Producer with no Regrets - Chapter 419
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Episode 419
Everyone at Garo Enter knows the dream that Seongpil has. He has been talking about it over and over again since he first entered Garo Enter.
That dream was passed on to the members of the Girls’ League.
Now, of course, since a long time ago, the members have heard of Seongpil’s dream.
“Director Park.”
During her trainee days, Baek Seol-ha once asked herself this question.
It was a time when Seongpil still called Baek Seol-ha ‘Seol-ha-ssi.’
“Why… … do our thoughts have to be expressed through performance?”
“Have you already forgotten? That is… … .”
“Oh, no. I know. I remember everything Director Park told me… … .”
I read the entire plan that Seongpil wrote when he first came to Garo Enter.
Well, now that plan is being treated as a cultural heritage of Garo Enter.
Music should develop around artists, not businesses. Music contains the thoughts and emotions of humanity. The creators, the artists, should not be treated as commodities. What our idols should put into their music is their own dreams, thoughts, love, life, beauty, and so on… … .
There are a lot of stories like that written.
“There are also songs planned by other experts. Oh, so I think songs planned to suit us are also appealing… … So… … .”
A performance can be compelling even without composing the music or writing the lyrics.
The idols who have decorated the history of K-pop prove it. Sometimes, others can express themselves better than you.
“hmm.”
Seongpil pondered this question for quite some time.
“That… … exists.”
“yes?”
“Something that I thought of myself, so I can express it better.”
“Oh, yes.”
When Baek Seol-ha showed that she didn’t understand, Seong-pil smiled affectionately as usual and continued the story.
“Mr. Seol-ha. Science, philosophy, and sociology rationally seek truth and reality. Humans should be like this, like that. The reason for human existence, the grand order, and discourses are all within the human mind.”
In it, the individual tends to fade away.
“In contrast, art illuminates the human being that grand narratives miss. That’s what I think. Art elevates each individual human being who is buried in an order that makes them infinitely small.”
“… … .”
“Music is the same. When viewed from a cosmic perspective, from a global perspective, from a social perspective, from a national perspective, one human being is nothing. But you can’t just live thinking that way. Art allows us to discover the existence of a shabby country compared to the rest of the world… … .”
It was hard for Baek Seol-ha to follow Seong-pil’s story, so she just nodded.
“Love, me who is obsessed with one person. Me who is happy just talking to a friend. Me who gets irritated by trivial things. Me who is depressed. You make me feel valuable. Why?”
“……yes?”
“Why would that be?”
“Uh… … I agree… … .”
“Yes, I agree!”
Seongpil clapped his hands softly. Baekseol felt like a kindergartener, but he didn’t feel bad about getting the answer right.
“I think there are people like this in the world. I speak to them through song. For that one person who exists somewhere in the world and will respond to my song. Isn’t that wonderful? And like everyone else, I like people who speak to me sincerely, don’t I?”
Seongpil looked at Baek Seol-ha intently.
Snow White slowly avoided his gaze. I don’t know how she could look at someone so straight in the eye.
“Ms. Seol-ha.”
“yes…….”
“I want to hear Seol-ha’s worries. Seol-ha’s life. Seol-ha’s happiness. Seol-ha’s sadness. Seol-ha’s love. Seol-ha’s emotions. I want to know Seol-ha.”
“… … .”
Snow White closed her eyes tightly.
I held onto my senses as I recalled the embarrassing incident in the past when I misunderstood Seongpil’s words.
“Since Seol-ha is right in front of me, I’d rather listen to Seol-ha’s story than have someone else stand next to her and explain, ‘This is what Seol-ha is like.’ … .”
“Oh, I understand. You can stop now.”
It was a question I asked without much thought, but I got an unexpected answer.
Seongpil is always like this.
He uses a lot of literary rhetoric that would put others to shame.
‘Director Park must have dated more than 20 women… … .’
Otherwise, there’s no way the tongue would roll so well.
“Oh, it’s snowing, Seol-ha.”
Snow White turned her eyes to the wall.
I could see the snow falling through the glass wall on the first floor. It’s not even December yet, but it’s snowing.
“Global warming is severe, but… … .”
