Raise Magical Girls and Leave Them With Eternal Regret - Raise Magical Girls and Leave Them With Eternal Regret chapter 58

58. It’s All My Fault?

“…Baiyu?”

Upon hearing Baiyu’s words, Wuyue was momentarily stunned. When she reacted and looked up at her, she saw Baiyu’s determined expression.

“Mm! Just tell me! Aren’t you two inconvenient to talk right now? Then let me convey it for you! No matter what, as long as the words are spoken, there will definitely be mutual understanding…”

“When the time comes, wanting to reconcile won’t be a problem at all!”

“But…”

“……”

Looking at Bai Yu’s determined expression, as if she had made up her mind to help her, Wu Yue was momentarily at a loss for words.

Those words, those matters, she didn’t know whether she should say them out loud.

Clearly, everything… was her own doing, her own fault. If she were to say those words now, it would truly be…

Truly be…

“……”

“Then, I’ll say it.”

After hesitating for a long time, Wu Yue finally made her decision.

If she didn’t clarify her true situation now, then perhaps she would never have the chance again.

“Let the relationship with You Yu remain cold like this,” she had already mentally prepared for this, but she still wanted to avoid it.

So, here, she would say what she truly wanted to say.

No matter whether You Yu would accept it after knowing her situation, no matter whether the final outcome would be failure or success.

At least by saying it, she wouldn’t have any more thoughts lingering in her heart.

But before that…

“I’m sorry, Bai Yu.”

As she spoke, Wu Yue gently hugged Bai Yu for a moment and then withdrew, a look of guilt on her face.

“……Why are you saying sorry to me?”

Wu Yue’s actions left Bai Yu somewhat confused. Was there anything that Wu Yue had to apologize to her for? Why say sorry?

It felt… a bit strange?

“……Because, what I’m about to say might have a part… that concerns you, Bai Yu.”

“Those words… I know myself that they might hurt you.”

“……So, I want to say I’m sorry to you.”

Wu Yue straightforwardly stated her reasons for the apology.

“……”

After hearing this, Bai Yu fell silent for a moment, then shook her head and said:

“No… it’s fine, I don’t think you would say anything that would hurt me, just go ahead and say it.”

Is she trying to vent her emotions towards her? Or something like that? It should just be that, right? It doesn’t matter; she was already mentally prepared.

Moreover… she had treated her and You Yu the same way before, so if it was just this much, she could consider it even and wouldn’t hold it against her.

“……Well, then I’ll say it.”

After hearing Bai Yu’s response, Wu Yue nodded and slowly said:

“Actually… the reason why I ended up arguing with You Yu over this matter is all because of that… strange emotion inside me.”

“Before, I wasn’t clear about what this strange emotion was, but after realizing it, I… didn’t dare to admit it.”

At this point, Wu Yue glanced at Bai Yu, who was frowning as if deep in thought, and then sighed.

After taking a sip of water, she continued:

“That strange emotion… only appeared when you first showed up.”

“At that time, I hadn’t realized what that emotion was.”

“……Is it related to me?”

“Yeah… it was at the time when I first met you! We had a huge argument, I was very angry, and then I went back and told You Yu about our fight.”

“And then…”

As she spoke, Wu Yue’s voice lowered a bit.

“And then, when You Yu found out that I had argued with you, he asked me—”

“How to change the you from that time?”

“What he meant was, how to get you to join.”

“……”

“When I heard him ask me this question, that strange emotion inside me erupted for the first time.”

“I questioned him, why should he change you, Bai Yu? Isn’t it unnecessary? Why look for a second magical girl? Isn’t having me enough?”

“……At that time, because of that strange emotion, I completely lost control of myself, just like this conflict.”

“Later, if the conflict hadn’t been so intense at that time, I wouldn’t have been able to calm down…”

“……”

Listening to Wu Yue’s words up to this point, for some reason, Bai Yu felt a vague sense of unease in her heart.

But… in order to resolve the conflict between Wu Yue and You Yu, she chose to keep listening.

“I originally thought that it was just because You Yu didn’t care about me, but instead cared about a vague stranger, which made me angry.”

“But… what happened afterward told me that it wasn’t like that…”

As she spoke, Wu Yue turned to meet Bai Yu’s seemingly resolute eyes.

“Because… the reason I was angry might not have been because of that at all.”

“……”

“Bai Yu, do you know?”

“Ever since I truly became companions with You Yu and you, I’ve been very happy, because I gained a magical girl companion I could trust and fight alongside, and You Yu doesn’t have to worry so much about my safety anymore.”

“However…”

After taking a deep breath, Wuyue decided to voice her most core question here.

“It’s clearly the first time… to have someone I like, to have magical girl companions to fight alongside.”

“Yet I don’t understand why, afterwards, I’ve never been able to feel happy.”

“Every time I see him chatting with you, every time I see him laughing with you, talking about things I don’t understand at all…”

“It’s just the two of you laughing there… while I can only watch from a distance.”

“I’ve always wondered why my heart… feels so blocked?”

“Why do I always have this feeling of wanting to ‘steal’ Yuyu away?”

“At that time, I didn’t understand… I was still enduring, preventing myself from doing such things.”

“But no matter how much I wanted to endure that strange emotion…”

“I still couldn’t do it.”

“…”

“So, last week, I made that request to Yuyu, hoping he would give me the answer I wanted.”

“He… didn’t give me the answer I was looking for.”

As she spoke, Wuyue let out a self-deprecating laugh.

“At that moment… when I heard his response, the emotion inside me finally couldn’t be suppressed… it burst out.”

“So, I told Yuyu… to ‘protect’ you, I would keep you locked in ‘home’ for a lifetime. After he rejected me again, I even… thought of using my magical girl powers.”

After saying this, Wuyue fell silent for a long time, and Baiyu also remained quiet, holding her silence.

Finally, Wuyue continued:

“So… after experiencing this incident, even if I don’t want to admit it, I must come to terms with…”

“That emotion is jealousy.”

“I am jealous of you, who can laugh heartily with Yuyu.”

Is that why I did such things?

Baiyu’s mood plummeted to the depths.

So, it turns out that the reason they ended up like this…

“Everything… is my fault?”

Baiyu murmured, trembling.

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