaranteed even if I was in it, they would have died right away after losing their powers.
But you took all that risk and came to see me. Even if he died because of this choice, he tore the dimensional door with only one desire to meet me.
It was too heavy. The weight of the feelings they have for me.
I was so angry. To myself, who has no feelings for them.
I was so scared. I thought that I might not be able to get all my feelings back even after time.
I was so afraid. I was terribly afraid of myself in the future, who might not be able to give back as much as I received from them.
I felt burdened by the girls who devoted their unconditional love and unconditional devotion to me, and I masturbated that I couldn’t help but keep a little distance and worry over and over again.
“Besides, seeing Wang Wei who turned into a giant yesterday, thinking that the people around him could be in danger made my head hurt even more.”
But in this situation, the existence that might be targeting me and my surroundings was revealed. The weak me because I was lazy, the wives who became weak to meet me, and the friends who haven’t finished growing yet.
I don’t know if it was aimed at us for sure, but there was an existence around me that could change the scion of a 10th family into a heteromorphic one. That alone made things more complicated in my head.
Here’s a benefactor, and even the principal who mentions an existence from 100 years ago that resembles me. For the past 2 weeks, I have been through all sorts of things, as if I had lived a normal life without any accidents for 17 years.
In this situation, Seung-a set a fire in my confused head with her confession, so my thoughts were not well organized and my words came out in vain.
“Since these things happened over and over again, I couldn’t really think about what kind of feelings you might have for me.”
Perhaps, because of the new relationships, I may have neglected Seung-ah, who was closest to me. I never thought I’d notice anything until the kid couldn’t stand it and confessed and cut his lips.
“That’s why I said I’m sorry. I couldn’t properly think about how you felt, so I thought it was right to give you an answer after thinking more seriously than giving an answer right away.”
It was unreasonable to give an answer right away. There are so many thoughts that fill my head, and Seung-ah’s confession has been mixed with them, so I can’t answer properly.
“…I’m even more sorry. I confessed right away because I was in a hurry without thinking about your situation… I’m really, really sorry.”
She didn’t say it to get her apology from her, but something else went wrong with her.
‘I still don’t know.’
Even though she’s been married three times, I don’t know what a woman’s heart is. At this point, I could have become a veteran, but even with countless experiences, I am still a child.
“Don’t apologize. It all happened because of me, and you just said what you wanted to say, but it’s nothing to apologize for.”
I who didn’t reject Ha-yeon’s heart more euphemistically even though I knew her lifespan was only 30 years, I who couldn’t stop Estelle from invading me even though I had already driven a nail into another woman’s heart,
I, who had gone through it twice, maintained a close relationship with a woman and eventually gave Riella room, it was all my fault. She did nothing wrong
I was a fool who didn’t think that they might come and didn’t make any preparations. It was my fault that I was weak enough to not be able to block all variables.
All of this is my sinful karma, and it was a problem I had to deal with, so I didn’t want to pass the responsibility on to Seung-ah. Does it mean that a person’s lack of patience is a sin?
‘But saying it like this is another dilemma.’
If that’s the case, doesn’t that mean that I, who couldn’t hold back my feelings for them and got married, have no guilt? Whose fault did this situation happen?
If no one is at fault, why do we have to suffer and suffer? However, if she gets more confused here, Seung-ah might really feel it’s her fault.
I have to talk.
“Is it okay if I postpone the answer until I’ve sorted out the confusing situation a bit and can only worry about your heart?”
The answer I came up with was this. I can’t give an answer right now, so please wait a little while until I can give an answer. After hearing my words, Seung-ah opened her mouth.
“Bad guy…”
‘Ugh…’
I honestly have nothing to say. Since my heart is confused by the opposite s*x I just confessed to, is it a person to ask me to wait until it calms down? To be honest, even if I think about it, he’s a bastard.
“A fool and a pervert… A brute who can’t even say no and asks you to wait a little while he already has three women…”
‘I can’t refute it logically.’
All the modifiers she said meant me. I am a sinner. The kind of guy who can’t even push the heart of his childhood friend who likes me over his wives who came to visit me.
“But… Someone I really like.”
She raised her tiptoe and kissed me again with her kiss. Of course, it wasn’t a strong kiss like her previous one, but she was in tears as she touched her mouth after a short bud kiss.
“I really like you. You know now, right?”
“…Uh.”
If you don’t know even now, you’re a real corporal.
“I can’t stand it anymore. I won’t hide my feelings whether my wives are watching or not. Okay?”
“…Yes.”
For what reason can I say no to this?
“I’ll do my best to make you think that you like me even in the midst of your confusion… Don’t run away, okay?”
“…Yes.”
That was the look in their eyes when I first rejected their confession. Those eyes that will never give up. I didn’t expect to see these eyes four times.
That too, from different women.
‘What am I really doing?’
My face is a little better than average, my personality is not moderately bad, I don’t have enough wealth to be called rich, and I have abilities, but there are definitely people who are better than me.
But I don’t know why there are so many girls who declare that they will never give up and only like me. It’s because Ha-yeon and Estelle liked me even before that.
Maybe there is a charm in me that I don’t even know exists. Anyway, seeing that I found those eyes in Seung-ah, it might not be long before I get captured by Seung-ah.
It’s not someone I don’t like or don’t know, but someone I have a crush on, someone very close to me.
But then there was a knock on the door.
“It’s past 10 o’clock and it says that there are students who haven’t entered the dormitory yet. Could you open the door for me?”
This is the voice of Seol Ah-yeon, who brings me breakfast in the morning. Looking at the clock, it seems that the curfew has already passed, and after checking the information displayed on the terminal, it seems that he has come to my dormitory.
“Uh… What should I do…?”
‘How do I know that?’
I thought today’s incident was over, but there is still one more left.
This crazy world.