Baek Seol-ha, who had been joking, shut her mouth tightly.
Seongpil was looking at the eyes of heaven with eyes that were shining like a boy’s. He was chasing beauty in ecstasy.
Only then did Baekseol realize what kind of feelings Seongpil had in his story.
Seongpil loves a single snowflake falling from the sky more than the tower of logic built by humans or the universal order.
That’s the kind of person he is.
“Snow… … . Now that I think about it, Seol-ha’s name also has snow in it.”
“yes.”
“Oh no, we’re in trouble.”
“yes?”
“What if from now on, whenever I look at your eyes, I think of Seol-ha?”
Snow White opened her mouth slightly in amazement. She couldn’t get over this.
“Is that really what you were aiming for?”
“Look. The feeling between what you mean and what you say after calculating it is completely different, right?”
Baek Seol-ha became angry and scolded Seong-pil. Seong-pil laughed happily, wondering what was good about it.
Still, what Seongpil said seems right.
There is a clear difference between words that come from the heart and words that come from calculation.
“Director Park.”
“yes.”
“I’m following Director Park’s plan right now. I’ll try harder later.”
“What?”
“I will express myself as a human being to my fullest.”
Snow White will sing.
To speak kindly to someone somewhere in the world. Until that person feels like responding to his song.
Snow White… … .
* * *
“I’m so scared, I’m scared… … .”
Snow White covered her eyes with her hands and sobbed.
Her vision was completely black, but she could imagine Seongpil’s expression as if she were seeing it with her own two eyes.
Aren’t you in despair? If that word is too harsh, you could say you’re disappointed.
Because Baek Seol-ha knew Seong-pil’s dream and cherished it, she knew at that moment how much her words would hurt Seong-pil.
But I can’t help but do it.
“Our kids… … The Girls’ League needs to be more successful than it is now… … . They’re the ones who need to be… … .”
Rica.
Arabic.
White.
Beautiful.
Everyone should be much more famous and successful than they are now. Snow White didn’t dare to ruin that success.
“More, more, it can be better… … . If only I were gone, if only I could stop being so stubborn, it would be better. That’s how it should be… … .”
Baek Seol-ha sniffled and rubbed her eyes. She tried to look at Seong-pil with her red, swollen eyes. Her vision was blurred by the tears, so she couldn’t see what kind of expression he was making.
“That’s right… … . It’s obvious that the songs planned by Ji-eum oppa are better than mine… … . Our success guarantees Ji-eum oppa’s success. It’s guaranteed, but I, I, don’t have the right to ruin that just because I’m part of the Girls’ League, right… … .”
Snow White felt the empty space. It was to grab Seongpil’s hand.
I wanted to tell him this trembling, this fear. And I wanted to ask him. I wanted to plead.
Just let me see this once, please… … .
But no matter how much Snow White groped through the air, she couldn’t catch him. She rubbed her eyes again.
“so.”
Seongpil’s voice was heard through the blurred and blurry vision.
“You’re going to pass the responsibility to Ji-eum?”
Snow White was startled by that.
I didn’t feel any disappointment from Seongpil. On the contrary, he was extremely cold.
The blurred vision was washed away by the air, and Seongpil’s expression was revealed.
He was looking at Baek Seol-ha with pity. It was like the eyes of an adult looking at a child who had fallen while running.
“uh…….”
At that moment, Snow White felt angry from the inside of her stomach.
Seongpil sees himself as a child. But he is not a child. No, no… … .
I want to just leave everything like this.
It would be easier if I became a child. If I could just endure this shame… … .
“… … .”
Snow White lowered her head and took a deep breath. And soon, her mouth and tongue changed shape to pronounce the word ‘yes.’
Seongpil watched it.
* * *
Baek Seol-ha’s interpretation of the gaze looking at a child is wrong.
‘The star… … .’
I lament.
A star that only looks at the dirt covering its surface and cannot believe in the light latent within itself is lamenting.
Snow White cries.
It’s been the case before, but seeing the members sad makes my heart rip no matter how many times I see them.
‘I was mistaken… … .’
I felt that fact keenly.
Seongpil has been living in illusion until now.
At a drinking party with Jeong Ho-hwan a long time ago, he said this.
‘Director Park’s vision is great. It’s nostalgic. It’s like listening to stories of bands and pop stars that I used to like. Stories of legends who rose from the bottom of the local scene to the top with their friends.’
Jeong Ho-hwan said that Seongpil’s ideal was a story about American pop stars.
‘Becoming famous in the local scene, signing with a label, and making it to the majors. This is only possible in the US, where there is an infrastructure for numerous unique artists. … … But Korea can’t do that.’
At that time, Seongpil thought that Jeong Hohwan’s explanation was different from his thoughts. But thinking back, he had a reason to say that.
Sungpil really saw the members of Girls’ League as seeds similar to pop stars. There was plenty of room for Jung Ho-hwan to feel that way.
‘But, no.’
Did the Girls’ League members build their profile by performing at local small theaters?
Have you released your own compositions using your limited engineering skills?
Have you had many experiences like that?
Did you sign with the label because your creativity and star quality were recognized?
Not at all. The members have no connection to that kind of narrative. Idols are far from being autonomous artists from the start.
It’s like suddenly asking a student who has been memorizing college entrance exam questions to write a short essay on a specific topic.
‘It’s natural for Seol-ha to act like this. I put too much pressure on her. I was wrong… … .’
The members’ creativity was just beginning to take its first steps. But Sungpil ordered them and Baek Seol-ha to climb the stairs.
Even Seongpil couldn’t help it.
‘If you show me such a bright light, I can’t help but be blinded.’
Girls’ League debut. Comeback. HPT Music Awards. Japan New Asa Competition. Concert World Tour.
The Girls’ League was a group that had been building legendary performances at every moment. Sungpil could not possibly accept the fact that they were just toddlers.
He seemed like a completed artist.
‘but.’
Now it was one step.
Snow White said she was afraid. She said she couldn’t trust the path she had chosen. It was only one step until her trust was acknowledged.
The walk would take place inside the conference room with Seongpil and Baekseolha behind them.
“Seolhaya.”
Seongpil roughly grabbed Baekseolha’s wrist. She looked surprised, but she couldn’t stay surprised any longer.
“Director?”
“I’ll show you.”
Seongpil flung open the conference room door. Grabbing Baek Seol-ha’s wrist, he strode briskly to the innermost seat.
Only then did Seongpil let go of Baek Seol-ha’s wrist. Before she could even come to her senses, she was placed in front of a dozen people.
“Seo, Seol-ha… … .”
Son Hye-bin couldn’t speak properly when Baek Seol-ha’s eyes were swollen shut.
What on earth happened out there?
“Everyone, I’m really sorry.”
Seongpil had an apologetic look on his face, but he spoke without hesitation. It was as if this was absolutely necessary.
“Those of you who voted for ‘Apple Crush,’ could you please raise your hand? We’ll find out who voted for what later on in the discussion anyway. Me for now.”
Seongpil raised his hand.
Snow White was startled and grabbed Sungpil’s arm. As if begging him not to do it, she put her weight on Sungpil’s arm to lower it.
“No, don’t do that!”
‘Apple Crush’ and ‘Uparupa’ were the same.
And in Baek Seol-ha’s opinion, the ones who voted for ‘Apple Crush’ were Sung-pil and the members of the Girls’ League.
The only votes that Baek Seol-ha received were sympathy votes. Since it was a song that her beloved older sister had produced, she should have raised her hand. It was obvious that she voted with that kind of thought in mind.
Snow White didn’t want her miserable appearance to be revealed.
“Director, please!”
Of course, if you hold a meeting to select the title song, it will naturally become clear who chose which song as the title song.
But the number of votes won should not be revealed by a show of hands. That would be too embarrassing.
The only thing that Baek Seol-ha received for the song she poured her heart and soul into producing was sympathy.
If I were to see something like that… … .
‘……uh?’
Snow White wanted to rub her eyes. She couldn’t because she was hanging on to Seongpil’s head.
I couldn’t believe this situation.
“Me.”
The next person to raise his hand after Seongpil was Jeong Ji-eum.
Music producer of Garo Enter. The genius composer who hit 3 consecutive home runs chose ‘Apple Crush’.
Next, Jaeho Lee from the A&R team raised his hand. Then, two other A&R team members followed suit.
Including Seongpil, there are already five votes.
The main producer and music producer, who are like the heart of Garo Enter, are on the side of ‘Apple Crush’.
“Why, why… … .”
At that moment, Baek Seol-ha suddenly looked towards the Girls’ League.
Only Jang Ha-yang and Jo A-ra raised their hands. Jo A-ra’s flustered and bewildered appearance represented Baek Seol-ha’s feelings.
I thought they’d all do ‘Apple Crush’?
Snow White said with trembling lips.
“You, you guys, why… …?”
“Demo (but)!”
Rika shut her eyes tightly and shouted.
“Uparupa is kawai-mon (cute)! Isn’t she beautiful?!”
“ah…….”
Shin A-reum looked around and nodded her head appropriately.
“Uparupa is cute… … .”
Although she said she didn’t like girl group songs that were overtly cute, it seems that Shin A-reum couldn’t escape the cuteness of Uparupa.
Snow White thought that the entire Girls’ League would support her like an iron stone, but it wasn’t. It shouldn’t have been like this, but she felt betrayed.
I thought you were my colleagues!
“How long are you going to hang on?”
Baek Seol-ha suddenly came to her senses. She was hanging on Seong-pil’s arm like a sloth. But Seong-pil stubbornly did not let go of his arm.
“… … .”
Baek Seol-ha stood up on her own feet and regained her balance. Her expression was complex and subtle.
“You thought that only your siblings and I would vote for you…?”
Seongpil shook his head.
“If that’s how it was, then this place would have been ruined long ago. How much conflict and fighting did we have when we released our trilogy of albums?”
“Sir, why are you talking to me?”
“I’m giving you my vote because you’re my beloved older sister, because you’re a genius at cuteness. That won’t happen. Seol-ha, just as much as you want to succeed, the kids want you to succeed. Everyone in this company wants that.”
We are working hard for the success of the Girls’ League.
I don’t choose the title song based on my emotions.
“Trust me, the time and effort you put in. You only chose the best you could. You worked hard, losing sleep over the song. This is the result.”
Snow White achieved parity with Uparupa through her intuition and abilities.
Yes, the same number.
“Ha, but still… … .”
“What did you take a picture of?”
“… … .”
“Which one did Seol-ha choose?”
As I said before, it’s ‘Uparupa’.
“Were you serious?”
No it wasn’t.
Snow White chose ‘Uparupa’ as a means of evading responsibility. No, she couldn’t believe ‘Apple Crush’.
If the artist is the parent, the work is the child. However, it was impossible for Baekseolha to trust her child. Her own abilities were unclear.
The fact that other people like ‘Apple Crush’ is just because they were influenced by Seongpil’s dream. That’s what I thought… … .
“If you change your mind here.”
Instead of a whistle blowing between the two, the majority ‘Apple Crush’ is pushing ‘Uparupa’.
‘Apple Crush’ is bound to gain traction.
“In the end, ‘Apple Crush’ will beat ‘Uparupa’. What do you think, Seolha? Can you come back as ‘Uparupa’ and not regret it?”
If you can’t do what you love because you don’t believe in yourself.
“You will definitely regret it.”
Seongpil gently pushed Baekseolha’s back forward.
Baek Seol-ha took a few steps forward. She was met with a dozen pairs of eyes looking at her.
She bit her lip and bent down.
Finally, she revealed her true feelings that she had been hiding out of fear.
“I’m sorry, everyone. First of all, let me apologize. I, I took the ‘Uparupa’ picture because I wanted to avoid responsibility. I couldn’t trust myself. But, I know it’s shameless, but… … .”
There was moisture in Baekseolha’s voice.
“I’ll go back on what I said earlier. I’ll push ‘Apple Crush’ as the title song. No, I’ll definitely make it a success. It contains our own summer and love. It’s our love. We can express it the best. Please, me… … .”
Our producing.
“Please trust me.”
silence.
and.
clap.
Starting with the sound of the stop sign, the Girls’ League and other staff members began clapping. Soon, the conference room was filled with applause.
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